[Tomb Raiders Notes Sand Sea] Into the Red Dust

Is the old man graying out? The fat man looked at the two "mummy" who had already been covered with snowflakes, and complained, "Go back to eat, dust yourself off from the snow, don't turn around and get sick from the cold." "

Fatty usually can't speak four or six words, but Zhang Qiling likes this sentence very much.

A total of whiteheads.

Talking about love does not dare to expect extravagance, but he really wants to spend the rest of his life with Gu Ran.

It is too difficult and too painful for a person who only knows how to love to let go of a person who taught him to love.

But Zhang Qiling knew clearly that he couldn't use his greed to force Gu Ran to stay.Gu Ran begged to die, and sending him to die was the only thing Zhang Qiling could do.

After nightfall, Zhang Qiling hesitated again and again, and gave the notebook that recorded everything between him and Gu Ran to Lama Deren.

This puzzled Lama Deren.

"Put it here with me, it may be seen by Gu Ran or others."

Zhang Qiling never thought of letting Gu Ran understand his love.What Gu Ran brought to him has gone beyond love itself, but a redemption of emotion and human nature in a broader sense.How could Zhang Qiling have the heart to let Gu Ran know his thoughts, and leave a shackle on Gu Ran's way to die calmly?

Maybe when he is getting old, he will go back to the Lama Temple, ask Lama Deren or his disciples to get this notebook back, look at the old handwriting, and end his remaining life with the warmth of memories.

What Zhang Qiling didn't expect was that even without this notebook, even though he was still taciturn on weekdays, people could still see the clues of the love hidden in his heart.

Fatty came to chat with Zhang Qiling one night in July.

It happened that there were only the two of them in Wu Shanju that day, and Wu Xie was ordered to go home by his second uncle, and it was said that it was another blind date banquet, while Gu Ran went out to drink and play disco with the black blind man who suddenly visited in the afternoon.

Fatty usually speaks outspokenly, but this time he was hesitant, he hesitated for a long time before asking: "Brother, do you treat Gu Xiaoran a little..."

He didn't finish his sentence, mainly because he didn't know how to describe Zhang Qiling's attitude towards Gu Ran.

Speaking of connivance, each of them pampered Gu Ran very much, but Zhang Qiling seemed more exaggerated. It was hard to imagine a person like him, letting Gu Ran jump up and down to tease him.

When it comes to liking, the degree seems to be a bit superficial, and when it comes to love, it's not entirely true.

Fatty knows what it's like to like someone, or what it's like to love someone. Sometimes he can see some affection from Zhang Qiling's eyes looking at Gu Ran, but sometimes he feels it's more than that.

What shocked him the most was when Wu Xie asked him to ask his younger brother to have dinner with Gu Ran when he was in Medog last year. He found someone outside the temple and saw people standing side by side, covered in snow and wind.

Zhang Qiling happened to be sideways to him, and the fat man could see his eyes.

Fatty didn't know how to describe the look in his eyes and the atmosphere at that time. He just felt that saying love alone seemed to be blasphemy. If he had to describe it, Fatty only felt that the scene he saw, the two of them, was eternal.

Zhang Qiling hesitated for a moment, and nodded without hiding anything from Fatty.

On the contrary, the fat man was at a loss. He just observed Zhang Qiling and Gu Ran for a long time, and he couldn't bear it before asking, but he didn't know what else he could say after Zhang Qiling answered.

Obviously, Zhang Qiling was in a state of losing his beloved. If it was someone else, Fatty would have a lot of comforting words, but facing Zhang Qiling, he felt that comfort was powerless, and they could all understand the reason.

After being silent for a long time, the fat man sighed: "Little brother, there is a word to say - fate tricks people, you and Gu Xiaoran, you and Gu Xiaoran are fate tricking people."

Zhang Qiling lowered his eyes and thought, isn't this fate? Back then, when everything hadn't started, he had the opportunity to express his love, but at that time he didn't know what love was, let alone what he meant to Gu Ran. What kind of emotions are you holding.

But now, he understands, but if he declares his love at this time, it will be a burden to Gu Ran.

The fat man asked: "Brother, what are your plans in the future? According to Xiaotian's attitude of reconciling with Dahua, it must be with the Wang family forever, but the mess left by Gu Xiaoran is not bad, and there are still you and the blind, fat man." I'm old, so I won't get involved anymore, I'll go to Banai after I send Gu Xiaoran to Changbai Mountain. What are you going to do after the Wang family's affairs are over?"

"Walk around casually. Gu Ran said that he visited many places when he was seeking immortality and Taoism. I'm going to visit."

The fat man smiled and said, "That's okay. I really know Xiaotian well. After he wiped out the Wang family, he probably didn't have the heart to take care of their Wu family's affairs. Let him accompany you around. At that time, Fat Master, I will bring the clouds to play with you, and when I get tired, let's find a place to live in seclusion."

Zhang Qiling nodded: "Okay."

Time passed quickly, and it was finally time for Gu Ran to leave.

