Doctor, I'm really sick

In the early morning of the next day, a car stopped at the gate of the city's No. [-] hospital.Chu Sinian got out of the car and walked into the hospital.

"Good morning, Doctor Chu!"

"Good morning, Doctor Chu!"

"Doctor Chu is back so soon!"

The little nurses greeted each other warmly.Chu Sinian nodded politely, changed into a white coat, adjusted his gold-rimmed glasses, opened the door and entered the office.At the same time, his mobile phone rang "Didi".

[Qin Zhao: Come to the window, look at me! 】

Chu Sinian put down the phone expressionlessly, hesitated for a few seconds, but couldn't help but walked to the window and opened the curtains.

On the open space downstairs, Qin Zhao stood by the flower bed, pointing to the sunflowers blooming in the flower bed with a smile on his face.

[Qin Zhao: The flower in the flower bed is blooming, remember to look at it more, and also look at me more. [Wang Chai]]

Chu Sinian didn't reply.

Qin Zhao raised his arm again, and made a big love gesture to Chu Sinian, and twisted his waist twice for fear that Chu Sinian would not see it.

She is obviously tall and big, but she acts like a cute and cute little girl like no one else around.Around the flower bed, old men and women in hospital gowns cast sympathetic glances at Qin Zhao and whispered to each other.

"Now that the hospital is so relaxed, can the psychiatrists be released for a walk?"

"Hey, who knows, it's a pity to be so young..."

[Qin Zhao: I hope you will give me a reply after you have a good rest. (づ￣3￣)づ╭～]

Chu Sinian raised his hand and slammed the curtains shut.He leaned his back against the wall and exhaled deeply.

The last few words of Yang Weiwei yesterday seemed to linger in her ears again.

"Everything was exposed...the crime is unforgivable...the experience of blood and tears..."

Chu Sinian closed his eyes in pain, and after a long time, slowly opened them again.He picked up the phone and typed a few lines with trembling fingers.

But after typing, he was still reluctant to press "Send".

Repeated several times, the information box is still blank.

"Knock, click!" The knock on the door suddenly interrupted Chu Sinian's chaotic thoughts.He was taken aback, quickly adjusted his expression, cleared his throat: "Please come in!"

The one who came in was a student nurse with round eyes and a student look on her face.She handed a stack of reports to Chu Sinian, with worried and unbearable brows:

"Doctor Chu, your mother, Ms. Jiang's examination report just came out this morning... The deputy director asked me to tell you that your mother's current condition may not make much difference whether she is in the hospital or not. The beds in the hospital are tight, and he hopes you……"

Holding the checklist, Chu Sinian's heart sank slowly and heavily.

As a doctor, in fact, he has long understood that for a vegetative person who has been in a coma all year round, death from multiple organ failure is something that must be faced sooner or later.However, facing this long-awaited result, he still has some complicated emotions that cannot be suppressed.

Finally, is it time to say goodbye?

Chu Sinian raised his head and smiled faintly at the little nurse with round glasses: "Thank you, I see. I'll go through the discharge procedures in a while."

The little nurse with round glasses looked worriedly at Chu Sinian's pale and slightly weak face, and wanted to comfort him a few words, but she didn't dare, so she silently closed the door for him.

A few nurses were chatting in the corridor, seeing the round glasses coming out of Chu Sinian's office, they quickly stopped her and pulled her into the gossip camp.

"Hey, I heard that Dr. Chu's adoptive mother is dying? Is it true?"

The little nurse with round glasses nodded: "Stop talking, Dr. Chu seems very sad...very pitiful."

"Hi, what a silly girl!" said another voice:

"You're new here, don't you know, that adoptive mother burned Dr. Chu's money and ruined him. Otherwise, you think, just relying on Dr. Chu's conditions, as for so many years of not looking for a partner! The girls were scared away It's gone! Now that woman is finally dead, it's a good thing for Dr. Chu! An early death and an early life!"

"That's right, I don't know what Dr. Chu thinks, she's not my own mother, and she's serving her so heartily..."

"Didn't you hear that there was a girl chasing after him a while ago, and sending food and flowers to Dr. Chu's office every day? This girl has really good eyes, and she's attracted to potential stocks. Dr. Chu has come to the end of all hardships!"

"Tsk tsk, isn't it..."

Envious discussions spread to the office. Chu Sinian frowned and closed the door tightly.

The room fell silent.Chu Sinian rubbed his frowning brows, sat back on the chair with a pale complexion, then took out a key, and opened the bottom drawer of the desk.

