The Beautiful Him 2: The Hateful Him

There is a tendency to pretend to be indifferent when reporting bad news.When the company confirmed the itinerary, the agent spoke softly, as if he just remembered it.

[Oh, yes.Qingju. 】

The leisurely and redundant tone gives people an ominous premonition.

【About Mr. Oba's previous case...】

Hearing this, one could already guess what he was going to say later.

[It is said that you are not suitable for the image of this role. 】

I knew it.Even though I have been to watch the show many times before, and I also inquired about the opportunity to participate in the next work through the agent, but still---this is the second time that I have been rejected by the same director.

[It's not that I dislike Qingju, it's just that my age doesn't match---]

[Where is Mr. Ueda? 】

Qingju interrupted the manager's words of comfort, took out the drama magazine from the magazine rack, and searched for the screen director interview that he remembered.

【look.It is written here that next year's stage play wants to use new faces.Isn't it meant to find actors from outside the troupe?Please help arrange an opportunity for me to have a face-to-face meeting. 】

After finishing speaking, the manager's gaze turned to one of relief and admiration.

【Qingju has a very tenacious character.It feels very reliable, and it can be said that there is no need for others to bother. 】

Kiyoi ignored the manager who nodded and said so, and changed the posture of crossing his feet with a casual expression.To be honest, I was a little frustrated, after all, I was once again declared "I don't need you" by the director I longed for.Just like falling out of love, I was dumped twice.But Kiyoi hated showing her frustration.

【Why is Qingju so obsessed with stage plays? 】

The staff in charge of administrative work delivered iced coffee and asked...

[Is it harder than TV work?Most stage actors and directors are more temperamental, the rehearsal time is too long, and the performance fee is low.Isn't it easier to accumulate popularity by acting in TV series? 】

【maybe】

For a casual answer, tear the straw seal and place the straw in your iced coffee.

It's not that I hate TV shows.It's just that the stage performance can immediately receive a large number of eyes that contain the concentrated consciousness of "I'm watching a play", and the unique sense of tension and excitement makes Qingju particularly fond of it.It's not the same feeling as enjoyment, but a kind of excitement that is just a thin line away from fear or unpleasantness.

Qingju speculates that this mentality stems from his childhood environment.

I still remember it clearly.The song called "Homecoming" will definitely be played after school.The inexplicable melancholy melody disgusted Qingju.Deliberately make the listener feel lonely, so as to achieve the effect of driving people home as soon as possible.

Every time I hear that piece of music, I get annoyed and don't want to be fooled.Qingju will invite friends to stay on campus to play dodgeball or go to someone's house to play games and read comics to pass the time.But the time to go home will come.Every time after saying goodbye and turning around, Qingju inevitably felt resentful.

His parents divorced when Qingju was young.My mother found a job that required night shifts, so Qingju often spent the night alone.He hated unlocking the door alone, reheating a cold dinner in the microwave and eating it alone.Hearing the family noises of neighbors on both sides through the partition wall, I felt like a squashed ingredient in a sandwich.

Qingju is accompanied by TV every night.The reason why I watch variety shows most often is because I can hear loud laughter continuously.In order not to let myself fall into a lonely mood, in order to drive away the terrible ghost.

In the third grade of elementary school, with the remarriage of his mother, Qingju left the life of the key child.The stepfather has a gentle personality, and arranged his own room for Qingju on the second floor of the single-family house.Every day when I come home from school, my mother stays at home.Kiyoshi no longer needs a TV show.It is much happier to share what happened that day with your parents.

However, the days of Qingju's hegemony were not long.The mother and stepfather gave birth to younger siblings one after another, and turned to take care of them wholeheartedly.The body is small, the face is red, and the corners of the mouth are always drooling. The monkey-like baby has taken away Qingju's throne.Monopolized the love of parents.

-----Why are you ignoring me?

So Kiyoju started staring at the TV with his feet folded again.Extremely dissatisfied with being taken from the hard-won spot and having to watch it up close.Even the object of dissatisfaction must be treated with tenderness.Just when the pressure was accumulating to the critical point, Kiyoi saw the idol's concert on TV.

---It feels so scary.

The initial feeling is fear.Fans in the auditorium extended their hands to the idol on the stage.It's impossible to touch it.It's something that elementary school students themselves understand, why don't these adults understand?

Some of them even blushed.His eyes glowed, and some were moved to tears.He could still make adults cry, which made the young Qingju even more frightened.At the same time, the exact opposite admiration arose.

