The Beautiful Him 2: The Hateful Him

In the past, Pingliang and Xiaoshan developed a relationship that was more than a friend but not a lover.In the end, because of living in Qing Dynasty, we failed to formally communicate with each other, and even had a relationship with each other.

God's misjudgment

Decided to separate from her husband and will take the children back to their hometown.Hearing Naho's words, Hirara felt his eyes go dark, and curled up on the floor mat.Obviously anemia.

God finally decided to correct it.

It has been half a year since he and Kiyomi have been dating, during which time Hirao has always been afraid.Thinking back to the period from elementary school to high school, I suffered from different eyes because of stuttering, and lived a lonely life of the bottom marginal people.During college, he managed to improve a little bit, and never dreamed that he could fall in love with Qingju, who is as far away as a shining star in the sky.

This must have been caused by God's careless mistake.God will one day see this mistake and try to correct it.This is the case today.Pingliang fell into a state of ashes, and quietly fell on the floor mat.He didn't even have the strength to move his fingers, so he could only curl up on the soft floor like a fetus in his belly, bearing the sadness.

Pingliang did not blame God.

God had given him a sweet dream for half a year.

Just keep this beautiful memory in your heart and spend the rest of your life peacefully.

Thanks.goodbye.Thanks, bye.

As the night gradually enveloped the slowly darkening room, Hirara lay on the floor mat repeating words of thanks and farewell.Starting with this move, the ending will surely come with a raging wave.I will definitely be torn to shreds by negative emotions.Thanks, bye.Thanks, bye.

Unexpectedly, Pingliang flew from hell to heaven all of a sudden.Qingju's declaration of continued cohabitation, put Hirara on the Paradise of Elysium.What the hell is God doing?Allowing accidental mistakes to expand more and more like this, is it a sneaky nap?Then please sleep until the end of your life, Hirao prayed from the bottom of his heart.

Of course there are still trials.The financial capacity required to live with Kiyomi.The news that Naho will be separated from her husband has already reached the ears of her parents, and her mother must believe that Hirao will come back to live at home.Ping Liang, who suffered from stuttering since childhood, is now a college student, but her mother's overprotection of her only child remains unabated.

I feel sorry for my parents, but life with Kiyomi is Hirao's number one priority.Although he was full of worries about finding a part-time job, talking to strangers made Hirao extremely nervous.Avoid it if you can.But no matter how you evade it, you will still be thrown into the rough seas of the inauguration next year.

For Hirao, suits and interviews are nothing more than symbols of despair.[-]% will be nervous enough to stutter.The letter of failure that says [sincerely wish you will be active in the future] will pile up like a hill.The image of myself being buried under that hill and suffocated to death emerged before my eyes, it was too terrifying.

Nine times out of ten, I will be frustrated in my job hunting activities.After graduating from university, living on the second floor of his hometown, his body and mind decayed along with the wasted years. Imagining such a future makes Hirao tremble all over his body.However, Taira would never accept that future.In order to maintain the life of Qingju, we must learn from the pain and leave that road.

[En~~ Hirao Kazushi.A college student who is about to turn 20]

Sitting in front of him was a fat man with a small sign with the word "store manager" pinned to his chest, holding Hirashi's resume in his hand and repeating it.I am interviewing in the employee section of a convenience store.

[What part-time jobs have you done before? 】

It's okay, the question that was expected to be asked.Mentally picture Captain Duck floating in the water and still calm, breathing slowly.That was the life mentor whom Hirara met on his way out of school when he was in elementary school.The fact that Captain Duck, who was supposed to be floating in the warm bath water of the bathtub, fell into the drain made Ping Conscience sympathize with him, and he also kept in mind Captain Duck's teachings, and overcame many difficulties.

----Do your best to calm your mind and not be too sensitive to stimuli.

---Imitate the spirit of Captain Duck drifting in the dirty artificial river with clear eyes.

