The Beautiful Him 2: The Hateful Him

person?Even so, it's still not a career.Pingliang secretly sighed inwardly.

【It's like a guy who was born to be an assistant】

The way Noguchi sighed made Hirao understand that it was a wise decision for the assistant to go back to his hometown.

Following this topic, Noguchi began to complain in general and endlessly.Work has been busy like hell recently. In fact, there is another assistant, but recently he started taking cases personally and couldn’t stay in the studio all day. The photography archives to be sorted out piled up like a mountain, which deprived him of even the time to sleep and eat. ., and even talked about the increasing proportion of instant food for hunger, and the recent rapid rise in blood sugar values.

【...Well.Seeing that you are very busy, I will take my leave first]

【what? 】

[I'm sorry about the photo.I didn't get a good photo, so I didn't send it.It was my fault, not the fault of the president of O University Photography Club.Well, excuse me]

Even if it is intermittent, at least it can be finished without any knots.Pingliang was relieved by this.

【No, wait a minute.You've been apologizing since you came in, but I'm not angry at all? 】

Deeply surprised, he raised his head to see Uenoguchi's equally surprised expression.

[Didn't you want the president of O University to notify me to come and apologize in person? 】

[I just said that I am too busy to run around, I hope you come here]

【It’s because I’m the only one who didn’t send the photo...】

【Oh, I'm a little concerned because you're the only one who didn't send it.Last time you gathered specially but I couldn’t guide you well because of my own work, I think I should at least help you to read the works carefully]

Seeing that Hirao couldn't digest it for a while, 【The message game is really scary. 】Noguchi shrugged.

[Forget it, this is not uncommon.Just because he often takes photo shoots for fashion magazines, he has to be labeled as extravagant, frivolous, chasing women everywhere, arrogant, and a salesman with good words but no skills]

【ah.Yes, sorry]

[Apologizing at this point in time, saying that you think so too? 】

Being questioned like this, he quickly uttered a bunch of inarticulate negative words.But I did have that thought. The president of O University Photography Club or the president of his own company is probably the same.The reason for being angry is inexplicable and directly brought up by the stereotype of "who calls someone a well-known photographer".He obviously doesn't know the parties involved at all.

【I'm used to it, don't mind】

Forgiving treatment allows heat to penetrate the outer periphery of the ear.

[In short, the next step is the business.Hirara-san, do you want to be my assistant? 】

Hirao was dumbfounded by the unexpected proposal.

[I have just explained my situation.Really bothered.Only during the university summer break.how? 】

【Huh?Ah, uh, *丂, 丂, but how did you find someone like me? 】

*丂, Pinyin: kǎoqiǎoyú.1, kǎo.①The original character of "试".

【You signed up for "YoungPhotographica", right? 】

【You, did you see it? 】

[Of course, I am the judge.Although everyone thinks I didn’t take it seriously]

After finishing the speech, he even laughed at himself mockingly, Hirara felt like he was sitting on pins and needles.

【If you ask my personal opinion】

Feel the heart stop beating.

[Pretty childish photo.If you want to eliminate the shadows in this way, it is better to shoot the scenery without people in the first place.The method of deliberate post-production elimination shows that the author hates this world very much, and the message conveyed is quite easy to understand]

The sense of shame up until now has taken on a new look and swelled several times.

[childish, disgusting, and compelling]

I don't know if this is a compliment or a derogation.

[Just my guess, have you experienced a lot of disgusting things since you were a child? 】

The appeal suddenly changed, and the tone became intimate.Noguchi threw his body into the back of the chair and took out the crumpled cigarette case from his pocket in a relaxed posture.

【Do you have a lot of your own rules? 】

Light up the cigarette, and blow out the smoke through the filter as if familiar.

[It seems that there are not many friends, and there must be no girlfriend]

【...Actually, yes】

Reluctantly opened his mouth to refute this.

