Spring comes and snows home

Ruan Yang's skin was scalding all over his body, and he didn't want others to touch him more.Qin Yi accompanied him, and waited for him to slowly sit down on the stone table. He roasted the braised pork wrapped in oiled paper over the unextinguished firewood, randomly picked a few wild vegetables that had not rotted in the ground, washed them and put them on the table. The only earthen pot is boiled and picked up.

There was a slight sound of oil paper rubbing against the stone table, and every time Qin Yi took apart a bit of oil paper, Ruan Yang couldn't help but approach Qin Yi's side, wanting to covet the braised pork inside for a long time.

Qin Yi smiled and lowered his eyes, Ruan Yang pinched the chopsticks with his long white and slender fingertips, looking as if he was about to eat something, when he squinted his eyes, his thick black eyelashes fluttered, Qin Yi smiled, and moved the shiny braised pork to him.

"Little brother, try it."

"It's braised pork, it tastes like what brother Yan gave me back then." Ruan Yang approached the oil paper with the tip of his nose, exhaled into his mouth to cool it down, raised his head and smiled at him: "It's so fragrant, thank you brother, certainly delicious."

Qin Yi knew that his three words could not be separated from Qin Yan's temperament, so he didn't care too much about him, his eyes were soft, and he didn't miss any of Ruan Yang's movements.Ruan Yang didn't seem to be very good at using chopsticks, so he couldn't hold a piece of braised pork stably, so he simply pierced it with his chopsticks. After several times, he finally poked a piece of meat, and he couldn't wait to bring it to his mouth.

The steaming braised pork made him difficult, he thought for a while, licked it with the tip of his tongue, and the tip of his tongue was on fire, and when he loosened his fingertips, the braised pork rolled into the oiled paper bag.

Ruan Yang stuck out his tongue and whispered, "It's hot, it's burning me to death."

Ruan Yang held back the boiling heat from the tip of his tongue, and sipped to absorb the aftertaste. The smell of meat permeated his mouth. His smile brightened immediately, his eyes narrowed slowly, and he said with a smile, "It's delicious."

No need for another word, Ruan Yang's face was brimming with happiness, and he knew that the braised pork was his favorite taste.

"Eat slowly." Hearing his soft voice, Qin Yi showed a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time, and said with a smile, "I won't fight with you."

"Brother, you are well."

Qin Yi could hear the choking in his voice.Ruan Yang lowered his head and blew on the steaming braised pork, his black hair drooped to cover half of his face, and the water glistened, dripping down his chin onto the oiled paper, dousing the continuous steam from the braised pork.

Qin Yi didn't dare to touch him, and he didn't dare to speak, Ruan Yang still acted as if no one was around, smiling and blowing the braised pork.

Tears flow when sick, and even the eyes get hot.Ruan Yang was in severe pain, wiped away tears with his sleeve, bit off a small mouthful of braised pork, and exclaimed: "It's delicious."

A small mouthful of the braised pork was missing, and the luster remained on Ruan Yang's lips. Qin Yi deeply felt that Ruan Yang looked cute and cute, and when he realized that he was out of line, his fingertips had already rested on Ruan Yang's lips.

His face is close at hand, and the tears that are about to fall are hidden in the empty eyes of the past, but under the soft light, his eyes and lips are smiling upwards, and the breeze blows his few strands of blue hair, like ink on his face Then it is not clear.

Thinking of this, not only did Qin Yi's fingertips not withdraw from his lips, but he couldn't help kneading his lips, and approached him as he wanted.

As Qin Yi gradually approached, the breath exhaled from the tip of his nose, the familiar distance and smell made Ruan Yang's smile gradually freeze.

In another wing of the Qin Mansion, he met Qin Yan for the first time. Qin Yan heated a plate of braised pork with solidified fat on the charcoal fire for him.

For the first time, he saw his future husband up close.

At that time, the two of them were young, and in the quiet and cramped space, the lights burst out, sparking flames burning in each other's black pupils. Qin Yan pretended to wipe the dirt from the corners of his mouth for him, and leaned over to hold the soft mouth while Ruan Yang closed his eyes. lips.

It's Brother Yan.

"Brother Yan?" Ruan Yang has been blind for a long time, and it is a habit to be immersed in the dark, but at this moment, Qin Yantong's black eyes staring at him under the oil lamp, the familiar eyes and breath, even if it is just a flash of memory, makes him excited Confused, he stood up and stretched out his hand to touch it forward, pleasantly surprised, "Brother Yan, did you deliberately play tricks on me?!"