I don't know a mantra that I have recited thousands of times in secret.Once, twice, three times.Take a big breath and inhale the air into Dantian to suppress restless emotions, so that you will not be so anxious that you stutter.The sole of the store manager's foot has already tapped the floor several times.

[I have never worked]

Wait for half a day to respond to this point?It seemed to be written on the manager's face.

[Are all college students like this these days?So suddenly want to work? 】

Hirara's body froze.Did not expect to be asked about privacy.

---In order to live with your lover, you need to earn living expenses.

The reason is quite simple.But I don't want to say it.How could he reveal the secret that he regarded as precious to a fat man shaking his feet desperately in such a dusty place.

【Do you think the convenience store job is easy? 】

Hear unexpected words.

【What? 】

Subconsciously asked this question.As a result, it seemed that the store manager had stepped on a landmine, and he became visibly unhappy, muttering "there are too many people who think this way" casually flipping through Hirara's resume.

【Maybe you think you can do it easily, but in fact, working in a convenience store is also very hard work】

The store manager squinted and smiled maliciously, and continued to say...

[Think about it, convenience stores are convenient, right?The more convenient the guest feels, the heavier the burden is on the service provider, understand?There are a lot of things to learn, can you do it?You haven't said much since just now.Don't like answering questions? Find it annoying?You are a person who has crossed from the relaxed generation to the enlightened generation.Could it be the kind of person in the cartoon "Mr. Nietzsche"? 】

--What the hell is this man talking about?

Hirara was stunned by a series of questions, and finally the store manager added in a strong tone【Are you listening? ] He opened his mouth and was about to answer [Yes] when he was stunned by a tongue-stopping sound.Ah, this is the end.

[one, one, one, one, one, one ヌ, ヌ]

Words are jammed.Ah, calm down.Be gentle, don't be sensitive to stimuli, and quickly recall Captain Duck's teachings.However, the situation is irreversible.Seeing Hirara spit out monosyllables with a stiff and serious face, the store manager seemed to back off, and hurriedly laughed to round things off.

【Ah, sorry.It's difficult to tell you so much at once.Well, the interview ends here.Thanks for your hard work.Interview results will be notified within three days]

He only said so in polite words at the end, and he drove Pingliang away.

120% will not be admitted.Hirara returned to university dejectedly.The result of the interview that was absent from the class was so bad that it couldn't be worse. Hirao went to the club activity room of the photography club with a feeling as if he had fallen to the bottom of the valley.

【Hi, how's the interview going? 】

As soon as he stepped into the activity room, the president immediately expressed his concern, and then added [Ah.Oh, forget it, don’t mind too much] then looked away.It's embarrassing enough for people to know that they have failed just by looking at their expressions.

[Could it be a stuttering attack? 】

Koyama, who was sitting in the old seat, inquired, and Hirao nodded slightly.

[Just because of this, the place where people are wiped out, there is no need to consider working there at all]

【that is】

【That's right】

Everyone nodded together.Everyone in the club knew that Ping Liang was born with a stutter.So it's comfortable here all the time.At the same time, I couldn't help thinking that I couldn't do anything well because I depended on this comfortable place.

[How much is the part-time job?]

Xiao Shan comforted and handed Pocky a snack stick.Wrapping the thin stick is a lavender icing that has never been seen before.

[Limited release Kyoho grape flavor.It was sent from home a while ago]

Bite down and taste the flavor of the grapes.It doesn't need to be paired with crispy sticks, it tastes good by itself.

In the past, Pingliang and Xiaoshan developed a relationship that was more than a friend but not a lover.In the end, because of living in seclusion, we were unable to formally communicate, and there was even an embarrassing period, but now we have naturally returned to ordinary friendship.

【It's fine.My elder brother also stutters, but he got a job smoothly]

Although he echoed [what he said], he didn't feel comforted.