[Hey, you're lying, right? 】

【it is true】

【What a surprise】

Suddenly realized that this person was probably not bad, but had an inexplicable presumptuousness.

[No problem, back to business.What I feel from your photos is super self-contained and law-abiding.I haven't made any achievements but mistakenly think that I have the ability, and at the same time, I don't look at myself positively. I use the shell of inferiority and self-abuse to protect myself, and I look down on the whole world self-righteously.A stream of youthful folly. 】

The relentless comments are beyond words.Being demoted to such an extent would not even cause anger.Furthermore, Noguchi's description of "Hirao" is nine out of ten accurate, and it makes people feel chills down the spine.Under the friendly attitude, Noguchi's eyes were still sharp, as if he was ashamed to be stripped for inspection.

[So, do you want to come to my side as an assistant? 】

How did that [so] come about?

【Why me?Wouldn’t it be better to find the president of O University nearby]

【Because you look like me before】

【...what? 】

Subconsciously narrowed his eyes.How does this well-known professional photographer who speaks regardless of the atmosphere, is mature and neat, and has taken photo albums for many artists and models look like himself?

[I don't think we have anything in common]

[Appearance is not.I'm not as earthy as you]

【And I still stutter】

【I have friends like this too】

The tone is natural, as if saying that it's no big deal.

[When can I start working? 】

Hearing the question, he hurriedly flipped through the notebook in his mind.

[If it is possible to discuss schedules from [-]:[-] p.m. to [-]:[-] a.m.]

【Do you attach great importance to sleep time? 】

【I work the night shift in the factory】

[It's really hard work.Please continue here]

Even if you don't have the confidence to be competent for the job of a professional photographer's assistant.

【...yes】

Nodding apprehensively.Even your own extremely negative thoughts can understand that this is a one-in-a-million opportunity.Commercial photographer and Kimura Ihei Award, these goals are as far away as reaching the summit of Mount Everest, but working as an assistant under Noguchi is a very solid step.Challenges are always accompanied by failure, so it is scary.If this is the only way to stay by Qingju's side, he can only bite the bullet and move forward.

I made an appointment to start work the day after tomorrow, and when I was about to leave the studio...

【Oh, I almost forgot.Regarding the reason why you were brushed down in the first stage]

Pingliang looked back in horror.

【What do you think? 】

[Because, because the work is bad]

Forced to rehash things that he doesn't want to recall, resulting in a gnat-like voice (RUI).

【Because it's not like a student's work】

【what? 】

[The 68-year-old chairman of the judges frowned and commented]

It's funny, right? Noguchi imitated the foreigner's movements and spread his palms to express his helplessness.

[You said Noguchi, could it be Noguchi Daikai? 】

After showing his business card, Qingju frowned very tightly.

[This is a super famous photographer in the industry.He also shot Annai's first photobook.I also have a good relationship with my president in private, and the president also said that when I want to publish a photo album, I will also ask him to take the photo]

Kiyoi listed the subjects of Noguchi's photo albums, all of which were well-known actors or singers that Hirara, who was not paying attention to entertainment news, knew. Only then did he realize that Noguchi was much more powerful than he thought.

【Qingju plans to release a photobook? 】

[Still in the planning stage.It is said that it will be released while the series is hot after the broadcast]

【That's it.After the series aired, Qingju became popular too】

A whole book is full of photos of Qingju, and I am excited just by imagining it.The desire to buy them all conflicts with the desire to let more people know the beauty of Qingju.No matter which side you choose, there is a straight line of happiness, and the involuntary snickering makes Qing Ju [really disgusting].

【Annai's first photobook was also well received and well received】

Hirara nodded sharply in agreement with Kiyoi's words.

【I want Mr. Noguchi to shoot too】

The next sentence made Hirao feel as if he had been slapped.

I also want Mr. Noguchi to shoot.

No surprises.Qingju is an entertainer and should be photographed by a professional photographer.But this is the first time Hirao has heard of whom Qingju wants to take pictures by name.

