You are my sin uncrowned poem

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Dean looked at the haggard old man, and replied with a wary look, "It's me."

This is really strange.

The famine knight was sealed in the battle of the seal 50 years ago. At that time, not to mention Dean, even John Winchester was only a few years old. He would lie about accidentally breaking a vase and follow his father curiously. Ask questions about everything in the world.

How does Famine Knight know his name?

"I know what you're thinking, boy." Famine Knight said with a hoarse and ugly laugh, and he stared at Dean with cloudy eyes, "This is fate, at a certain time, I will see you .”

And in the time before this, no matter what changes in the world, it will not have any impact on the encounter at this moment.

Same way.

The famine knight's words were ominous, but his mission had been completed, and Dean didn't want to stay in this place that made him feel flustered for a long time. He stared at the famine knight, still holding the dagger, and stepped back step by step.

"Sam Winchester."

Dean stopped suddenly when Famine Knight suddenly called out this name, his eyes widened in surprise, and he couldn't help shouting fiercely: "Why do you know him?"

"As I said, this is destiny." The Famine Knight let out another creepy and disgusting laugh, he moved his dry fingers resting on the armrest slightly, pointed at Dean and said, "I'm here just to wait for you ...No, to be more precise, it is to wait for Sam, to wait for the resurrection of the demon lord here."

Although fate is inevitable, it still needs the guidance of a wise man.The famine knight has been waiting here for 50 years. Lucifer has given him very generous conditions. After the demon lord is resurrected, he will get a lot of souls who are hungry and thirsty all day long.Gluttony is the original sin in a territory blessed by gods, but the demon lord will tell his people that obeying desire is the original intention of creation.

The word "demon lord" made Dean's heart beat faster, and nervous sweat oozed from his palm instantly.He licked his lips, forced himself to look at Famine Knight calmly, and said in a deep voice, "Do you think I will believe your nonsense?"

The Famine Knight laughed out loud, and the dry laugh sent a dry pain in Dean's throat as well, but he didn't dare to move.

"You don't have to believe it, I'm not here to convince you." The laughter just now made Famine Knight cough a few times with difficulty, his sickly and thin body became even more rickety, and his whole body seemed to be a piece of skin and flesh without bones, his shape was distorted Slumped in the chair, "I just follow my fate-why did the devil choose Sam? Why did you become a paladin? Even, why are you brothers? These are all things that have been planned long ago. There are a group of people in heaven and hell. Conspirator, if you are consecrated and become a holy object, Sam must be chosen by the devil...or conversely, you are a devil, and Sam will become a loyal servant of God.

"Your destiny has been decided long before you were born. The playwrights of heaven and hell wrote the script early. I have been here for 50 years just to wait for you to perform this scene."

Famine Knight's words made Dean freeze in place, the knife still firmly in his hand, but he had forgotten it was there at the moment.He also forgot the purpose of his trip, forgot to rush back as soon as possible-even forgot his own existence.

There is only one sentence in my mind: why are you brothers?

This is probably a question that no one will ever think about, and no one will ask such a boring question.

There is no reason, because with the birth of the young child, this kinship is established immediately.It goes so smoothly, so naturally, that the older ones are called elder brothers, and the younger ones are called younger brothers, and it has been like this for thousands of years.

No one has ever explored.

Dean heard other meanings from this sentence.

These are all pre-arranged things.

So the reason why he and Sam can become brothers is to usher in the so-called "fate" now? His intimacy with Sam, separation from him, reunion with him, father's warning, father's death, he and Sam The current struggle is restless... Could it be that all of this is just for today's "destiny"?

So all the joys and pains he had experienced in the past were also concocted by external forces? Maybe he and Sam didn't need to be separated at all, and his father didn't need to die in battle. Everything can change and should develop in a better direction.

"Everything is for you to go to your respective ends and play your respective roles. Your separation and reunion, misunderstandings and gaps, and all the feelings between you are given by fate. And you have to remember, you can work hard to change There are many things, such as your father's death, but this will not shake the arrival of fate." Famine Knight satisfactorily admired Dean's shocked face, and gently rubbed his fingers on the armrest of the chair, "But Dean, you are always Your brother's sidekick, everything you do is to push Sam to be who he has to be."

"Shut up!" Dean couldn't help shouting angrily.

