The Beautiful Him 2: The Hateful Him

When I woke up, my eyes were dark blue.After the two finished, they fell asleep under the sheets.Qingju twisted slightly in his arms.

【...ah, fell asleep just like that】

Qing Ju scratched his head and said softly.

【Evening~~】

【I guess so.feel very dark]

[Ah~~ I haven't sorted anything out.Not even a light]

【If you don't pretend, you have to stay in the dark all the time】

He said so, but he didn't want to do anything right now.I just want to continue indulging in the sweet and lazy atmosphere with Qingju.Kiyomi was still powerlessly nestled in Hirashi's arms.

【Like a nest】

Kiyoi raised the thin blanket with his fingertips.A light blue tent is propped up in the raised space.

【really alike】

【Right】

The two laughed at each other meaninglessly.

【Oh, right】

Kiyoi recalled something and spoke softly, slipping out of Hirara's arms.Are you going to wake up?Hirara stared at Kiyoi's slender figure with regret and left the tent.Qingju only let his upper body get out of the sheets, it sounded like he rummaged for a while, and then returned to Hirashi's arms.

【This is for you】

With a calm attitude, he handed over the yellow duckling doll without any packaging and stored in an ordinary plastic box.It is Pingliang's medicine for peace of mind since he was a child, Captain Duck.

【Eh, this is for me? 】

Looking at the other side, Kiyoju turned his back as if irritated.

[I didn't buy it specially, I just saw it by chance.I just wanted to find a ten thousand yuan note]

He spoke faster than usual, and finally whispered an excuse.

[I heard it is for the bathroom.And, it seems to be glowing]

Like a sand castle built on the edge of the waves, it feels like a corner of my heart is easily disintegrated.Seawater seeped in slowly, and then took away the disintegrated parts in one fell swoop.

Kiyomi always melts away so easily and abducts parts of Hirara so effortlessly.

Hirara's castle has been plundered many times, and it has long been dilapidated.

But Pingliang did not ask for return.

Instead, he hopes that Qingju will keep the part he took away from him forever.It doesn't matter if you want to trample on it or play with it and throw it around.As long as Qingju is in your hand, it is enough.This is Hirao's greatest hope.

【thanks】

He hugged Qingju from behind.

【... Take a shower together? 】

Qingju's earlobes were still slightly red under the light blue quilt.

【…Um】

【Then I'll put some hot water on】

Hirao stopped Kiyoi who was in a hurry to leave.

【Qingju, I like you.I like it to death]

Burying his face into his light brown hair, he rubbed Kiyoju's head back and forth.

【...disgusting ghost】

The red color of Qingju's earlobe became more intense.

I'm afraid Qingju can't understand how much I like Qingju.

That's good.I like it so much, I like it so much, I am so depressed that I am about to explode, as if I will die at any moment.

Let yourself enjoy the sweetness and pain alone.

On this day, Ping Liang received an unfortunate Mail.

The [YoungPhotographica] first-stage review result notification sent to participate in the recruitment.

"After a fair and strict review, I just want to inform you of the regrettable news--"

At the moment, he was stiff in the club activity room, staring blankly at the laptop screen.Ah, so this is the so-called prayer letter.The thing that drives students who are looking for jobs into a corner.Read it for the first time.

---Try your best to calm your mind and not be too sensitive to stimuli.

Wanting to defend his heart before the blow hits deep, he secretly repeats the teachings of Captain Duck.

【Passed! 】

Someone's cheers echoed through the club room.

["YoungPhotographica" first-stage review, I passed]

【seriously? 】【I didn't expect you to participate in the competition too】Wait, everyone said something to each other, and then they all turned their attention to Pingliang.

【Did Hirao receive the notification? 】

【Yep】

【Wow.The reaction was super cold, I couldn’t be happier]

【I passed as expected, so there is nothing to be moved about】

Everyone's speeches mercilessly pierced Hirashi's heart that was trying to calm down.

【Failed】

【what? 】

After a short period of silence, someone laughed and said 【Are you kidding me? 】

【it is true.Lost]

Hirao reiterated that, and everyone gathered.

[How could it be possible that I passed, but Pingliang failed.It's so weird]

It is even more embarrassing to be said so by the qualified ones. 【How come? 】【Unbelievable! 】Everyone is discussing.The embarrassing water level was getting higher and higher, and just before it overflowed, Hirara stood up.