---what about me?

Intense doubt erupted like a geyser.And me?And me?Won't you want to take a picture of me?The question mark in my heart was quickly dyed a cloudy gray, becoming viscous and heavy.

How is this going.

Super uncomfortable feeling.

The sudden emotion confused Hirara.

The king, who could only look up to, stepped down from the throne and allowed himself to touch.The two share their lives together, sharing the same bed, and Ping Liang is allowed to take pictures of their private appearances at will.Already enjoying the supreme happiness, but reflexively jealous of the professional photographer who made Kiyoi say that he wanted to take the picture for him.I don't know my own position, and I am getting more and more greedy.

---This is a very dangerous situation.

Do one's own thing and keep one's own way.I haven't come up with any results but mistakenly think that I have the ability.Recalling what Noguchi said during the day, the shame forced him to break out in a cold sweat.

【Why are you so stupid? 】

Kiyoi senses Hirara's frozen state.

[...Ah, it's all right.I hope to invite Mr. Noguchi to take the shot]

Reluctantly trying to smooth things over, Qing Ju still hesitated to speak.

【Don't you hate it? 】

【What do you hate? 】

【I said I want to take pictures for other photographers】

---It's annoying.

The answer that popped up subconsciously made Hirao seem to have received a heavy blow to the abdomen.Almost nauseated.Why did Qing Ju ask so cruelly.He swallowed the bitterness welling up in his chest before opening his mouth.

【Nope】

After answering that, Kiyoju frowned.

[Of course it would be best to have someone who can best capture the beauty of Qingju]

Kiyomi's eyes were frivolous (tiao), and Hirao couldn't take his eyes off the vigor and beauty like a wild cat deep in the mountains.There was no trace of tolerance in the cold and sharp eyes.

--- How much I want to lock Qingju in my lens ---

The emotions that had been suppressed with great difficulty surged up again.Drink it again.emerge.Swallow.The internal struggle that stirred up the internal organs made my stomach feel more and more intense, and I couldn't help covering my mouth with my hand.

【What's wrong? 】

【...Sorry, I feel like vomiting】

【Hey, are you going to throw up? 】

【Sorry, let's go to the toilet】

Bun fled into the small room and locked the door.Lying on the toilet, spit out a little orange stomach acid.This is the sour and bitter emotional tone accumulated in the body unconsciously by jealousy and possessiveness.

【Pira, are you okay? 】

He wanted to approach the concerned tone, followed by the sound of twisting the doorknob but being resisted.

[Why lock it, open the door]

【...Sorry, I'm fine】

[It's very important at all.I pour water over here, you open the door]

【Thanks.But no, really...leave me alone]

The desire to overestimate one's ability has caused self-poisoning, and I don't want to show others in this manner.

After a short silence, I heard footsteps moving away.

-- Tendency to close in on one's own world.

---There is a tendency to lack coordination.

A sentence that was often written into the contact book when I was in elementary school.Is it really difficult to change the character formed in childhood?

He thought that his life with Qingju was going smoothly.Unexpectedly, the turbid current under the water surface rolled up a vortex, and the fear of falling into the abyss with one foot was always with me.

On the first day of his new job, he arrives at the studio and is confronted by a different man than Noguchi.

【I'm Assistant Kata.Mr. Noguchi has explained to me.I heard that you are a college student and you are on summer vacation now?Today, two photo shoots started at noon in a row. Mr. Noguchi will go directly to the studio, and we will be responsible for getting the equipment ready.Please Hirao memorize the operation method before noon】

Without asking for an answer, Hirara silently followed Kada who explained and walked back to the studio.