Strong expectations are hidden in the words.

Although hearing him ask such a question, Qin Yi really wanted to grab Qin Yan and put it in front of Ruan Yang, so that Ruan Yang could talk while hugging him, but this shout could only make Qin Yi sober, withdraw from the distance beyond the moment, and comfort him. Said: "Little brother, I am a younger brother."

Ruan Yang's small face collapsed, he was extremely disappointed, thought for a long time, and reminded softly: "Brother, I was too close just now, brother Yan will be unhappy."

"Well, brother-in-law, the corners of your mouth are dirty." Qin Yi casually made an excuse, "I can't make a fool of myself to see my brother later, I'll wipe it for you."

"Really?" Ruan Yang was overjoyed at the thought of going out to see Qin Yan, and immediately wiped off the oil on his lips, and said softly as if remembering something, "Brother, you are right, just wait for me."

Ruan Yang happily counted the bluestone slabs, crossed the threshold, and opened the closet. Qin Yi saw that most of the clothes in the closet were white.Ruan Yang bent down and kneaded the fabric of the clothes, judged the style of the clothes, picked left and right, picked a white robe to put on his body, and said with a smile: "I haven't worn it for a long time, why is it too big, and the sleeves are empty."

He groped to find a stool with both hands, sat in front of the dressing table, used a comb to straighten his undisturbed black hair, carefully tied it up in a bun, turned his head in front of the mirror, looked left and right, and smiled contentedly: "It looks good."

"Little Pingzi, I'm going to see Brother Yan. My younger brother will take me there, so I won't be afraid of getting lost." Ruan Yang found the small bottle, wiped the body of the bottle with his sleeve, and whispered, "But I can't trouble my younger brother to send me back, it may be a few days later. Heaven will find you, you have to be obedient."

"Brother, I'm ready."

Qin Yi had been waiting at the door, and Ruan Yang, who was dressed up, dealt with him, which made his eyes shine again.

Ruan Yang was born to be good-looking, if the loose hair bun and clothes on weekdays make him look like a handsome young man, with a little dressing up now, he really looks like a regular wife.

Qin Yi fixed his eyes on him and shook his head. After Ruan Yang reminded him again, he coughed twice and put a bamboo in Ruan Yang's hand, and said softly: "You are still sick, I It hurts to touch you, but brother can't bear you to fall, I cut a piece of bamboo for you to guide the way, you hold it, is it this height?"

"Yes, brother, you are really skillful." Ruan Yang thanked him.

The road leading to the main courtyard is a whole cobbled path, and weeds are overgrown along the untended roadside.At this time, when Ruan Yang's illness was onset, his skin was painful, not to mention the soles of his feet that were constantly rubbing on the cobblestones.Qin Yi originally wanted him to walk slowly, but he walked very fast, one person and one bamboo, and occasionally turned around to ask Qin Yi the direction, while muttering to himself to remember the route.

Qin Yi could clearly see that the soles of his feet had already been blistered.

There is still a long way to the main courtyard. If it wasn't for fear of his pain, Qin Yi really wanted to carry it on his shoulders, but seeing Ruan Yang's enthusiasm, he ouched a few times and stayed where he was, saying: "Brother Husband, I'm so tired, let's take a rest."

"I'm sorry, brother, I was too anxious and forgot to wait for you." Ruan Yang apologized to him first, this stupid look really didn't match his attire, Qin Yi smiled: "Brother Husband, I delayed your progress, let's rest here in the gazebo."

Qin Yi asked him to sit and rest for a while, and found that his bun was soaked, the sweat on his back soaked into his coat, and the bamboo fell over by itself when he picked it up on the ground. When Qin Yi picked it up for him, he saw Wei Wei Blisters also appeared on the trembling palms.Qin Yi couldn't ask him if it hurt, it would probably just become a nonsense that would aggravate his pain.

"It wasn't like this before." Ruan Yang wiped the sweat from his forehead and said with a smile, "When I first got married to Brother Yan, Brother Yan built a road for me, and when I counted 67 bluestone slabs, I could find him."

"Ok?"

"Really, don't believe it. When I first got married, I always went to look for Brother Yan, and my parents were not very happy. Later, when Brother Yan got married, my parents didn't want me to look for Brother Yan even more." Ruan Yang tilted his head and thought After thinking about it, he said, "It should be because I am afraid that I will affect his relationship with his brother."

