Spring comes and snows home

Aunt Li's narration of the past, Ruan Yang's ramblings to the cemetery, and Qin Yi pieced together the complete story on the way home.

Aunt Li said that Ruan Yang’s fetal breath was unstable during pregnancy, and he was accompanied by daily soup and medicine, which resulted in weak spleen and stomach, and morning sickness became more and more serious day by day. In addition, the weather in Sixiang was hot, and Ruan Yang could not eat at all except drinking a lot of water until June. , quickly became emaciated, and the doctor told me to stay in bed and not walk around.

Unfortunately, misfortunes never come singly, and something happened.

——Baby, when Dad was pregnant with your brother, Dad suffered a lot. His stomach suddenly swelled up, which made my heart burn. Slowly, he would also kick me. Once he kicked me, I would be happy and call your father. Touch it, touch it, and your brother won't move when your father touches it, it's naughty.

——Baby, you are the same. When you were in my womb, I was also happy when you moved, but your father hadn't been here at that time, and he didn't have time to tell him that you had been.

——Before he knew it, you left Dad again, and Dad didn't want to tell your father, because he would definitely be as sad as me.It's okay, baby, don't be disappointed, Daddy will be here with you and love you even more.

Ruan Yang gently caressed the thick soil under his palm, as if caressing a child in his womb.The scene from last night caught Qin Yi's eyes. Even if Aunt Li told the past today, Qin Yi couldn't find a trace of resentment from Ruan Yang's eyes. Wipe away the loneliness hidden in the shadows.

"Sixiang is no more heavily guarded than the Qin Mansion in Qingcheng. No one would have thought that people in the court who disagreed with the master's party would brazenly send people to sneak into the Sixiang mansion, poison and assassinate the only son of the master. Gunpowder." Aunt Li was still afraid when she remembered the scene at that time, and said regretfully, "There are only a few servants in Sixiang Mansion, Xiaoyuan and I went to the pharmacy to get medicine for Ruan Yang, and we just escaped this catastrophe, and the rest of the servants were killed. And Ruan Yang has been deficient in Qi and blood since she was conceived, and rests in the mansion all day long, so it is natural that she will not escape."

"I also heard about the experience in the middle. The master and wife don't allow us to spread it to the outside world. Just listen to it for now and don't spread it outside."

It is said that Ruan Yang ate the first meal at that time.Ruan Yang had a sensitive constitution during pregnancy and a sharp rejection reaction. The moment she swallowed, vermilion spewed out of her throat. Ruan Yang pressed her chest in a panic, cried out pain, lay on the table and covered her lips. The spittoon, the blood overflowed from between the fingers, soaked the simple and elegant tablecloth in an instant, and dripped on the floor.

——I remember, I should have eaten a mouthful of vegetable leaves.What kind of vegetable leaves, I can't remember.But after eating it, my stomach hurts, my chest is hot, my whole body is hot, my throat is sore and itchy, I coughed, my palms are full of blood, but I have no time to think, because my whole body is hurting, just like It's like being burned, it hurts and it's hot, your father touches me, it hurts like hell.

Qin Yan paled in shock, hugged Ruan Yang in his arms, patted Ruan Yang's flushed cheeks, and said nervously, what's wrong with you?Come on!Call the doctor, hurry up!

——Your father asked me what happened?I couldn't speak, as soon as I spoke, the blood came out, he hugged me very tightly, and I was in more pain, I remember I grabbed his hand, rubbed his clothes with blood, and remembered that he said blood It will bring bad luck, but I don't have time to think about it.

Ruan Yang lost his strength and clutched his aching stomach, Brother Yan, I can't eat, it hurts so much.

—— While I was still awake, I told him that this dish must not be eaten, it will hurt.

Qin Yan yelled several times, but he didn't call his servants, so he picked up Ruan Yang and prepared to send him to the hospital, but he didn't expect to be shocked, and the turmoil broke out again.

——Your father held me in his arms, I was trembling with pain, but there were two masked men blocking the door with knives, your father put me back on the bed, and planned to go out to deal with those masked men but he has nothing in his hand.

