The selfish gene

It was freezing cold outside, and there were no cars on the road at nine o'clock.According to common sense, today is a holiday for family reunion. It is a day... no matter how big an event is, you will be persuaded to "let's talk about it after the new year".

However, Ji Chenfeng didn't play his cards according to common sense, and insisted on shaking everything out on this day.

Does it matter if I get the letter?Today's weather is exceptionally sunny, and tomorrow the puppy will be operated on, so it's not necessary to read the secret report that was burned. What's the difference between reading it at the time or after reading it?

Furthermore, it was my reply to hide Ji Chenfeng's letter to me and deceive him with a greeting card. These are all Yan Shanhua's own ideas.I just chose to continue to let Ji Chenfeng misunderstand me after I learned about it, and I didn't deny it.At most, it's an accessory. Why does it seem like it's all my fault now?

"Because you didn't do it yourself, so you never mentioned it. I should have realized it earlier. With your character, how can you send a greeting card?" Ji Chenfeng looked at the letter on the ground and said the last sentence, Almost mumbling.

When the truth is exposed before your eyes, if you look back, you will find that the clues have appeared a long time ago, but they have been ignored intentionally or unintentionally.Ji Chenfeng is like this now.He finally could no longer convince himself with all kinds of excuses about the many unreasonable oddities in our relationship.

"It's true that I didn't send the card, but I definitely didn't mean to lie to you..." I bent down to pick up the Mid-Autumn Festival card, and looked at the contents—everyone can look forward to the moon tonight, and I don't know who's fall.

The handwriting is good, I don't know who Yan Shanhua asked to write it, it is chic and unrestrained, eclectic, at first glance, it is quite similar to my handwriting.

"I didn't know the existence of the letter at the beginning. Auntie probably thought that I would not answer your letter, so she didn't give me the letter at all. I only learned about the existence of the letter from you later. At that time, you were so convinced Doubt, I really don’t know how to explain this to you. I’m afraid that you won’t like me after you know the truth, and I’m even more afraid that you will blame auntie and affect your mother-child relationship..."

I am telling the truth, except for slightly different reasons for concealing the truth, and do not consider it to be some unforgivable blunder.

Letter and greeting card, the only thing that these two props affect is how much he likes me, but the result will not change.In the end, he will still be unable to withstand my temptation, fall into my trap, and be completely obsessed with me.

This was doomed from the first moment he saw me.I am the savior who gave him a new life and walked out of the haze of life; I was the first ray of sunshine he saw when he woke up in the chaos; I was also the spiritual pillar that supported him to regain his studies and life.

If he's a bird, I'm his fledgling plot.Falling in love with me is his instinct, his nature, and his irresistible destiny.That being the case, why bother with the little insignificant concealment?

"In your opinion, it's all trivial matters."

Ji Chenfeng seems to have the ability to read minds, expressing my heart to the point.

I shivered all over, and instinctively began to deny: "It's not..."

"Then what is a big deal? What kind of deception do you need to make you think it's a big deal?" Ji Chenfeng interrupted me, frowning.

It was as if a dark hole had opened up in my heart, swallowing all the patience accumulated through hard work.

Is it my own wish to act as a pawn of the family and get engaged to a woman I don't know at all?From the moment I entered the door, no, from the beginning of the day, I have been coaxing him and admitting my mistake.Just because I didn't meet his expectations and ran away with him, am I now a heinous bastard?

I was a little irritated by him, and the scorching alcohol rushed to the top of my head.

"What about you? My concealment from you is deception, so what is your concealment from me? Having dinner with your ex-boyfriend and letting him in, didn't you tell me the same thing? What's the difference between what you did and what I did? "

Ji Chenfeng froze, showing a bewildered expression.

"I……"

Finally feeling proud, I became even more merciless: "Oh, there is still a difference. Gu Yingqing and I are innocent, but you and Zhou Jiyu are not necessarily the same. Picking my fault like this, why, do you want to reconnect with him?"

I tore up the greeting card in my hand and scattered it all over the floor in front of Ji Chenfeng.