【I still have to work part-time, so I'm leaving first】

He hurriedly left the club activity room as if fleeing.He strode down the corridor with his head bowed.

Too ashamed to hold my head up.With self-abuse words like "like me...", only self-confidence in photography has been taught a heavy lesson.It doesn't work at all to be proud of being praised repeatedly by everyone.Unexpectedly, it was so bad that it couldn't even pass the first-stage review.

--Does that guy have better pictures than mine?

While being deeply shocked, recalling the photos of the partners who passed the first stage of review, part of my heart feels unjust.This made me feel even more ashamed.Only then did I realize that I just cared about my own feelings and didn't even say a word of congratulations.If it were that guy, when he knew he was defeated and Hirara passed, he would definitely congratulate him generously.Shame came one after another, and Hirara stood there in a daze.

How much I want to tear myself into pieces that are so unsightly.Shed and reincarnate like a caterpillar, discarding the old shell on the spot.Such a convenient thing will naturally not happen, so I can only drag my unsightly real self to the station.

In fact, there is no schedule at all today.But I had nothing to do when I got home, so I went into the fast food restaurant in the station building, turned on my laptop, and browsed through the archives of photos I had taken so far.

There are only cityscape photos in which human figures have been completely removed.It was like a world that was bleached after being punished for doing anything reckless enough to anger the gods.

Click Delete.

Delete another one.delete.delete all.

If you can't clear yourself, you can only delete the photos to vent your anger.In fact, both sides are equally worthless.

【By the way, the work I mentioned last time has been sent out】

Kiyoi said that while resting on the sofa after dinner.The job of the second protagonist of the previously mentioned series has been confirmed.The heroine is Annai, this is the first time that Annai starred in a series.

【It's amazing.Participating in a series for the first time is the second leading role.congratulations.I want to watch 100 million times]

[One time is enough.And it's An Nai who is the most powerful]

Compared to the very excited Hirara, Kiyoi didn't seem to have much feeling.

【kindness.Annai is also very good in the lead role.But this is the first time to play the leading role in a series, which is quite unexpected.I have played the leading role in many movies before.I feel very well-known]

[It's really high.Because Annai is a movie actor.As a teenager, she won the Best Actress Award at the Berlin Film Festival for her first leading role in a movie, which attracted the attention of the whole of Japan in one fell swoop.The company implements the policy of not selling cheaply, and so far has rejected countless proposals for series.This time, I have made all the preparations, the debut that everyone is looking forward to]

【Really amazing】

[Yes.She is really good.I was able to take on the second protagonist because of this background]

【How to say? 】

[All TV stations are eager to get the case of starring An Nai in the series, and the leading right has become in the hands of the company.Including content, performance fees, and publicity are all the same.It happened that an actor who was originally selected was temporarily canceled due to some factors, and the president strongly promoted me.Otherwise, at this stage, it is impossible to get the role again. 】

【However, if something is unusable, no matter how hard you sell it, no one will pay for it】

For example, things that can't even pass the first stage of review ---

[This point is hard to say in the entertainment industry. Knowing that the casting is completely inappropriate, it may still be forced to decide because of the box office or sponsorship.But my situation is not that exaggerated, the president is not stupid enough to arrange an accessory that will hinder Anna.]

Qingju snorted triumphantly and raised his head slightly.

[But accessories are just accessories after all]

Hirao was fascinated by the almost indifferent profile.

【What are you doing】

【I think it's beautiful】

Qingju has a correct and complete understanding of himself.We will not be overly self-deprecating, nor will we assume insurance against failure.The toughness that can't be learned even if you try your best makes people look forward to it.

[Then what's going on with you? 】

【what? 】

【photography contest.Have the results of the first phase of the review been announced? 】

【You know it well】

The final award list is scheduled to be published in the magazine in winter.However, the relevant content of the first, second, and third stage review results notices was written in very small characters in the recruitment notices. Hirara was puzzled by this, and Kiyoi turned his face away.

【Included free time, I happened to see it because I was bored surfing the Internet】

【Oh, it turns out】

[So what was the result? 】

-- Win big prizes and become a pro.

Recalling Qingju's instructions, I felt cold sweat on my back.