[The studio itself has sufficient equipment, and there are not many things that we need to bring.But every studio has different equipment, and these need to be kept in mind.Here is a list of equipment used in studios today.After that, we will shoot outdoors, which is estimated to be in the evening. Of course, we need to prepare flashes, light control umbrellas, and reflectors. I don’t need to talk about other accessories.Mr. Noguchi is used to carrying his camera with him, but occasionally he needs to prepare other models.The lens and body are in this cabinet.The key is kept separately by Mr. Noguchi and his assistant.Don't lose it. 】

Then Kata handed over the key.Check the racks full of bodies and lenses, including medium or large cameras estimated to be worth two new cars.Ping Liang tightly grasped the key, reminding himself that he must never lose it.

Although I am no stranger to cameras since childhood, this is the first time I have come into contact with professional equipment.Xiangtian continued to explain carefully like a cannonball, and had no time to take notes, so he could only concentrate on listening.

But compared to operating professional equipment, on-site work is more difficult.People of various professions gathered at the photography site.Models, directors, photographers, stylists, hair and makeup artists, various assistants, magazine editors, sponsor representatives, etc.Taira, who was not used to it, dangled around at a loss, often blocking the route of everyone.

After the discussion between the director and Noguchi, the lighting method is decided one by one according to the photography division or theme concept.All positions or angles are selected with a hand-held light meter.A little higher, turn right, ah, over.turn back.Consider the positioning of the model.The constant stream of instructions is overwhelming.

【ㄉ, ㄉ, yes, yes, sorry】

Anxiety and nervousness force stuttering, but during stuttering, the next instruction will be received, and there is no time to mind.The other staff members are professionals in their respective fields. Individually devoted to their work, they don’t hear or care about Pingliang’s stuttering. What’s more, they are constantly criticized as useless wage earners on the spot. Pingliang is very grateful.It is perfectly right for the incompetent to be scolded.

I repeatedly said [I'm sorry] about [-] times while dragging my stuttering symptoms, and I finally made it to the end of the trial shooting and entered the formal shooting process.Professional photographers shoot a surprising amount.The continuous sound of the shutter and the praise of the model made people feel dizzy, and a loud "Thank you~~" brought Hirara back to his senses.

--Is this the end?

Looking around in disbelief, the atmosphere at the scene had already calmed down.

[Eighty percent of on-site work is preparation.There is another next game, hurry up and pack up]

The ass was patted by Noguchi, and Hirao rushed to pack the equipment in a panic.

Back to the Noguchi car parked in the parking lot, Kada drove to the next shooting location, Odaiba.It seems that the shooting will be done with the setting sun and the night scene as the background.What a boring idea.Noguchi kept complaining in the backseat like this.But as soon as he stepped into the scene, he immediately greeted people with a smile.

[For photographers, creating an on-site atmosphere is also part of the preparatory work.laugh]

Being slapped on my butt again, I hurriedly tried to put on a smiley face, but...

[Ah, forget it.Super disgusting.Please practice a hearty smile as soon as possible]

【....yes】

Requirements that are much more difficult than mastering on-site processes can be frustrating.For the time being, he continued to raise the corners of his mouth consciously, and found a strange cloud approaching from the west.

[Mr. Noguchi~~The situation is not good.I heard there will be a heavy thunderstorm]

The producer ran over to inform, and Noguchi looked up at the sky with embarrassment.Photography at sunset is difficult enough when the amount of light is constantly changing, now you have to deal with the rain.

【what to do?Want to switch to a studio? 】

【Well~~ That's a bit...】

During the discussion with Noguchi and others, the staff greeted [Thanks for your hard work~~] Hirara stopped the preparations at hand, and looked at the actress who stepped into the shooting scene, it was Anna.

【Oh~~ The aura of first-class actors is different】

Kada, whose eyes were drawn to Anai, said in a low voice.

Thick eyebrows, big and energetic eyes.The facial features are quite neutral, perhaps because of the relationship between the plump lips and the long black wavy hair, the overall impression is charming.The staff continued to run back and forth, and Annai sat down on the prepared chair, looking at the approaching cumulonimbus clouds.