— How could I let him go alone.

—Baby, do you get scared when you hear this?But you're afraid, and you won't cry, right?What to do, I really want to say.

——Well... don't listen to the baby, let me tell the little bottle, be good, be good, baby.

Someone came in with a mask on his face and a knife. When the blade approached the two of them, Qin Yan put Ruan Yang back on the bed. Ruan Yang was trembling with pain, pinching his painful belly, as if he was in a big fireball, his skin was burning like fire After roasting, the blood below gradually dripped out and remained on the wooden bed.Sweat slipped into the eye sockets, stinging his eyes, Ruan Yang panted heavily, squinted his eyes, Qin Yan smashed the plate, picked up the pieces and rushed out.

The masked man cut Qin Yan's arm.

——Brother Yan's arm was scratched a few times, my heart ached, but my stomach also hurt, I quickly held my breath to gather strength, and shouted for help.

— but no one was around.

——I wanted to help, but I didn't have the strength, as if... seemed to roll out of bed.

Ruan Yang hugged his aching belly, couldn't see the direction of the bed rails, stumbled and rolled out of bed, couldn't stand still, knelt on the ground, a mouthful of blood spewed out, sprinkled on the bluestone board, more and more The blood soaked his hem, and the bloodstains on his knees stretched from the edge of the bed to the dining table. He reached out and swept the candlestick on the ground with one hand.

——There is nothing in the room, I found a candlestick.

Ruan Yang's hands trembled due to pain, and he needed the strength of his hands to hold the candlestick tightly. He bit the red wax with his teeth, exposed the sharp tip of the candlestick, leaned over to protect his stomach, and stabbed at the two masked men. The blade of the man in front was dodged by Qin Yan left and right, Ruan Yang took advantage of the gap, penetrated into their space, and stabbed one of them into the belly.

The blade of the masked man who was stabbed scratched Qin Yan's arm, and the bones were visible. Ruan Yang's eyes were full of blood, which reminded him of the blood his father splashed in the market, covering his face. Come on, make him nauseous.But he didn't have time to worry about the rejection of his body, he grabbed the candlestick with both hands and pulled it back, a series of blood droplets sprayed on Ruan Yang's white and delicate arms.

——Little bottle, actually, when I think about it now, I'm still quite scared.I don't like blood.

Qin Yan protected Ruan Yang with his chopped arm, the masked man seemed to be still in shock, Ruan Yang gasped for breath, fearing that the two would come forward again, he vomited thick blood with a puff , drank again and inserted the candlestick firmly into the belly of the masked man, begging, don't, don't come here.

The masked man fell down suddenly, the candlestick was stuck in his waist, pierced to the back, and he couldn't pull it out.The masked man was stunned by the collapse of his companions, the blade lit up, and he attacked again, Qin Yan held Ruan Yang in his arms, the fragments pierced his sleeve, Ruan Yang was awakened by the blood red eyes , he said softly, Brother Yan, my stomach hurts, I can't walk fast, there must be more than one person outside, you hurry up and call someone to save me, okay?

The originally fair face was covered with blood, and it was hard to tell whether it was his or someone else's. Qin Yan looked at him, hugged him, and said softly, there must be someone outside calling for help, Yuan An, don't be afraid.

The masked man said, the people outside have long been cleaned up, Young Master Qin, our target is you.

——As soon as I heard that his target was Brother Yan, Brother Yan was a good husband arranged by my father, so of course I couldn't let Brother Yan be in danger.

Ruan Yang roared from his throat, and said in a trembling voice, Brother Yan, hurry up and call someone.

come save me.

Probably because the masked man didn't expect the power of the dying man just now, Ruan Yang quickly pushed Qin Yan out of the door with one stride, and at the same time he turned around and bit the masked man's wrist while closing the door, biting his sharp teeth fiercely. Holding the fragile cortex, he threw the knife that the masked man dropped when he let go of the pain into the distance.

The lips trembled uncontrollably, and the overflowing blood also flowed out continuously.