There were four or five identical leather diaries neatly stacked in the drawer, as well as a box of blue and white medicine boxes.The name of the medicine on the medicine box was torn off, leaving only a few vague numbers on the production date.Chu Sinian picked up the box of medicine and took a look, then threw it into the trash can.

Chu Sinian picked up his phone and pressed a series of numbers.

"Chu Sinian?" The voice on the other end of the phone was a little surprised, but still very gentle:

"You haven't contacted me for a long time. You... how are you doing recently?"

Although it was a question, the voice on the other end of the phone did not use a questioning tone, as if he had already known the answer in advance.

Chu Sinian smiled faintly:

"Very good. However, I would like to ask you to prescribe some duloxetine hydrochloride* again. I haven't taken the medicine prescribed for a long time, and it has expired."

*******

three days later.

In the evening, just after a shower, the rippling Qinglu Lake was shrouded in a circle of faint clouds and mists.The green reeds have pulled out long and resilient reed leaves, rustling with the breeze.As the clouds and mist gradually dissipated, a slightly lonely children's welfare home emerged from behind the reeds.

In recent years, this small town named Linjiang has developed rapidly, and many modern buildings have sprung up. Only this children's welfare home, built in the early 90s of last century, still maintains the simple shape at the beginning of its establishment, with red bricks. Gray tiles, cement floor, simple but neat facilities.Only the big iron characters on the signboard "Linjiang City Children's Charity Welfare Institute" seem to have been replaced not long ago, and it still smells of new red paint, which is a bit out of place.

A white second-hand car stopped smoothly in front of the gate of the Children's Welfare Institute.Chu Sinian opened the car door, carefully carried a frail woman out of the car, and put her on a wheelchair.

"We're here." Chu Sinian knelt down and looked into the woman's eyes: "Let's go in and have a look, shall we?"

The answer to Chu Sinian was silence.

Jiang Qin leaned back on the wheelchair, and stared blankly at Chu Sinian with two out-of-focus, big eyes that could vaguely recognize the style of the year, without any reaction.

Having been ill for several years, Jiang Qin's complexion was pale, her cheekbones protruded high, and there was a sickness in her eyes, ashen and faded like withered leaves in autumn.However, her appearance is very neat, not only does not have the slovenliness smell that ordinary patients who have been bedridden for a long time can't hide, but is even very decent - a red long skirt, a delicate silk scarf, and her long hair slightly dyed with frost and snow is neatly combed, even Even the fingernails are carefully manicured.

Chu Sinian raised his hand and gently smoothed the woman's forehead hair which was blown by the breeze, and then explained the purpose of coming to the old man at the gate.Under the surprised and curious gaze of the old man, Chu Sinian pushed Jiang Qin into the orphanage slowly.

In the corner of the small courtyard of the orphanage, there are two brand new children's slides and a swing.Children in twos and threes are chasing and playing among them.Most of them are 3-6 years old. Boys are uniformly dressed in blue, and girls are uniformly dressed in pink. The clothes are clean and tidy.When they saw Chu Sinian pushing the wheelchair, they all stopped at the same time, and looked over with curious and timid eyes blinking.

"Do you remember these places?"

Chu Sinian pointed to the position of the swing frame, and said to Jiang Qin: "There was a swing here back then, but it was not so new. I like playing here the most. I was also wearing blue clothes like theirs at the time."

Although no one answered, Chu Sinian explained patiently to Jiang Qin every time he walked by, almost like a person talking to himself.

"Do you remember this gate? The first thing I can think of when I was a child is to walk into the big iron gate of this orphanage. At that time, it looked so high, I thought I would live in the gate for the rest of my life... ..."

"There used to be a fountain here, but now it has been changed into a flower bed. I remember that I once fought with other children and was pushed into the fountain pool. The dean rescued me from the pool, and then said to me, if I am a fighter No good adults will come to adopt me. So later on, no matter how bullied I am, I won’t fight back.”

"This is an office building. It was you who took me to go through the adoption procedures here. The children in the orphanage are all unwanted children, and they are also the children who yearn for a home the most. They can be picked up by adults and brought home. What a happy thing. However, generally the ones who are picked away are the best children in our orphanage.

I'm not the best, and I don't understand why luck hit me suddenly.I'm so afraid of you, I'm so afraid that you will suddenly go back on your word and don't want me anymore.I would love to have a mother, a beautiful and gentle mother like you. "

……

Chu Sinian explained as he walked, until he pushed Jiang Qin to the auditorium on the first floor of the orphanage.The wheels of the wheelchair stopped slowly.

Although this is an auditorium, it is only twice the size of an ordinary classroom.As the sun sets, the long reflections of the reeds by the lake are projected on the mottled platform of the auditorium.In the corner on the right, there is also an old-fashioned piano.

