You don't understand the gentleness of an old man

Fang Lu also took a bath, lying on the bed tossing and turning, always unable to fall asleep, especially wanting to talk to Lu Qingzhu or Li Zhi.After struggling for a long time, I fell asleep.

But the dream is not at ease.

Finally, in the middle of the night, I heard something different, as if someone was calling his name.

Fang Lu also turned on the light to check the time. It was past two o'clock in the morning, when he got out of bed and opened the window, the cry became more obvious.

"Fang Luya!! Fang Luya! Brother Xiaoye!!"

"Xiao Liu?" Fang Lu also saw someone with a flashlight next to the cafeteria near the west gate, and vaguely heard a girl's voice calling his name.

Fang Lu also grabbed his coat, put it on, and rushed downstairs.

Some students had already been woken up, and when they went downstairs, they asked him what was wrong, Fang Lu didn't have time to explain, and when he got downstairs, he just met the staff from the competition team rushing over.

"Fang Lu also! Someone called the director and your cell phone. It seems that something happened to your sister!"

Fang Lu also took the phone, and it was full of numbers from Lu Qingzhu, Li Zhi, Xiao Liu and the hospital.

The editor and director scratched his head annoyed and blamed himself: "There is a phone in the lobby, but your friend said it won't work later on."

Fang Lu didn't have time to think about why the phone couldn't get through, so he rushed out to find Xiaoliu with his mobile phone.

The two met on the basketball court, and Xiao Liu was so cold that his face was full of tears and runny nose. Seeing Fang Lu also came over, he couldn't help hugging him: "Brother Xiaoye, Miss Xiaozhu is in the ICU. The doctor asked me to contact my family, Brother Zhi In the field, I..."

When Xiao Liu saw Fang Luye, his emotions broke down instantly, and he cried loudly while hugging him.

Fang Lu also: "It must be fine, I'll go back right away, this time it must be fine."

Soon a girl in a white down jacket ran over, Fang Lu didn't have time to ask who it was, and dragged Xiao Liu to the school gate.

"I drove out from the west gate, but I couldn't get in through the main gate. The two of us climbed over the wall to get in. Qingqing, you and Brother Xiaoye went to the main gate and waited for me."

"Okay." The girl agreed immediately.

Fang Lu also took the girl named Qingqing to run to the main entrance. Even though he knew the speed of his running, it was difficult for the girl to keep up and couldn't keep up.

When they ran to the main entrance, Xiao Liu also arrived, and Fang Lu also opened the car door, only to realize that Qing Qing hadn't left either, her face was flushed to keep up with Fang Lu, and her clothes were all from when she climbed over the wall dirt.

Xiao Liu was driving the car, and he no longer cared about the speed limit. There were no cars on the road in the early morning, so he just drove to the hospital.

"Brother Xiaoye, do you want to call Brother Zhi? He said he would be back right away, but he is in another province, and it may take several hours to arrive."

"Okay..." Fang Lu also said yes, but there was no movement on his hands.

Qingqing saw that his hands were trembling and he was holding the phone tightly, and he could see his lips pursed and tears in his eyes through the lights in the car.

She took a bottle of hot water from the car incubator and unscrewed it and handed it to him: "Brother, drink some water."

Fang Lu also came back to his senses, took the warm water, and said thank you.

Fang Lu also suddenly faced out of the window, closed his eyes, and said silently in his heart: "God, Buddha, please bless my sister to overcome the difficulties. I am willing to worship sincerely, sincerely and bravely, and be a kind person for the rest of my life. I beg you .”

He remembered Li Zhi said that all Bodhisattvas knew about it.

My sister has never done anything bad in her life, even the stray dogs on the side of the road who yell at her will not curse, and she will buy them ham sausages to eat. She respects her parents, treats people kindly, and raises her brother who has no blood relationship.

She is really suffering, please.

Fang Luye finally couldn't hold back the tears, but wiped them away vigorously in the next second.

Be brave, Fang Luye, my sister is still waiting for you.

It was almost four o'clock in the morning when we arrived at the hospital. Fang Lu also ran to the door of the emergency room. There were two people guarding the door. They were the colleagues Xiao Liu had found.

A red light was on at the door of the emergency room, and Fang Lu stood at the door for a long time.

At five o'clock in the morning, the nurse came out to inform: "Is Lu Qingzhu's family here?"

"I'm here."