The body of the masked man was hugged tightly by Ruan Yang's swollen belly, and his knees naturally kicked towards his belly.Ruan Yang was sobbing in pain, tears kept flowing, his mouth was more forceful, the wrist bitten by his teeth gradually penetrated into the blood vessels, his white teeth were gradually bleeding, the masked man was anxious to get away from the target, and said in a panic, let go, let me go.

——Little Pingzi, I will not let him catch up with Brother Yan.Of course I want to bite to death.I remember that my head was dizzy at that time, all I knew was that I wanted to bite.

The masked man punched him hard on the back with his elbow, I let you go!

The back under the heavy blow made Ruan Yang gradually bend over, groaned a few times, and vomited a few mouthfuls of blood. The pain in his abdomen continued, and the tearing pain ran rampant in his abdomen. He gradually knelt on the ground and exerted more force. Hugging the waist and abdomen of the masked person, the white and thin arms showed blue veins, and the strength did not loosen at all.The masked man had no choice but to hit him hard on the head. Ruan Yang's head swayed, he was confused for a moment, blinked and shouted, I will never let you catch up with Brother Yan.

Biting the blood vessels on his wrist even harder, the teeth could no longer tell whose blood it was, and his mouth was full of fishy smell.

——Little bottle, I was pretty brave back then, right?I bit that man's arm, and I didn't let go at all. I couldn't kill him, mainly because I don't know if brother Yan ate the vegetables. In case of poisoning, he will know the antidote.Am I smart?

——Who thought they were so bad, they set fire to it, and I couldn't breathe.

--Um?Little bottle, you underestimate me, how can I give up so easily, of course I hold my breath and continue to bite, otherwise what if he goes out to find Brother Yan.

Boom.

The gunpowder buried in the corner of the mansion gradually ignited, and the thick smoke forced into the nostrils, making it difficult to breathe.Ruan Yang felt the wetness of his hem, clinging to his calf and flowing down, winding into a blood river beside him, flowing out of the door along the bluestone slab.The masked man never gave up chasing him. He hit him hard on the neck continuously. He let go instantly in pain. When the masked man was about to chase him out, Ruan Yang hugged him hard with two knees. He was so dizzy that he couldn't see clearly. Grab the wrist and bite into the mouth.

——Maybe it hurts when I bite him, and it hurts when he hits me, so you must not fight, if the fight is not good, both of you will hurt.

——He moved like a layer of fire was rubbing against the skin. Now when the weather is hot, my skin still feels like fire. Sometimes I feel like God is going to roast me when I lie on the bed without doing anything, and it is difficult to put on clothes. It hurts, it hurts even when you hold things in your hands, and it doesn’t hurt to soak in cold water, but you will get sick, and it’s not good if you get sick.

The wooden star on the window ignited, and the fire approached the room from the surroundings, and the temperature suddenly rose to an unacceptable level for Ruan Yang. His skin seemed to be burned by the fire, and the blood vessels were exposed, and the whole person was immersed in the chaotic consciousness. middle.The burning wood fell from the house, Ruan Yang took one from the side, turned his head and slapped him hard on the head, crying, don't die, you...you can't die.

The masked man was above Ruan Yang, inhaling the thick smoke, he was already fainted, and when he was knocked again, he fell to the ground, and the burning beams fell from above, igniting the fabric in the house, and the flames behind him became more and more intense .Ruan Yang knelt on the ground, the blood in his body never stopped overflowing from his mouth, his slightly protruding belly sank down, the heat flowed cheerfully, and the tearing pain became more and more obvious.

— as painful as losing your first child.

——I seem to have a hunch that I can't keep him.

The familiar pain made Ruan Yang's face full of tears, he drank, carried him on his back, and dragged him out.

Opening the wing room, Ruan Yang was exhausted, his body went limp, and the masked man was stuck on the threshold, and his stomach hurt uncontrollably, he hugged his stomach and rolled on the ground, he just wanted to escape from the scorching fire .

He bumped into Qin Yan who came back from asking for help, and the bloody two were separated by the flames. Qin Yan rushed into the burning flame without hesitation, hugged Ruan Yang in his arms, and went straight to the hospital.

