Spring comes and snows home

The ashes of the fire were left, and the faint sparks rose with the wind, spread over the cold cemetery, like stars shimmering in the night sky.

The small dark bottle was held tightly by Ruan Yang, who lay on the cemetery and whispered.Qin Yi couldn't tell whether he was crying or not, but whenever the breeze blew by, the bells all over the red clothes would make a crisp sound, paying homage to the child who passed away in a hurry without even looking at it.

The sky in the distance gradually brightened, and the sparks on the cemetery were completely extinguished. Ruan Yang still huddled into a ball, sleeping soundly with his child.

Qin Yi's gaze swept across the white and thin figure, and then placed it in the gradually glaring light of the sky.

Day after day, year after year, there is no difference between darkness, light, darkness and color in Ruan Yang's eyes.

Leaving the deserted courtyard, Qin Yi went straight into the main hall of the Qin Mansion.Qin Qi, Han Ximing, Qin Yan and Xia Ye are eating breakfast, chatting about homework, enjoying themselves.

Bastards are not allowed to eat at the same table. They usually eat in their own small courtyard, or enter the main hall after they have finished eating.So the four of them were taken aback when they saw Qin Yi coming straight in. Qin Zheng, who was only four years old, was well-behaved and called out Qin Yi's title in a low voice.

Qin Qi put down his chopsticks and glared at him. Qin Yi bowed his head and greeted the four of them.Qin Yan first smoothed things over, persuading him once and for all is okay, but Qin didn't expect to wave his hand when the morning was approaching, and reprimanded him: "Don't make an example."

Qin Yi replied yes, Qin Yan ordered his servants to add an extra pair of bowls and chopsticks, and asked him to sit beside him.Xia Ye wiped the corners of his lips with a handkerchief, went back to his room and changed his clothes, and his servants changed his court clothes for him, ready to go to court with Qin Qi.

A concubine cannot be an official, and Xia Ye was dressed in court clothes, with a heroic appearance, Qin Yi couldn't help being envious, and looked at him a few more times.

This brother-in-law of his always has the appearance of rejecting others for thousands of miles, with no sadness or joy on his face, the city is extremely deep and unpredictable, only the four-year-old Qin Zheng's faint smile is a little warm when he calls .Qin Yan and Qin Zheng sent Xia Ye to the gate of the house together. Qin Yan watched the three embrace each other, and the family of three was full of smiles.

Ruan Yang is also full of smiles, but he can only sleep on the spot with the children in the abandoned courtyard and cemetery.

Qin Zheng is lively and intelligent.And Ruan Yang's child covered by the thick soil can't speak, won't give him any response, won't be like Qin Zheng, who is embraced by Qin Yan and Xia Ye in his arms and call him father, and won't be reluctant to give up to him Xia Ye acted like a baby and refused to let him go to the morning court.

His baby couldn't breathe and could only be buried in the ground.

The suffocation filled with darkness struck, Qin Yi leaned against the pillar, closed his eyes, his lips trembled slightly, as if he felt Ruan Yang's helplessness, bewilderment and boundless loneliness in the darkness all over the sky.

Qin Yan finally abandoned his wife and turned back, asked his servants to evacuate the breakfast and serve the tea set, and asked, "Why are you here today? But your wing room is not very comfortable?"

"Brother." Qin Yi took the teacup handed over by Qin Yan, took a sip down his throat, and said softly, "I've met Ruan Yang."

Qin Yan pondered for a while, then forced a smile, and poured him another cup of tea.

"Oh, I've seen it."

"Ruan Yang, why did he lose his sight?" Thinking of this name, Qin Yi squeezed the cup tightly with his fingers, and asked in a low voice, "Why is he alone in the deserted courtyard?"

Qin Yan frowned and raised his eyebrows to look at him.Qin Yan was not only dissatisfied with Qin Yixing's tone of questioning, but also dissatisfied with his angry appearance at the moment.

"Master, the guests we made an appointment with yesterday have arrived in the hall." The servant stepped forward and bowed his head to report.