A few years ago, on the day Qin Yan married his first wife, Ruan Yang avoided the servants who were resting, looked for the sound of music playing in the main courtyard, counted all the way to 67 bluestone slabs, and arrived at the place where Qin Yan could be found in the past.

People who cannot see have sharper senses of hearing and smell than before. Ruan Yang has a deep understanding. At that time, he clearly felt the breathing stagnation of the people in front of him.

Ruan Yang stepped forward and kneaded the hydrangea in front of Qin Yan, which was much bigger than when he married him. Did Qin Yan should wear this to marry him?

If this happened in the past, maybe there would be a big wedding banquet, but it is different now, he knows that his parents don't like him, the marriage contract has already been terminated by the household department, brother Yan will have a wife and children in the future, and he I can no longer have a child with brother Yan.

Ruan Yang hid his sadness and smiled at him, Brother Yan, are you going to marry a regular wife?

Qin Yan took him to the side, wiped away the silent tears on his face, and said softly, why didn't you wait for me to find you?

Ruan Yang said briskly, can't wait.Brother Yan married his first wife today, I thought, this is also my happy day, so I still want to see you.

Qin Yan looked at his upturned lips, couldn't even tell the right direction when he was speaking, his eyes were red and swollen, he couldn't help touching his little head, and said softly, Yuan An, I'm sorry, I...

Ruan Yang said softly, Brother Yan, should I call him elder brother or younger brother?

Qin Yan said bitterly, he is two years older than you.

Ruan Yang thoughtfully said cheerfully, then I will call him brother.

Qin Yan said warmly, you can shout whatever you want.

Ruan Yang wanted to leave after finishing speaking. He should have been stronger, but he still couldn't help but hug him and buried him in his arms. His tears wet the hydrangea, sobbing, Brother Yan, don't, don't forget me.No one talks to me and I'm scared.

Qin Yan sighed and said, no way.

Ruan Yang was buried in his arms and refused to leave, but was still separated by Aunt Li who rushed over. Qin Yan was also dragged back to the original wedding room by the rest of the people, where his wife Xia Ye was waiting for him.

Ruan Yang's body hadn't recovered yet, after being taken to a dark corner by Aunt Li, he vomited up a few puddles of vermilion while holding the trunk of a tree, and sprinkled it on the bluestone board.

"But I can't influence it." Ruan Yang smiled at him, "Later, after Brother Yan got married, I approached Brother Yan, but I overheard him playing the piano. Brother, have you heard it? It sounds very good."

Of course Qin Yi has heard of it. Xia Ye is a well-known talent in Qingcheng. He knows everything about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting.

"I don't know how to play the piano, but I can draw Brother Yan. Brother Yan said that he looks the best in my paintings. To put it far, well, I heard him chatting with my brother, and they...have a good relationship."

Ruan Yang usually only goes to see Qin Yan in summer. His skin is burning hot in summer and freezing cold in winter. When winter comes, he can't wait to wrap himself into a silkworm chrysalis. No amount of charcoal fire can warm him from the inside. out of the cold.

Qingcheng was flooded a few years ago in the summer, Han Ximing dismissed his servants, and few people came to the deserted courtyard. He was busy repairing the house every day, sweeping out the flood in the house, and had no free time to find Qin Yan.Qin Yan was probably busy with business, so he didn't come to this courtyard in the future.

In winter, apart from having to get out of bed to cook hot food, I basically lie in bed and hibernate.Until the snow melted in spring, he went out happily, fell down immediately, touched the ground, and found that the bluestone slab had turned into cobblestones at some point, and the cobblestones were smoother when covered with snow. Move and lie down for a month or two to recuperate.

Later, he went out a few times, or got lost in other deserted courtyards, stopped and stopped in place, he was terrified of the little bugs that crawled on his feet, and often cried out of fright, and the slurry stuck to his body after he was trampled to death. On the feet, there is no place to wash.

After being frightened several times, I still haven't been able to make good friends with these little bugs.

In the spring of the second year, when Qin Yan came over, Ruan Yang didn't tell him everything about the past half a year, but lay in his arms and couldn't stop crying. Ye is not so crying like you.

Ruan Yang froze, stopped crying tremblingly, and asked, Xia Ye, is that your brother's name?

Qin Yan acquiesced, and Ruan Yang didn't dare to cry anymore.Qin Yan looked around and asked, why is Aunt Li missing?