Some people need themselves to that level, I don't know how it will feel?

It must feel very comfortable.

Looking at the parents who are still happily coaxing the baby who is no different from a monkey, he snorted and turned his gaze back to the TV.Seeing the off-track behavior of the fans crying and reaching out desperately, and the idol standing at the intersection of thousands of lines of sight, Qingju hugged his little knees on the sofa, secretly feeling envious.

----I also want someone to see only me like that.

----Don't look at other people at all, just look at me.

---In that case, even I will be able to give a good singing and dancing performance.

Currently, Qingju is operating both as a student and as an actor.The so-called country is easy to change, nature is hard to change, perhaps the experience of childhood did have an influence, but the influence of childhood did not leave him with particularly entangled feelings.Qing Ju was sipping iced coffee while thinking, when the manager suddenly yelled...

[I actually used a remote control machine to secretly take pictures. 】

The manager looked at the phone screen with a look of reproach.It turned out that a fan of an underground idol used a remote control machine to follow the idol all the way to his own house after the event, and secretly took pictures from outside the window.

[It’s no longer a matter of fans or not]

Qingju said so.It's natural to be grateful for your support, but this kind of idiot who loves to cross boundaries is always indispensable.The behavior of waiting in and out of passing places is just an introduction, and eventually even used the remote control machine.

[The fans these days are really scary.Because of the relationship between social software, the sense of distance is not accurate]

[Doesn't Qingju also have a scary fan?a young boy]

【Oh, that suspicious man】

Contrary to everyone's familiar attitude of chatting with each other, Qingju frowned in displeasure.

The Suspicious Man is a fan who ardently supports Qing Ju.Wait in and out at the event location.For all stage plays, movies, TV shows, radio programs, magazine interviews, etc. that Qingju participates in, no matter how small Qingju's role is, he will definitely send a super long reflection.Not to mention casting a sacred vote for [Qing Juzuo] in various voting activities.

[Star chasing itself is not something to be encouraged, but the suspicious man is a remarkable fan.When waiting for someone, I will stand in a position that does not hinder the scene, and only look at it from a certain distance]

【However, just looking at it feels quite uncomfortable】

The office worker hugged his shoulders and acted scared.

[It all depends on how you explain it.An entertainer who wanders on the road without anyone noticing is called sorrow.Although the behavior of waiting in and waiting out has caused some trouble, it is also a kind of affirmation of the artist]

[You can indeed think so, but how can such an excellent fan be called [Suspicious Man]? 】

The work-study student who had just arrived at the job expressed doubts, and the agent answered...

[Hats, sunglasses, masks that cover the eyes.Prepare the three major artifacts of suspicious people, and it looks suspicious from 360 degrees.A nickname derived entirely from appearance.Everyone thought it was not good after seeing it, so they immediately called him [Suspicious Man], and discussed how to deal with it together]

[It's really scary to dress up with hats, sunglasses and masks these days.Such a person is standing behind me, I will definitely sprint and run away]

[Cases worthy of ringing the alarm for self-defense without saying a word]

The staff shouted [It's disgusting] and laughed, while Kiyoju twitched his facial muscles.

---I'm so sorry for being so disgusting.That's my man.

I wanted to say it but couldn't say it, so I could only vent my anger by biting the straw.

That's right.The disgusting man who was called "Suspicious Man" by the employees of the entertainment management company to which Kiyoi belonged was none other than Kazunari Hirara's boyfriend who lived under the same roof as Kiyoi.We only met after changing classes in the second grade of high school.The man who mixed with gloomyness and sadness and was full of opportunities soon became a trotting errand for Qingju.

Hirao was an excellent slave at that time.No matter how badly he was treated, he was still full of joy like a loyal dog, running errands for Qingju to buy bread, ice and so on.And he never thanked him.He just keeps yelling disgusting and annoying words at the man who has been trampled on and is still satisfied.

How could you be with such a man?

Even I was quite surprised, even unbelievable.After a twists and turns that seemed to be cursed, I fell in love when I realized it.And after Dafang harvested Qingju's first kiss and first experience, Pingliang still maintained the attitude of slavery for some reason, and continued to follow Qingju's every move.

---Since you're dating, don't do it again.

Qingju said so, but was abnormally resisted.

---This, this is the expectation for the future, please, please don't take it away.

Seriously slurring such an unclear sentence.Although the two officially became lovers, Hirao's disgusting attitude has not changed.I'm afraid it's getting worse day by day.