To prevent stuttering episodes, it is a mistake to take too long to adjust to your breathing.That store manager really felt bad, but it was my first interview, maybe that kind of attitude was not unusual at all.Everyone said that this society is not easy to mix.If this is the case, you have to learn to be patient.

[Do you want to try a part-time job in the form of registration? 】

Koyama suggested so.It is said that it is a service where applicants (zheng) go to a designated place to register and interview, and introduce part-time jobs on their behalf.If you don't like the job introduced, you can still refuse it, which makes Pingliang feel feasible.Search the Internet for intermediaries that are suitable for students, and immediately make an appointment to register at the free time tomorrow.

【It is rare for Hirao to have such high mobility】

[I am also surprised.But there is no time to be depressed]

Naho will be moving back next month, and she has already agreed with Qingju to find a new house before then.

【When encountering Qingju, Hirara will become a different person】

Being teased like this, Hirao just answered casually absent-mindedly.

The next day, visit the agent's office at the agreed time.Surrounded by employees in suits, I feel as if I have gone to the wrong place and can't calm down.With the form filled out with the necessary items, I went straight to the point and told the person in charge that I had a stuttering problem.Secretly clenching his fists under the table, he decided not to be stupid no matter what he was asked, but to answer neatly.Unexpectedly, the other party told Hirara [No problem]

[There are many companies or units registered in our family, and the types of occupations are also very rich.We will make appropriate introductions based on the situation of both parties. If you have any questions or requests, you can try to put forward as much as possible】

The well-trained smile of the person in charge is quite similar to the doctor who was in charge of stuttering in Hirao's childhood.No unpleasant feelings.On the contrary, it gives people a very professional impression and makes people feel at ease.

[There are also a few jobs that can be introduced immediately]

[For example...] While operating the computer, pick out a few jobs that meet Hirara's needs.Hearing that the person in charge said [this company does not need another interview], he made a decision on the spot.

Hearing the news of finding a good part-time job, Qingju was deeply surprised.

[It was decided so quickly, is it the right place? 】

Qingju asked worriedly while drinking a protein drink instead of dinner.The current body shape is already great, but considering the content of work, Qingju still wants to be stronger.It's really not easy being an actor.

[Shouldn't you be looking for strange part-time jobs just because you're in a hurry?like ocean-going fishing boats]

【Nah】

[Don't do human experiments, God knows what sequelae will be left.It is also not acceptable to draw commissions for the possibility of posting flyers or face papers for the eight major industries.Not even in workplaces where there are a lot of women.Although you are usually useless, you will become handsome when you get serious... No, forget it, there will be many problems anyway]

[I went to the dispatch company to register, and I was introduced by someone, so it's all right]

Saying the name of the company, Qingju searched on his mobile phone and whispered [It’s a pretty big company]

[Then what work are you in charge of? 】

[A production line operator in a dim sum factory.Because you can do well without talking]

Kiyoju finally nodded with an acceptable expression.

[Although it is a boring job that ordinary young people would never choose, it may just suit your habit of being alone.You can use photo editing software to edit my photos for half a day, and you can probably stand up to dull work. 】

[And it seems that it will be a night shift, and the hourly salary is relatively high]

【night shift? 】

[Three days a week.[-]pm to [-]pm the next day】

[Are there three nights in a week? 】

Unexpectedly, Kiyoi got a disgusted expression.

[I think, after all, there are classes during the day, so instead of cutting the time and scheduling them separately, it is better to concentrate on the time.If Qingju doesn’t like it, I’ll change to another job]

【...I don't like it】

Qingju said so, but her thin and beautiful lips were slightly raised.

【I will discuss with the person in charge tomorrow.Find another part-time job that can stay at home, schedule shifts without affecting class time, work less hours and earn more]

【Even if you really have such a good job, it’s not your turn to do it】

Qingju's unreserved speech is as beautiful as a knife blade.I couldn't help being intoxicated by the sharpness that I didn't have.