"Understood." Qin Yan turned his eyes, stood up, brushed off the dust from his robe, and said with a smile, "unfortunately, the guest we made an appointment with yesterday came."

"But there is one thing I want to tell you." Qin Yan walked to his side and warned Qin Yi in a nonchalant tone, "I advise you not to inquire about Ruan Yang's matter in the future."

Qin Yan sat on the chair and couldn't get up for a long time.

Although Qin Yan, as the concubine son of the Qin family, has a world of difference from Qin Yi, Qin Yan never treats him as a concubine. Hearing Qin Yan's tone for the first time, Qin Yi felt inexplicably sad.

And, the inexplicable grievance.

The servant who had just reported to Qin Yan hadn't left yet, looking at Qin Yi hesitating to speak, this move did not escape Qin Yi's eyes.

"Uncle Fu, you didn't leave with elder brother, do you want to tell me something?"

Uncle Fu followed him out of the main hall, looked after no one else, and whispered in his ear, "If Second Young Master wants to know about that little concubine Ruan, Aunt Li, who once served him, can tell you everything you want to know. She knows everything."

Qin Yi squinted and asked, "Conditions?"

Uncle Fu sighed, and said: "My wife is seriously ill, the doctor said that he would come to the door only if he needed two strings of hanging silver."

Qin Yi gave him two strings of hanging silver, and found him in a detour to Aunt Li's residence in the east of the city.

Aunt Li was teasing the one-year-old little man in her arms in the yard, and the little man climbed up by her little hand.Qin Yi's eyes darkened, and for some reason, he remembered the cemetery where the fire was faint last night.

If Ruan Yang's child survived that winter, will he still be playing on Ruan Yang's tender arms now?

Qin Yi stared at Xiaoroutuan, explaining why he came, then reached out to Aunt Li in a strange way, and rubbed Xiaoroutuan against his cheek.The boy was still naive, and shouted cheerfully one by one, patting his cheek with his palm, which made Qin Yi want to be a father.Aunt Li sighed after knowing the reason for her visit, and told all about Ruan Yang's coming to the Qin residence.

"Ruan Yang has a marriage contract in his hand, but the master has not proposed marriage for a long time. Everyone in the house knows that the master hates Ruan Wuci very much, so naturally it is impossible to treat Ruan Yang kindly, let alone formally marry him as his wife."

When Aunt Li mentioned Ruan Yang, a layer of pity flashed across her face, her squinted eyes couldn't help softening, she laughed softly, and continued: "Of course, Ruan Yang doesn't know about this matter, he doesn't care too much. , never gave it much thought.”

Five years ago, the marriage contract between Qin Yan and Ruan Yang had passed for six years, but Qin Qi still hadn't mentioned the matter of formally marrying Ruan Yang.Ruan Yang chatted with the servants in the small courtyard all day long, and Aunt Li would hear Ruan Yang talking to himself every day.

He always said, Brother Yan is a good husband-in-law my father picked for me, and I want to take it in quickly to prevent others from stealing it.

Hearing this, Qin Yi could imagine that Ruan Yang must be domineering and proud when he said this.Everyone in the Qin family knew that Ruan Yang would not be able to be a regular wife as he wished, but on the surface, he could only dream of superficially domineering dreams. to hand.

Qin Yi couldn't bear it, everyone had to submit to power, even if Aunt Li had compassion, she had to obey her father, so her pity afterwards, in Qin Yi's eyes, interpreted a bit of hypocrisy that shouldn't be there False.

What can Aunt Kelly do?Just like him at breakfast, what can he do in the face of Qin Yan's warning?He is the same, he can only endure, he can only submit, like a spectator, and give him some hypocritical sympathy.

"The young master will come here every day, and the relationship with Ruan Yang seems to be a matter of course."

Ruan Yang would occasionally hold Qin Yan tightly, and said seriously, Brother Yan, if you take a concubine in the future, I will be angry.

Qin Yan never thought that he would only marry wives and not take concubines in this life, so he deliberately played a rogue, said, Xiao Yuan'an, look at other people who don't have three wives and four concubines.Are you tired of serving me alone?