Nurse: "He has been rescued and transferred to intensive care."

Fang Lu also breathed a sigh of relief, but he was still very scared, because Lu Qingzhu's condition would only get worse, and it was almost impossible to reverse it.

At six o'clock in the morning, Fang Lu was also enduring a headache at the door of the intensive care unit, and waited until seven o'clock in the morning to go in for a visit.

At 06:30 in the morning, the attending doctor rushed into the intensive care unit with nurses.

Ten minutes later, a nurse came out, "Lu Qingzhu's family, the patient wants to see you."

Fang Lu also followed the nurse in, and saw that Lu Qingzhu's body was full of tubes, and his abdomen and legs were swollen.

"elder sister."

Lu Qingzhu is still conscious, but with a ventilator on, she has no strength to speak, and Fang Lu can't even shake her hand.

She opened her eyes to look at Fang Luye, and hummed weakly.

The doctor patted Fang Luye on the shoulder and asked him to come with him, and the two walked to the door.

"Now the fluid in the body spreads, there is a large amount of fluid in the lungs, heart, and chest cavity, and the fluid in the abdomen is squeezed into the internal organs. Now I dare not use large doses of drugs. Now I have difficulty breathing. Tonight she vomited blood. .”

After the doctor finished speaking, seeing Fang Lu holding back tears, he could only pat him on the arm twice: "Xiao Ye, you should be mentally prepared, spend more time with her these two days."

"Okay." Fang Lu also bowed his head in response.

Fang Lu was also by Lu Qingzhu's side, her eyes were sunken, her skinny face and her swollen figure formed a huge contrast.

Lu Qingzhu kept trying to keep his eyes open, for fear that once they were closed, they would never be able to open them again.

"Xiao Ye..."

Fang Lu also heard his sister call him, and the respirator was condensed into white mist. He gently moved his ear to it, and pulled out a stiff smile: "Sister, I'm here."

Lu Qingzhu wanted to smile back at him, but couldn't do it, she could only look at him, and didn't even have the strength to say another word.

"Sister, I'll be with you, let me chat with you, do you miss me a lot these days?"

"We did a quiz today, and I got No.2."

"Do you know what the topic of our second round of competition is? It's "Spring". I chose your favorite "Lian Lian Feng Dust" as the accompaniment. I want to dance a dance for you."

"Do you remember that it snowed on New Year's Eve? It's so beautiful, isn't it? I'm going to snow again for you on the stage."

"Sister..." Fang Lu couldn't help moistening her eyes, "Sister, I love you so much, really, can you stay with me again?"

"Xiaoye..." Tears rolled down the corners of Lu Qingzhu's eyes, "Xiaoye..."

She didn't have the strength to speak anymore, so she could only shout Fang Luye's name desperately.

Fang Lu also gently held Lu Qingzhu's wrist. There was no instrument inserted there, and her skin was no longer as delicate and firm as before, because the edema had a peculiar soft and waxy touch, which was a bit cold, not like human skin.

"Stop talking, I'll be with you, sister, take a break."

Lu Qingzhu held Fang Luye's wrist with his backhand with all his strength, and called out "Xiaoye" again. Fang Lu also moved his ears closer, and heard Lu Qingzhu say: "I love you too, Xiaoye... sister... you must……"

beep beep-

The equipment next to it made irregular sounds. Before Fang Lu had time to call the doctor and nurse, the nurse opened the door and rushed in. Fang Lu also took the initiative to step aside, and soon the doctor came, surrounded by many people in white clothes. that little bed.

Fang Lu was also standing near the wall of the bed, unable to see the picture of rescue, his mind suddenly went blank, the sound of various instruments and ear-piercing tinnitus were all around his ears, the pictures in front of him overlapped, and he felt dizzy for a moment He had to lean against the wall to keep himself from falling.

I don't know how long it took, amidst the regretful voices of several nurses and the unified and straight voices of various instruments, the doctor announced that the patient Lu Qingzhu died.

Fang Luye's world seemed to have lost its voice, and only the figures of Xiaoliu and Qingqing could be seen surrounding him.Fang Lu also knelt beside Lu Qingzhu's hospital bed, holding her hand, unable to cry.

The people in the hospital wanted to clean up all kinds of plumbing equipment on Lu Qingzhu's body, and asked Fang Lu to go out first.

Fang Lu also went outside mechanically, and stood at the door in a daze. After a long time, Fang Lu finally woke up from Xiao Liu's call.

