The whole network is eating me and the actor cp

I still covered my ears, closed my eyes, and squatted down along the cold wall.

At this moment, I felt that I could finally take a breath.

How lucky I am, the day he turned and left, I changed all my contact information.

I don't want to see him, I don't want to hear what he said about the past.

Whether it's his last resort or unfeeling, I don't want to know the truth.

The feelings I want are pure.

Whether he has never loved, or his love is defeated by reality, to me, it is not true love——

I have always believed that love can overcome all difficulties except life and death.

He didn't win, it just wasn't enough.

Maybe me too, after all, I just buried love in my heart...

I think suicide is a silly evasive practice.Although, I have been avoiding and refusing to face him.

Maybe, this is also a sign that I don't love enough?

Maybe, I really don't love him anymore, or, I don't actually love him as much as I thought.

Man, it's such a contradiction.

It is said that time can heal all emotional wounds, and time can make a person forget the old love and meet someone more worthy and loving again.

Maybe……

I believe it.

It's just that I haven't met another person who wants to love with all my heart.

Maybe the older you get, the less courage you get.

Maybe I was afraid of getting hurt again, so I simply closed my heart.

This has an advantage: I am always alone, free and uninhibited, coming and going like the wind.

You see, those people who are entangled in marriage may not be happy in life...

I was just thinking wildly like this, curled up on the floor and fell asleep.

In the middle of the night, I woke up from the cold.

The cell phone is dead.

There was silence all around, only the cold light was on, which made me feel even colder all over.

I rubbed my tingling legs, stood up slowly while supporting the washbasin, and almost fell headfirst because of numb legs and trembling hands.

At this moment, what I thought in my mind was actually the words of those old people about "marriage" and "raising children for old age":

You young people don’t understand. When you get old, you can’t walk anymore, you’re lying on a hospital bed, and there’s no one to take care of you.At that time, you will know the benefits of having a full house of children and grandchildren.

You young people don’t understand. When you get old and can’t walk anymore, and your children have their own busy lives, and you are far away from other places, you can’t take care of you.

I smiled wryly, and silently calculated an account:

I am forty soon.

If I get married at the age of 22 and have a child at 23, then now, my child is sixteen or seventeen years old, and he should be in high school. It is the time when I am worrying about my studies and insomnia, and there is a high probability that I will not accompany me, a middle-aged man, on a business trip , don't worry about whether I fell to the ground.

As for lovers, they may also have their own work to do;

It may also be worrying about children's learning and growth;

Or, be busy balancing the balance between home and work.

I murmured: "Look, these are two contradictory remarks."

Raising children to prevent old age, children may not be able to prevent old age;

Husband and wife are companions, and husband and wife may not be able to grow old together.

Love disappears, and man is always alone.

……

As a result of sleeping most of the night on the cold bathroom floor, I caught a cold for the first time.

My original plan to leave in a hurry before dawn fell through, and I fell asleep in the hotel all day wrapped in a quilt.

When I woke up again, I remembered that my phone was out of battery.

I rubbed my sore temples, sat up, and charged my phone.

After sleeping for a long time, my body is a little weak.

I slowly got out of bed and planned to order dinner.

There was an envelope lying on the floor by the door.

I trembled all over, as if facing a formidable enemy.

He doesn't want me to know something, so he doesn't give up, does he?

I walked over with heavy steps, squatted down slowly, and picked up the letter.

A light letter, but I feel as if it weighs a thousand catties.

He can really torture me. After so many years, he is still the most able to pinch my seven inches.

He is sure that I will watch it, right?

Or does it not matter if I watch it or not, he just wants to feel better for himself?

I smiled wryly again.

Whether to open it or not is indeed a very difficult decision for me.

No matter how I do it, it is the proof that I still can't let go of him!

I simply put the envelope on the small table next to the window and opened the window for ventilation.

It may be that God finally took pity on me, and couldn't bear to make me entangled, so he sent Feng to overturn the water glass that appeared on the table at some time, and it just happened to pour it all on the envelope.

A letter was soaked in water in an instant, and the ink was smeared, seeping into the kraft paper envelope.

I froze for a few seconds, smiled wryly again, and threw the destroyed letter into the trash can.

Well, it seems to be God's will, I don't have to make a decision at all.

Me and him, so be it.

Already doomed!

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As soon as I interrupted, my head cleared up a lot, and I finally felt hungry.

I turned on my phone, ready to order food.

As soon as I turned it on, there were several missed calls and messages.

The boss and Xiangqian both called. I thought about my work and thought that I should not have delayed major matters.

I was still thinking about it, and the overseas phone call before the project came, and the first sentence was concern.

"Ouyang, are you okay?"

I took a deep breath, put on my usual cynical look, and teased: "Hey, what can I do, why, I haven't seen you for a few days, you miss me?"

"Your voice is wrong, and you suddenly shut down for more than 16 hours. Are you sick or have you encountered some trouble? Boss asked me to keep an eye on you, so I need to know what's wrong with you and whether you need help."

Xiang Qian's determined tone made Ouyang Xu a little uncomfortable.

It turned out that the people who knew him best were his colleagues and bosses for many years.

Probably, feelings really come out of getting along, and the understanding of a person can only be understood after being together for many years.

he and I……

Forget it, why do I still miss him?

I laughed at myself, and told the truth to Xiangqian: "Damn, it's not that I was sad and hurt when I saw my first love. I fell asleep at night and didn't cover the quilt, so I caught a cold. I forgot to charge my phone. It's no big deal, I fell asleep. It's been a good day."

"That's fine, you pay attention to your health. Boss knows your habits. After finishing work, he will hang out in the local area for two days. Therefore, there is no urgent work that you need to be responsible for for the time being. If you need to extend your vacation, it's okay."

"No, I'll book the earliest flight back home."

After hanging up the phone in front of the project, I saw that the boss also sent a greeting message.

I returned the safety message to Boss Yu, and when I slid my finger to the name that sent the most messages, I suddenly hesitated.

This brat, why did you say so many things that would make you cry, why did you care so much about me?

So annoying!

The stinky boy is obviously not my assistant, if he insists on rushing to me, it will be very...

What, I suddenly ran out of words.