After so many years, it turns out that it is still here.

"Let me play a song for you, okay?" Chu Sinian said, "It's still the song we met for the first time, "Poems for Adeline"."

The cover of the piano was opened, and Chu Sinian sat in front of the piano with his ten fingers lightly resting on the keys.

Under the warm orange light of sunset, the fine dust turns into shimmering gold, flying and spinning with the melodious sound of the piano.Chu Sinian slightly raised his eyes, and in a trance, he seemed to have become the thin little boy who was sitting in the middle of the auditorium and preparing to perform.The auditorium was full of people, and under everyone's gaze, the little boy froze timidly, and played the wrong note as soon as he raised his hand.He looked up in shame and embarrassment. In the crowd, a beautiful and elegant woman in a red dress didn't laugh like everyone else, but clapped her hands expectantly at him.

"Xiao Nian's hands are so good, he must be an artist who plays the piano in the future!"

Chu Sinian moved his fingers slightly and deliberately pressed a wrong key.With a harsh sound, Chu Sinian quickly raised his head to look at Jiang Qin.She was still quietly looking at Chu Sinian with her out-of-focus eyes, leaning against the wheelchair motionless with a blank expression on her face.

Any noise has no effect on her.

The sound of the piano stopped abruptly.A figure appeared at the door of the auditorium.

"Is that you? Xiaonian?" An old lady with gray hair, reading glasses, and tunic suit came in. She squinted her eyes and looked at Chu Sinian carefully, with a flash of surprise in her eyes.

"It's really you? I didn't believe it when I heard what Old Zhang said at the door. Until I heard this piece. We've been in the orphanage for so many years, and no one can play it better than you."

Chu Sinian turned around and bowed respectfully: "Dean Li, long time no see, how are you?"

"Okay, okay!" Dean Li responded repeatedly, and she walked over excitedly, looked at Chu Sinian very kindly, and then cast her eyes on the motionless vegetable Jiang Qin beside him.

Dean Li's face changed slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he only sighed.

"You are a good boy. I have worked hard for you these years... Forget it, let's not talk about it. I haven't seen you for so many years. Have you already worked? What are you doing? Are you playing the piano?"

Chu Sinian shook his head: "I'm a doctor now."

A trace of surprise and regret flashed in Dean Li's cloudy eyes:

"Ah... so I don't play anymore. But the doctor is also very good. I remember your mother said when she saw you the first time that your fingers are long and beautiful. From now on, you will either play the piano or hold a scalpel. Now, Are you fulfilling her wish?"

Chu Sinian caressed the black and white piano keys lightly with downcast eyes, and smiled lightly: "That's just to lie to children. Children are always the best to lie to, aren't they?"

Dean Li was stunned for a moment, smiled awkwardly, and changed the topic: "Then you became a doctor to treat your mother, adoptive father and younger sister, right? How are they doing now? It hasn't been two years since you went to that house , the whole family suffered such a serious car accident, really... hey, now that 13 years have passed, they should have almost recovered, right?"

Chu Sinian's eyebrows trembled slightly, and suddenly he returned to calm.

He didn't answer Dean Li's words, but said, "Dean Li, actually I came today to get a certificate."

"Proof? What proof?"

"Proof of parent-child relationship." Chu Sinian said calmly:

"You know. Jiang Qin wanted to adopt me back then, but it didn't comply with the adoption regulations at the time. Until she produced this paternity certificate. The reason why I left the orphanage in the end was not because I was adopted, but because my own The biological mother confessed."

Dean Li glanced at Chu Sinian in astonishment, his eyes dodged: "I... I don't know what you're talking about!"

"Actually, shortly after the car accident, my adoptive father in name found out about it from the blood test report and told me about it." Chu Sinian looked at Jiang Qin who was sitting blankly by the side, his voice was very soft :

"But I still want to see the original evidence. Can I?"

Dean Li knew that finally he couldn't hide it, so he muttered for a long time, and finally compromised.She brought Chu Sinian to the file room, and pulled out a thin kraft paper file bag from the dusty wooden shelf.

"...Good boy, don't blame her. Your mother has always been very kind to you, hasn't she? She must have some difficulties..."

Chu Sinian opened the file sheet, and a yellow paternity identification sheet was revealed.

Chu Sinian laughed at himself.

"I don't blame her."

Among the many abandoned children in the orphanage, only he was picked up by his biological mother.So what if he accidentally learned the truth after being kept a secret for years?Compared with other children, he is lucky enough.

And what is there to blame.