Shocked in late autumn

When Ji Songlin reacted, Xu Chenyu had already left his lips, and lowered his head to fiddle with the camera, muttering, "Hey, my hand shook, I don't know if the focus is on."

Ji Songlin involuntarily raised the back of his hand and stroked his lips. He stared at Xu Chenyu intently, as if... as if he had left too quickly.

As if feeling the hot gaze on the other side, Xu Chenyu raised his face, smiled slyly, and said badly, "Your expression will make me misunderstand."

Ji Songlin pursed his lips, scratched the back of his head, lowered his head, and pretended to look through the photo album: "I haven't been doing right all day, what are you thinking..."

The person opposite lowered his bright eyes, his long eyelashes trembled and trembled, and there was a trace of a smile on his mouth, which was so pure that Xu Chenyu wanted to bite him on the spot.

Seeming to have found something interesting, Ji Songlin held up the photo album and brought it to Xu Chenyu. He slightly opened his eyes and said, "This photo..."

"What's wrong?" Xu Chenyu probably didn't see clearly, he moved forward a little.

Xu Zihua hugged the nine-year-old Xu Chenyu, smiling brightly. The father and son took a photo in front of the Forbidden City, and there was a crowd of people behind them. From the composition point of view, this photo is not considered a masterpiece.

Xu Chenyu didn't see what Ji Songlin was shocked until he put his finger on a corner. It was the silhouette of a little boy, and a slightly fat old woman was holding him. The little boy was wearing a whitish school uniform, carrying a crayon New cartoon school bag.

Ji Songlin said in disbelief: "This kid... seems to be me. The schoolbag I carried in elementary school was the same as his."

Now it was Xu Chenyu's turn to be shocked: "It's true..."

"Look here, there is a Mickey Mouse ornament on the back of his schoolbag." Ji Songlin looked for something in the bag behind him, and finally took out a bunch of keys with a Mickey Mouse ornament on it: "I still remember, this is my mother's I bought it when I went to the amusement park. I thought it was too expensive and refused to take it. The boss insisted that it was a limited edition and coaxed my mother to buy it..."

Xu Chenyu took the bunch of keys at his fingertips, picked out the pendant with his index finger, and looked through it carefully. Mickey's red clothes had hairballs on the edge, and the yellow shoes were a bit worn out. Regardless of the size or shape of the pendants, Exactly the same as the one on the little boy's backpack in the photo.

Xu Chenyu stared at the photo in a daze, he fell into disbelief, the heat in his chest kept rising, and he didn't speak for a while.

This photo is the best annotation for Ji Songlin's sentence "Why did you walk into my record store?".Certain things in life have their own destiny. In terms of metaphysics, fate is romanticism. In terms of science, it is quantum magnetic field. If you want to sum it up in one word, it can only be called fate.

After thinking inconceivably for a while, Xu Chenyu came back to his senses and sighed softly: "If it's really you, it would be too amazing."

Sitting opposite him, Ji Songlin raised his hand to brush the dust off Xu Chenyu's shoulders: "Have I ever told you that the day I met you in the record store, I had a very long dream."

Xu Chenyu stared closely into his eyes: "What dream?"

Ji Songlin blinked his eyes, and he recalled: "Some very fragmented scenes, at the airport, in the subway, in the crowded streets, you are in a hurry, I am also in a hurry, we pass each other..."

Inexplicably, Xu Chenyu thought of the first meeting, dusk and sunset, and how he walked into his record store by accident.

Ji Songlin slid his palm up and touched Xu Chenyu's side face: "Maybe it's true, we met a long time ago, but we didn't recognize each other..."

But no matter how many times you miss it or how many years you delay, those who want to meet will always meet again.

The dream seems to have turned into reality, and the reality specifically outlines the appearance of the person in front of him. Xu Chenyu looked at his lover fascinatedly, as if looking at a rare treasure.

Xu Chenyu raised his palm to cover his hand, turned his head to feel the warmth of his palm, he sighed lowly, and smiled lightly.

Ji Songlin asked, "Why are you sighing?"

"It's nothing." Xu Chenyu shook his head, and he picked up the photo carefully: "I just think it's nice to meet you."

After saying these words slowly, Ji Songlin leaned over with a smile, kissed Xu Chenyu's eyes preciously and softly, and then gently kissed his dimples.