Ruan Yang felt aggrieved, but he didn't know how to refute, and said angrily, anyway, I won't give it!

Qin Yan could just coax him if he wanted to, but pinched his cheeks like in the past.Before Bai Xuetuanzi's cheeks touched him, Ruan Yang glared at him with watery eyes, gritted his teeth with hatred, and said in a low voice, you shouldn't.

Qin Yan replied perfunctorily, let's talk again.

Ruan Yang bit off Qin Yan's index finger.Qin Yan repeatedly cried out in pain and wanted to shrink back, Ruan Yang saw that the pain was tight, let go with a snort, and said, if you take a concubine, I will keep biting, keep biting, keep biting.

Qin Yan's index finger circled the pink tooth marks, gasped, and said, so hard, you are murdering your husband.

After biting it, Ruan Yang felt distressed. He blew hard on his index finger, looked up at his face from time to time, and said timidly, "It doesn't hurt, I didn't even try hard...

Where did Qin Yan suffer from such grievances, his tone was naturally a little harsh, and he said, let me bite and see if it hurts.

Ruan Yang thought about the red marks on his neck, shoulders, and thighs, and whispered, "You didn't bite less, I also hurt every time."

Seeing Ruan Yang's aggrieved appearance, Qin Yan naturally couldn't lose his temper. He hugged him with a smile, wiped away his faint tears, and said softly, "Okay, I'm just kidding you."I must marry Yuan An and come in, and I will go and talk to my father about it.Let Yuan An in as soon as possible, don't let others think about such a beautiful young man.

Ruan Yang couldn't wait to push him out, urging, go quickly.

Qin Yan smiled and said, that's why you want to be my wife.

Aunt Li's grandson couldn't sit still in her arms, and was aggrieved and coquettishly crying. Aunt Li put the grandson on the ground and crawled around, her eyes were fixed on the movements of the little meat ball, and she sighed: "Ruan Yang hadn't passed the house at that time, and the young master often stayed overnight. , although it is inconsistent with reason, but as servants, we can only turn a blind eye."

Aunt Li's grandson occasionally grabbed a handful of dirt, crawled on the ground, and put it in Qin Yi's hands with a smile.The fine soil in his palm slipped down from his fingertips, Qin Yi was in a daze, and combined with Aunt Li's words, he fell into weird thoughts.

He was thinking whether Ruan Yang's inseparable affection for Qin Yan was because Qin Yan was Ruan Wuci's hand-picked husband-in-law, or whether it came from Ruan Yang's true feelings from the heart.

Qin Yi sighed.He didn't know the answer, and he didn't intend to ask in the future.

Ruan Yang scratched the door very patiently for several days, eagerly looking forward to Qin Yan coming to the deserted courtyard.At least when Qin Yan came to the small courtyard, Ruan Yang's satisfied smile was not faked at all. If Ruan Yang really analyzed the reasons other than true feelings, he might lose even the idea of ​​living.

"Since Ruan Yang can't marry as his wife, my father may not be willing to let my elder brother take him as a concubine."

Aunt Li nodded and sighed: "Anyone with a discerning eye can see that, no matter if he is a wife or a concubine, the master doesn't want Ruan Yang to get involved at all, but Ruan Yang..." At this point, Aunt Li shook her head slightly with a sad face, and said helplessly : "He is too determined."

"As early as two years after the marriage contract, the young master married him, and since then, he has ordered me to make soup for him to drink every now and then, adding medicinal herbs that are not easy to conceive in the daily meals. Ruan Yang really doesn't have a heart, except that sometimes he complained about being bitter, and sprinkled a lot of sugar in the kitchen to eat, and he didn't notice anything else." When Aunt Li mentioned Ruan Yang, she couldn't help sighing, "Master and We have to listen to the young master's orders, but if we want to help him, what can we do?"

yes.Even if you want to help him, what can you do?Qin Yi bowed his head in thought, Aunt Li explained his thoughts in one word, and his heart ached for a moment, making him forget the purpose of this trip.He suddenly didn't understand why he wanted to know Ruan Yang's past so urgently.