【I'm still looking for it.I don't want to do things that Qingju doesn't like]

After making such an assertion, Qingju looked at him with provocative eyes.

[Don't force yourself.You still have to go to university to take classes, I was just messing around.It is easier for you to do the dull work that ordinary people can't do.In short, don't try to be brave, and resign if you feel that you can't do it. 】

The words bestowed by the king, whom he could only look up to and admire in the past, aroused intense gratitude in his heart.

[Qing, Qingju, I, I will work hard.In order not to cause trouble for Qingju, it is absolutely inappropriate to be a jobless boy or a cocoonite.I will try my best.He will be smashed to pieces, and he will not hesitate. 】

【The production line of the dessert factory is not so dangerous】

[No matter what happens, I will do it to the end.It doesn't matter if you vomit blood]

[I just said that working on the production line will not make people vomit blood.Anyway, you don’t have to think so seriously, even if I only choose the job I like, the income is still enough, and it’s not a problem to support one or two more people like you---]

Before he finished speaking, Qingju froze his expression as if he suddenly remembered something.

[I was talking nonsense.Just be a cow and a horse obediently.If you dare to cause trouble for me, I will abandon you immediately]

After finishing speaking, he turned his back angrily, Hirara could only nod obediently.

The aloof king is willing to take care of himself, and even decides to live together formally.

For this and beyond happiness, Taira is deeply grateful for the great god's careless mistake.

But mistakes will be corrected one day.This is common sense.

Pingliang was very afraid of that day.Just because I know that it will end one day, what I capture in my eyes is the beauty of every moment of Qingju.It is the same as [the flower that will thank you is the most beautiful].

Hirara picked up the SLR camera on the table and put it in front of his eyes very naturally.Appreciate the appearance of Qingju reflected in the square space cut through the viewing window.

Photography is Hirao's only hobby.The parents were worried that their only son would not be able to get along with the classmates because of his stuttering, so they gave him a camera in order to divert his attention outside. This became the opportunity for Hirao to get involved in photography.It's just that Pingliang, who hates communicating with people, always only takes landscape photos, and also likes to edit out all the figures in the landscape photos.As far as the result is concerned, the expectations of his parents were betrayed, and the photos became a means for Hirao to escape from reality.

It was Kiyoi who made such a Hirara willing to take pictures of people for the first time.So far, apart from family members, I have only photographed Qingju.There was a snap of the shutter.Qingju will not show a smile just because the camera is looking at him.But not in a disgusted manner.

When Hirara was taking pictures, Kiyoi was always doing his own thing.Watching TV, reading comics, and now holding his chin with one hand while playing with his mobile phone.When Qingju lowered his head, his light brown bangs were scattered in front of his beautifully contoured eyes, his nose bridge was straight, and his thin lips matched his cold words.

Since high school, in music classrooms or class classrooms after school, Hirao has been capturing the appearance of Kiyomi with his camera in a space where no one else can see him.Thousands of photos have been accumulated.I hope it can continue to increase forever, and one day I will still have to face the situation that I can no longer shoot.Just imagining it is depressing.

【You haven't said when the part-time job will start】

Kiyoi threw out this question while playing with his mobile phone, and Hirao replied 【Starting on Friday】

[Hey, isn't that the day after tomorrow? 】

Qingju looked at this side in surprise.Hirara did not forget to take a picture of that expression.

【Go to work at ten o'clock, I will prepare dinner】

【Who told you that】

Kiyoju maintained a displeased expression, walked around the table and came here.Pingliang continued to take pictures of Qingju who was gradually approaching.Can be used for continuous playback.The character in the camera stretches out his hand towards himself.Then the camera was snatched away, and in the wide open field of vision, the four eyes met with the displeased Kiyoju.

【What kind of photos are you taking leisurely】

[Not leisurely.When taking pictures for Qingju, I have always been very serious]

[I'm not talking about that. 】

Kiyoi put the snatched camera on the table and sat on Hirara's lap facing each other.

