Shocked in late autumn

Ji Songlin broke free from under the arms of the big security guard, and sat down with his back against the corner of the wall: "Sorry..."

He hadn't spoken for seven or eight hours, his voice was hoarse, and the churning feeling in his stomach hadn't stopped, rushing straight to his throat, like waves of sea water pouring in.

The big security guard is a confidant, and he knew that he was trapped by love when he saw the young man's appearance. He squatted down and shared the umbrella with him: "Break in love?"

Ji Songlin didn't speak, and kept beating his chest, trying to suppress the urge to vomit.

The security guard touched his chin and said to himself: "Oh, I see, you must have had a fight with your girlfriend and you were kicked out."

Ji Songlin leaned against the wall dejectedly, raised his neck, and still didn't speak.

The security guard also sat down on the steps, and he said with relief: "Actually, it's normal. Young people like to quarrel when they fall in love. But how do you say that, quarreling at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed. Listen to what my brother said, you go upstairs to your daughter now Apologize to my friend, I'm sure I'll coax you well."

Ears, brain, and stomach were all buzzing and spinning non-stop, which brought Ji Songlin varying degrees of irritability. He turned his head sideways: "I'm sorry, please leave me alone for a while."

Ji Songlin knew that this was kindness from a stranger, even though he was in a bad mood, he still maintained his demeanor.

The big security guard was choked, and he gave the umbrella in his hand to Ji Songlin, stood up tactfully, and said before leaving: "Young man, be happy, life is no big deal, separation and reunion are common things, whoever leaves Everyone lives the same way..."

Ji Songlin squatted on the ground, he hugged himself with one arm, and held the umbrella in the other hand for a while, the lights of every house in the community were turned off one after another, only the small window on the 37th floor was still dimly lit.

There was a lonely figure under the red umbrella, Ji Songlin looked at the beam of light through the thin umbrella, and just watched it all night.

Yue Mo leaned against the corner of the wall and squinted for a while, Ji Songlin woke up from the cold, and then opened his eyes, sneezed five or six times in a row, he moved the red umbrella to the left, and the concrete road was covered with white snow.

A little boy about seven or eight years old, carrying a cartoon schoolbag with a Spiderman pattern on his back, stood in the yard and stepped on the snow to play, leaving a row of crooked little footprints on the flat snow. He looked excited and just grabbed his feet The ice and snow beside him heard a doting scold.

"Are you disobedient? Chuxue is the coldest, so be careful to catch a cold." A middle-aged woman in a mink coat came from a distance, her long black hair was rolled up, and a dark green silk scarf was tied around her neck. She was carrying a breakfast bag in her hand.

The woman grabbed the little boy, hugged him, rubbed his frostbitten palm, and said softly, "Mom bought soy milk and steamed buns. Let's go home and have breakfast, and come out to play in the afternoon."

The little boy nestled in his mother's arms, shaking his short legs, begging in a childish voice, "Mom, let me play for another 5 minutes, okay?"

"No!" The woman pretended to be serious, and took the little boy's hand: "Go home first."

The mother and son were arguing in the courtyard, Ji Songlin hid under the red umbrella, staring at them blankly, to be precise, he should be looking at the breakfast bag in the woman's hand.

He suddenly remembered that he had made an appointment with Xu Chenyu to go to that shop for breakfast the next day, and he still remembered Xu Chenyu saying that Aunt Su's Xiaolongbao was delicious, and he remembered the way he said this , with little stars shining in his eyes, and a very sweet smile.

Ji Songlin stood up suddenly, there was a "squeak" sound in the snow, and the red umbrella accidentally touched the branch, which shocked him to the ground.

The woman and the little boy turned their heads at the same time, looking at the carefree young man standing in the corner, the woman held the child in her arms vigilantly, and dragged the child into the stairwell for no reason.

The broken snow fell on Ji Songlin's nose, and he shivered from the cold. Fearing that Xu Chenyu would miss the time to go out, he took out his mobile phone and sent Xu Chenyu a text message: "I'm going to buy breakfast, it's snowing, you are at home wait for me."

Walking along the stone road in the alley, the sky was gray and there was no one around, only the rain and snow sprinkled on the tile eaves of different heights, making a slight rustling sound. Ji Songlin walked all the way to the entrance of the alley before seeing the Shop early.

The store was deserted, except for a female student about seventeen or eighteen years old, sitting in the corner eating soy milk and fried dough sticks. A TV was placed on the low table next to him, playing the most popular drama this winter.