It's not that Hirara is biased. Objectively speaking, Qingju is indeed becoming more and more popular.The series starring Annai in the next season is also considered to be very topical, and it may become popular soon.Compared with myself, let alone the grand prize, he didn't even pass the first stage of review, so he really has no face to say it.

【ah.never passed]

It's not difficult to guess from the look of bowing his head in silence, Hirashi also faced the reality and nodded in response.Kiyoshi gets disappointed, feels let down, and gets bored.However, Kiyoi just snorted as he was not as scared as Hirara.

[It's okay, just try harder next time]

Ping Liang raised his head slowly, looking at Shang Qingju's eyes that showed no emotion.

【...Aren't you angry? 】

[Why am I angry? 】

【Qingju wanted me to win a big prize and become a professional, but I failed Qingju's expectations. 】

[Did someone say that you will win an award the first time? 】

[Uh... no]

[Besides, I don’t even want to fail once, who do you think you are, God? 】

Shaking his head, he said that he couldn't think so.And God also fails.For example, pairing yourself with Qingju, this super serious careless mistake---

[Then change your mood and plan for the next time.I didn't win a prize in the first tryout I participated in.Even if you don’t want to do things now, you will come true]

In high school, Kiyoju was shortlisted for the beauty contest for the first time but failed, which made his position in the class awkward.However, Qingju acted nonchalantly, and in the end, Hirao couldn't help but beat up the overly presumptuous person.That incident didn't change the world, but it changed Taira's will.

[But isn't it because of that competition that the current president of the brokerage company approached him? 】

[Hmm, our president has a very high vision. 】

With the unique tenacity of Qingju, he will not hesitate in the face of failure, and will never belittle himself.

【Let's see which competition has the closest registration deadline】

Qingju took out his mobile phone and searched online.

[The longer this kind of thing is delayed, the less motivated I will be.Let’s join in a few more in one go]

Terrified of being judged or even told we don't need you, but since Kiyomi said it, it must be done.Even if the heart will be poked into a honeycomb by piles of prayer letters.

[There are quite a lot of them.Choose the fastest route to professionals from here]

Kiyomi showed Hirara the phone screen.It looks like a competition information integration website.

【You say so, I also...】

【do not hesitate.If you hesitate again, I will beat you up]

The screen of the phone hit his forehead several times.

[Yes, but there are many kinds of occupations.There are commercial photographers working in the fields of news, advertising, publishing houses, etc., as well as photographers with artistic orientation]

[The photographer who is usually responsible for taking my photos for the magazine is a commercial photographer? 】

【right】

[Then you can't do it, those people are very good at talking.For example, when the subject of photography is a newcomer who is not used to the shooting scene, he will give them a lot of compliments to relax them, such as awesome, handsome, and this expression is awesome]

Presumably so.In addition to technical skills, freelance commercial photographers have to accept the test of business ability and planning ability.If the most basic communication skills are not enough, there is no need to talk at all.

[Then you can take the art photographer route.Your work is disgustingly disgusting.It's not just disgusting, it's not normal at all, it's sick.I don’t know if this is considered art, at least it has personality]

【Thanks.But this route is even more impossible]

【Why?】

[If you don’t force yourself to make a living, you can call yourself a photographer at any time]

[Can't make a living from this, like the situation of claiming to be an actor? 】

Hirao nodded.There are only a handful of people in Japan who can really make a living as professional non-commercial photographers.Most of them are operated as sideline business, but the sideline business is just called the main business in the society.

【Whether you can live on this for a long time is really important】

Qingju operated the phone again to start searching.Hirao had a bad feeling.

[Oh, I found it.I heard that this is the beginning of becoming an art photographer with a stable income]

After reading the phone screen, a feeling of nausea as if the internal organs have been turned over surged.What Kiyoi searched out was the [Kimura Ihei Award] and the [Domon Ken Award], which are known as the Akutagawa Award and Naoki Award in the photography world.Pingliang felt his consciousness drift away.

[ㄋ, ㄋ, that standard is too high, メ, メ, I don't think there is a chance.Moreover, the Kimura Ihei Award is not open for recruitment.It takes a certain degree of fame to be listed as an object of selection.Let the relevant people fill out the opinion survey form on the published works of the year, and select the candidate works, and then the big shots will select]

【Then you will be selected】

【How to do it? 】

Hirao was dumbfounded in astonishment, and Kiyoi looked at the phone screen again and began to search.