【At the age of 23, you already have the posture of a superstar】

Men of the same age can't compete with it at all.Kada shrugged and said, returning to her work.

Annai won the Best Actress Award at the Berlin International Film Awards when she was under 20 years old, and she became famous with the image of the new generation of acting.Now only 23 years old, he has been identified as a future superstar backup.Also because of this experience, she is often maliciously written as arrogant, capricious, queen temper, etc. in weekly magazine reports.

However, when Hirata and Kiyoi met after get off work, the feeling of Anna was the opposite of the villainous image created by weekly magazines, and she always smiled and communicated with fans.Another time, An Nai waved towards the waiting crowd but stumbled on the way, naturally showing a shy smile.It feels like a normal girl apart from work.

While Hirao was thinking, the weather became more and more unstable.If you start shooting according to the schedule, you will definitely face a heavy thunderstorm directly.The producer shook his head regretfully.

[Mr. Noguchi, it’s okay.Let’s go to the studio to shoot today]

Unexpectedly, after thinking for a while, Noguchi crossed his arms and turned to Annai and said...

[An Nai, can you accept being wet all over? 】

An Naixing's eyes widened at the unexpected question, but she immediately nodded in agreement [no problem]

【great.Then start shooting according to the progress.Xiang Tian, ​​Hirara, remove all lighting equipment]

[No way~~! ?Mr. Noguchi, I beg you~~]

The producer looked so desperate that he wanted to cry.

【Don't you think it's more suitable for Annai to use a thunderstorm as the background than the sunset? 】

【However, we also have to consider the wishes of the brokerage company】

[I'll come to the company to tell them.You also know that An Nai's first photobook was taken by me]

After being troubled for a while, the producer made a prayer gesture with both hands [I believe you this time]

Removed the lighting equipment that had been prepared as quickly as possible, and Noguchi installed an external flash on the camera and covered it with a rain cover.that's all?The amazement persisted, and the photography work had already begun.

[Time is precious, let's finish the filming in one go]

Hearing Noguchi's reminder, Annai nodded and strode along the beach.Breathtaking scene.The overwhelming sense of presence exuded by Annai in front of him was already incomparable to an earlier level, and the actress Annai seemed to appear.

[First give me a bowed, unhappy expression]

The setting sun was covered by thick clouds, and the surroundings slowly darkened.The dazzling light of the external flash directly casts on the body of Annai who is slightly tilted.Annai blinked subconsciously because of the glare.

--Is it really okay to shoot in such a reckless way?

It's too flippant to have the flash go straight on the subject.When I was taking pictures in the studio just now, I first used the light control umbrella to reflect the light of the large flash, then passed through the reflector, and then diffused it with the diffuser.It is for the optical fiber to be thoroughly softened.If Noguchi does this, he will only produce stiff and rough finished products.

--It seems that after a considerable degree of post-production.

Immersed in indelible worries, the rain finally falls.Big raindrops hit the nape of my neck.The rain quickly intensified immediately, and Annai's fluffy and flowing long curly hair stuck to her cheeks and shoulders like kombu.

[Annai, laugh.Laugh to your heart's content]

Noguchi gave instructions to the embarrassed Anna, and Anna smiled without hesitation.Contrary to the rainy weather, a bright smile as required.That expression is full of wonderful courage, and it feels like everyone present is holding back their breath.

During the studio shooting of the previous scene, she used sweet words such as "so cute" and "very beautiful" to praise the model desperately, but now she doesn't say a word.There are only occasional requests that sound quite incomprehensible, such as laughing and stomping, crying and laughing.In the end, Annai was asked to lie on the beach like a corpse to finish the photography work.

After the shooting, Noguchi went to another place for a meeting. Hirara and Kada transported the equipment back to the studio, and then sorted out the shooting files of the day.