The atmosphere is brewing very well here, the air is full of sweet and greasy smell, the corner of the kissed person raised his mouth, and the small pear dimple became deeper.

Xu Chenyu turned his left face and motioned to Ji Songlin: "This way."

Ji Songlin kissed him.

Xu Chenyu turned his right face sideways: "There is still this side."

Ji Songlin kissed him on the side again.

Xu Chenyu closed his eyes, the meaning couldn't be more obvious, he could feel Ji Songlin's breath approaching him again, pounced bit by bit, with the fresh lemon fragrance, warming his whole heart.

There was a muffled sound of "Kang Dang", and the iron box rolled down on the ground with a crackling sound. It was a pot of black-bone chicken stewed with Cordyceps, and the soup was still steaming.

Xu Chenyu immediately opened his eyes, looking away from Ji Songlin's shoulder. There was a "boom" in his head, as if a nuclear explosion had exploded, sending fragments of his skull flying around.

Wu Yuling's face was pale. Standing at the messy gate, she covered her mouth with one hand and leaned against the corner of the wall as if she couldn't believe what she saw. She closed her eyes, and when she opened them again, the people inside were clearly Still his own son.

what did she see?

Ji Songlin was also stunned when he turned his face. He saw a flash of astonishment, panic, and even a trace of disgust in Wu Yuling's eyes. Although it was not much, it hurt Ji Songlin deeply.

Silence, endless silence.

None of the three dared to move or speak. The small apartment was filled with a huge weirdness. The waning moon, the dark clouds, and the noisy chirping birds under the eaves.

A person's first reaction to being stimulated is self-protection. Wu Yuling instinctively took a step back. She wanted to escape, but the soles of her feet seemed to be filled with heavy weights, and she couldn't lift them up no matter what.

"Mom..." Xu Chenyu's voice was dry. Seeing Wu Yuling like this, he felt extremely uncomfortable.

A weak sound completely dragged Wu Yuling back from her unbelievable fugue. She stopped her retreating feet and stroked her long hair helplessly. enter the door.

Ji Songlin and Xu Chenyu suddenly stood up from the ground, both lowered their heads and slumped their waists.

Ji Songlin really wanted to say something at this moment, even a greeting would be fine, but it was as if his mouth was sealed with superglue, and he couldn't utter a single word.

"Please leave, let us mother and son talk alone," Wu Yuling didn't lose his temper, but the voice was very cold, so cold that there was no warmth at all, like an icehouse at minus [-] degrees.

Ji Songlin opened his mouth and wanted to call auntie, but he clenched his fists as if he was dumb, and walked past Wu Yuling with his head down. He didn't even dare to look back at Xu Chenyu. In his heart, it seemed as long as a century, and the moment Ji Songlin slumped against the wall when he gently closed the door.

The gate cuts off the outside world, and only the mother and son are left in the apartment facing each other. The air is full of suffocation. Wu Yuling clutches her chest, feeling that her lungs are hurting every time she breathes.

"Mom...why are you here..." Xu Chenyu said cautiously, his mind went blank after shouting.

Wu Yuling barely raised her head, restrained her trembling shoulders, and asked weakly, "What are you doing?"

The reprimand, which was neither light nor serious, could be regarded as a conversation starter, but Xu Chenyu didn't dare to say anything.

"I asked you what were you doing just now?"

He still dare not answer.

After a while, Wu Yuling's voice started to cry. She covered her heart with her palm and asked tentatively, "Are you... in a relationship?"

"Mom..." Xu Chenyu clenched his hands hanging on both sides into fists, "Sit down first, sit down and talk."

Wu Yuling didn't move, she looked up at him, then lowered her head, and after a while, she looked up at Xu Chenyu again, and forced herself to calm down: "Well, you...you tell me first. ..how did it start?"

Although Wu Yuling's voice was lowered, she could still hear the trembling at the end, as well as the fragmentation inside.

Xu Chenyu bit his lips tightly, biting the dry and cracked dead skin. He ran sentences quickly in his mind, using his smooth tongue and his debating skills. He had also debated topics related to homosexuality in college before. He also won the best debater in one round, but at this moment, his mind was buzzing, and his reason was run over like a tank, leaving pieces of debris.