——I knew that Brother Yan would definitely come back to find me. The moment I saw Brother Yan, I was really happy.But if I die, will brother Yan have to get along with Shopkeeper Wang?Little bottle, do you think brother Yan will do this?

Qin Yan was in a state of shock, hugged him and ran to the hospital. Ruan Yang buried him in his arms and said that it hurt, that his skin was as hot as a fire. When he was unconscious, he began to tear his clothes, bleeding from his mouth, trembling in his arms. And don't want his touch.Qin Yan's hands were covered with blood, and he almost knelt down to send it to the doctor, begging the doctor to give him a good treatment.

The doctor said that Ruan Yang's poisoning was not deep, but he missed the best time to take the antidote, and the poison was hard to get rid of. Afterwards, his skin would be scalding in summer and cold in winter, and the sensation gradually deepened with the change of seasons and weather.And this pair of eyes will be completely blind in about one month.

Qin Yan glanced at Ruan Yang, who was in a coma, and said in a trembling voice, is there no other way?What medicine is needed, I will get it, I will buy it, I will dig it, doctor, please tell me, how, how can I save him? !

The doctor said, there is no way.Mr. Qin, if you can take the antidote immediately, there may be a solution, but you have to understand, if the poisoner wants to live, why bother to poison.Even if there is a solution to the poison, it will not make people feel too good.

——Fortunately, I was the only one who was poisoned, otherwise Brother Yan would not have seen it.It doesn't feel good to be invisible. It's dark in front of my eyes. I have to live alone. When I can't see, I still feel a little scared.

—Fortunately, I still have a small bottle with me.You say yes, little bottle, I am like you, no one will listen to what you say, so we have to listen to each other.

Qin Yan knelt in front of the bed, holding Ruan Yang's blood-soaked palm, weeping uncontrollably.The doctor sighed and said, the child will not be able to keep it, I will make a bowl of soup later, he drank it, and the child will recover.

Qin Yan suddenly let go of Ruan Yang's palm, punched the bed with his fist, and said harshly to the officers and soldiers outside, please tell your lord, I must find out who is behind the scenes tonight, if I can't find out, I'll do it step by step It was reported to the higher levels that I, Qin Yan, had no official position in the court, but that person set fire to poison in broad daylight, it was too arrogant!If the government can't control it, I will find another way.Adults must be well aware of the pros and cons.

——The first time I woke up, brother Yan gave me medicine, and I told him that my stomach hurts, and he told me that the pain will be gone later.

——I drank the medicine, and it hurt even more, as if...someone put a knife in, scraped it lightly, then stabbed it hard, and it was like being hit by a masked person with greater force fist.The doctor said that the contractions started, and the baby was about to come out after a long time of pain.

——I don't understand, I thought the baby was about to be born, brother Yan cried very sad after hearing what the doctor said, so I cried too.

Qin Yan felt distressed, and hugged him in his arms, thinking that he was acting like a baby in his arms, crying non-stop, but he was so painful that he slapped Qin Yan's hand away, crying and screaming for pain all the time, curling up in the frivolous Under the quilt, covering his face, he rolled and sobbed, rolling out irregular bloodstains back and forth.Qin Yan shouted softly, Yuan An, what's wrong, you tell brother Yan.

Ruan Yang rolled on the bed with his belly in his arms, not daring to touch his own skin, crying, Brother Yan, I'm so hot, so hot, so uncomfortable, so painful.

Ruan Yang used crazy strength to tear the clothes unconsciously, tearing them into strips of cotton cloth. Qin Yan was at a loss, coaxing him that the pain was gone, and the pain was gone after drinking the medicine, while crying uncontrollably.

"When we rushed back, it was very distressing to hear him say these things outside." Aunt Li looked sad and sighed softly, "Ruan Yang is most afraid of pain."

When the doctor came to lift the quilt, Ruan Yang had already taken off himself, a layer of swollen red surfaced, his neck, shoulders, and back were hit by elbows, and there were scars like welts, and the butterfly bones were carved The word Qin Yan is very clear, the belly is bulging, and the child is rolling in the belly at this moment.