"He abandoned you, changed his name and surname, and went to live a good life by himself. I saved you, let you hear your voice again, and gave you hope, but you still miss him." I was like a tail that was stepped on The snake, annoyed, began to spit venom at all the targets around it, "Are you cheap?"

The thoughtless words made Ji Chenfeng pale rapidly, his eyelashes trembled, as if he had been stabbed severely by me.

"Is that what you think?" he asked.

After venting his malice all at once, it's not that he regrets saying such a heavy word, but it's too late to take it back.

However, quarreling between lovers is a very normal thing.I concealed something, and he also concealed it. Since everyone is at fault, it should be considered even, right?

"Let's calm down for the past few days, don't contact us for now." Putting on my coat, I half turned around, not looking at Ji Chenfeng.

Now he is in a fit of anger, he can't be coaxed well, after two days the weather subsides, I just need to coax him well.

He put on his shoes and walked out of the gate, and he didn't hear Ji Chenfeng chasing him until he stepped down the stairs.Looking back, the blue iron gate is still the same as when I left, it is wide open, revealing a little yellow light inside.The people in the room seem to be unafraid of the cold, or they don't care about the warmth.

Pursing my lips, I quickly walked down the steps while leaning on the cold guardrail, and returned to the car.

"Where are you going next, young master?" Tang Bi'an's tone was very cautious, perhaps seeing my complexion.

I fastened my seat belt and gave him the address of the rental house.

I was afraid that the two cats would be cold, so the heating in the house was turned on 24 hours a day, so I didn't feel cold after entering the door.

I tiredly took off my coat, pulled off my tie, and slumped down on the sofa.

Two kittens came hearing the sound and kept rubbing against my feet. The little white cat even jumped on the sofa and stuffed its head into my palm, purring coquettishly.

Usually when I'm in a good mood, I might even tease them, but today I really don't have that interest.

I fell down and curled up my hands and feet so that the small sofa could accommodate my body.

He was obviously very tired, but he didn't feel sleepy at all.Every word Ji Chenfeng said to me today, every look, every expression, is constantly repeated in his mind.

The black hole in my heart is getting bigger and bigger, swallowing up patience and vitality.

It seemed that Ji Chenfeng's smell still lingered in the air, so that every breath he took was deepening the impression of him in his mind.

I lay lifeless for an unknown amount of time, when the sound of firecrackers suddenly sounded outside the window, I blinked slowly, and sat up, just in time to witness a gorgeous golden firework blooming outside the window.

It's twelve o'clock.

The phone started to vibrate, and countless New Year text messages poured in from familiar and unfamiliar people, except Ji Chenfeng's.Our last chat record is still yesterday.

"Happy New Year." I said softly as I scratched the little white cat napping on the back of the sofa with my fingers, and got up and went to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water.

He rummaged through the drawer to find the sleeping pills that had been neglected for a long time, swallowed three pills in a row, and then returned to the sofa to curl up again.

It would certainly be more comfortable to go back to bed and sleep, but I don't feel like doing that right now.If I had to give a reason, it might be... Ji Chenfeng's breath on the bed would be stronger.

The effect of sleeping pills is remarkable. Within 10 minutes, the messy mind relaxes, like a big lump of soft cotton, completely giving up resistance and sending out a "sleepy" signal.

Closing my eyes little by little, I fell into the drowsy sleep brought on by the drug.

A few days after that, I stayed at home on vacation and didn't go anywhere.Eat takeaway when hungry, play with cats and watch movies when bored, and take two pills when you can sleep at night.

Ji Chenfeng never contacted me.Although Zhou Jiyu is a bitch, the theories he taught me have never made mistakes.Based on my experience last time, I decided to wait seven days.If Ji Chenfeng doesn't come to me after seven days, then I will go to him.

I regard this quarrel as a new contest, vainly asking Ji Chenfeng to bow his head to see me like last time.Unexpectedly, on the fifth day, Ji Chenfeng did not come, but an unexpected person found me.

"Boss, Happy New Year." With a low ponytail, black-rimmed glasses covering half of her face, jeans, sneakers, and an army green down jacket, Ayao stood outside the door, no matter who looked at her. You will feel that you are just an ordinary college student.

