from the star

When he woke up the next afternoon, Ling Qingyuan saw Cheng Lubai as soon as he opened his eyes.The girl was sixteen or seventeen years old, and she was tall and slender. Although she was still wearing a rough school uniform, the white coat and black skirt just set off her heron-like demeanor.

Probably Cheng's mother had just said something to her, maybe it was a reprimand or maybe a teaching and persuasion, her fair and delicate face had a pitiful expression, she wrung her hands, bit her lips lightly, and lowered her eyebrows.

"Mom, go back and rest. Just leave Lubai here."

Cheng's mother gave her daughter a warning look, and looked at her son uneasy.Seeing his relieved eyes, he sighed and shook his head and left the ward.

As soon as Cheng's mother left, Cheng Lubai finally couldn't hold it anymore. She almost opened the gate and let out tears: "Brother, I'm sorry." For a girl of her age, she was desperation of having her dreams shattered after being cheated a while ago. The fear of falling into the loan trap and being threatened to repay the money or even intimidation, the guilt of his brother's life-threatening danger because of his own mistakes, and the blame and grievance after the truth was learned by the mother, bitterness and bitterness came to my heart.

"Don't cry, you're doing me a favor." Ling Qingyuan waded for too long, feeling uncomfortable all over, and motioned for the girl to shake the bed so she could talk better.Cheng Lubai sobbed and did as he did.

Leaning at about ten degrees, Ling Qingyuan felt that he could more comfortably play the role of a good brother to this younger sister.He looked at her wiping tears expressionlessly-with no expression on his face, his eyebrows, nose and mouth were naturally relaxed, but his eyes were staring at something as if he was torturing something.This attitude is very common on his original body, that person with a cold texture, but it is extremely profound when it falls on Cheng Hebai's body.

Cheng Lubai, who had never seen his brother like this, couldn't control the shower switch again.The Cheng Hebai in her impression was always straightforward.Probably because he worked part-time after graduating from high school to take care of his family, Cheng Hebai's temper and temperament are very fast, he shouts and drinks, speaks when he has something to say, and is impulsive and direct.After a few years of small business, this man with a good appearance looks a little vulgar.

Now this elder brother looked at him with eyes that seemed to be able to see through, without expression, but with some unspeakable emotions.As if he was not used to bearing this weight, Cheng Lubai lowered his head, letting his long hair slide down his face and shoulders.

In fact, Ling Qing has never been very good at getting along with the opposite sex.He wanted to comfort her and tell her not to cry, but he couldn't guess how Cheng Hebai would deal with his younger sister, so he had to deal with it in his own way, and he did not forget to comfort her verbally: "Actually, Mom is more worried about you."

"Don't look at me being stabbed a few times by those guys. In fact, the invisible wound hurts more. The hole in my stomach, it's fine, the scar has healed, and there is no trace after time. The limbs are broken , the head is broken, apart from bleeding, there is nothing serious."

"And you, you're crying, you're sad...why?" Ling Qingyuan was a little out of breath after speaking for a long time, but insisted on finishing in one breath: "Sit down and talk to brother."

How can a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl resist the words of a man whose life experience is more than twice as long as hers.She unconsciously sat down obediently, calming her tears in his gaze.

Ling Qingyuan suddenly had a strange feeling.His previous parents left early, and he has no brothers.He didn't have a family until he died, and naturally he had no children.Now, with Cheng Hebai's body, let him experience how an elder brother is like a father.

"Brother, I...where do you want me to start?"

"Start where you want to say. I won't interrupt and I won't hurt you until you stop."

Cheng Lubai looked at her brother suspiciously, then stared at the crossed fingers on his knee.She needs a company too much. In this family, the busy mother always ignores her, and her brother who is seven years older than her is always busy...

"I still remember when my father died when I was just six years old and went to elementary school, and you just went to middle school. Mom didn't see anyone every day, and so did you. After cleaning up the housework for mom, I ran to the hospital. At that time, I asked you what I could do. What?" Cheng Lubai showed a weak and sad smile: "You all said in unison, tell me to study hard."

Ling Qingyuan could almost guess what happened when he was young.This girl must have worked hard to listen to what her mother and brother said, and she must have been serious about studying hard.She wants to make her family happy with her good performance at school and do her bit for the family.But every time the good children brought back proved that they only aroused their relief for a moment, and then they were sunk by the deep hardship.

"It's useless. When I was in junior high school, my father left. You feel sorry for me, Xiaogan, and didn't say clearly about the situation at home. Although I don't know the details, I know it's hard. Because even you have to give up your own Dream, work as soon as possible to subsidize the family."