[Qingju? 】

It feels like the wrist is going around the back of the head, and the heartbeat is not right.

【I'm going to do it tonight】

Looking down at Hirara and saying this, he directly covered his lips in anger.

The moment I was touched, I felt dizzy with happiness.

On Friday night, I stepped into a place like a factory for the first time.

Putting on shiny white food overalls, spraying the disinfection mist all over the body, and then being taken to the production line where the food is constantly advancing, and listening to the work instructions.I have been nervous since the day before, but fortunately, I only need to place one yellow chestnut on the Mont Blanc cake that continues to pass by, and Hirao only took 5 minutes to get started.

Of course, I am also worried about stuttering, but talking is prohibited when in contact with food, and the one-piece overalls with masks, hats, and gloves are also reassuring.Hirara, who is not good at interacting with people, is like turning into a robot, repeating the same movements indifferently.

The first part-time job in his life allowed Hirara to break away from one of the many melancholic assumptions and gained a little freedom.Hirao has been dreading the recent job inauguration next year, at least to prove that he can do the job of putting chestnuts on Mont Blanc cake.Even if it's small enough to be comical, it still gives people a solid sense of security.

People who have long forgotten when they understood the world are divided into "trampling on others" and "being trampled on by others".I, who get stuck when I speak nervously, obviously belong to the latter. The world around me has no light, no beauty, and no tenderness. Day after day, Pingliang staggers forward on the narrower and narrower trails, while worrying that at any time, Losing balance and falling into the bottomless abyss.

Such a gray world was reversed in one fell swoop in the spring of the second year of high school.

Qingju is so beautiful, the light shines enough to tear the heavy gray.

Four years later, the imprint of Kiyoi that was left on Hirara's forehead that day shines even brighter.I, who was just like rubbish floating in sweat, entered the country ruled by the proud and beautiful king, and the water beneath me became a river of golden light.The world illuminated by Qingju is breathtakingly beautiful.

Yellow Montblanc cakes slide along the production line one after another.The factory was filled with the sweet smell of cheap snacks, and everyone else was doing the work at hand with a look of boredom, but Hirao was relatively happy.

This chestnut will become a house to live with Qingju.

This chestnut will become a bed to sleep with Kiyomi.

This chestnut will become the dining table with Kiyoju.

This chestnut will become hot water for bathing with Kiyoju.

The stream formed by the slow sliding of the cake is also like a glittering golden river, arousing Hirao's uncontrollable sense of happiness.Cautiously put down the chestnuts one by one, and couldn't help snickering on the way.The uncle who was standing opposite the production line shook his body in fright.Oops.But it can't be suppressed.The mouth under the mask continued to snicker, with an inexplicable indulgence, and the first day of part-time work ended like this.

Spot a familiar face while changing clothes in the break room.Occasionally meet Qingju when he is off work, but the man and the others are not Qingju, but Annai.

An Nai and Qing Ju belong to the same brokerage company, and they are also the head of the company.Recently, the frequency of co-performance with Qingju has increased a lot.Because the company expects Qingju to become popular, it wants to promote Qingju through Annai.This is what Hirao heard from Annai's fans while waiting at the scene, and it is not clear whether it is true or not.Kiyomi would not talk unrestrainedly about matters big and small at work, and Hirao wouldn't bother with things Kiyomi didn't mention.

Walk out of the factory, take the shuttle bus to the station, and take the first tram home.Everyone stepped into the car closest to the elevator as if weary.Pingliang stayed away from the crowd, came to the edge of the platform, and boarded the last carriage.No one else was in the car.

The tram Kadangka began to shake, and the scenery began to play outside the window.before dawn.At the darkest moment in the world, Hirara stared blankly at the bright orange light emerging from the east, gradually erasing the gloomy scene.The vibration generated by the vehicle sliding over the track dyed the body that stood for seven hours continuously.It feels very comfortable.