The doctor pondered and said, it was the miscarriage medicine that worked.

The baby they had been looking forward to for a long time was still active in the womb the day before, and they pressed their overlapping hands on the belly, as if they were joking about naming things, but today's activity means that the time of death is approaching.

Qin Yan kissed Ruan Yang's forehead and comforted him gently, but Ruan Yang resisted very much, he pushed away and cried, Brother Yan, it hurts so much when you touch me, it hurts everywhere, it hurts more than last time, Brother Yan, I am so hurt, I am so scared, I want you to hold me, but you hold me, I hurt.what should I do?

The doctor said softly, you have been poisoned, and the weather is so hot now, you will be on fire.I'm going to prick your acupuncture points with gold needles later, so that the baby can come out smoothly, you have to cooperate.

Ruan Yang panicked, grabbed Qin Yan, and cried, what's going on?Why do you need to get needles again?Why should it be the same as last time?Brother Yan, Brother Yan, why is this happening?

Qin Yan knelt beside her and wept uncontrollably. I'm sorry, Yuan An, our child, can't be kept anymore.

——Little bottle, I didn't know until then that I was going to lose my second baby.

— When I lost my second baby, it hurt even more.

——Last time, I didn't know that the baby had come, and I was sad for a while afterwards.But the second time, I knew that the baby was in my stomach. I took a lot of hard medicine to look forward to it. Before that day, he kicked me in my stomach. How could he carry my expectation like this? Hope, just leave?

—Little bottle, I, I'm a little sad.

Ruan Yang's hand protecting his belly was forcibly broken away by the drug boy, and his legs were tied to the bed by the drug boy. The children in the house are enjoying the last activity in the world, bouncing and bouncing, Ruan Yang wants to comfort him, begging the doctor to let him comfort his children.

The doctor sighed and gave him a second needle in his stomach.The thick golden needle stood on the top, Ruan Yang gradually had difficulty breathing and his heart was stabbing, but his hands were held down, unable to move, he turned his head to ask Qin Yan for help, Brother Yan, tell the doctor not to stab our baby ,OK.

Ruan Yang's voice was hoarse and weak, Qin Yan heard a burst of heartache, nodded heavily, choked up and said, Yuan An, it doesn't hurt, I will accompany you.I will surely seek justice for you.

Ruan Yang broke down and cried, saying, I don't want justice, I want my baby.You, can you, don't let him leave me.

Qin Yan couldn't hide the weeping sound in his throat, and there was heavy panting in his nose, but he squatted beside Ruan Yang sadly, comforting him, I will accompany you, brother Yan will accompany you.

The doctor gave golden needles one after another, and the golden needles were distributed on Ruan Yang's abdomen. Ruan Yang's body couldn't stand each time the golden needles were pierced. In addition to the scorching heat gathered by the fireballs, there is also a pain that is dense and non-stop, but his limbs are bound, so he can only rub his back in the original position, bite the scattered crow hair, and endure. Live until the pain gradually rises to the limit.

The doctor said that if the golden needle is stuck here for an hour, the baby in the womb will become more and more active, and when it reaches the most active time, it is the best time to conceive.

Qin Yan waved his hand to stop the doctor from saying that he wanted to stay here with Ruan Yang.Accompany him to spend this hour, accompany him to feel their child, spend this last hour.

After the doctor and the medicine boy left, Qin Yan untied the white belt that bound his wrist, and Ruan Yang was half awake from the pain, only to see Qin Yan smiling dotingly at him, wiping the greasy sweat off his forehead, Said, Yuan An still wants to touch the baby, right?

Reassured by Qin Yan's gentle gesture, Ruan Yang pouted and nodded aggrievedly.

Qin Yan gently held his hand and said in a warm voice, then let's be careful and feel the baby slowly.

The weak wrist was held by him, and it touched the burning belly. When the fingertips touched it, it seemed to be scalded, but Ruan Yang missed the baby so much. On the belly, with his stroking, the golden needles on the belly trembled.

