[Zhongyingmei] The clown is actually me

Doxepin.A 25mg,? 2 to 3 times a day.

Amitriptyline.150-250mg a day, 3 times a day

Apathy, anxiety, anorexia, palpitation, feeling of vomiting, loss of interest, weight loss, irregular sleep.

Jack retched on his stomach on the sink.

He opened his mouth, as if trying to spit out his heart and lungs,? But there was nothing but water.

He lay on the floor for a while, his body was as stiff as a corpse, and his limbs were weak due to fatigue, he urged several times in his heart, or stood up shaking, and wiped the sink and the floor with a rag,? Facing The full-length mirror simply sorted out her clothes, and then pushed open the door of the bathroom.Jason saw his pale face, his lips were pale, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"

Jack waved his hand and found a reason to prevaricate: "Last night's peanut butter seems to have gone bad."

Jason thought about it, but wasn't too suspicious.He didn't know that after taking a bath in the court of owls, most of the residual poison in Jack's body had been cleaned up, and with the clown sleeping, he didn't have to suffer the side effects of psychotropic drugs. Now Jack's health is very optimistic, with liver function and kidney function It is gradually returning to normal. Probably the only thing in the whole body that is not healthy is the brain.

Jason's perception of Jack still stays before the clown war: a frail mental patient, an empty frame supported by a thin and tall skeleton, looks tall, but actually got into the ICU after being punched.Batman didn't dare to hit him hard, for fear of confiscating his strength and beating him into cardiac arrest.In this case,? Eating the same spoiled food? Jack has adverse reactions, but he, a strong young man, does not. It is not something worth thinking about.

Well, that's right, after several months of massage and exercise, his muscles have basically recovered, but time is running out, the muscles can't be restored to the thickness of Robin at once, and the blows are not as strong as before, so now he has to Changing professions to become an agility player, the fighting skills are closer to lurking, rushing and assassination.Somehow, he really answered the joke that Jack said, "Robin can become a cat boy if he can't continue to be a cat", although this cat seems to be an owl's cat.

"Have you moved the things?" Jack coughed a few times, took the blanket Jason handed him, and draped it on his body very casually.

During this period of time, because Jason was too busy with his affairs, he realized that he had forgotten to buy a new dress when winter came. The previous clothes can still be used in autumn, but in winter they are too thin and cannot keep warm. It is a last resort Under the circumstances, Jack had no choice but to wear the mourning clothes at the burial. He was dressed in pure black without any change, plus the black gauze on the hat, cuffs and collar. Noble prince.

"You'll take care of it when you have morning sickness in the bathroom." Jason rolled his eyes, and tenderly stroked the crimson shell of the Maybach. This top-notch luxury car was a Christmas gift from Jack. Anyway, Kari has Five to sixty million, a luxury car is nothing.He deliberately made some military-level modifications to the tires and engine, so that it can run at full speed even on swampy ground.

After counting the luggage, Jack held his cane and smiled wryly: "I'm sending you a carriage and making clothes for you. Those who don't know think I'm your fairy godmother."

Jason shrugged: "Do you want your Cinderella to carry you into the pumpkin cart?"

"I'm not that old yet." Jack coughed, opened the car door and sat in, fiddled with the red bird ornament hanging on the rearview mirror, and said rather sadly: "You are also an adult, when you can't drive The traffic police will stop and ask you why you are old enough to drive your dad's car, time always flies by so fast."

Jason sat in the driver's seat, turned the key, and looked straight ahead: "You really don't plan to go back to Gotham for a long time?"

Jack shook his head: "I'll just send you back to Gotham. When I get there, I'll come back by myself. If I meet Batman, he will definitely put me in Arkham. Little Red Bird, my sentence is long enough, I don’t want to live in Arkham until I die. I have a job, a house and a car in the metropolis, and I can make psychotropic drugs myself. There’s no need to stay in Gotham. The big deal is to let Batman say hello to Superman, even if The clown has really been released, and he has no superpowers, Superman can easily handle him. Can laughing gas also affect superbreathing?"

Jason was silent for a while: "Maybe you can find a cure in Arkham. It's not good for your body to keep taking medicine."

Jack suddenly sneered: "Forget about worrying about the clown, you haven't broken enough bones?"

Jason turned his head in astonishment, and met Jack's equally surprised eyes.He didn't expect Jack to bring up the old story again. During the past few months together, Jason could keenly feel Jack's attitude towards him, which was a subtle compensation psychology.He had never been angry with Jack, and this incident was a common scar between the two of them.In order to avoid embarrassment, both of them tacitly bypassed Jason's death not long ago.Jack has always been very considerate of other people's emotions. Unlike the clown, he will not be so vicious as to make a fuss about other people's scars, so Jason saw his golden eyes darken, and whispered, "Sorry."