The proprietress's pink scarf was stained with oil, and it didn't look very clean, but she smiled kindly and said, "Handsome guy, do you want to buy it early?"

Ji Songlin's expression was a little dazed, as if his reflex arc was slowed down by the cold: "Well, I'll buy steamed buns."

The proprietress picked up the dishcloth on the table and wiped her hands. She smiled and said, "My steamed stuffed bun has many flavors. There are crab roe, shrimp, and sauced meat. Which one do you want?"

Ji Songlin was startled, before asking Xu Chenyu which flavor he likes, he stood in the snow, staring at the drawers of steamers with white mist in a daze.

"Have you made up your mind? Which flavor do you want?" The proprietress asked again.

Seemingly regaining consciousness, Ji Songlin took out a red one hundred yuan and handed it over: "One basket for each flavor."

"Okay, wait a minute," the proprietress moved quickly. She picked up the plastic bag, put it in a white porcelain bowl, and lifted up the steaming steamer. Each layer has different flavors. She opened three layers and filled it. Alright three plastic bags.

"Hey, handsome guy," the proprietress hurriedly chased over from the other side of the table and grabbed Ji Songlin's clothes corner: "This is your money."

"Oh, thank you." Ji Songlin seemed to be sleepwalking, with a dull expression on his face. He looked down, only to realize that he had left the breakfast shop without confiscating the change.

"Hey, you still haven't got your steamed stuffed bun," the proprietress leaned over, quickly picked up the plastic bag, and handed it to Ji Songlin.

Ji Songlin took the bag and said thank you in a daze.

The proprietress looked at the back of the young man walking away, lifted up her apron and wiped her hands, and murmured: "This young man...is talking like a god."

There is a canteen at the entrance of the community. The owner is an old man. He stooped and swept the dust on the shelf with a feather duster. He felt a customer behind him and turned around: "Are you shopping?"

Ji Songlin looked at the row of cigarettes and saw the familiar red and white packaging. He usually smoked Furong Wang, but when he gave the money, he said, "Please get me a pack of cigarettes, Marlboro."

The boss took the money, took out the Marlboro from the shelf, wiped the dust carefully before handing it over to him.

Carrying cigarettes and breakfast and walking to the courtyard, Ji Songlin returned to that corner, because he was facing the stairs of Unit 2, as long as Xu Chenyu went downstairs, he would be the first to see him.Ji Songlin looked at the phone seven or eight times, and the battery showed [-]%, but he still didn't receive a reply from Xu Chenyu.

It was too cold, and the cold was blowing into his neck. Ji Songlin couldn't bear the cold, so he tore off the wrapping paper of Marlboro, took out a cigarette, and lit it after several times of lighting.

The white flakes fell rustlingly, and Ji Songlin brushed off the residual snow on the plastic bag with the back of his hand, and checked the temperature of the bag. Fearing that the cold would be too fast, he pulled off his coat and buried his face with breakfast.

Xu Chenyu stood at the stairs and pressed the button vigorously. Today's elevator seemed to be slower than usual. In a hurry, he turned his head and looked out the window, but in an instant, the snow was even heavier.

Can't wait, Xu Chenyu ran all the way, he didn't take the stairs, but took the fire escape, go out from here, and walk another mile to Aunt Su's breakfast shop.When he ran to the store, his temples were covered with cold sweat, he searched all around, but he didn't see Ji Songlin, so he called him, the phone kept beeping busy.

"Auntie, have you seen a tall boy this morning, he is wearing a plaid shirt, he came to your store to buy breakfast."

"I've seen it." Aunt Su fiddled with the soymilk machine and filled a medium cup: "The handsome guy bought three drawers of steamed stuffed buns."

"Do you know where he's going?" Cold sweat dripped down Xu Chenyu's forehead, and he didn't bother to wipe it off, so hot that he blinked his eyes.

Aunt Su recalled, pointing to the deep alley on the left: "It seems to be walking from this road."

Without even saying thank you, Xu Chenyu took a step and ran, the cold wind blew his face and made his clothes flutter, he ran all the way, accidentally bumped into several passers-by, just stepped out of the hospital, he was stunned I saw Ji Songlin squatting at the foot of a remote wall alone, wearing a thin plaid shirt, half a cigarette between his fingertips, and a layer of frost on his thick eyelashes.