When Ling Qingyuan heard his sister say this, his heart moved and he hurriedly asked: "What dream?"

Cheng Lubai gave him a strange look, as if surprised at his forgetfulness, then lowered his head and played with his fingers vaguely: "Be an actor. You didn't dare to tell your parents, you only told me quietly. But later You also said it doesn't count."

This answer left Ling Qingyuan speechless for a long time.His ears kept lingering about the trivia of Cheng Lubai's junior high school, most of which were the busyness of Cheng Hebai and their mother, as well as her school life.

Just when the melody suddenly turned high, Cheng Lubai suddenly raised his head: "I don't want to watch you and mom work hard all day...but after high school, you don't know, some girls...they obviously don't I'm pretty, but I'm so popular..."

"I was wondering why our family has such a hard life."

"There must be something wrong, we could have been better off."

"Aren't those people like the ones shown on TV so ordinary that they die, and they end up so popular. Brother, I'm going to be 17 soon. Honestly, I don't think our family should live like this."

Even though Ling Qingyuan guessed the general idea, he was still a little speechless.This younger sister didn't know what distorted values ​​she had acquired from school, and she had the feelings of a girl who became a star overnight and became rich overnight.Although her original intention may be to hope that her family can be improved through her "debut", is it not to satisfy her own vanity.

"It's not easy to be a star..." Ling Qingyuan thought of the circle he was in contact with before, and instinctively said, "Aside from your face, what are your specialties or charms that can hold up a scene."

"I...I can sing."

"There are many people who can sing." Ling Qingyuan was a little helpless with these clichés.Everyone can sing a song, but it's hard to say whether the voice sung can be listened to.

"Brother, don't you often say that where there is a will, there is a way... Now you have given up, have you really let go? Don't you want to realize your previous wish at all now?" Cheng Lubai stubbornly nodded After saying a word, he took a soft breath and said: "This time... I was really wrong, and I will never act like this in the future. But brother, you have had this dream, but now you have given up, and I am not even allowed to think about it. ?”

This girl with a dream is still stubborn and unwilling to give up after encountering such a situation.Ling Qingyuan could tell that his sister's confession was not a reflection.There is a clear implication between the words and the meaning of not crying without seeing the coffin.

She only knows about the mistake of being deceived and hurting her brother, Ling Qingyuan thought, she may not really understand what it means to be a star.Looking back, a gust of wind in Qingqing's campus revived her vanity, jealousy and unbalanced mentality, who knows what impulsive and mindless things she would do.

The thoughts between the two were not speculative, they couldn't get along, and it was awkward to be in a stalemate. Ling Qingyuan said to her: "Turn on the TV."

In the ward, there is a small color TV hanging on the wall opposite the bed, which is considered standard in public hospitals.Cheng Lubai listened to his brother's instructions to turn on the power, and automatically switched to the entertainment channel without asking him which channel he wanted to watch.

An obituary is playing on TV.

The picture is an exterior scene, and the camera has been repeatedly showing the scenery on the bank of Daixi Reservoir.There were crowds of people on the shore, several police cars and an ambulance were flashing red and blue alarms, and several policemen were busy and orderly maintaining the scene and pulling up the cordon...

"Director Ling Qingyuan's body was discovered yesterday morning, that is, at [-]:[-] on the [-]th. What you see now is the scene at that time." The female announcer said in a deep voice: "According to the clothes According to the autopsy information, Director Ling was indeed correct. According to insiders, Director Ling once haunted Daishan Yaju near the reservoir on the night of June [-], and his whereabouts have been unknown since then.”

"Currently the cause of death in the autopsy report has not been released to the public. However, there are remarks that director Ling was in a bad mood that night and drank a lot of alcohol. Rumors of drunkenness, slipping into the water and committing suicide after a major setback are rampant."

"...It's hard to judge whether this rumor is true or not. It's just that Director Ling fell into the water ten days before the 'Yulan Award', the most prestigious and highest award in the Chinese film industry, and this year is the third time he has been shortlisted for the Best Director Award. Such a coincidence in timing is really puzzling."

"Next, this program will lead the audience to review the main works of Director Ling Qingyuan and the artistic journey he has traveled in his life."

What was shown on TV was edited and re-arranged from several films he directed, and the soundtrack used happened to be an original soundtrack in "Dead Water".The picture style is delicate, the colorful and heavy images are accompanied by the music that symbolizes the meandering of the river and the tumbling waves all the way to the east, making people feel that the nerves are involved and the soul is trembling.