I detoured to the convenience store in the nearest station to buy sandwiches and coffee.There were already many people coming and going at the station early in the morning.There are also elderly people who take their dogs for a walk.Although I felt that it was too early to wake up, I also thought that my late grandfather was also used to getting up early, and he said that he would not sleep so well when he was older.

---The streets in the morning are still full of delights.

After returning home, the house was silent.Afraid of waking up Qingju, he took a simple shower quietly, and tiptoed up the stairs with breakfast, sweating coldly at the sound of the wooden boards on the way.Finally, he stood in front of Qingju's room.

Qingju slept behind this door panel.

How much I want to open the door to admire his sleeping face.But no.

Ping Liang didn't want to break into the beautiful world that he usually looked up to admire so rudely.

Sitting on the corridor floor with your knees bent against the door panel, it feels like sinking into the bottom of the ocean.Rip open the packaging of the sandwich, and simply satisfy your stomach with coffee.

Close your eyes after taking a deep breath.On the other side of the door panel behind is the world of Qingju.He is the gatekeeper who guards the king's rest.This joy does not need anyone to understand.

I don't want to be touched by anyone, this is my own paradise.

After being summoned for a long time, he returned to his hometown, and the table he sat with his parents was filled with Hirara's favorite dishes.At the same time that Naho was separated, the news that Hirara had to move out of his aunt's house naturally reached the ears of his parents, who took it for granted that his son would move back to his hometown to live with him.

【I will not move home】

[Hey, otherwise where would you live? 】

Mother frowned and asked back.Father also looked surprised.

【Live with friends】

The two were surprised at first, and then looked at each other happily.Pingliang, who was bullied because of his stuttering, was really suffering, but his parents, who could only guard him from the sidelines, were also suffering.The fact that Hirara already had friends who were close enough to live together was enough to make the parents happy.

[Friends from college? 】

Mother leaned forward to ask a question.

[I saw it at my aunt's house before.His name is Qingju.Anyway, it's almost cohabitation now.

【Oh, my friend since high school.That child is very beautiful]

Feel the joy slowly spread.Hearing Kiyoi being praised whenever and wherever always makes Ping Liang happy.

[It has been famous since high school.Be an actor now]

【actor? 】

Seeing the astonishment of his parents, Hirara's fan meter began to rise rapidly.

【Last summer, I filmed a TV commercial for cold drinks.The one with four or five young people running by the sea]

【I remember.That includes students Qingju? 】

[There is also a special drama for this spring.The part where Sakai Hirofumi plays the doctor.Qing Ju plays his son]

【Wow, I watched that one too.I thought I'd seen that son somewhere, but I didn't expect it to be Qingju's classmate.By the way, I saw him in a magazine when I went to the hair salon last week.A new generation of actors who are rapidly becoming popular is a special report on double-opening color pictures. After watching it, I want to say that the recent children are all good-looking.]

The mother's repeated praises finally turned on the switch in Pingliang's heart.

【kindness.Qingju is really great.He started to work as a model when he was in high school, and now he is still a college student. The agency believes that he is bound to become popular, and they are already promoting him vigorously.I heard that he will get the second leading role in the series in the near future.You can also see him on the Fujiko.Deluxe program this week.There are two in the next month's issue of the magazine, one of which is a long-form interview.Then---】

Hirara picked up the phone, and Kiyoi's itinerary was recorded in the calendar.It is all information collected through the Internet or fan sites, including TV and radio broadcast dates, magazine release dates, etc.No matter how big or small, Hirao will never let him go.Just go to the scene and wait.What I am most looking forward to now is the image DVD of the Starlight series. In addition to the behind-the-scenes scenes, the bonus comes with a photo card signed by me, and there are three more.I have no choice but to accept everything, and it will take a lot of effort--Ping Liang talked to himself for a long time while holding the phone.