This is the baby he has raised for six months, and he will come to them safely in three more months. He is so active at the moment, and he wants to live so much.

Ruan Yang cried softly, baby, I failed to protect you.

Qin Yan choked up softly and said, it's my fault that I didn't protect you well.

An hour later, the doctor came back, and Qin Yan was kicked out.Blood had already covered the bent thighs. The doctor lifted Ruan Yang's legs and fixed them in the depression of the hospital bed. Ruan Yang closed his eyes and tried to comfort himself.it does not matter.

The doctor took out all the golden needles that were stuck on the stomach, where the golden needles were pierced, the dense needles and scalding tormented Ruan Yang who was gradually comatose.The doctor asked him to exert force with the contractions.

——but I don't want to push at all, and I want to spend more time with the baby.

Seeing that he refused to use force, the doctor was afraid that the child's activity would decrease later and it would be difficult to come out, so he persuaded Ruan Yang that you should cooperate now, otherwise the child will be in danger for a long time.

Ruan Yang shook his head desperately.The doctor had no choice but to yell to offend him, and pressed on his stomach, the touch of the doctor's palm made Ruan Yang scorching hot, the doctor pressed hard, and pushed down hard, Ruan Yang cried endlessly, The restrained wrist was rubbed red and swollen by the white tape, shouting repeatedly, don't press, don't press, it hurts.

As soon as the doctor pressed it, the gushing blood gathered in the sunken small basin, filling the small basin, and the medicine boy handed it out.Qin Yan asked, are you still okay?

The medicine boy shook his head, and went in with a small clean basin.Ruan Yang was terrified by the doctor's strength, sobbing repeatedly, "I'm pushing, I'm pushing, don't press, I'm pushing."

The doctor shouted, use force.

Ruan Yang straightened his waist, with sweat dripping on his chest, his wrist hooked by the white belt strangled Qingzi, and he let out a long cry. When he fell down, he couldn't help sobbing, his breath lost its rhythm.He stood up again, his thin body reflected a few ribs, and his belly was so thin that it bulged, and the life there had poured out the painstaking efforts of the past few months.

At this moment, it is slowly leaving.

Ruan Yang held his breath, lost his mind, and instinctively obeyed the doctor's instructions, clenching his teeth again and again, holding back the hot pain on his skin, and continued to straighten his waist and push it out forcefully. He could clearly feel the opening being stretched. , the blood kept flowing, but after half an hour, the doctor said that the child had reached the exit, and if he tried again, the doctor would help to drag it out.

Ruan Yang stopped moving.His face was pale, sweat and tears intertwined on his white cheeks, allowing the child to prop his mouth open to a position where it could not be closed, his legs that were not closed could not be shaken, and the floating air was scorching, making it difficult for him to breathe.

The doctor said, hurry up and use your strength.

Ruan Yang cried and shook his head.

The doctor came up with both hands, pressed directly on the lower abdomen, on the legs of the child in the belly, and slowly pushed it out forcefully. Ruan Yang was trembling with pain, and his whole body was trembling. He cried and said, doctor, why?

His voice was weak, even inaudible, so no one answered him.

The doctor directly dragged the child out, Ruan Yang was forced to open the exit for a long time, suddenly relaxed, and then trembled uncontrollably again, and the blood under his body once again filled several small basins.

—Little bottle, I swear, I really heard him cry.After a while, he stopped crying.The doctor told me it was a boy.

——Later, I also forgot later, I couldn't see clearly, brother Yan seemed to come in, and so did father and mother.I feel so tired, I should be asleep.

——Little bottle, so you say that brother is really brave, right?My brother gave birth to two children, so I probably didn't cry as much as I did. I'm too weak, right?

—Well, I should be stronger.

On the way back home, Qin Yi rode his horse and galloped, and the wind howled behind him, blowing away the misty past.When the only thought became clearer, he let out a drink, reined in the horse and stopped in the suburbs, looking around, there was nothing.

Qin Yi closed his eyes, the only thought was.

Ruan Yang has endured pain more than once.

Still alone.