As if in response, the person on the opposite side suddenly raised his head, and amidst the drizzle of snow, he finally saw Xu Chenyu three miles away, his eyes met in the air, Ji Songlin pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled at him.

Xu Chenyu clenched his fists violently, just looked at him like this, and walked slowly towards him. At that moment, Ji Songlin suddenly had a feeling that the snow between the sky and the earth seemed to melt.

Xu Chenyu walked up to him, squatted down, and saw stubble on his chin, two dark circles under his eyes, a dull pain came from deep in his chest: "Have you squatted here all night?"

Ji Songlin didn't answer, but asked bluntly, "Why did you come here from this road?"

The person in front of him froze into a snowman, Xu Chenyu reached out and brushed off the snowflakes of his heart: "It must have been frozen." His hand trembled slightly, and when he raised it, he wanted to touch Ji Songlin's face, but turned around halfway, and patted Patted his dusty trousers: "Dirty, change to a clean pair when I get home."

"It's okay, I'm not cold," Ji Songlin raised his face and smiled, just like the first time we met, calm and moving.He took out the crushed breakfast from his arms: "Small steamed buns, I just bought them from Aunt Su's shop, they are still hot."

The shriveled bun was covered by a plastic bag, and it flickered in the air, reflecting the glare of the snow, making Xu Chenyu's heart ache.

Ji Songlin peeled off the plastic bag containing the meat buns, layer by layer, and the aroma wafted out. He picked the best-looking one and handed it over: "Try it, is it the usual taste?"

Xu Chenyu endured the discomfort: "You eat."

Ji Songlin's smile didn't change: "I ate it just now, these are for you."

Xu Chenyu looked at him and smiled, feeling sour in his chest, he exhaled slowly, took the bun, and bit the corner of his mouth lightly.

Ji Songlin's teeth chattered from the cold, like a babbling child: "Okay, do you want to eat?"

His eyes were red, Xu Chenyu blinked vigorously, and took a deep breath under pressure: "It's delicious."

"Come on, eat another one, or it will be cold in a while." As soon as he swallowed it, another one was handed over to his mouth. Ji Songlin looked at him and smiled contentedly, as if the bun had entered his stomach. He had only eaten one since yesterday. A bowl of porridge and a bowl of chicken soup.

Ji Songlin lowered his head and picked up the buns that were not crushed, chattering endlessly: "I forgot to ask which flavor you like, so I had to buy them all. If I came back earlier, I might be able to eat fresh out of the cage. Definitely better than now...."

The voice was cut off by the hug. In fact, as early as the moment he saw Ji Songlin squatting in the snow, the wind and snow seemed to blow over every nerve of Xu Chenyu, making him ache from the cold. Not caring about the pedestrians walking around, nor caring about the heavy snow, he opened his arms and hugged Ji Songlin tightly.

The person who rushed over was quite strong, Ji Songlin's legs and feet were already numb, and he was thrown into the snow, and he hissed because of the cold, he felt that the arms around him were getting tighter and tighter, and hugged him His body couldn't help shaking.

"What's the matter, the buns are not tasty?" Ji Songlin rubbed the back of his head with his hands.

Xu Chenyu shook his head in the crook of his neck, snorted to his collarbone, and fell into Ji Songlin's lapel, warming his stomach all the way: "Aren't you stupid, you're frozen stiff."

Ji Songlin glanced down, a little bit dumbfounded: "You're stupid...you're wearing the wrong shoes."

Xu Chenyu was wearing a sneaker on his left foot and a sneaker on his right foot. After careful identification, he found that he was not only wearing it wrong, but also wearing it backwards.Panting heavily, Ji Songlin covered Xu Chenyu's bare ankle with his palm, and said distressedly, "Why are you so stupid, you don't even wear socks."

"I just went to the alley to look for you, but I couldn't find you," Xu Chenyu tightened his arms.

"I'll tell you why you came from the gate." Ji Songlin patted him on the back lightly: "Are you cold? You're shivering."

Xu Chenyu let go of Ji Songlin, looked into his eyes and said, "Well, it's too cold in the courtyard, let's go home."

Ji Songlin's face was purple from the cold with a smile all the time, his brows and eyes frowned: "My legs are numb, give me a hand."

Xu Chenyu supported his back, pulled him up, and then quickly turned his face away, he seemed unable to see Ji Songlin's smile, when he smiled, Xu Chenyu's whole body was throbbing and his heart was broken.