Pingliang has been obsessed with Qingju since high school, and pretends to be a soldier serving Qingju, the king.He also said that even if he is alone, he must protect the king, just like the captain of the duck, who is full of glory, floating on the golden river.Anyway, I didn't understand a word.Ping Liang's brain was stuffed with a lot of things that were different from ordinary people, and Kiyoi couldn't understand the thoughts generated by the half-destroyed brain circuit.

Pingliang promised not to cause trouble to Qingju and begged desperately, Qingju had to reluctantly allow him to chase stars, and he never thought that he would get a nickname.Even though Qingju had already revealed to the agency that he was gay, he still couldn't admit that that guy was his boyfriend.

【I was thinking, maybe the suspicious man is still handsome】

The president who has not participated in the discussion so far said so, while other employees looked suspicious.

[Even though she's dressed like that, she's actually tall and well-proportioned.He can be recognized at a glance from a distance, which means that he has a unique temperament.I think I can talk to him another day]

【President.If he is really handsome, why bother to dress like that? 】

----That is to avoid exposing the boyfriend's identity.

[Because I'm chasing the same sex, so I'm sorry, right? 】

---That guy is not someone who would be embarrassed like this.

[Maybe there is a pair of dead fish eyes hidden behind the sunglasses]

The crowd laughed.

【Who is Dead Fisheye? 】

His eyes stared subconsciously, and the laughter stopped abruptly.

[Of course you are not talking about Qingju? 】

The manager's puzzled face brought Qing Ju back to his senses.

【...Ah, um.Then, I will take my leave]

Leaving the company in a panic, the employees can still be heard discussing [Are you angry that we said bad things about his fans? 】【It turns out that Qingju values ​​fans so much】【I'm more than satisfied】And so on.

Sorry to surprise you.Qingju cursed secretly and walked down the stairs.While angry, I also admire the president's aesthetics.As expected of a person who has seen big storms in the entertainment industry for many years, he does have vision.

Pingliang is really disgusting.You don't have to Yi Rongcheng to look so suspicious, it's usually disgusting.His facial features are fairly straight and his height is one hundred and eighty, but he doesn't use them at all.She cut her hair at the barber shop she patronized from elementary school to now, and wears a plaid shirt with khakis or jeans 360 days a year.Unable to look into other people's eyes and talk, Lao Ai lowers his head and speaks like a mosquito.However, the dark eyes peeped from between the long bangs are surprisingly lively, and such an unbalanced feeling doubles to incite other people's uneasiness.If a manga artist drew a model of a stalker, it would probably look like Hirara.

But only he can laugh at Hirara.

Can't tolerate other people looking down on Pingliang.

Those people don't understand at all.Hirara is just not interested in dressing up.Seriously styling him will transform him into a handsome man who is beyond the reach of ordinary models.When I took him to the drinking party of artists before, he was very popular with the opposite sex, to the extent that Hirara himself was afraid.If they saw the beautiful male version of Pingliang, those female employees would be speechless in amazement.

---Unfortunately, this is my man.

Sniffing and sniffling, Qingju quickened his pace to go home.

Arriving home with a rare mood of favoring Hirao, the house was in darkness.I thought to myself [Haven’t you come home yet? ] and turn on the living room lamp, immediately taking a reflexive step back.I saw Hirara hugging his feet, sitting on the floor mat shrunken like a fetus, repeating words such as "thank you" and "goodbye" in his mouth.It's too scary.What are you doing?

【What are you doing? 】

I didn't even want to touch it, so I poked it with my foot.Ping Liang still curled up into a ball and did not move.

【...I don't want to live in a world where Qingju is not there】

It seems that based on some idea, he fell into the Pingliang country again.Thunderbolt is uncomfortable.But this thing is his boyfriend.Kiyoi sat cross-legged next to Hirara, then turned him face up.

[Who did you say is gone? 】

Staring at Hirara's glasses from above brought him back to normal.

【...Ah, Qing, Qingju, welcome back.Sorry, I didn’t greet you well]

[You don't need to greet me, at least wait for me to go home in a normal state.This is too disgusting]

Hirao was the man who had witnessed Kiyoju's death in a TV series, and was so desperate to rehearse the process of following Kiyoju's suicide that he almost killed himself.So disgusting, the Suspicious Man's nickname was almost cute in comparison.

[What's wrong this time, are you delusional about my funeral? 】

Hirara shook his head, stared at Kiyoi and said...