"Brother Xiaoye, do you want to answer Brother Zhi's call?"

Fang Lu also answered the phone, not even realizing what he was doing in his mind.

"Xiao Ye." Li Zhi's thick and powerful voice came from the other end of the phone.

Fang Lu also seemed to have his five senses opened up, and broke down crying the moment he heard Li Zhi's voice.

"It's okay, I'll be back soon, Xiaoye, Xiaoye? Are you listening to me?"

"I am listening."

Li Zhi had a sore nose, and took a deep breath to recover: "You need to prepare towels and liquor now. The hospital should contact the funeral parlor for you. They will usually come in about three hours. Before getting in the car, you should wipe her body and let her Go clean. You tell Little Six sister where to put her clothes, and prepare clean and decent clothes for her, because the quality of the shrouds brought by the funeral home is not good, and they may ask you for a random price after wearing them.

"Hey, your phone is turned off, ask Xiao Liu to find you a power bank, the funeral home and the relevant personnel from the hospital will call you to fully charge the phone, keep it on until I come back."

"Okay." Fang Lu also sobbed, and gradually calmed down in Li Zhi's voice.

My sister has only herself, so she can't collapse now, she must arrange these things properly.

At [-] o'clock in the morning in early spring, the window at the end of the hospital corridor burst into the sky, and the sky showed a cool and gentle blue that is unique to cold weather.Fang Lu also charged the phone and went to apply for various certificates for Lu Qingzhu so that she could be picked up.

The people from the funeral home came faster than expected, and the girl Qingqing who came with Xiaoliu helped Fang Lu and changed Lu Qingzhu's clothes together.

"Thank you, I'll do it myself if I'm afraid."

"Ah?" Qingqing was standing on Fang Luye's left. She couldn't hear clearly, so she explained to Fang Luye: "I can't hear in my right ear, and I didn't hear what you said clearly."

Fang Lu also said it again, Qingqing just smiled softly, and replied: "I'm not afraid, Sixth Brother brought me to see Sister Xiaozhu, she is very nice."

Soon, the staff of the funeral home came to him and said that the car was at the back door of the hospital and would take Lu Qingzhu to the funeral home in the suburban forest park for cremation at noon today.

"Mr. Fang, you need to tidy up Miss Lu's clothes, daily necessities, etc., and cremate together."

Fang Lu was also stunned for a moment, thinking of the death of his parents many years ago, it seemed that there was such a link, burning all the belongings of the deceased, he said as if talking to himself: "Can we not burn it? "

"Well... this is a local custom. Of course, it is up to the family to decide whether to cremate." The staff responded politely to him.

Fang Lu also thought about it, and asked the other party to wait a while, and went to pack up the clothes left in the hospital and take them away together.It has been several days since he went to the competition, and he hasn't had time to return to Lu Qingzhu's ward.

As soon as he walked in, he saw a photo frame on Lu Qingzhu's bedside table, which was taken by them downstairs in Li Zhi's house on the first day of the new year.

Fang Lu also picked up the photo frame and looked at it silently for a long time, until Xiao Liu came and helped him clean it up. He was hospitalized here for nearly a year, and the things left were only three big paper bags.

Xiao Liu got into the car with Fang Lu, and Qing Qing wanted to go to the shop to explain about the milk tea shop.

Generally, when the funeral parlor comes to pick up someone, the family members of the patient will prepare the photos and take them into the car together, and also prepare the mourning clothes for the family members to wear, but Fang Lu doesn't understand anything, and he didn't even make preparations, and he panicked all the way. rush back.

Looking at the street view outside the window on the road, it was already time to go to work, and everyone hurried to work.

Lu Qingzhu used to be the same way, he was a decent and beautiful office worker.

Fang Lu also thought about the time when his parents passed away. He was only a sophomore in high school at that time and didn't understand anything. Lu Qingzhu was responsible for the sudden death of his parents. How to connect with the funeral home, I don't know what procedures to follow, how to notify relatives and friends, and how to give my parents a decent funeral.

At that time, Lu Qingzhu was only a girl in her 20s, and she had only entered the workplace for two years. She was carrying these things by herself, and she had to spare time and energy to comfort her younger brother, saying that there was nothing to be afraid of when her sister was there, and her elder sister would help her. If you study, you will have a good house to live in in the future.