Zhang Qiling handed the ghost seal to Gu Ran, touched the temperature of his hand for the last time, and watched him walk into the bronze door.

The moment the huge door closed, there was a bang, Zhang Qiling only felt that the sound was deafening, and it caused him a hundred times more pain than the bronze bell back then.

He learned human feelings, but lost his love.

In the following time, Zhang Qiling often thought of Gu Ran.

Gu Ran left a mess for Zhang Qiling - the truth about Wu Xie, Fatty and him going to death.

After seeing off Gu, Fatty soon went to Banai, calling Wu Xie from time to time to share his life of chasing clouds. Sometimes Zhang Qiling listened to the phone with Wu Xie, always thinking of his dead lover.

Until one day, the fat man called Zhang Qiling. He was very drunk, and the first thing he said to Zhang Qiling was: "Is Gu Xiaoran dead?"

In an instant, Zhang Qiling knew that he could no longer help Gu Ran hide it.

The fat man said drunkenly on the phone: "I'm here today to brag to Yun Cai, I said Gu Xiaoran is a fairy, Yun Cai told me, there are no gods in this world now, and then told me about their Miao Village. There is a legend that there used to be a monster in their Miao village, and the legend is also some kind of god, I thought about it, isn't this thing Miluotuo?"

The fat man hiccupped, and continued: "Yun Cai told me that her grandfather frightened her, saying that the little girl would not dare to run around in the mountains by herself. Are there any monsters who are regarded as gods in there? Why do you think the gods are still here?" Is there something that should be considered or not? I thought about it again, it’s not right!

Little brother, when you were at Queen Mother Xi's place, you didn't know that Gu Xiaoran crawled out of the meteorite before you. At that time, his whole state was just two words, life was hopeless, and his heart was ashamed.The more I think about it, the more wrong I am. You said that if he can really be a god, what can hit him like this? I was wondering if he knew from the meteor that he couldn't be a god. Oh, the efforts of hundreds of years have been in vain? "

Zhang Qiling really didn't know the scene when Gu Ran came out of the meteorite, but he could easily imagine that the fat man's guess was right.

"Brother, tell me the truth, Gu Xiaoran, has he really become a god? The gods in other TV dramas can still go down to earth, why do you think we will never see Gu Xiaoran again? Is it him? Dead? Did he go to the Bronze Gate looking for death?"

Zhang Qiling gave a "hmm" and only briefly explained: "Becoming a fairy is a trap. No one in this world can become a fairy again. He ended everything with death."

Fatty fell silent on the other side. It was so long that Zhang Qiling thought the phone was disconnected before he heard Fatty say: "That's fine, that's fine. You said that Gu Xiaoran has spent hundreds of years in vain, how sad he is, he died. That’s okay, it’s all over, and there’s no more pain.”

Zhang Qiling gave another soft "hmm", the pain is reserved for the living.

The biggest trouble left by Gu Ran is Wu Xie.

Wu Xie knew the truth when he broke into the Wang family's base camp.

The leader of the Wang family, who knew he could not protect himself, told Wu Xie the truth after Gu Ran entered the bronze gate in a vengeful tone.

Wu Xie's mental state was not good at that time, but at this moment, it was the killing intent from his opponent. He destroyed the Wang family in a state of madness, and the whole person can only be described as decadent.

Zhang Qiling had no choice but to tell Wu Xie that Gu Ran wanted to die.

He fulfilled his most painful and most helpless thing, and told Wu Xie to listen to it.

Wu Xie cared about Gu Ran, not just him, the fat man, the blind man, Xie Yuchen, they all cared about Gu Ran, and they would all choose to fulfill Gu Ran's wish.

After what happened to the Wang family, Wu Xie really lost his mind about the Taoist affairs as the fat man said. Hearing that Zhang Qiling wanted to go for a walk, he went with him. Two or three years later, they chose a man in Fujian. Nice village hideaway.

When passing through Fujian, I heard that there is a plant in Yucun called Yuzai ginseng, which can improve memory.Zhang Qiling will no longer lose his memory, but he wants to remember Gu Ran more deeply.

Because the last sentence Gu Ran said to him was: "Remember me!"

Zhang Qiling lived in Yucun until the end of his life.

The fat man was old, so he took a step first. Later, Wu Xie only lived to be over 60 because of too many injuries when he was young.Zhang Qiling took advantage of the convenience of his legs and feet, so he went up the snow mountain again.

Lama Deren had already left and told his disciples about the funeral. After Zhang Qiling arrived at the Lama Temple, his disciples returned the notes of the year to Zhang Qiling.

Zhang Qiling opened the notes, all the memories are so fresh again.

From the first meeting in the tomb to the last view of Changbai Mountain.

He clings to his memory for a few more years.

Zhang Qiling was very clear about his physical condition. When he realized that he was about to die, he left the Lama Temple alone on crutches, and walked towards the snowy mountains in Medog.

Selfishness

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When Xie Yuchen met Gu Ran, he