【...Qingju and I will be separated at the end of the month】

He narrowed his eyes for some reason.

[What does it mean to separate? 】

【...Maybe getting divorced】

【divorce? 】

I can't understand more and more.Divorce, divorce, divorce...?After reading it silently several times, I finally grasped a little bit of the situation.No, wait a minute.Is this guy going to talk about breaking up with me now?Anger follows understanding.Where does Pingliang have the qualifications to propose a breakup! ?

[What are you kidding! 】

Before the brain has time to think, the words have already slipped out of the mouth...

【Without my permission, you are not allowed to make the decision. What are you dissatisfied with about me? 】

【I, how could I be dissatisfied with Qingju】

【Why?Explain the reason clearly]

【It was Naho who made the decision】

[It turned out to be a woman! 】

Kiyoi grabbed Hirara by the collar of his shirt and pulled him in front of his eyes.

[Yes, sorry.all right.I will ask Naho not to separate from her husband]

【husband? 】

[Naho said that she couldn't stand her husband's years of affairs and decided to separate.I heard that I am still negotiating with my husband and I am not sure if I will get a divorce. Anyway, I will take the children back to my hometown next month]

Qingju frowned even tighter.

【...Who is Naho? 】

【My cousin, married from this house】

Kiyoi, who finally grasped the correct situation, felt weak all over.

Hirao's uncle and aunt entrusted Hirara to take care of their house after they decided to go abroad on business.Kiyomi took a fancy to the location of the house, the convenience of being able to quickly reach Shibuya by train, the spacious courtyard, and the good sound insulation of the piano room used by his uncle and daughter, which can provide a good environment for reciting scripts late at night, so he and Hirao stayed together Live here and spend a free and free cohabitation life together.

Now the eldest daughter and her husband decided to go back to their hometown due to an unpleasant quarrel, and the two had to move out of the house.The matter is as simple as that, but Qingju was too mentally exhausted to reach this conclusion and couldn't help sighing.

[Thinking that I will be separated from Qingju after this month, I will not have the energy to live on... 】

That's why I'm so sad that I'm stuck in the living room.

【I understand the situation, but we don't have to separate】

【what? 】

[Isn't it solved by renting another new house? 】

Hirao blinked blankly.

【New, new house... Could it be that...】

【My new house with you】

Seeing Hirara's eyes wide open, Kiyoi raised his chin as a gesture.How about it?You just have to be happy.only...

【Really? 】

What I saw next was an expression of disbelief.Also use the rhetorical questioning method that seems to be questioning the other party for saying some stupid ideas that you have never thought about.Why?When the cohabitation life is announced to be terminated without warning, you will be hit like that. Shouldn't you accept this kind of proposal with gratitude and without a single heart?How could there be such a reaction?

[Qing, Qingju, I advise you to think clearly.To rent a new house, Qingju had to return the apartment he was renting now.In that case, what should Qingju do if he wants to be alone?Of course it will be resolved when I leave, but the feeling is still ---]

Pingliang lowered his head, and pessimistic words came out of his mouth one after another.

【You don't want to live with me? 】

I regretted it as soon as I asked.Damn, this is equivalent to saying that I want to live with Ping Liang.

Hirara raised his head excitedly.

[Think, think.I want to live together.I'm so happy I can't believe it. 】

It was a pity that I finally heard the answer I wanted, but I missed the opportunity and felt completely unsatisfied.

【Then don’t just talk about what you have and what you don’t】

【Feel sorry.Uh, ah, which region is better to choose?Of course, you have to choose the one that is convenient for you to live in.I will work part-time to pay rent and living expenses.It won't cause trouble for Qingju. 】

Hirara was so excited that his eye sockets were stained red, this is the feeling of joy slowly emerging, but it was not enough.Make me happier.Otherwise, I won't show you a smiling face.

【How can a guy with a communication barrier find a part-time job?】

【Can.sure can]

After finishing speaking with all his might, he suddenly lowered his head and added a sentence like [Probably...]

After getting acquainted with Pingliang, Kiyoi knew that there is a disease called stuttering in the world.When I'm nervous, I can't speak clearly.Hirao also had an attack when he introduced himself on the first day of the new semester of the second year of high school.

---Om (pu), Om, Om, Om, Om, Om.

My name is Kazunari Hirara.Only at the stage of introducing his own name, Hirao messed up.Everyone present immediately understood that this person probably lived at the bottom of the group since childhood.It doesn't matter if you trample on this guy, such baseless cognition is also spreading in the classroom.And he himself became one of the perpetrators.