If everything before was fate, then he accepts it as if they were forced to accept those feelings, and those memories are just pictures painted by fate, but there is only one thing, only Sam will meet his fate and become a devil in the end He will not allow this matter! If he does not accept it, he will definitely stop it!

"I will never let Sam turn into some bloody demon lord!" Dean gritted his teeth and said provocatively.He promised his father that what was once his father's responsibility has now become his.But even if his father never asked him to do so, he would do everything in his power to save Sam and pull Sam from the curse of demon blood.

It's not because of fate, but because he's Sam's older brother.

Even if those emotions and beliefs are arranged, preordained, and ridiculous in the eyes of Famine Knight, he is determined to regard them as real, because he has been happy for several times when Sam gave him the amulet God, also because of the grief of his father's death, those things happened to him, and those emotions are still deeply rooted in his body.

They are so real, joyful, and heartbreaking.

So he will not give up, will not let go.

"You don't understand your own destiny at all," Famine Knight looked at Dean with pity, like a tiny ant lost and helpless in a storm, "Your existence itself is Sam's 'sin', yes The root of his depravity. I know what's going on here, the relic can purify Sam, but you can't. You'll just let Sam slowly fall into his abyss, which is all you." Famine Knight gasped, hoarse Coughing, but enjoying Dean's astonished expression, "Do you understand? You can't save Sam, but you can't save him. You can only contribute to his sinking, Dean, you are a holy thing, and you are also Sam. "Original sin". Whether you live or die, as long as you exist, Sam will fall because of you. The closer you are, the faster he will transform. The more contact you have, the more sins he will contract. So you know Why do you have desires for each other? You will always lure him to incest, so that he can no longer be purified - this is fate, at a certain time, on a certain path, to reach the inevitable end."

"I won't believe your nonsense..."

Famine Knight curled up in his chair, panting in agony, but grinning admiringly as he watched Dean's final struggle like a jester.

"Let me tell you one more thing Dean," Famine Knight gripped the arm of the chair with his bony fingers, gasping for breath, "The hunger and thirst in your heart for Sam is also the inevitable result of fate. You are attracted to each other, that hunger Thirst will become Sam, and it will continue to expand in your heart. The more you suppress it, the faster it will expand, until your heart is completely swallowed by this hunger and becomes a void."

Fate is force majeure.

It is also the option that will not change after thousands of choices.

Like, Dean will always choose Sam, and Sam will always choose Dean.

"Fate" gave them excellent conditions, allowing them to grow into two sick plants that must intertwine and depend on each other.

"Only you can't save Sam."

Famine Knight's words stabbed into Dean's chest like a knife, making him hiss in pain.

This was what he had been most afraid of for a long time.

He couldn't save Sam.

During the time when his father just died, he sneaked to visit Sam in Nuoxi Diocese, but Sam never paid attention to him.He always recalled his father's words in the middle of the night, shaking his head and telling his father who might already be in heaven at this moment that he might not be able to do it.

He was afraid that he would not be able to save Sam, and he would not be able to kill Sam in the end.

He was afraid that he would be a useless son and let his father down, and he was also afraid that he would be a useless brother and let Sam down.

Despair slowly opened its sharp claws in pain, climbing up to Dean's heart, biting and chewing on his fast-pulsating organ.The icy coolness spread from the back of the head, slid down the neck, and slowly flowed to the limbs, and the fingers and toes were as cold as ice in an instant.

"The closer you are to him, the more you want to save him, the closer he is to his 'sin'." An inexplicable smell drifted slowly from Famine Knight to Dean, "He will do everything for you' Original sin'--arrogance, envy, rage, sloth, greed, gluttony, lust. He will demonize for you--"

Dean ran to Famine Knight, stabbing his dagger in the neck.

The old man who was stabbed smiled strangely, as if he was not in pain, he raised his hand and grabbed Dean's wrist, and said the sentence he hadn't finished just now: "Become a devil for you." Then his body became transparent, The black mist fell again, and the inexplicable smell became more intense.

Only then did Dean realize that it was the smell of Sam's body, with an attraction that Dean hadn't noticed before, it penetrated into his pores, screaming in his body, and the hunger of lust made Dean couldn't help swallowing repeatedly, But his throat ached with thirst.

When he came back to his senses, the famine knight had disappeared, and a mass of pure "black" once again occupied this narrow space.

TBC