"What's wrong with you? You wouldn't say such things before." Jason reached out to touch him, but he blocked it.

Jack lowered his head and said in a low voice, "It's nothing...it's just that I've been staying up late for the past two days and I'm too tired."

Jason thought about it for a while, and the relationship between him and Jack has never been far or close, neither salty nor bland, not too familiar, but it can't be called a lot of life, the root cause is that old scar.Because of the compensatory mentality, Jack was very busy during this time, and sometimes he couldn't sleep for several days when he was busy, so now his eyes were black and blue with insomnia.He seemed to have lost a lot of weight, and he was always sleepy. He looked restless and lacked any vitality, which was completely different from when Batman was around.He knew that if they kept avoiding this matter, it would be very difficult for Jack to get rid of this kind of self-overdraft. If he didn't understand his moral sense, it would make him more painful, and the ice in front of them would not be resolved. that day.So he said, "Jack, actually..."

Jack suddenly reached out to turn on the music player, and turned the volume dial to the maximum. The rock musician's singing almost broke the eardrums of the two of them, and Jason's words were also drowned in the external singing.In this matter, the attitudes of the two of them changed completely, and Jack's reaction was more sensitive than his.He wrapped the blanket and just said: "Don't talk about it, it's all over. Besides, it's not a parting of life and death, so don't be sentimental. If you want to see me in the future, you can just take a bus from Gotham to Metropolis. It's not too far anyway." "It's good for everyone that the Joker stays away from Gotham."

Seeing that he didn't want to talk, it was impossible for Jason to force him to continue talking.Both figures fell into silence, and the atmosphere inside the car was almost stagnant. In the silence, there was only the sound of gravel-like snowflakes hitting the car window, rustling.The brand new Maybach drove silently towards Gotham, bringing up a cloud of dust.

"19 degrees."

Jack fell asleep in the passenger seat wrapped in a blanket in a daze. In the past few months, his sleep quality has been poor. Sometimes he kept his eyes open all night, and sometimes fell asleep with his eyes closed for more than 20 When he was young, he was used to filling the rest time with fragmented sleep.With sleep irregularities, every fall is precious, so when Jason pushes him awake, he has a momentary urge to jump up and kill, but the urge is quickly curbed.He rubbed his temples, trying to restrain his impatience: "What's wrong?"

Jason's words woke him up. He pointed to the numbers on the display and said to him, "The outdoor temperature is 19 degrees."

Jack paused for a while: "We just finished Christmas three days ago, right? The dashboard is broken?"

It is winter now, and it was still snowing when we set off.While Metropolis and Gotham have differences in latitude and longitude, it is impossible to reach the degree of Siberia and Equatorial Guinea.Gotham's winter is cloudy and rainy even if it doesn't snow, and the temperature is basically maintained below zero. How can it be this temperature outside?

So his first reaction was that the dashboard was broken.

"We started at 4:6 in the morning, and we drove for 10 hours. According to the time, it should be 10:[-] in the morning, but..." Jason said, guiding Jack to look out of the car window. It was pitch black, and the light from the car lights tore through the darkness like a sharp sword, but only reflected the thick fog in the air. They were in the dark, surrounded by an unknown thick fog, and the front and rear visibility did not exceed [-] meters.

Jack finally woke up. It is reasonable to say that Metropolis and Gotham are more than 30 hours away by car, and there is a direct highway, so there is no need to distinguish the fork in the road, just go to the end of the road.This kind of foolish difficulty, as long as they can read, a fool can drive a car from the metropolis to Gotham.The current situation is definitely not Jason going off the road or the weather is bad.

And what's even weirder is that there is no sound.Jack put his ear to the car window, and there was no sound of cars passing by except the wind and distant birdsong, as if everything in the world had disappeared except the road and their car.The Maybach slides slowly along the highway, as if sliding into a bottomless abyss.Soon, the sky gradually brightened and turned into a hazy, deep gray black.In the faint skylight, they saw a huge rectangular billboard standing on the side of the road.

On the billboard is an actress with a variety of styles. She stretched her hand forward and made an inviting gesture, and there was a line of English next to it: Welcome to Gotham (Welcome?to?Gotham).

Jack and Jason looked at each other, they both recognized the billboard, which was set up by the Gotham City Government at the entrance of the Gotham City Expressway.That's right, this is Gotham, shrouded in thick fog, Gotham in autumn.