【Qingju, I will work super hard】

Ping Liang once again emphasized his will, but it is not difficult to imagine that he had to suffer from the interview stage.Is there a way to speak smoothly?Won't you be looked down upon?Just thinking about it, I couldn't help but say it...

[Don't force it.When necessary, I will pay for the living expenses]

Pingliang was taken aback. [Huh, uh, but...] He was at a loss.

[Although I am still a student, I still have a salary from the brokerage company.To be honest, the income is definitely enough to support you alone.And get an important job soon. 】

【Right? 】

[En En.series.Probably a character at the second protagonist level]

Hirao's eyes sparkled in admiration.Qingju himself aspires to stage plays, but the brokerage company will still arrange for him lucrative TV jobs.The company will not force it, and the expected evaluation is not bad, Qingju does not dislike it either.

[When will the broadcast start? 】

【autumn.However, my role has not yet been officially determined]

[I will definitely get it.The second protagonist is awesome.super looking forward to]

He nodded pretending to be indifferent, and couldn't say anything about the fact that he was selected by the director's works that he admired.It feels like trying to save face, but I just don't want to show weakness.Even if the object is your boyfriend.

【Then I will also try to find a part-time job】

【Just say don't force it】

【How can Qingju pay for living expenses】

When Hirao said so with a serious face, he couldn't help agreeing.Why do you want to support a man of the same age as yourself?It's not a stupid woman who takes money to support the cowherd.It feels super uncomfortable to imagine yourself like that.

It may not be appropriate to say this, but Qingju himself considers himself quite capricious.Not gentle at all, not good at being considerate of others, basically don't care about other people at all.Qingju's personality is quite tenacious -- I'm tired of hearing it.

However, when talking with Pingliang, he betrayed himself from time to time.

Why?Since when did it become like this?

His cheeks were almost on fire from the scorching sight.Qingju knew that Hirashi was watching him.It's been like that since we first met.Whenever he noticed it, Hirao would secretly stare at Kiyoi with warm eyes that seemed genuinely warm.

Felt nauseous at first.Very unpleasant.After treating him annoyed, looking down on him, and using him casually for a while, at some point, Hirara's gaze became indispensable.

----I also want someone to see only me like that.

---Don't look at other people at all, just look at me.

---In that case, even I will be able to give a good singing and dancing performance.

The almost forgotten childhood memories are perfectly reproduced through Pingliang's sight.Fans cried and were crazily fascinated by the idol's appearance, the excitement that was in harmony with the fear, and the excitement that was only a thin line away from discomfort.These feelings are similar to the experience of standing on the stage.The difference is that Hirashi alone can surpass the power of hundreds of lines of sight.

Relying on himself alone, Pingliang messed up Qingju to the point of losing his principles.

The man who succumbed to Qingju's feet with the attitude of a monk dedicating his life to God, but always insisted on the minimum distance, caused Qingju to suffer countless times.The self who wants to fall in love meets Hirara who only regards himself as an object of worship.Facing the relationship between two parallel lines, Qingju finally had to cry angrily, if he didn't want to love himself, he would let him go.

In other words, it was Qingju who took the initiative to confess.

I actually begged for love from this disgusting and annoying guy.

Just thinking about it makes Qingju feel so ashamed that he wants to die, and he can't help but shrink back.

【...are you angry? 】

Hirara's terrified question made Kiyoi stare back angrily.

Black hair that has never been dyed.Without any tidying, the messy bangs covered the eyes after washing and drying naturally.The expression is blunt, there are always places that people can't understand, and the dress is also bad.

The more you criticize, the more annoyed you are about why you like this guy.

Not only did he fall in love with the man whose evaluation was almost zero, but he also looked forward to the cohabitation life in the future.Because Taira would never take the initiative to shorten the distance between each other.Once you leave you won't come back.Staying in the self-sufficient Taira Kingdom, it is enough to worship Kiyoi as a god.Just imagining how much effort he would have to spend to get close to that state of Hirara, he couldn't help gnashing his teeth.

【...Pira is not qualified to be arrogant】

【what? 】

【I'll take a shower first.You go prepare dinner]

Abandoning Hirara who was inexplicably scolded and deeply confused, Kiyoi strode towards the bathroom with the arrogance of the head of the family.It's downright rage, but there's nothing else to do about it.It's hard to believe that I fell in love with Ping Liang.That's right, I don't want to believe it at all. ???