First, start by deleting the photos that Noguchi roughly confirmed and marked in the car on the return trip.Most of them are obvious operation failures that can be found by looking at the past, and the rest have to wait for Noguchi to check again.While looking at the photo files one by one, I saw several works that almost made my skin crawl.

The direct flashlight, which can be called an outsider's technique, intensifies the weight of gray cumulonimbus clouds and the violent impression of thunderstorms.There seem to be countless transparent bullets falling in the picture, and Annai's smiling face piercing through the rain of bullets contains the courage to go out of the way and is also evoked very strongly.

It was thought that a considerable degree of post-production would be required, but the actual level of completion of these photos is so high that only minimal corrections are allowed.It was the first time for Hirao to see such a high-quality first edition photo.

【This one is really awesome】

At the moment deeply attracted by the photo, Kata looked at the computer screen from behind.

【Reminiscent of Terry Richardson】

【Oh, from what you said, it really does look alike】

Terry Richardson is a well-known photographer in the United States, who is good at shooting extremely sharp and powerful works by directly illuminating the light source with a flash.He also laughed at himself and said that he insisted on not paying attention to lighting to an extreme degree, but because of his poor technique, he was a very interesting person.

【Mr. Noguchi has incredible abilities.In the face of such famous people, he does not force them into his own world, but gets close to the characteristics of the subjects in every possible way.Although I always like to abuse myself and say that I am a "faceless man"]

【So that's it】

[I heard that I used to take landscape photos]

Pingliang turned around in surprise.

[It's hard to believe.Because I didn't have a chance to make a name for a long time, I changed to portrait photography in order to make a living.The results were well received.He has a talent for shooting people.Changing the runway is the best answer]

Xiangtian laughed like this, and then said that he still had work to deal with in the morning, so he left.

Pingliang stayed to finish sorting out the files before going home.Double-check that the cabinets for the receiver body and the lens are locked.After everything was dealt with, when I was about to go home, I had another idea and went to the cabinet where the books were placed.I want to see what Noguchi's landscape photos look like.

The folders with serial numbers are all records of the last ten years or so, and there are no earlier materials.The earliest materials were checked sequentially, but none of them were photos of people.This one is, this one is, this one is still.

Couldn't find any landscape photos.

I didn't even shoot on a whim.

I deeply felt the stubborn will of "Never Shoot Again".

Carry out the style of portrait photography and thoroughly explore the characteristics of each subject.There is no unity among the many works.I can't see the so-called Noguchi style.But the remaining works are so excellent, and the incongruity created by the conflict of elements hides an invisible depth.

----He has the talent to shoot people.Changing the runway is the best answer.

Standing still thinking about the meaning of the best answer, he heard the slight sound of the door lock turning.

【Oh, you're still here.Thanks for your hard work】

Noguchi, who returned to the studio, greeted Hira, still holding the folder in his hand.

[Sorry, I took it out to read without authorization]

【It doesn't matter, you can see what you want here】

Noguchi sat on the sofa and said [I'm exhausted~~] Hirara turned and put the folder back in the cabinet.

[Ah~~ I'm hungry.Pingliang]

【what? 】

[Let's cook some noodles and eat.The pot and noodles are under the sink]

They are planning to go home---

【It is also the duty of the assistant to protect the master from starvation】

【Uh, this...】

【What's up】

[Strictly speaking, I think this is the responsibility of the mother or wife]

【You are stupid.How can the food for a man over [-] be related to his mother and wife?If you have the courage to spread out on the sofa and beg for food, just wait to be beaten by the pot.Therefore, only assistants with obvious power gaps can be forced to cook]

Unreasonable orders are said so grandly that people accept them unconsciously.I wondered if this is a common practice of unscrupulous companies, and obediently stood in front of the simple kitchen to boil water.Noguchi leaned over and took out whiskey and glasses from under the sink.He even drank it on the spot, and waited for the water to boil side by side with Pingliang.