"Are you tired? If you are tired, lean on your sister to sleep for a while." Fang Lu also remembered that Lu Qingzhu said this to him.

But now, I was as flustered as a child, not even knowing what to do.

Fang Lu also cheered up, used his mobile phone to search for relatives who still had contact information, and sent them WeChat one by one to inform them of Lu Qingzhu's death.

He didn't want his relatives and friends to do anything, but he just wanted his sister's funeral to be more lively. He remembered that the old man said that he would not be lonely on the road if he sent him off in a lively manner.

However, most of the messages sent showed that they were no longer friends, and those who sent them did not reply. No one dared to contact them because of the usury all these years, and Fang Lu didn't resent them either.

There are also friends of Lu Qingzhu. Not long ago, Lu Qingzhu told him that he had contact with his former colleagues. Andy's colleague, the contents of their recent chats are all related to p2p, she is really concerned about Li Zhi's affairs.

I informed the other party of my sister's situation, but the other party may be busy and did not reply.

When the time came, the funeral home notified Fang Lu to also meet Lu Qingzhu for the last time.

In the empty and cold room, Lu Qingzhu was lying on a push bed.

The staff consciously stood a little farther away, and Fang Lu also came in with Xiao Liu. Fang Lu also pursed his lips, tried to pull out a smile, held Lu Qingzhu's hand in both hands, and kissed the back of her hand lightly.

"Goodbye, sister, in the next life, be my sister."

The staff cleared the place, and Fang Lu was taken to another place to wait. Four or 10 minutes later, the staff came out with a porcelain-white urn and handed it to Fang Luye.

The staff of the funeral home reminded him that according to the custom, the elders should hold the umbrella when they take the ashes out, but only Xiao Liu and some of Golden Eagle's younger brothers were present. Follow a few people.

"Uncle Long!"

The old man named Uncle Long had white hair and wore a solemn black coat. His back was not so straight anymore, but his expression was determined and energetic. He came to take the black umbrella from Xiaoliu.

"Azhi, call me, and I'll be here right away."

Fang Lu has never met Uncle Long before, but only heard from Li Zhi that he helped him when he was a child, and later opened a hot pot restaurant, and Li Zhi took him there to eat, but that time Uncle Long was not there, so he didn't see him. .

He said thank you to Uncle Long.

Uncle Long put his hand on Fang Luye's shoulder, and pressed firmly: "Don't be too sad, Uncle Long will accompany you to take her home."

After speaking, Uncle Long held up the umbrella, and walked out with Fang Lu, and when he went out, he yelled vigorously: "Go home!!!"

Paper money was flying all over the sky, and Fang Lu also got into the car with Lu Qingzhu's ashes in his arms, and drove to the other side of the forest park.

In recent years, there have been more and more restrictions on holding banquets in the urban area, especially for funerals. Therefore, funeral banquets have gradually opened up links with funeral homes.

The mourning hall has been cleaned by the staff, and Fang Luye Xiaoliu arranged the ashes and photos of the deceased, but it was empty, and no relatives or friends came.

Everything was too urgent, Fang Lu didn't have time to arrange these things, and Xiao Liu didn't understand, Uncle Long just arrived, and after sending Fang Lu also arrived, he immediately contacted someone to deliver wreaths.

At two o'clock in the afternoon, Fang Lu, who hadn't had a drop of water, was still communicating with the staff how many tables for the banquet, whether to set off firecrackers and perform funerals.

"Sir, if there are fewer people, it's okay to skip the banquet. We have a cafeteria that can provide loose meals." The staff reminded him kindly, seeing that he didn't have any relatives or friends coming.

Fang Lu also gritted his teeth, took out his mobile phone and looked again, none of the relatives replied, but sister Andy said that she would come over at night, and asked Fang Lu to express his condolences.

But he didn't want to send his sister away so quietly.

"Little one."

Fang Lu also turned her head immediately when she heard the familiar voice, and the travel-worn Li Zhi walked in from the office door, opening her arms slightly.

"Brother Zhi..."

Li Zhi came over and hugged him, letting him bury his head on his shoulder and cry happily.

"Okay, I'm back, I'll do it, okay?"

Fang Lu also nodded, and listened to Li Zhi communicate with the staff, how many banquet tables would be needed, what time would the show be in the evening, how big would the firecrackers be, and how many times should they be set off.

As soon as Li Zhi came back, the tense string in Fang Luye's head finally relaxed.