【No, no need.I can find it myself]

He hurriedly stopped Qingju's movements.Don't want to make things more difficult to deal with.

[That's true.You should investigate your own affairs]

Qingju said bluntly, stood up and prepared to take a shower.

【Come on】

Watching Qingju leave the living room, he silently admired the so-called aptitude of the king.Don't be cowardly even if you fail.How can I keep looking at the heights forever like that?It's useless to think too much.A mouse cannot become a lion, which is why people are so yearning for it.

However, it is illogical for someone who failed to pass the first stage of the photo contest aimed at students to aim for the Akutagawa Award in the photography world.It felt like climbing Everest without any gear.

【...What can I do? 】

Speaking of it, there is nothing to do, because Qing Ju has explained it before, so he can only bite the bullet.It's just that no matter how hard you try, the visible future can only end in the bottom of the valley and be smashed to pieces.

(I'm a second-year male student. I would like to contribute to the Kimura Ihei Photography Award. What do you think?)

Last night, I asked a question on a photography-related website, and after waking up, I saw many answers below.Among the many responses that can be called swearing, there are still a few concise and meaningful items.

(you should see a doctor immediately)

Quite honestly, it made Hirao feel like a fugitive ant perplexed at the feet of a cruel child.The life with Qingju was as happy as being blessed by God, but also painful as if he was punished by God.But Ping Liang never wanted to repent and reform.If you want to gain something, you must be conscious of sacrificing peace of mind.

However, I still can't think of a specific method.

After all, do you really want to be a photographer?

When he heard Qingju ordered him to target himself as a professional, he excitedly decided that it was the only way to stay with Qingju, but because he failed in the first stage of the competition, he realized how overwhelmed he was.On the other hand, besides photography, what other strengths do you have?Is there anything else you want to do?More fundamentally, what is within my ability?

Hirao questioned himself and found that the answer was no.

With a feeling of regret, the brightly dyed chestnuts were placed on the cake one after another.

Worked the night shift at the factory at ten o'clock today.The never-ending flow of desserts, the factory is full of sweet and greasy aroma, and put golden chestnuts on the golden chestnut cake flowing on the golden river.How much is one worth?Accumulated into a salary, and then become the pillar of living with the Qing Dynasty.

Occasionally, I have the idea of ​​working in this factory for the rest of my life.Like a raised sheep, silently and calmly repeating the action of putting chestnuts on the cake, Qingju is with him when he returns home.How nice it would be to live a peaceful life like this.No struggle, no challenge, no face of failure.

On the other side of the production line, Shile, who regards Annai as her only star, stands opposite.Also wearing a dust cap and mask, only the eyes can be seen.His eyes were cloudy and lifeless like dead fish.It was completely different from the last time I looked at An Nai in the heavy rain.Most of Shile's salary is contributed to Annai.

Is it an escape to see such things as the joys of labor?

Shile itself feels happy, but does it look sad to others?

However, Hirara himself looked at the so-called others with similar eyes.The number of friends is an indicator of a person's charm, and the beautiful photos uploaded to social platforms are evidence of a fulfilling life.Everyone is desperately trying to come across as having fun.I don't want to live in that empty way.

Hirao always stands in different positions like this and looks at it coldly. In fact, he still realizes that he is only relying on denying others to protect himself full of inferiority.There is actually another side to the truth of thinking that you can see it through, which is the mental state of folding several layers like a mille-feuille.And Qingju gave himself a reminder to get out of it.

---Come on.

Probably the only way.I am a sophomore in university and will participate in job hunting activities next year.No matter how you turn a blind eye, no matter how many excuses you find, how much you hate the moment when you have to work hard.One day one must leave the world of comfort, free from pain and melancholy.So scary, so troublesome, so annoying.

However, if he can stay by Kiyoju's side in this way---

【...Come on】

Confid in a low voice under the mask.I can hardly believe it's me.I have always hated the word "come on".In the past, it was regarded as the verbal violence of people who did not know how to be considerate.

【...but still have to work hard】

Reiterating in this way, Shile glanced over here.

When we arrived at Omotesando Station, others had already assembled.

After the summer vacation, it took a while to meet the club members.This day is a photo session co-organized with O University and professional photographers are invited to participate.The activities that had been discussed before the summer vacation, originally did not participate in the group election, but changed their minds after a series of setbacks.