"Later, the young master thought of a way." Aunt Li's tone paused, her face was full of sorrow and pain, and she said slowly, "The shop managed by Madam has problems in Sixiang, and I will have to stay in Sixiang for about a year. Halfway through the matter, the young master took the initiative to mention going here and secretly brought Ruan Yang there."

"They want to..." Qin Yi murmured unconsciously.

Aunt Li nodded and said: "The young master had no choice at that time. The master has always disagreed, so the young master suggested that if there is a child first, then the master and wife will have to admit it."

"Ruan Yang agreed."

"Yes." Aunt Li lowered her eyebrows and said, "Ruan Yang was a bit arrogant when getting along with the young master, but he rarely disobeyed the young master, so he would naturally listen to him about this matter. However, Ruan Yang didn't know, the young master ordered But let him take Bizi Decoction and Bizi medicinal materials for a long time. Ruan Yang is naturally not easy to conceive if this is the case for a long time, and I found out later that he had had a miscarriage before. It is conceivable that it is even more difficult to conceive a child .”

Qin Yi pieced together the fact that Ruan Yang had a miscarriage from the incoherent words in Ruan Yang's cemetery. Now that he has confirmed it from Aunt Li, the situation is even more detailed.

He couldn't imagine how Ruan Yang, who was crying and screaming in pain even when tattooing, resisted the pain of Yaotong pressing his abdomen for half a month.

Ruan Yang's pale face floated in front of his eyes, and when Yaotong touched him lightly, he protected his bruised belly, with tears on his face, begging Yaotong to be gentle, accompanied by sobbing miserably, he couldn't stop Begging to be gentler, lighter again, he hurts, he is sad, he misses Brother Yan.

Qin Yi clenched his fists, the veins on the back of his hands protruded, and his eyes flickered with anger.Aunt Li looked into her eyes, worried, and asked: "You and Ruan Yang... don't have an affair?"

Aunt Jing Li reminded that Qin Yi knew that he had lost his composure, and replied in a low voice: "No."

"It's fine if you don't have one. Forgive me to remind you, although the young master is married now and has several concubines, but Ruan Yang is still your little brother-in-law after all, you must not go beyond the rules." Aunt Li hesitated, "Master doesn't like Ruan Yang. It's a well-known thing in the house. He told us not to talk too much with him before, but he didn't get annoyed. He took the trouble to ask our young master when he will come every day. He really doesn't have a heart."

"Don't make him hurt again."

"Yeah." Qin Yi answered absently, and asked, "Ruan Yang has not been married as his wife, so my elder brother's plan has failed?"

"Yes, and no. Half a year later, Ruan Yang became pregnant successfully. If it wasn't for that accident, maybe he would be the official wife of the Qin family today."

Qin Yan and Ruan Yang Fang Zhi Sixiang, without restraint, are tired of being together day and night.After three months without any movement, Qin Yan asked the doctor to come over for a pulse diagnosis.The doctor frowned, and said, Ruan Yang's miscarriage last time caused a lot of damage to his body, and he didn't take care of it later, so he might not be able to conceive in the future, so he prescribed a few medicines to recuperate his body to make up for the loss.

Qin Yi thought, if Ruan Yang heard such news, he would be sad again, crying like pear blossoms with rain.

Ruan Yang didn't think the medicine was bitter anymore, he would drink every drop without leaving the bottom of the bowl clean, hoping that the baby would come soon.He asked Qin Yan every day when the baby would come back, and every time he took the medicine, his stomach hurt.Qin Yan also felt really distressed, and always answered him soon, soon.

After drinking the decoction for three months, Ruan Yang was so happy that he was pregnant, he jumped to the shop to look for Qin Yan. Qin Yan was shocked and quickly sat down with his little ancestor.Ruan Yang was so happy that he didn't need to drink the bitter soup anymore, he was talking to Qin Yan and tears dripped down his face.

Finally, I no longer need to drink medicine.Qin Yi guessed that Ruan Yang would sigh like this.