"Why don't you come here with Ji Chenfeng?" I blocked the door and didn't let her in casually.

She grabbed the SLR on her shoulder, held it up in front of me, and sighed, "You must have missed my report, right? You didn't answer my phone calls, so I had to come here in person. Show you something."

Show me something?

"What?" I half-believingly stepped aside and let her into the room.

She took off her scarf as soon as she entered the door, and when she saw two kittens hugging and sleeping together on the sofa, she smiled and said hello: "Oh, the two little darlings are here, so cute."

She flicked a couple of kittens hastily, picked up the DSLR, pressed a few buttons, and handed it to me.

After I took it, I found that it was a 2-minute video, and I looked at her without knowing it. She didn't explain, but just motioned me to watch it quickly.

Press the play button, I sit down on the sofa.The video should be Ayao holding the camera. At the beginning, the camera is facing the front windshield of the vehicle. The focus is sometimes blurred and sometimes solid, as if adjusting parameters.

"One week before New Year's Eve, I squatted near Ji Chenfeng's house as usual. I was sipping milk tea when I suddenly heard voices coming from outside the car..."

Following A Yao's explanation, the camera flickered and pointed at the co-pilot's window.Through the blurred glass, the lens gradually focuses on the long steps.

"I looked outside and found that Ji Chenfeng ran down anxiously with Yan Shanhua on his back..."

It was snowing in the sky, Ji Chenfeng didn't even wear a coat, just wearing a thin black sweater, carrying Yan Shanhua who seemed to be unconscious, and walked quickly down the steep stairs.

The steps were too slippery, and he was carrying a person on his back. He walked extremely hard, and it was frightening to watch.

The window glass between the camera and Ji Chenfeng slowly lowered at this moment, and Ayao zoomed in on the camera.

I have never seen Ji Chenfeng flustered like this, even showing a little helplessness in his eyes.

"Mom, don't sleep...please, don't sleep..."

Yan Shanhua's head hung limply on his shoulder, without any response.Ji Chenfeng called out anxiously, but suddenly he made a careless step and lost his balance.

"Ah!" Ayao in the video couldn't help but yelled, the camera shook violently, and my heart was in my throat.

Ji Chenfeng slanted sideways and fell towards the steps. At the critical moment, he did not forget to protect Yan Shanhua behind him with one hand.But in this way, all the weight of his whole body fell on the right hand that was going to support the ground.

The heart beat heavily for a moment, as if it had been beaten violently by something.This feeling used to only be felt when watching horror movies.Cut to scary music when the atmosphere is tense, and the heart will be frightened to beat hard.But this time the intensity was unprecedented, as if I had exhausted all my strength, causing a long-lasting and dense dull pain in my heart.

The video continues.Ji Chenfeng fell down on the steps, maintaining a posture, and there was no movement for a while.

"Wipe!" In the video, A Yao cursed, dropped the DSLR and got out of the car. At the end of the screen, Ji Chenfeng's face that quickly lost color due to pain was frozen.

It turned out that his hand was hurt like this...

"Fortunately, he just slipped and didn't step on the ground. Otherwise, if he falls like this, he will be disabled even if he doesn't die." A Yao said in fear, "Although I am monitoring him, I can't just ignore him, right? Just get out of the car and go Helped him. Yan Shanhua was well protected by her son, nothing happened, but Ji Chenfeng's own hand was injured quite badly. Then the ambulance came, and I watched them get in the car and leave."

I called up the video again and pressed the play button: "What happened to Yan Shanhua? Didn't he take medicine to control it?"

By the time the video was shot, when Ji Chenfeng called me for the first time that day, he was in the ambulance.

At that time, he wanted to ask for my help.Just like every time before, he asked me for help with expectation, and I will always help him well.

However, this time I missed his call.

With a hand injury like that, how did you handle everything by yourself?Thumb traced Ji Chenfeng's figure on the screen.You couldn't find me at the time, so why didn't you tell me afterwards?Don't you want to ask me for help just because you haven't responded three times?

"I don't know the details, but it seems to have deteriorated, and..." A Yao said with regret, "She is currently living in the palliative care department of the hospital, and she should have a good life in a few months."