The whole network is eating me and the actor cp

I have a lover who I have guarded since I was a child.

Even today, it is still unforgettable.

……

My name is Ouyang Xu. I have an ordinary background, ordinary family background, ordinary appearance, and ordinary experience. The only thing that is not ordinary is that I met him at the end of that summer.

When I first saw him, the setting sun shone on his face, which made me think that an angel strayed into the world.

He is too beautiful, too dazzling.

I fell all of a sudden.

The world was instantly quiet, and the blood in my whole body seemed to coagulate in an instant, and my heart and eyes were full of only him.

I finally realized what is love at first sight, what is "love at first sight".

Since that day, I have tried to be a better person, just to help others occasionally.

I changed from being silent and introverted to being cheerful and kind, and I can talk to him more after a long absence;

I don't bother to campaign, just to help others when I can help them.

I chose to stay, just to be able to have a sushe with him.

I help all my roommates to cook, fetch water, and buy breakfast every day. I work hard like a snail boy, just to show my heart to him and not be so conspicuous.

, That day, we went to play together, I held his hand for the first time, full of joy.

When I learned that I was admitted to the same university as him, I giggled the whole holiday.

……

, three years,, four years, colleagues three years.

A full ten years.

I was careful to hide my thoughts so as not to trouble him.

I know, in such a conservative era and such a conservative place, once this kind of thing is known, what kind of vortex he will fall into...

I thought selfishly, liking him is just my private matter and has nothing to do with him;

Besides, he's been celibate, so I still have hope, don't I?

However, he still noticed the thoughts I had hidden for ten years.

I will never forget that day.

After get off work that day, he called me to an empty street corner and asked me if I liked him.

I shook my head subconsciously, afraid that he would think I was disgusting.

In the end, he couldn't help but nodded again.

he smiled...

"Then do you want to be my boyfriend or girlfriend?"

I……

For him, I can be whatever I am, I can even be a robot who accompanies him—as long as I can be by his side.

Not only did he not dislike my liking, but he also agreed to associate with me.

The next month or so was the happiest time for me.

He allowed me to hold his hand, to hug him, and even to kiss him.

I have exhausted all the courage and ability to love someone, I thought, this is a lifetime...

pity……

People's hearts and feelings are two things that are the most unpredictable.

……

More than a month later, due to work needs, he was transferred to a place thousands of miles away, which was also his hometown.

He let me work with peace of mind and wait for him to come back.

I wait for half a year.

During this period, he didn't allow me to see him, so I had to wait obediently.

In this way, I waited from the vernal equinox to the summer solstice.

That day, he came back, found me, and showed me a photo of a girl with a sweet smile.

He said that this was a girl from the same country he had liked for many years, but that girl liked the same sex, so he wanted to try it with me, this feeling.

Now, that girl wants to give an explanation to the world, so the two of them plan to get married.

He also said that he would leave the city and never see each other again.

I lost all control over my expression, like a puppet.

I didn't cry, I didn't laugh, and I didn't question, I just said lightly——

goodbye……

With all my might.

he's gone……

And I still stay where I am.

for a long time……

I wanted to slap myself hard.In the end, he touched his cheeks and applauded himself.

I said: "Ouyang Xu, you are awesome. In this life, you have loved someone with all your heart without any calculations. That's awesome!"

I thought, that I would hide and lick my wounds alone, or that I might not survive.

In fact, no.

I didn't even intend to escape the city.

However, I finally left this small town and came to Kyoto because of my family.

From then on, I changed from being gentle and refined to a loud and hilarious erha, laughing like a heartless erha every day.

Probably only in this way can I dilute the bitterness and loneliness in my heart.

My sister once jokingly said: "Ouyang Xu, you are so awesome, you plan to love only one scene in your whole life?"

I know what she's implying, I'm really worthless!

I laugh……

Isn't it good that people only love once in a lifetime, just for one person?

I am not for quantity.

Even if they are not together, they are still in love.

I am proud of my pure love.

This pride has lasted for more than ten years.

-

I never thought that I would meet him again in this life.

That day, goodbye in a foreign country, I watched him walk by holding his wife and children, and his heart went from turbulent at the beginning to calm at the end.

Are you relieved?

It seems not.

Because, I still love that person in memory.Although, he is no longer the current him.

Maybe God just wanted to see my jokes, so he deliberately made fun of people-his daughter actually asked me to take pictures.

He recognized me, a little embarrassed, probably trying to pretend he didn't know me, but he didn't succeed.

Like a respectable old friend, I nodded lightly and said, "Long time no see."

He seemed very afraid that I would say inappropriate words, and he seemed very embarrassed.

I am not an ignorant person, I hurriedly took pictures and waved away.

This time, I turned around first and didn't say goodbye.

I think, I won't see you anymore.

I looked up at God, and laughed at him: You are disappointed, I am such a dick, it is not easy to tease me, right?

Because I only make fun of myself.

Hehehe...

I was smiling on my face, but my heart was crying.

-

Unfortunately, I still underestimated the bloody plot designed by God. It seemed that it was afraid that our old lovers would not be reunited, and arranged for us to live in the same hotel, on the same floor, and the rooms were not far apart.

When I ran into him again in the corridor, the moment my eyes met, I frantically rummaged through my pockets.

It was late and there was no one in the corridor, so he came towards me.

He's already whispering my name!

I finally got the key card and unlocked the door with trembling hands.

"Ouyang..."

The calling is close at hand.

I hurriedly opened the door, stumbled in, slammed it shut, locked it, and put on the safety ring.

I covered my ears and fled to the bathroom, took out my phone, turned the volume to the maximum, and played a random song.

It happened to be youthful rock music, the sound of metal crashing and the singer's cry from the soul, covering up other sounds from the outside world...