Thinking of this, the corners of Qin Yi's mouth curled up unconsciously, happy for him.This is a very strange feeling, as if the bitterness of the medicine that Ruan Yang drank at that time produced an astringent taste on the tip of the tongue, and was immediately covered up by dense sweetness.

"The young master was very kind to Ruan Yang during that time. I was afraid that he would bump into him, and Ruan Yang had severe morning sickness. If he wanted to eat a certain food, the young master would try his best to get it." Aunt Li sighed, "If the child is born safely Come down, the master and wife can't hold back the young master, and since there is a marriage contract in hand, maybe the master and wife will really agree."

His father loves face the most. The marriage contract with the seal has passed for several years, and he has not yet officially married. promise.Qin Yan's trick is indeed feasible.

"At that time, the relationship between the two was really good. But you also know that the young master's temperament is unstable, and it is common for him to go on and off."

When Ruan Yang was four months pregnant, the baby was writhing in her stomach, and happily ran to Qin Yan to share her joy, but she saw Qin Yan and shopkeeper Wang being intimate together.Ruan Yang bumped into them a few times before, but at that time he felt the baby's activity was too happy, and his mood fell from a height under the shock. He touched his slightly swollen belly, his whole body was cold, pointed at them, and said aggrievedly, Why are you so close.

Of course, shopkeeper Wang left Qin Yan quickly.Qin Yan felt that he had lost face in front of everyone, so he ignored the occasion and directly got angry at Ruan Yang, asking, "Aren't you caring too much?"

Ruan Yang was aggrieved, and when he reprimanded him, his eyes filled with tears instantly, and the tears could not be held back, so he turned his back to wipe away the tears.Qin Yan was very impatient, dragged him to the accounting room, and comforted him, Xiao Yuan'an, don't cry, it hurts me so much.

Ruan Yang held back his tears and said nothing, the water on the back of his hand was wiped from his face.

Qin Yan looked at his powdery nose, his tone softened, and said softly, look at you, you are pregnant, and I am afraid of hurting you, do you think it won't hurt if I hold it in?

Ruan Yang remembered that he also had impulses every morning, sobbed and nodded, saying that it hurts.

Qin Yan asked again, do you want Brother Yan to hurt with you?

Ruan Yang, who has always been well-behaved, couldn't control the gradually deepening grievances, wept and complained, but if you do the same to shopkeeper Wang as you do to me, and do the same thing as him, my heart will hurt very much.

Qin Yan patted him on the shoulder lightly, and comforted him, okay, okay, Xiao Yuan'an is really jealous.Little fool, you are about to become a father, and you still cry all day long, what should you do if your baby loves to cry like you?

Ruan Yang stopped crying, pointed to the swollen belly, and said aggrievedly, the baby moved, kick me.

Qin Yan helped him to sit on the chair, stroked his white and smooth belly, squatted down and pressed it against his belly, and told him, the baby should be obedient.Also, tell your father not to cry anymore, I feel sorry for my father.

Ruan Yang wiped away his tears, laughed through his tears, and said, Brother Yan, I won't cry anymore.

"Is the child born in winter?" Qin Yi asked.He thought of the cemetery that was protected by Ruan Yang's body last night, whether it was this child who was buried underneath.

"Winter?" Aunt Li didn't understand why he asked such a question, and replied, "No, it was summer when Ruan Yang had a miscarriage."

summer.

Not born in winter.

Qin Yi's face was pale, so Ruan Yang had miscarried twice.

But he is afraid of pain.He is afraid of pain.

"what's going on?"

"When Ruan Yang was pregnant for six months, the master's hostile party sent people to infiltrate the mansion, poisoned and set fire to it, and the young master almost died." Aunt Li pursed her lips, and said after a long time, "Ruan Yang was involved, the child was only six months old at the time."

The stories that fell on my ears suddenly became true, and the answer that was ready to come out was silent during Aunt Li's pause.Qin Yi clenched his lips and tongue to keep himself from speaking out, but they knew each other well, the child who had only been in Ruan Yang's belly for six months...

"...I can't live anymore." Aunt Li said with a sigh, "It was also at that time that Ruan Yang was poisoned and has been blind since then."