【Isn't the location of the photo session Okutama? 】

On the way to the agreed meeting place with the photographer, Hirara asked Koyama.

[Originally, it was temporarily changed because of Noguchi-san's itinerary]

[Today's special guest.A well-known photographer who often helps artists take photo albums.People who would not participate in teaching activities originally were invited by the connections of the president of O University...I was quite happy to hear the news]

There is a tone of implicature.

[Not surprisingly, he is a busy person with a full schedule]

Looking along the line of sight of the hill, a large group of people gathered in front of the fashionable coffee shop.It seemed to be doing some kind of photography work, and there were several well-known models that even Hirao could recognize.It's not summer yet, but I'm already wearing autumn-style long-sleeved clothing.Eighty percent of them are shooting photos for fashion magazines.

【The one holding the camera over there is Mr. Noguchi】

Estimated age is 35 or [-] years old, tall and thin, with short hair.Casual yet stylish attire looks like a photographer in charge of celebrity photobooks or fashion magazines.I am almost like a model.

[Aren't you going to be our activity lecturer today? 】

[Because I didn't have time to make a special trip, I changed the location to here]

I couldn't reach the designated place by myself, so I had to call the students over.After mingling with the crowd and watching for a while, the photography work entered the rest stage.The stylist touches up the makeup of the models, and the staff is busy running around.Mr. Noguchi walked out of the shooting area, greeted the president of O University Photography Club, and then turned to this side.

【Students, thank you for coming.I originally thought about teaching in Okutama, but this kind of natural scenery can be photographed at any time.You are all young, so I later decided to ask you to shoot the ever-changing and exciting urban landscape.You can choose your subject matter.Photography never needs to be specified by others.Feel free to take pictures that make you feel, and then choose the most satisfactory one, and send the file to my e-mail.Feelings that can touch me will lead to further contact.Just because you haven’t received the message doesn’t mean you can’t do it, you must cherish your world view]

After explaining at a super fast speed, he handed a stack of business cards for distribution to the president of O University Photography Club.

【Mr. Noguchi, you can take your seat~~】

The staff called out.Noguchi responded "Come right away" and raised his hand to encourage the head with a smile, and ran to the shooting scene.

--- A very poor performance from many perspectives.

Hirara felt admiration for no reason.It's great to say hello in one breath, but it's also amazing to say so much without expressing apology for the temporary change of the event location from beginning to end.What's even more exaggerated is the attitude of the summary.. I don't have time to take care of you, so you can shoot as you please. You can send me the file after shooting, but I'm not sure I will read it--with a serious attitude and a smile, without using any negative words.

Do all commercial photographers need this level of self-discipline and speaking skills to be competent?The same threshold as the Kimura Ihei Photography Award is extremely high, but the type is different.

【...Uh, let’s act separately and take pictures freely】

The president of the O University Photography Club said so with a face of apology, and everyone looked around worriedly. FastFashion cheap brand plaid shirts, khaki pants and canvas shoes. The photography community is inconspicuously dressed, which is incompatible with the scenery of Omotesando, which is erupting with a sense of fashion on a global scale.

【Pira, what should we do? 】

[There is no way.Find something to shoot]

While several people were still observing their surroundings, people from the club passed by while chatting.

[What to shoot.This is a good opportunity, it is best to leave a good impression on Mr. Noguchi to some extent]

I really admire them, they are still so motivated after being treated like that, Pingliang was thinking, and Xiaoshan secretly told Pingliang...

【Mr. Noguchi is one of the judges of "YoungPhotographica"】

The person who is full of enthusiasm is the team member who passed the review in the first stage.

【...Oh, it turns out that it is like this】

It took Pingliang some strength to suppress the flustered emotions.

【Hirara, let's take a look around that building】

Xiao Shan pointed to a tall building not far from the station.It looks unbalanced, and the shape is interesting.But Hirara picked up the monocular camera hanging on his shoulder, and took pictures of the boundless sky directly above.

[The filming is finished.I still have to work, bye]

【Huh?Hello, Hirao? 】

Xiao Shan, who was deeply puzzled, said "Let's take a step first" and turned back to the station.

In the rainy season, today is the long-lost sunny weather.The sky is bluer than in early summer, and the pure white clouds are set off twice as brightly, even linear polarizers are omitted.Super careless photos have a hidden message that you don't care about your comments.

