You are my sin uncrowned poem

Watching Dean order his entourage and servants to move things into this room, Sam had the illusion that he had walked into the trap of the middle-aged inspector general.Disharmony between brothers is not a good thing, he lied in such a place, and God punished him in this way?

Dean sneaked a glance at Sam, who was silent, and rubbed the tip of his nose awkwardly.This is what Bobby meant, if he refused in person, Bobby would definitely ask him to the bottom and hold on to him. Dean didn't want anyone to know that Sam didn't really like him as a brother.

After the servants moved Dean's chest and weapons into Sam's room, they stood respectfully aside, waiting for other orders from the Grand Master.Like Dean, they share the bed with the monks, in other rooms not far from here.This was also what Bobby meant, Dean hated people following him, a Chuck was enough to annoy him, but the servants had to be around the grand master at all times, this was a sign of his majesty.

Dean was fed up with all the jumping-off red tape.

At this moment, he has taken off his armor and put on the same robe as other monks in the monastery.He scratched his head, sent the servant away, and didn't know how to talk to Sam again, so he just opened the box and sorted out his things alone.

There are not many things in the box, a Bible, a seal of the knight order, simple clothes, his father's helmet picked up from the battlefield - there is still his father's blood on it, Dean thought about wiping it clean, but in the end He'd left the blood on anyway, letting it condense and darken into ugly blotches -- and a necklace.

Dean grabbed it.

The necklace was given to him by Sam when he was a child.He didn't know where his brother got it, the pendant was obviously pagan, and he asked where it came from, Sam was only a few years old at the time, and he couldn't tell how he got it.He just told his brother that others said it was a talisman, and he hoped that his brother could get more protection.

This necklace was worn by Dean for a while, but was found by his father when he returned home. His father wanted to burn the necklace. He regarded it as ominous, but Dean snatched it back at the cost of being punished again.After that, he never wore it again, but he always carried it with him. He held the cross tightly in his hand, and also tightly held the amulet given to him by his brother.When his father died, he cremated his own cross with his father, but he still carried the amulet that Sam gave him.

So in his box, there are his own things, his father's things, and Sam's things.He closed the boxes so they were all right together.

Dean stared at the necklace for a moment, forgetting to put back his father's helmet, which he had temporarily taken out of the case.

Sam stood at the door for a long time, still hesitating whether to leave for a while, or go into the room pretending nothing happened.In fact, he and Dean didn't have much to talk about. Dean was a warrior who was used to fighting everywhere, while the lives of deacons and monks were extremely peaceful and boring. Sam didn't like hearing stories of war either, it was far away from him, and death and fire would destroy the peace here.

More importantly, Sam didn't want to face the anticipation in Dean's eyes and the disappointment when it failed.

It made him feel like an asshole.

In fact, it was Dean who betrayed him.

Why should people who break their promises be forgiven? Why should they pretend to be innocent?

This made Sam feel depressed.He even regretted his insincere excuses when Bobby asked about their brotherhood.

Sighing silently, Sam looked at Dean's back again.He saw Dean lift a helmet carefully out of its box and set it at his feet, and his eyes fell on the helmet, and he noticed that there was still blood on it.Dark red spots covered the helmet, and a little rust was etched out, making the helmet look like a head with a strange disease.

That's clearly not Dean's helmet.

Sam had seen Dean pick up his helmet the night before, and there was dust on it, but no blood or rust.

An answer swelled in Sam's mind, and he wasn't sure.

Sam never knew the exact circumstances of his father's death.He was 16 years old that year, and he hadn't seen his father and brother for a long time.The Holy Knights have been fighting abroad, and the whole country knows that the war is called the "Battle of the Seal".Some people say that the enemies are alien races or pagan religions, while others say that the paladins are dealing with demons. They crawled out of hell and came here to lure human beings to fall.

The truth is unknown, only news of the victory spread throughout the country.The Pope issued a decree of amnesty, and the prisoners locked in the cells were finally freed. They joined the cheering parade in the street, wearing ragged clothes and following others in a cheerful dance.

Following the good news came the sad news of his father's death in battle. Sam was not close to his father, since childhood, he only felt that his father was a cold stranger, he scolded and punished Dean, and finally separated their brothers, and Dean actually went along with him and lied.

Sam also didn't realize that he didn't like his father, not because his father took too little time to take care of them, but... he felt that his father treated Dean badly, that his father made Dean betray him.

But when the bad news came, Sam was still shrouded in a kind of sadness that even he didn't understand.He lost his composure and wept in front of his teacher. The teacher crossed his chest and put his hand on top of his head, listening to him murmuring "Father" in a low voice.

That memory made Sam's chest ache again.He took a breath, walked gently to Dean's side, bent down and picked up the helmet, just asked "Is this father's?", looked up, and saw Dean clutching a necklace in a daze.

That necklace looks familiar.

Sam takes a moment to think about it, remembering that he gave it to Dean when he was a kid.He can't remember how he got it for a long time, or how he convinced Dean to wear the pagan necklace, but he remembers Dean being chastised by his father for the necklace, because his father wanted to burn it , Dean rushed to knock his father past him and snatched it back.

Sam hadn't seen Dean wearing it since that time, and he thought Dean had quietly thrown it away.

Neither of them ever mentioned the necklace again.Mostly because Sam couldn't talk about it, and because of it, Dean got another avoidable punishment.

Sam never imagined that after so many years, he could still see this necklace that even he himself had almost forgotten.

He suddenly felt a severe blockage in his chest. He couldn't tell what it was like, but it just made him feel stuffy and his breathing was difficult.

Dean, who was still in a daze, didn't notice Sam's approach, so he was taken aback by Sam's sudden opening.As if afraid of being seen, Dean reflexively used the other hand to cover the necklace pendant in his hand, turned his head, only to find that Sam was standing beside him at some point, holding his father's helmet in his hand.

Like a child who steals food and gets knocked over, Dean's face turns red with embarrassment.With some embarrassment, he randomly put the necklace in his hand into the box, but subconsciously avoided the edge of the box to prevent the pendant from being damaged by the metal.

He glanced at Sam, quickly took his father's helmet from his hand, carefully put it back in the box, then closed the box tightly, stood up this time and said, "Well, it belongs to father."

And Sam's not thinking about the helmet now, his eyes gliding from Dean's face to the case, thinking about the necklace.He also didn't ignore Dean's attempt to hide the necklace just now, and the embarrassment on Dean's face.

Pursing his lips, Sam turned and walked out of the room, grabbing a student at random and telling him to bring some water to boil.

"Boil water?"

"Hosting guests." Sam leaned so the students could see Dean in the room, "Grand Master of the Order."

The student glanced into the room, just as Dean turned his head and looked towards the door with a complicated expression.The student murmured, "He's so good-looking," but when he thought that he was the highest leader of the Paladins, his expression became more respectful and yearning.

Knowing that the deacon was going to make tea to entertain the guests, the students went downstairs to the well in the courtyard.

Sam went back to the room and took out a little tea from the bishop.It was donated to the church by merchants in the city, and it is said that they bought it from eastern merchants who traveled thousands of miles to do business here, and it was expensive.

Dean still doesn't know what Sam is going to do. The time we met in the past was always very short. Even if Sam's attitude is cold, he can still hold his brother to talk for a while.Now that they spent more time together, he felt more and more cramped.

"I...uh..." Dean thought of an excuse to get away as he walked out the door.

"I want to know how my father died. You never told me." Sam turned around, his tone was calm, but his eyes were sincere. "I asked the students to boil the water. We can have some tea later."