The introductory film is about five or six minutes long, and even includes several films that are not allowed to be released in the mainland.It can be said that it has collected Ling Qingyuan's works in an all-round way, and spared no effort to summarize the life achievements of this director who died unexpectedly.

Ling Qingyuan closed his eyes.He doesn't even need to watch it, he knows the minutes and seconds of which movie each clip appears in.He didn't want to watch it, he didn't believe it and he wasn't willing to make only these in his life-five movies plus some short films.The melody of the music is ringing in his ears, he is too familiar with it, this is the earliest mature film he created that can be called a screen movie.This soundtrack is a true portrayal of his mood when shooting that film...

Cheng Lubai stared at the TV without blinking. She saw that the female anchor appeared again after the introduction film ended.The hostess wiped the corners of her eyes symbolically, and said emotionally: "I don't know how you feel after watching it. Director Ling's works made me feel again that things that hit the soul really exist..."

"Let us sincerely thank Director Ling for bringing us these works. According to the introduction of his former friends, his memorial service will be held on the 25th of this month, which is the seventh day of his death, at his former apartment."

"This episode ends here. I wish Director Ling all the best in heaven."

An obituary news made the brothers and sisters in the ward temporarily forget the topic and disagreement about "becoming a star".The advertisement started to play on TV, but Ling Qingyuan still didn't open his eyes.He no longer exists in this world, and the left and right sides of the dashes of his birth and death years can already be filled with definite dates.

He really died.Died from suspected suicide or accidental drunken drowning.

Could it be that he can only make these few films in his life?He still has too much to express, and his works have not had time to be widely accepted by the world.This kind of regret, like cutting off the most important part of his heart with a single knife, made him sigh endlessly.

He just disappeared.Suicide, misstep, accident or... murder?

suicide?Ling Qingyuan felt that he did not have such a subjective desire, how could a person who still had too many things to do suddenly end his life.

slip?Playing crazy after drinking, wanting to go to the water to embrace the bright moon like Li Taibai?Although Ling Qingyuan and Li Bai could barely be called half-art colleagues, they really didn't reach the realm of banishing immortals.

Could it be that someone really intended to take his life?Ling Qingyuan laughed at himself. He is a director of unpopular films. It is true that he encountered a lot of difficulties and obstacles because of the film shooting funds during his lifetime.

"Brother, who is Ling Qingyuan?"

Ling Qingyuan was trapped in his own thinking world, when he suddenly heard the curious question from his sister next to him, he calmed down and opened his eyes to look straight ahead, looking at the advertisement as a painting.

Cheng Lubai asked rashly: "Is he famous? Why have I never heard of him? How about directors like Zhang Shuli and Tang Xin?"

Zhang Shuli and Tang Xin mentioned by Cheng Lubai are the famous directors of Mandarin commercial films, so well-known that even a three-year-old Mao Ya can use their names to eat bibimbap.Of course, some film critics or some viewers pointed out that their films lacked sincerity and were too intent on making money. However, based on the number of box office viewers alone, they can still score high.

Seeing that his brother didn't respond, Cheng Lubai asked again.Probably related to the entertainment industry, she still has a strong desire for knowledge and curiosity.

"They're not the same." Ling Qingyuan said slowly.The younger sister asked him to make a comparison, and to him, it was like introducing himself.But Ling Qing was originally indifferent by nature, and she still felt that there was no need to paint herself or whip others for the younger sister she picked up.

"Director Ling prefers realistic themes, and draws more materials from real history or reality. Of course, he doesn't have any comedic romance films that cater to the audience's taste. Therefore, it is determined that the return on investment of his films is a problem, and they are all short-suffering novels. cost."

"Director Zhang and Director Tang are very good at grasping the pulse of the market, and the films they make are all loved by the audience."

Ling Qingyuan felt that what he said was too pertinent, as if he was being interviewed into a microphone camera.No matter what he really thinks, the cruel truth of the film market is what he just said.It's the same as Cheng Lubai only knows those two famous directors.

In the past, he had doubted countless times whether his insistence on pure art films was meaningful when faced with the reality of the market.But whenever he stood in the director's position, he felt that this suspicion was unnecessary.

Without pure works of art, there would be no Ling Qingyuan.

Cheng Lubai seemed to want to continue asking, Ling Qingyuan curled his lips and said, "If you are interested, go and watch his movies yourself. Don't you know the difference by comparing yourself?"