【how? 】

【what? 】

【My Photos】

【I feel great】

Although what I want to see most is the landscape photo---

【It sounds like you are reciting lines】

Noguchi snatched the bag of instant noodles from Hirara, and threw the noodles into the boiling water]

【it is true.The photo of Ms. Annai taken today is amazing]

【Thank you so much】

[How can I take such a photo? 】

【Just imitate Taylor Richardson】

Hirao froze for a moment, "Don't take it seriously" Noguchi said with a laugh.

[Don't think about what kind of photos, the important thing is what kind of photos you want to take.Do you still like that kind?The sick type sent to "YoungPhotographica" in the style of a human reduction plan]

【...No.I don't think so]

Those kinds of works are closer to my outlet for venting my melancholy and distressed feelings since I was a child. It is not entirely correct to say "want to shoot".If you ask what you really want to shoot, no matter what your current state of mind is, there is only one answer for Qing Ju.

But taking a position here remains hesitant.The person standing next to him is the photographer who Qingju said "I want to take pictures of him".If Noguchi took the shot, what method would he use to shoot Kiyoi?

An Nai smiled brilliantly under the rain of bullets gathered by the transparent water droplets.Get close to the characteristics of the subject and amplify its charm to the limit.I definitely can't take photos that are so full of life.There is also not enough technology and adaptability to take advantage of the harsh conditions like that to capture the moment that is alive in the moment.No matter how strong my desire to photograph Kiyoju is, I cannot match Kiyoju under the lens of Noguchi.

---Can't beat it?

A corner of the heart was burnt to black charcoal.Even if you are very careful and try to suppress it, if you don't notice it, you will slip out and show your face.When thinking about living in a clean house, rationality will fly far away, arrogantly relying on emotions to compare with objects that are not close to other people's feet.Unsightly, extremely embarrassing, superficial and ignorant.

【I have nothing to shoot】

Use negative words to suppress the same bitter and jealous feelings as last time.

【I have nothing to shoot】

Once again, I just want to calm the evil waves surging in my body.

The stars in the night sky are so beautiful because they cannot be touched.

With an equally strong will, I don't want Kiyomi to have anyone other than herself filmed.

I thought that I was more suitable than anyone else, and that only I could capture the real beauty of Qingju.

Thinking like this is like trying to touch the stars.

He warned me again and again, but it still couldn't stop me from gradually becoming greedy like a stain spreading on a soft cloth.Can't touch, really want to touch.I shouldn't touch it, I really want to touch it.Two contradictory thoughts riot in the single vessel of oneself.Emotions bounce around like runaway electricity.Just calm down, please.

【I didn't want to shoot ---】

[Uh~~ Enough is enough.In short, there is something that makes you want to take pictures until you can’t bear it if you don’t negate it so hard.]

【what? 】

Looking aside, Noguchi was also staring at Hirao.

[When you meet someone who is completely obsessed, you will really be afraid that you will not be able to take a good picture]

Facing Noguchi's narrow-minded smile, the beating of the evil waves became more intense.

【Not what you said】

【You just don't have confidence in yourself】

【That's not the case】

[If you have enough confidence, you want to shoot, right? 】

【That...】

--I want to shoot.

--Of course I want to shoot.

Before he could deny it, his instinct had already answered.The mood fell into despair.

[Young creators often have a fierce tendency to dig into the horns like this, which is really dazzling]

Sensing the undertones of accusations of excess self-awareness, I feel ashamed.

[I miss it so much.I used to be the same way.With inexplicable confidence, I feel that everything in front of me is boring.With anger all the time, thinking that you guys are all worthless, why don't you disappear together】

【...Uh, I'm not like that at all】

[Excessive self-confidence and excessive lack of self-confidence are actually two sides of the same coin at the level of reflecting excessive self-awareness.A suitable opportunity can make the two sides reconcile]

The sarcasm-like expression reminded Hirao of what Kata had said.