He was so angry at first, but he regained his composure amidst the shaking on the return tram.I was so angry because I heard that Noguchi was the judge of [youngphotographica].Only then did I realize that I cared more about the regretful result of losing the first stage than I thought.

Once self-awareness is achieved, shame immediately replaces anger and swells up.A photo of the lazy sky.Venting such childish anger on his own, the other party doesn't even know who Hirara is.What's more, the judges only come out in the final review stage, and the works that he failed in the first stage may not have a chance for him to look at them.

--It turns out that I am also a person with excess self-awareness.

While saying that he is a low-level person, he secretly overestimated himself.No great talent but no self-esteem.It's vulgar, it's embarrassing, it's useless enough, it's miserable.As the tram swayed and sighed deeply, the old woman sitting in front of her looked up.

[How can young people do this.As the saying goes, sighing will scare away happiness]

Granny meant no harm.Pingliang also understands this truth, but sometimes he has to sigh, otherwise the pressure in the depths seems to explode at any time.Resisting the urge to refute other people's meddling, he sighed again and protested silently.It seems to be advocating that young people are also suffering, so it’s okay for us to sigh】

The rainy season is over and the weather turns into summer in an instant.The TV series scheduled to be aired in the fall, in which Kiyoi participated, started filming. On this day, Tian Taira also visited the location of the filming site.Fortunately, the site is in a green park, which can avoid direct sunlight.

【Annai and Qingju seem to be in good condition】

Shile whispered beside him.He wears a Kindaichi Ko hat to shade him from the sun.Hirashi is the same as before, dressed as a suspicious person wearing a hat with eyebrows pressed, sunglasses and a mask.It is really uncomfortable to be equipped with such equipment in midsummer. Thanks to the experience of staying in Hebin Park for ten hours in the scorching climate in high school to occupy the seat for Qingju to enjoy the fireworks, I can bear it.

[An Nai's first TV series, I hope the ratings can be better]

[I will.absolute】

【However, there are fewer and fewer people watching TV recently】

[The most troublesome thing about TV programs is that you have to wait in front of the TV at a specific time]

[This has a big impact.Change to a laptop or mobile phone to watch anytime, anywhere]

[I have to wait until the advertising time to go to the bathroom]

They were having conversations that were not interesting to each other.This reminded Hirao of the two moles that lived unknowingly at the bottom of a cave that was not exposed to sunlight.It's dark, but also peaceful.

The university has a summer vacation, but because of the filming of the series, Qingju has become busier than before.The plan of the president of the brokerage company to push An Nai and Qing Ju to be the two leaders of the company in the future is very successful, and Qing Ju's popularity continues to increase.Among the onlookers, there are more and more young girls who seem to be fans of Qingju every day.

[When the series starts broadcasting, Qingju will definitely become popular]

【Probably, it should be】

【no problem? 】

【what is the problem? 】

Hirara turned his head and met Shitara's eyes.The Kindaichi Kosuke hat that Shira is wearing, the brim of which is discolored by the seepage of sweat.

【I see you have no energy recently】

【Oh~...there are some things】

Winning the Kimura Ihei Photo Award--I am hesitating about such a huge goal, and my anxiety is growing.And conversely, I think that it is easier to do that kind of thing than to wear a suit to search for companies, and the resistance to the job hunting activities that I was deeply afraid of has been reduced.Can this be considered a blessing in misfortune?

【I understand your feeling of being afraid that Qingju will become more and more distant】

【what? 】

[Supporting him since his debut, he will be happy to be popular, but it will be lonely to see him climb to a place that cannot be touched.Although never touched.Alas, this is fan psychology]

【Oh, that's what it means】

[Isn't it right? 】

【wrong】

Hirao nodded decisively.The emotions of lover Qingju are complicated and intertwined, but the idea of ​​artist Qingju is different.He thinks that he is only like the earth revolving around the shining sun of Qingju.The sun exists so it exists by itself.Without the sun, there is no self.Under the huge theorem of being irresistible, it doesn't matter how well-known it is.May I ask, why do you mind planets with high or low popularity of the sun?

---How wonderful it would be if it were a star.

