Doctor, I'm really sick

Wang Pingping was standing downstairs in Chu Sinian's old apartment.

Beijing time at 5:45 am.The sky had just dawned, and the sanitation workers in orange overalls were already holding tools and slowly cleaning the light snow that fell on the ground in the middle of the night.A few old people who got up early stopped to chat by the flower bed, holding fresh green vegetables just bought from the morning market in their hands.Wang Pingping looked up at the double couplets that were tightly pulled upstairs, and took a deep breath. The white breath quickly disappeared in the cold wind in Beijing's early morning.

Wang Pingping has been in the entertainment industry for many years, and she has already practiced well after seeing big scenes. Even if Trump suddenly jumped out of the sanitation car and stripped her, she would only lift it slightly. Eyebrows show respect for the superb cultivation.

But now, since she saw the message Qin Zhao sent him, her heart has been beating violently.The last time Wang Pingping felt so nervous was when she was exposed in public by her teacher for lying when she was 7 years old.

Wang Pingping didn't go upstairs immediately, but turned around and went to a chain cafe she passed by just now, carrying hot milk and sandwiches, she knocked on the door of Chu Sinian's house.

Unexpectedly, the door turned out to be only ajar.Wang Pingping pushed and walked in.

The room was dark, with only the faint morning light peeking through the cracks in the curtains.Wang Pingping blinked, her eyes adjusted for a few seconds before realizing that Qin Zhao was sitting on the ground with his back against the wall.It was obvious that he hadn't slept all night, his eyes were obviously dark, and a layer of bluish-gray stubble had grown on his chin.

Wang Pingping's heart fluttered, but she still pretended to be nonchalant and raised the paper bag in her hand: "Didn't you have breakfast? I brought your favorite sugar-free latte and passerby?"

Qin Zhao raised his head: "You know where he is, don't you?"

Wang Pingping laughed dryly: "Who?" "You know." "...I...I don't know."

Qin Zhao smiled softly: "Are you going to lie to me now? He didn't actually go to Tibet at all, did he?" "..." Wang Pingping unconsciously clenched her handbag tightly.

Qin Zhao was talking to himself without looking at Wang Pingping's face at all:

"He is such a proud person. When those photos were discovered, he must only think about death, only thinking about death... You know, he even called me that day. On the day I walked the red carpet... He was When I was so desperate, I called him, but I only cared about my own happiness, and answered him so casually..."

Qin Zhao raised his bloodshot, empty and dull eyes: "Do you know what I said to him? I said that the person in the photo is... a duck... I was still laughing, saying those things with a smile." The photos dirty my eyes..."

Qin Zhao murmured, and suddenly slapped himself hard!

Wang Pingping was taken aback, and quickly held Qin Zhao's hand to continue hurting her: "What are you doing?!"

Qin Zhao raised his head and looked at Wang Pingping fixedly.

"Sister Wang, I have been with you since I was 16. I believe you in everything you say."

"........."

Wang Pingping fell silent with guilt.After a long while, I shook my lips: "I'm sorry."

Qin Zhao smiled wryly, then took her hand:

"Please tell me, where did he go? You must know, don't you?"

His eyes were so painful and earnest, Wang Pingping couldn't help but tremble in her heart.She had never seen Qin Zhao in such pain.However, she still said to him:

"...I...I don't know either."

Qin Zhao was stunned for a moment, then suddenly broke out:

"You, my mother, and Ren Xi, joined forces to lie to me! She forced Chu Sinian away, so you and my mother cooperated to keep me in the dark?! Do you know, according to Chu Sinian's character? , He left so silently, it is very likely that he is looking for death?! Now, Ren Xi lied to me, my mother lied to me, do you still want to lie to me?!"

"Ren Xi?"

Incomparable hatred flashed in Qin Zhao's eyes, and he told Wang Pingping what he had just experienced.

Now it was Wang Pingping's turn to be surprised.

After the hot search for the "pornographic photos" that shocked half of the entertainment circle was published, Qin's mother sent the unencoded photos to Wang Pingping, asking her to help drive away Chu Sinian and save Qin Zhao.Wang Pingping and Qin's mother have been friends for many years. After being shocked, she naturally did it without hesitation.At the same time, for Qin Zhao's sake, she secretly started to find out who was behind the marketing account.Although it was difficult to find out the entangled black forces in the entertainment industry, after a few months, she still managed to find the head of Yang Weiwei's company.

In order to retaliate, she secretly tripped Yang Weiwei several times, but she was always saved by that woman.She kept guessing that there must be a bigger black hand behind this woman.

It turns out that this black hand is actually Ren Xi?

Wang Pingping couldn't help feeling a chill in her heart.But she soon understood.No wonder there have been several good resources recently. The industry has always thought that Ren Xi is safe, but in the end it always falls on that little-known little Internet celebrity.It turned out that Yang Weiwei was holding the evidence of Ren Xi's evil deeds.

However, now is not the time to think about how to deal with Ren Xi, the important thing is to keep Qin Zhao steady.

"I hope you calm down." Wang Pingping pressed Qin Zhao's shoulder:

"To be honest, your mother did send me the photo. I was afraid that what she said would irritate Chu Sinian, so I tried to find a way to meet Chu Sinian before he left. That was the meeting, Chu Sinian Si Nian handed over his WeChat account to me..."

Qin Zhao raised his eyes, staring at Wang Pingping rightly.

"...He said that he had no face to see you again, and he just wanted to go to a place where no one could find him. He couldn't tell you the truth, and he was afraid that you would worry about him and that you would not be able to accept it, so he got along with you. This method, let me hide it from you first. I want to wait for a long time and your feelings for him fade, and then let me tell you slowly. "

Sure enough, everything is fake.