"Speak...are you dumb?" Wu Yuling's questioning was not loud, but every word seemed to be ripped from the tip of her tongue.

Xu Chenyu had never heard such a tone from her, his tongue immediately got stuck, he tried to open his mouth, but there seemed to be a puddle of blood stuck in his throat, he couldn't spit it out or swallow it.

The mother and son stood face to face. More than ten minutes passed, and the stalemate remained silent.

Wu Yuling was annoyed by his attitude, she stepped back two steps unsteadily, and her calf hit the sofa.

"Mom...be careful..." Xu Chenyu stretched out his hand, but he didn't dare to help his mother.

Wu Yuling regained her footing. She tried her best to adjust her thoughts and breathing. She sat down on the sofa and casually threw away her dark green striped satchel. The bag hit the coffee table, and the mirror, lipstick, bank cards, and keys fell through the cracks. Come out, making a comical mess.

"Let me ask you, who took the initiative?" Wu Yuling's tone began to fluctuate: "That kid chased you, did he seduce you?"

"No!" Xu Chenyu retorted immediately, but the voice behind him was weak: "No...it's not like this..."

Wu Yuling was stung by her son's eyes, it was the little wolf cub's protective eyes, full of panic but lonely.

"It's not what you think..." Xu Chenyu looked at his mother sadly, and begged, "You...don't say that kind of thing...."

This tone made Wu Yuling stunned.

Since childhood, Wu Yuling gave him the greatest freedom, and she didn't even say a serious word. She was shocked to the extreme today, and her mind went blank. When she calmed down a little, she realized that she was not choosing what she said. She sighed Taking a long breath, he nestled on the sofa as if he had lost his spine, hunched his back, and stared at the messy pile of objects on the ground.

Wu Yuling was in a slumped posture, she lowered her head, and after a while, the cold voice sounded again: "I felt something was wrong since your master's funeral, and I comforted myself that you are just good friends. ...." At this point, she snorted coldly, and her unspeakable emotions surged again: "Good friends? You are such a good man? Huh?"

The questioning and scolding were very light, there was no hysteria, no crying, but Xu Chenyu didn't dare to speak out. He never imagined that their feelings would appear under Wu Yuling's nose in this way.

Out of season, everything out of season.

"Mom...please give me some time...I'll think about how to tell you..." Xu Chenyu walked up to her and knelt down, the moment he bent over Seeing Wu Yuling's eyes turned red.

Even at Xu Zihua's funeral, Xu Chenyu had never seen his mother cry. The elders would not let their vulnerable side be shown in front of their children. They would be their ocean and their city wall.

Xu Chenyu was startled, his heart ached, he stretched out his hand, but he didn't know whether to pat his mother on the back or hand her a tissue.

Wu Yuling wiped away her tears and snot heavily, her eyes were still red, she took several deep breaths: "How long have you been together?"

"One month..." Xu Chenyu answered honestly.

"One month...one month..." Wu Yuling murmured, she rubbed the center of her brows, as if she was extremely tired: "That time is not too long, can this relationship...can it be broken? "She didn't use an imperative tone, but a discussion, like a pleading.

"No!" Almost without hesitation, Xu Chenyu stiffened his neck. He knew that this would irritate Wu Yuling, but he couldn't bear it, even if he told a lie.

Wu Yuling's eyes widened, this time the tears were not concealed, they trickled down from the corners of her slightly aged eyes and turned into water drops.

"Mom... I'm sorry..." Xu Chenyu's head almost fell to the ground.

Wu Yuling suppressed herself not to act too aggressively. She grabbed the fabric sofa with both hands and pulled out some white catkins. She was waiting for him to say.

Xu Chenyu finally regained his language function, and he organized the sentence brokenly: "We were looking at the photos just now, that is... when I was nine years old, my father took me to the Forbidden City to play and took a photo... ...the photos...where are the photos...." He stood up abruptly, stumbled and ran over, scraped the photos from the pile of black records, and ran back staggeringly.

"Mom, look...it's this photo...." Xu Chenyu spoke incoherently. He held the photo in front of Wu Yuling's eyes and knelt on the cold floor: "This little boy...he It's Ji Songlin... I met him when I was nine years old..."