Stars, planets or satellites.Planets whose destinies are connected according to the laws of operation of the vast universe.Compatibility, business ability, conversation skills, and the Ihei Kimura Award all seem meaningless and detached... The mobile phone vibrates in the face of random fantasies to escape reality.It's the president of the photography agency calling.

"Hello, Hirara?it's me.Let me tell you, something troublesome happened.』

【What's wrong? 】

"Did you send the files of the last photo session to Mr. Noguchi? 』

[...ah, no]

The photo taken on the day of the event was an extremely perfunctory photo of the sky, which is really not qualified to submit if it is serious.However, only Hirao did not send the file, which made Mr. Noguchi very angry and complained to the president of O University Photography Club who promoted the event.That's what the other end of the phone added.

【terribly sorry.I will send it today]

Even if it's just a useless photo of the sky---

"No, I feel that reposting won't solve the problem either.He told Hirara to apologize in person.』

This made Hirao frown.Temporarily changing the location of the event without expressing any apology, disbanding on the spot after finishing the matter with a beautiful sentence, and leaving all the irresponsible behaviors behind?Pingliang was indifferent for a while.

"I'm actually quite upset too.Relying on his own fame is so strong.But considering the communication with O University in the future, can you be wronged to come forward? 』

The president added the line "I will accompany you too" guiltily.

【It's fine.I go by my own. 】

"Can you apologize properly by yourself? 』

It's a bit embarrassing to let people be like kindergarten students.Again, no problem.I asked the president for the address of Noguchi's studio, and hung up the phone after saying that I would go there immediately.

【Shile, I suddenly have something to do, so I'm leaving first】

He tried to say hello, but he stared at An Nai who was filming on the field.The intoxication overflowing from the side face shows that he has completely plunged into the world of loving stars.Logically speaking, I should also be able to immerse myself in that kind of happiness.Hirao turned and left with such a melancholy mood.

【... Excuse me, I am a member of the F photography club】

After saying so through the intercom, the door lock was released with the man's "Okay" greeting.When I was waiting for the elevator, I realized that I had completely forgotten the etiquette of the necessary snacks when visiting the door to apologize.Should I go back and buy it?After thinking about it for a while, I decided to go all out.

Pingliang, who was born with a stuttering problem, has suffered countless experiences for the kind of people who do not review their behavior and rely on their strong positions to be superior.I have long been used to it.Just bow your head, admit your mistake, and curse secretly in your heart.Bastard thing, shameless, nasty bastard bastard--

【...I am Hirara from F University.I'm really sorry about this incident]

Cursing repeatedly in his heart, he bowed deeply to Noguchi who stepped forward to welcome the guests.Childish Ojisan.Feel free to scold.Nasty bastard bastard ---

[Uh~~ What's the matter, I'm sorry? 】

Nasty bastard bastard... eh?Hirara straightened his bowed upper body.

[That is, the last photo session.Only thing I didn't send a photo....】

【Whoa whoa.Coming so soon.Sorry to call you here.Come, please come in. 】

Then he kindly led Hirao inside, making people confused.Didn't he say he was very angry?Only at this time did I regret that I should have prepared some snacks.

[Just find a seat over there and sit down.I'll make some coffee or something]

Magazines, photobooks, and document bags piled high on the designated sofa.

【Casual means just arrange some space and sit down】

After receiving the instruction, Hirao timidly folded the magazine and pushed it to the side, then sat down.

Unknown older man, professional photographer's studio.The mixture of unhappiness, nervousness and curiosity made Hirao restless.With the habit of bowing his head, he only moved his eyes to observe the room.In the spacious studio that opens up the entire floor space, items are scattered in a mess.Coupled with the undecorated concrete walls, it looks like a warehouse at first glance.

【Awaited】

Noguchi came back with iced coffee.Ice and coffee filled shiny copper mugs.Noguchi urged on the grounds that the taste would fade soon, and Hirao stuttered in response [Well, then I'm not welcome. ] and bowed his head before taking a sip.Seeing Hirashi's slightly surprised expression, 【It's delicious, right? 】Noguchi smiled triumphantly.

[I [only] coffee is always serious about brewing]

I think so too.Glancing at the scene of the studio that was too cluttered to move forward in a straight line, he thought to himself.

【It's really messy and exaggerated】

I almost couldn't hold back the action of nodding and seconding, I came to apologize.

[The former assistant went back to his hometown a while ago.what a shame】

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