[Tomb Raiders Notes Sand Sea] Into the Red Dust

He can remember my mark. "

"Wu Xie said that at the entrance of the underwater tomb, the place where I lost my memory last time, I wanted to go in again, but he strongly opposed it. But Gu Ran said, go up first to recover your strength and get the equipment, and he can come down with me again. When it came to the ancient building of the Zhang Family, he once advised me not to go, but I actually agreed at that time. Perhaps this is a kind of trust in him that cannot be dissipated."

"I can still remember coming out of the underwater tomb, Gu Ran and I took turns sailing."

"According to the SMS records in the mobile phone, Gu Ran asked me to go to Yunding Tiangong with me after Xisha, but he went to Qinling temporarily, so the appointment was invalidated. He didn't write a letter for a long time, and was worried that something would happen to him in Qinling. Later, I heard the blind man mention it. Qinling, I still have fear."

"He gave me long-term memory medicine, but unfortunately I didn't have time to take it, and soon forgot all about it."

"The blind man said that it was Gu Ran who brought me out of the bronze gate. He carried me out of the snow mountain, but unfortunately I didn't know it at the time. Thinking about it now, this feeling is the same as when he rescued me after I lost my memory. It's rare. warmth."

"We fought side by side in the rainforest."

"I woke up from the meteorite and lost my memory again. It was Gu Ran who brought me out. I heard from the fat man that he and Wu Xie waited for me outside the meteorite for many days. After Gu Ran climbed out of the meteorite, he went back and brought me out again. .”

Zhang Qiling suddenly felt that this might be a coincidence in fate. He met Gu Ran, and it was after he lost his memory that Gu Ran took him out of the tomb, and after he completely forgot about Gu Ran, it was him who brought him Meteorite came out.

It's just that Gu Ran has already waded through this muddy water at this time, and no matter how much Zhang Qiling wants to protect Gu Ran now, he can't save his life.

If using the bronze bell and forgetting Gu Ran one more time can protect Gu Ran's life, Zhang Qiling would rather suffer another heart-pounding pain.

But he can't.

Not only can't, but he has to watch Gu Ran go to death with his own eyes. He can always remember Gu Ran until his death, and keep this emotion in his heart properly, but Gu Ran is about to die.

Like Bai Ma, Gu Ran also counted the days to leave him.

Zhang Qilington pen, he can no longer hold the pen to write.

He put the notes in a place where they would not be seen, then walked out of his room to meet the Lama Naruhito again.

Lama Deren was not surprised, and gestured for Zhang Qiling to sit down, as if he had been expected to come.

Zhang Qiling was silent for a long time. Regarding Gu Ran's matter, he could only come to talk to Lama Deren, but he didn't know where to start.

Lama Deren looked at him silently. After a long silence, Lama Deren spoke: "Do you understand love?"

Zhang Qiling was stunned for a moment, the indescribable emotion in his heart seemed to have a certainty at this moment, it was love.

From the warmth of the first encounter, to the later reluctance and longing, to the loss before having to forget, all emotions can be attributed to love.

Baima taught him to think, and Gu Ran taught him to love.

But he is no longer the boy who learned human emotions for the first time, who was able to cry bitterly after Baima left. Now there are too many memories, fate and helplessness between him and Gu Ran, and all of these even constrain him. He indulged in wanting to.

Zhang Qiling was silent for a long time before he nodded: "I understand now."

Lama Deren pondered for a moment, put down the prayer beads in his hand and said: "It is enough for him to let you understand what love is. Back then, Baima worried about you. She worried that you would become a ruthless person in the Zhang family, and she The time I can be with you is too short, and the feelings that can teach you are nothing more than the thoughts of blood, not deep enough, and it will not let you know how to cherish all the feelings, even cherish yourself."

Zhang Qiling pondered, Baima is very delicate as a mother, and she knows him and the Zhang family very well. Back then, Baima taught him to "think", but he only stayed at "thinking" itself, or in other words, "thinking" Pema itself.

But Gu Ran was different. What he brought to Zhang Qiling at first was not a clear emotion, but a warm feeling. This feeling made him feel that he was cared for, and even his life was cared about.Only in this way will he be able to do things in a relaxed manner, and he will cherish his life even more.

He first learned to cherish and love himself, and then he learned to love others.

To love others is not simply to help his companions. He is not like a priest who redeems all those who do not want to die. Instead, he really learns to care about other people's thoughts and thoughts, and learns the warmth of being a real human being.

"He's going to die." Zhang Qiling hesitated for a long time, only feeling that this secret was suffocated in his heart.

Lama Deren showed a puzzled look.

"He will enter the bronze gate, sacrifice his body, and end his eternal life."

Lama Deren had mixed feelings, finally sighed, closed his eyes and recited the Buddha's prayer silently.