"Then where did he go?" Qin Zhao said in a hoarse voice, "Don't lie to me again, tell me the truth!"

"I do not know."

Wang Pingping smiled wryly, and looked at Qin Zhao earnestly:

"You know his character. Since he sincerely wanted to hide it from you, how could he tell your manager? But you can rest assured that Chu Sinian told me clearly before he left that he had already died once. I will not seek death easily again."

Qin Zhao's eyes widened.

In his mind, he suddenly remembered that night in Finland a long time ago.When the scarred Chu Sinian curled up and fell asleep, he clearly saw several shocking knife marks on Chu Sinian's left wrist.

I have already died once... I will not seek death easily again...

already died once...

It is absolutely impossible for Wang Pingping to know about the knife mark.Therefore, this sentence can only be said by Chu Sinian.

Wang Pingping did not lie.

A gleam of hope suddenly rose in Qin Zhao's heart, and he rushed to the sky like a bunch of fireworks, and then exploded loudly, causing his limbs and bones to tremble violently.

"He won't die...he won't die..." Qin Zhao repeated in a murmur, his tone more and more sure, and his gloomy eyes gradually brightened up.

Yes, those photos were taken a long time ago.Chu Sinian even survived the worst time, this time, he will never die easily.

The sudden hope made Qin Zhao's heart jump for joy.That's great, that's great, as long as Chu Sinian doesn't die, he will have a way to find him, for sure!But where to start?Qin Zhao looked around, and suddenly thought of the post-it note that Chu Sinian had left for him in the kitchen.When he was leaving, would there be other traces left behind?

Like bus tickets?map?Even the browsing history in the computer?

Qin Zhao immediately stood up and began to search for it.After searching for a long time, he suddenly remembered something, turned around and looked eagerly at Wang Pingping who had been standing behind him:

"Sister Wang, you have the best information, please help me to check, where did Si Nian go, okay?"

"…………it is good."

Wang Pingping clenched her lower lip unnaturally.

*****

The room was in a mess, with clothes, books and old magazines everywhere.Qin Zhao searched profusely for several hours before finally finding a clue.

It was an inconspicuous little drawer in Chu Sinian's room, leaning against the corner in pitch black.Qin Zhao pulled it hard a few times but failed to open it—the drawer was locked.

Intuition told Qin Zhao that there must be something important to Chu Sinian in this drawer.Normally, Qin Zhao would definitely respect Chu Sinian's desire, but now he couldn't care less, and immediately found tools to pry open this small drawer.

To his surprise, the drawer was empty except for a small medicine bottle with "Duloxetine Hydrochloride" written on it.Qin Zhao stared at the strange drug name, always feeling weird.Because of Chu Sinian's occupation, he kept a special small medicine box at home to store all kinds of commonly used medicines.And why lock up this bottle of medicine here?

He fumbled in the drawer again and found a business card in the crack.It had a name he had never heard of printed on it, followed by a line of small print: psychotherapist.

Qin Zhao's heart skipped a beat.

"You checked that right. Duloxetine hydrochloride is a psychotropic drug that we often prescribe to fight depression and anxiety."

The psychiatrist pushed the reading glasses on the bridge of his nose and looked at Qin Zhao who was sitting across the desk.Her surname is Liang, she is a senior old doctor, her hair is already half white.Because of her occupation, her eyes behind the reading glasses always look at people with kindness and compassion.

"As a doctor, I shouldn't tell you about the patient. However, considering the special situation you told me, I think human life is always more important than anything else. I hope the information I know can help you find him. .”

Dr. Liang said: "Chu Sinian is a patient I have always paid attention to. We have known each other since the first time he was hospitalized for cutting his wrist. After a long time, we are no longer just a doctor-patient relationship. I have always regarded him as a patient. My own students, even children..."

Dr. Liang sighed softly and said:

"His condition was very serious at the beginning, and it took a long time for him to stabilize. Especially after the Chinese New Year this year, he was able to stop taking medicine for a while. But in this summer, he called me suddenly, saying that his condition was recurring, and he came to me again. Some medicine was prescribed."

Dr. Liang shook the small medicine bottle that Qin Zhao gave her: "This is it. I prescribed two courses of treatment for him at the time. But then he only took half of it and told me that he had recovered. He was talking on the phone Li is very happy and told me firmly that he will never need to take medicine again." Dr. Liang paused, then looked at Qin Zhao:

"because of you."

Qin Zhao stood there dumbfounded, his heart was tightly grabbed, and he had mixed feelings for a moment, both joy and pain.The joy was that he had brought such important happiness to Chu Sinian, but the pain was that it was he who personally destroyed Chu Sinian's happiness and pushed him into the abyss again.

Dr. Liang stood up and patted Qin Zhao on the shoulder comfortingly.Then, she pursed her lips as if she had made up her mind, and took out a thick stack of black leather notebooks from a locked cabinet on the desk.

Looking at those notebooks, Qin Zhao felt familiar. He seemed to have seen them somewhere...it seemed to be when Huairou was filming "Blind Battle"... Could this be...? ! !

"In order to pay attention to Chu Sinian's mental state regularly, and to give him a channel to channel his emotions, I suggested that he start keeping a diary several years ago." Dr. Liang gently caressed the cover of the diary with downcast eyes ,explain:

"Chu Sinian has always regarded me as his confidant aunt. Because of his unfortunate experience, he has accumulated a lot of things that he dare not talk to, and they are all written here, and then handed over to me for safekeeping. He has always trusted me. , just today, for his life, and because you are Qin Zhao, I decided to 'betray' him once."

"I hope you can find him and bring him back through these diaries."

"Please let him know that there are still people who miss her and love him in this world."