--I didn't have a chance to make a name for a long time, so I changed to portrait photography in order to make a living.

There is also no landscape photo found in the archives of more than ten years, and Noguchi, who is "inexplicably confident", has also flipped into another state of mind because of some opportunity.He has no intention of digging into other people's privacy, and doesn't plan to pursue what happened, but he can't understand the feeling of despair all too well.

[In short, I am the person I am now after going through the process of having my unnecessary strong self-esteem completely broken.Oh, but don't think of me as a sensitive old man whose dreams were shattered and left deep scars in his heart.Tokyo is a city that lacks everything, even if your dreams are shattered, if you are clever enough, you can still live a good life, and now I can barely count as a successful career]

[It's not just barely counting, it's already super successful]

[So which direction are you going to develop in the future? 】

Noguchi asked as he poured the powder into the noodle soup and stirred it.After cooking, move to the sofa side table.Pingliang could only follow silently.In the end, Noguchi cooks the noodles himself.

[still under consideration]

As of not long ago, I was still in the state of realizing that I should take advantage of the trend and take the initiative to participate in job hunting activities.But now with Qingju's order to "come on", the road ahead is divided into three.The job hunting course, the Kimura Ihei Award course, and finally the commercial photographer course.There is no distinction between difficulty and difficulty.

[It's only a sophomore in college.Ah, but there are some scary students in the world too]

[Scary college student? 】

Pingliang expressed doubts, and Noguchi laughed when he recalled something.

[A while ago, someone posted an article asking questions on a photography website.The content is "I am a boy in the second year of university. I want to contribute to the Kimura Ihei Photography Award. What do you think?" It made me laugh for a while in the middle of the night]

Hirao couldn't help coughing.

[I really laughed until my stomach hurts.In order to thank that person for giving me a happy mood, I left a suggestion as a return gift.I wrote "You should see a doctor immediately"]

I didn't expect to know the author's identity of the best answer here, and I feel cramped at the corners of my mouth.

[It's really incredible, even said that he wants to challenge the Kimura Ihei Photography Award.This is invincible youth. 】

Noguchi gulped down the noodles, and Hirao smiled resignedly.

【It's so stupid to die】

【yes.It is also the kind that I lost and never found again]

Seeing Noguchi showing a masochistic expression that was different from his usual style, Hirao withdrew his smile.

In the middle of the night, facing the mirror of the sink, I propped up the corners of my mouth with my fingers.

【...Is that some kind of cursed ritual? 】

Half of Kiyoi's beautiful face appeared in the mirror, and Hirao turned around in fright.

【Ah, Qingju, I'm sorry, did I wake you up? 】

【In the middle of the night, what are you doing in front of the mirror? 】

Kiyoi asked with a surprised face, and Hirao explained what Hiroshi Noguchi ordered.

[Creating the atmosphere of the scene is also part of the preparation work, so practice a hearty smile as soon as possible]

[As expected of Mr. Noguchi.You’ve only been working for one day, and you’re showing signs of breaking away from the empire]

Hirao raised the corners of his mouth babblingly to show the results of his practice following Kiyoi's order to [laugh and take a look].

【nausea】

Said and took a step back.The expected reaction made Hirara shrug his shoulders.

[Ignore the homework with a bright smile, I think this job is quite suitable for you]

Back in the dormitory, the two lay on the bed and chatted for a while.

[I'm sorry for the apology line, I said it [-] times. 】

[The first day is like this.But you don't look very depressed]

[There are a lot of things to remember, not to mention helping, I have been hindering other people's work and being put on face, it reminds me of dark high school memories, and Mr. Noguchi gave me a lot of blows]

【What did he say about you? 】

【Things I didn't notice, and things I didn't want to notice】

【It's awesome at all】

[It may be necessary to reduce the shift at the factory]

[Just quit it.Mr. Noguchi's salary is not bad, right? 】

【Well, but I also want to continue working in the factory】

[both sides are the same