Zhang Qiling sat still and did not leave. Lama Deren sighed and said after reciting the scriptures once, "The first time I saw him, I thought there would be some relationship between you. He has a Buddha image on his face, so he can save you." People. It's just that I didn't expect that he would end up like this in the end."

Lama Deren thought for a while and said, "You know Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva, the hell is not empty, so I vow not to become a Buddha."

Zhang Qiling naturally understands what Lama Deren means, and Gu Ran is a person who wants to endure the suffering of eternal life in the world.He was about to sit on this position, but it was hard to find a good death.

Zhang Qiling just felt that this world was really ridiculous.

He left Lama Deren's meditation room, just in time to see Gu Ran walking in from outside the Lama Temple.

Gu Ran walked towards him and asked with a smile, "Did you see the notes?"

Zhang Qiling nodded, his heart was still heavy.

"What are you doing with a sad face?" Gu Ran pinched Qi Ling's face boldly, "Mute, you should smile more in the future, you know? What a pretty face, it's not suitable for always being so bitter and bitter." expression."

Zhang Qiling didn't move, allowing Gu Ran to lay hands on his face.

Seeing that Zhang Qiling didn't respond, Gu Ran put down his hand, and said "tsk", "It's boring, dumb, do you know that you live a boring life? From now on, you can let go of the Zhang family's affairs, anyway, the end of longevity After that, they won't need you anymore as a spiritual belief. It's good for everyone to develop and operate independently. I think Zhang is crazy-I forgot what his name is, anyway, you know who I'm talking about-they Well done in Hong Kong.

In the future, you should avoid touching things underground. It’s just one life, so you have to cherish your life, or you will be injured all over your body, and you will feel uncomfortable when you get old.Regarding the Wang family's affairs, you should take care of Wu Xie and Hua'er. They are too young and usually fine. I'm afraid they will lose their sense of proportion if they get involved in the Wang family's affairs. "

Gu Ran pondered for a moment and said: "It's not necessary to kill them all. The longevity is gone, so that the Wang family will not threaten the Nine Gates. Anyway, without longevity, everyone will eventually go to a normal society. If the organizational structure of the Wang family wants to If we continue to maintain the relationship, we will definitely develop into a modern company system, and they can’t do much in this regard, so it’s nothing to worry about.”

"how about you?"

Gu Ran was stunned for a moment, Zhang Qiling's question was thoughtless, but he understood after thinking for a while, Zhang Qiling was asking, he has arranged for everyone, what about him?

"Come out for a walk with me." Gu Ran and Zhang Qiling walked outside the Lama Temple, Wu Xie and Fatty were still there, Gu Ran was worried that their conversation would be overheard by them.

Gu Ran stood still on a snow slope, and said calmly: "Dumb, I'm tired, I want a relief."

Zhang Qiling was startled, he had always thought of Gu Ran too great.

On the one hand, Gu Ran did die to end longevity and all these messy fates. His death was a kind of devotion, but Zhang Qiling forgot that Gu Ran was also a human being. Everyone has selfishness. It is possible to use reason to weigh the pros and cons, and make the choice of sacrificing the ego to benefit everyone, and still be so calm.

The real psychological factor that made Gu Ran make this decision was that Gu Ran was tired.

Zhang Qiling is the person who understands Gu Ran's historical stories best. He can imagine the spirit of a person who has been searching for immortality for hundreds of years, going through countless calamities in countless parallel worlds, experiencing failures and comebacks again and again. tiredness, numbness.

If he really succeeded after this calamity, it would be a rebirth from a broken cocoon, the result of hard work proving the way, but the reality is that it will not succeed.

For Gu Ran, this reality is the last straw that breaks his spiritual space. On the surface, he is still happy and wanton, but his spirit is dying.

Zhang Qiling thought, Gu Ran was already too tired, even if he had friends around him all day long, he couldn't completely heal his dead spirit.

Death is a kind of relief for Gu Ran.

He is about to free all the people in the world who are suffering from longevity, and he is about to free himself.

A person who chooses to commit suicide has never had nothing to be attached to by his side. It is just that the things that can make him attached to are not worth the emptiness and despair in his heart. Therefore, people choose to die for themselves.

So did Gu Ran.

Probably because of the emotional salvation Gu Ran brought to Zhang Qiling, Zhang Qiling subconsciously regarded Gu Ran as a person full of divinity, just like many people also thought Zhang Qiling in the same way.

They all forget that these seemingly selfless, great, and all-encompassing people are still individuals in the final analysis.

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Six, wind and snow

"Will you be happy when you die?" Zhang Qiling asked.

He doesn't seek any emotion now, but just wants to be happy.

"Maybe." Gu Ran thought for a while and said, "I just hope that if I have another life, it will be easier and shorter."

Ordinary people seek longevity, long life seeks short life.

The two of them stood on the snow slope for a long time, and they didn't go back until the fat man came out to look for them.

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