"You go to the mourning hall to watch. There will be guests coming later, and everyone will come to offer incense and worship. You have to receive them and bow to say thank you. I asked Xiao Liu to buy you porridge. You must eat some, otherwise you will be burdened. Can't stop, okay?" Li Zhi held Fang Luye's face in both hands, and rubbed his thumbs under his eyes, trying to erase the fatigue he had suffered from not resting for dozens of hours.

Fang Lu also nodded, and accompanied by Li Zhi, went to the mourning hall and put on filial piety.

Around four o'clock in the afternoon, people started to come to the banquet hall one after another, all in twos and threes, some with their parents, some with their wives and children. Xiao Liu set up a table in the room next to the mourning hall to collect gift money. These people are really like relatives and friends. They are participating in the funeral banquet according to the traditional process. Tong Fanglu also said hello and burned incense and paper to Lu Qingzhu.

I also saw a few relatives, but it was embarrassing to meet, so Fang Lu still thanked them.

Li Zhi is arranging for people to place wreaths. The originally empty mourning hall and the outside of the mourning hall are now filled with white wreaths with eulogies written on them. Most of the signatures are friends, elder brothers, etc.

Received it and ran over: "Brother Zhi, you have been notified. About 100 people said they would come and they would bring their families with them. There will be more people soon."

Li Zhi: "Okay, let's arrange for them to have a meal, and sort out a copy of the gifts received later, and I will return the money to them."

At about six o'clock in the evening, everyone was already seated for dinner. Meimei's grandparents brought Meimei along. Li Zhi was afraid that his grandparents would not like it because he had said that Fang Lu was also his homosexual, but they still came .

"Azhi, where is the mourning hall? Let's go and see."

Li Zhi took them to see it together.

Fang Lu was also very tired, but he still had to hold on, and smiled at Meimei when she saw Meimei coming.

Meimei is still young and doesn't know how terrible death is, but she can feel Fang Luye's sadness, and silently walked to his side and hugged him.

Fang Lu also stroked Meimei's curly hair, "Have you eaten yet? Let your grandparents take you to dinner, okay?"

Grandma came over, took Fang Luye's hand and said, "Always look forward, kid, don't be too sad."

"Thank you."

The guests left one after another, and some staff were clearing the dining table. Fang Lu was also sitting on the futon in the mourning hall, staring blankly at Lu Qingzhu's posthumous photos.

It was taken when she was just sick, and she didn’t need to be hospitalized. On her 30th birthday, Fang Lu also accompanied her to the photo studio. She had no makeup and a very clean face. She said she wanted to record the present Let's see what will change five years from now and ten years from now.

At that time, they all thought that they could be cured.

Fang Lu also ate a little food and felt much better. Li Zhi stayed with him in the mourning hall.

After nine o'clock in the evening, the guests had already left, and only a few latecomers were left. It started to rain outside, this was the first rain this spring.

"Fang Lu also." Luo Yao and Qiao Ruonan arrived, both of them were wearing black clothes, Luo Yao shook the umbrella in his hand and put it at the door, walked in and said: "I'm working out of town today, I just came back. "

"Thank you, it's really nothing to worry about."

Luo Yao: "Hey, that's not what I said, we are friends."

As Luo Yao said, she took the initiative to light incense, and burned paper for Lu Qingzhu with Qiao Ruonan.

Qiao Ruonan looked at Lu Qingzhu's photo, turned to Fang Lu and said, "My sister is a very nice person at first glance."

Fang Lu's nerves are also relaxed now, and his nose is sore and he wants to cry from time to time. Seeing that he is enduring, Li Zhi secretly grabs his hand: "It's okay."

A little later, Andy, Lu Qingzhu’s former colleague and friend, brought a dozen people, all of whom were her former friends, but lost contact with them because of loan sharks and illness, and only one or two chatted occasionally. .

When Fang Luye and Li Zhi returned to the mourning hall after entertaining them, they saw a strange yet familiar figure at the door of the mourning hall.

The man in a black suit stared at the photo of Lu Qingzhu's death, his hands trembling while holding a bouquet of chrysanthemums.

"Brother Xu Yan." Fang Lu also called him softly.

The author has something to say:

"Come on girl

To see the red morning glow, bring

My love song, you sing in the wind

Dew hangs on the tip of the hair, full of transparent melancholy

It was the first confusion in my life"