【...Ah Yi】

Hearing a soft call, he raised his eyes.

[Rather than a friend, are you more like a fan? 】

【I am】

[Is it a fan or a friend? 】

【not friend】

Intuitively refutes this statement.How could Qingju be "friends" with himself? It's too much.

【But you just said you were friends】

Hearing this sentence came back to God.Too bad, I forgot all about it.On this occasion, he and Kiyoi are "friends".Fans are originally a kind of people who are unconditionally happy when they hear their idols being praised, and then they want to indulge their enthusiasm and explain in detail what the idol is good at, and finally they are disgusting.

【Well, we are friends】

Thinking that it would be best not to talk any more, Hirao lowered his head and took a bite of the fried shrimp croquette.I feel that my mother still wants to ask, and I must not make eye contact with her.After eating dinner quickly, I said "I'm full" and left the chair.When he said [that's it.I'm leaving. 】When I was about to reach for my bag...

【Hajime, wait a minute. 】

Ping Liang looked back nervously.

[I haven't been back for so long, let's stay for one night before leaving]

【Need not.I didn't tell Qingju that I wanted to sleep out, and I had to rush back to prepare dinner]

【You are friends, but Hajime is in charge of cooking? 】

Seeing my mother looking like she was about to cry, I felt quite bad.

【...Uh, otherwise I'd better stay here】

Judging that it would be better to agree to the request for the time being, he ran up to the second floor as if fleeing.After leaving home, my mother still helped to clean, and the room remained the same as before.

--what to do?It feels like a total screw up.

Hirara sat on the bed, leaned forward and propped his chin while thinking.A moment of inattention caused a lot of fan talk.As far as I am concerned, it is just "beginner" information, and it may seem strange to my parents.

---What should I do if I am asked "Are you in a relationship?"

Of course it will be denied.The contact with Qingju was nothing but a delicate mistake of God, once the mistake was corrected, he had to quickly leave Qingju's sight.In order not to leave a stain on Qingju's glorious and colorful life, this relationship should be kept secret.

--- Even if you die, you have to pretend to be a fool.

After three or 10 minutes of thinking about the conclusion, I realized that I should report to Qingju and opened the LINE program.I'm staying at home tonight, so I can't prepare dinner.The reply is only a short "Got it"

The attitude of Qingju in reality is no different from that on the Internet.Also not very expressive, not active and cold.The clear and cold attitude like cold ice water has saved Ping Liang countless times.

Qingju is valuable only by being yourself.

This night, when I felt thirsty in the middle of the night and went downstairs to go to the kitchen, I found that the light in the living room was still on.The whispers of parents talking in low voices could be heard.Hirao tiptoedly listened.

[I don't think they are friends]

[If it's not a friend, what kind of relationship is it? 】

My heart was shocked.The relationship between himself and Qing Ju is still revealed.But it's okay, no matter how you are questioned, you have to be perfunctory to the end.Ping Liang continued to eavesdrop.

【Hajime must have been bullied】

---Huh?

【No way.They are all college students and still bullying]

[I think so too.How could someone in the colorful show business world want to live with Ha Yi? 】

【Because we are friends】

[If it's just a friend, is it necessary to cook dinner for him?That kid has never cooked at home.I don't want to think that way either, but if I'm being ordered...]

Completely unfounded.There is a mother who is good at cooking at home, so I never thought of entering the kitchen.After living together with Kiyomi, Hirao realized the joy of doing housework.In order for Qing to live comfortably, he hopes that the house will always be clean and tidy, and cooking gives Hirara direct joy.The dishes I cook will be eaten by Qingju, and finally turned into Qingju's flesh and blood.Even experience a lofty sense of mission.Eating alone can be solved with only egg bibimbap.

[You think too much.He is very happy when he talks about that person]

【Then why did Hajime deny it so forcefully? 】

The mother's worried tone overlapped with the father's hesitant tone of "But..." as if he was thinking.