Ruan Yang replied honestly, Mother said that she would cut expenses.

Qin Yan wondered, I didn't know about this, I'll send a few more people over, we can't let Yuan An here alone.

Ruan Yang choked up and said, it's okay, can brother Yan come to me often, no one talks to me, I can't see, I'm afraid.

Qin Yan repeatedly said yes, then hugged him in his arms and asked, do you miss Brother Yan?

After all, the two have been together for many years. Ruan Yang understood his hint, and sat up on his own initiative, took off his clothes, kissed his neck, all the way to the erect organs, Qin Yan lubricated his back a few times, Unable to force his way in, Ruan Yang knelt on top of him, drowning the pain of tearing apart on his clenched lips.

Ups and downs, the two were sweating profusely, the intertwined flesh was scorching hot, and a hotter liquid hit Ruan Yang's belly, and only then did the child who has been sleeping in the ground until now be born.

Ruan Yang once thought that he would never have children again in his life.

When she had symptoms of pregnancy, Ruan Yangzheng experienced burning skin every summer. In the past, she would vomit when the pain was severe. The initial physical discomfort was never taken to heart.Until the feeling when he was pregnant with the second child happened again, and the third child was like it, bubbling in the stomach, and even occasionally moving inside, he was both happy and frightened.

I'm afraid it will be an empty joy.

He remembered the slippery cobblestone road, so he planned to find a doctor first, and then tell Qin Yan after confirming, but when he wanted to go out from the small hole leading to the outside in the backyard, he groped around the wall several times, and finally confirmed This small hole was blocked at some point.

After a few days, he wanted to go directly to Qin Yan. He wanted to tell Qin Yan that he might be pregnant. Although the Qin government wanted to cut expenses, could he find a doctor for him? He could use some longevity locks as family compensation .

Summer rains are always falling, the cobblestone road is too slippery, he fell to the ground within a few steps, he did not give up, got up holding his slightly swollen belly, and took a few more steps carefully, Fell again.

His clothes were covered in mud, his hair was wet, and the raised pebbles directly hit his injured waist from the heights of the sun. Every movement made him tremble. Hot liquid was quietly dripping from the numb lower limbs.

Having experienced two miscarriages, he is no stranger to this feeling. He no longer cared that the cobblestones might grind away his skin, so he put his arms on the road, dragged his lower limbs with only a little consciousness, let his stomach hang in the air, and crawled. He crossed the threshold and returned to the bed to lie quietly.

No doctor, no herbs, all he can do is pray and talk to himself to resist the panic that erodes his body and mind.

He said, Brother Yan, am I pregnant?

He said, if only I was a doctor myself, I wouldn't have to bother other people.

He said, Brother Yan, are we going to have a child?

He said, child, you have to be strong, Daddy can't lose you anymore.

Fortunately, the child is strong enough.

Thinking of this, he recalled that snowy winter without any surprise. He tried his best to use a hatchet to cut a small hole in the backyard leading to the outside, and wanted to find a doctor for the child, but his lips were covered with Frost, fingers almost frozen, also failed to do so.

Maybe what the doctor said was right, he thought.

He should never have had children.

"Let's go." Ruan Yang stood up in a panic, and quickly walked outside, "Let's go find Brother Yan, don't want to, don't want to."

I was afraid that if I sat for a while longer, I would think of even more unhappy things. If I could see Qin Yan soon, all these unhappy things could be forgotten.

"Little brother, it's just ahead." Qin Yi walked behind and showed him the way.

"Hey, okay, thank you brother." Ruan Yang turned around and thanked him.

"Little brother, the concubine and the concubine cannot be together, so I will leave first." Qin Yi said softly.

"Thank you brother, I can go back later by myself." Ruan Yang bowed to him to thank him, and said with a smile, "Your brother has traveled such a long way."

"Little brother, see you next time." Qin Yi waved to him.

"Goodbye, brother." Ruan Yang also waved in his direction.

"Ruan Yang?" Qin Yan was walking out of the courtyard when he saw Ruan Yang standing alone at the gate of the courtyard, fearing that Qin Qi and Han Ximing inside would find out, so he led him to a corner and said softly, "Why don't you wait for me to find you? If you fall and hurt, brother Yan will feel bad."

"Brother Yan, I finally found you."

Ruan Yang threw the bamboo, threw himself into his arms, hugged him tightly, and murmured.

"I finally found you."