[Yicheng is not a child anymore, it is inappropriate for his parents to deliberately restrict his behavior.In short, follow his wishes first, and check the situation occasionally.There is a problem that can be seen for sure]

[More importantly ---] Father's tone changed.

[I am very happy that Yi Cheng intends to live independently.We used to be overprotective of him because of his stutter.And that child will face job hunting activities next year]

His father's thoughtful speech made Hirao feel relieved, and it should be able to relieve his mother's worries.

On the way back to the room lightly, I couldn't help sighing when I thought that I went to college and made people worry about being bullied.I always make my parents worry about me.

Stuttering, bullying, violent incidents.Although they successfully escaped from the lower class after studying in college, parents, especially mothers, never seem to be at ease with their children.Guilt is intertwined with shame, triggering self-loathing.Yu secretly apologized solemnly in his heart, but still couldn't suppress the excitement that the life with Qingju was about to enter the second season. It might be polite to describe himself as unfilial.

How can someone like yourself be so happy?

I heard that the weight of happiness and misfortune is given.People have experienced ups and downs repeatedly throughout their lives, and the final settlement is not bad at all.Could this be true?If so, looking back on my marginal life in the past years, the happiness I feel now is only just right.No, the happiness of being able to live with Qingju should easily outweigh the accumulated misfortunes of the past.In other words, do we have to start going downhill again in the future?It's just that it's acceptable to go downhill, and the current happiness is so strong that it's not surprising that I may have entered the stage where I might lose my life at any time.

Maybe if I sleep tonight, I won't wake up tomorrow morning.

Nestled in the quilt but shivering with cold.Life and time spent together are limited.

In this way, we must live without regret, and die without regret at any time.

This was the first time in Hirao's life that he had such optimistic thoughts.

[Where are you optimistic? 】

The next day, in the coffee shop in front of the station where they had agreed to meet, Kiyoi said this with a frown.

【No matter how it sounds, it is a large collection of pessimism】

【can you?In my experience, good things tend to be followed by bad ones.So when good things happen, and then return two more misfortunes, I feel safe instead]

[Why increase by [-]%?The rare good things have all been offset]

【If the portion is the same, won't you worry about leaving a debt?Debt has interest.It feels like this, so I have to pay back a little more.Then, in terms of the current happiness, I think adding another [-]% should be enough to cost my life.So live every day seriously without regrets----]

【enough.nausea.do not understand at all】

Qingju decisively ended the topic, then leaned forward and said 【More importantly...】

【Your parents think I am bullying you, this is a big problem】

【My dad didn't think so.He is always rational]

[But you will still come to the new home to see the situation? 】

【It's fine.Anyway, no bullying]

【...that's right】

Qingju leaned back in his chair, sipping his iced coffee in a melancholy manner.

【Do you mind? 】

【of course.After all, they are the boyfriend’s parents]

The sword that Qingju shot out very naturally pierced Hirara's heart quickly.Countless sparks burst out under the skin.His fingertips trembled.What's the matter?The Qingju, fearless and proud king Taira knew bestowed such a gift.Silently enduring the panic caused by the mistake, he got another blank stare.

[What is it, do you have an opinion? 】

Contrary to the unceremonious eyes and tone, Kiyoju's earlobes were dyed a deep pink.That cuteness was better than natural beauty, which made Hirashi's chest overflow so much that it was almost unbearable.no.Qingju can no longer be upset.Pingliang desperately recalled the image of Captain Duck to calm his mind.

[Qingju, don't worry.My parents have nothing to do with Qingju]

【what? 】

Kiyomi's expression became serious.

[It doesn't matter? 】

【It is impossible for my parents to have anything to do with Qingju in this life】

What Pingliang wanted to say was that Kiyoju didn't have to worry about it.

What he faced, however, was an eerie silence.

【is that so? 】

【Yep】

【I'm with you