cold lover

Xiao Nuo opened the bedroom door, but there was no one in the room.After looking around suspiciously for a week, Xiao Nuo softly called out, "Cum in the middle."

There was no response, and the silence in the room made him panic.

Xiao Nuo frowned, his breathing gradually became chaotic, since Tan Jizhong woke up, he seldom talked to him, and he didn't have any acquaintances in City B, and no one is here now, this is...

Xiao Nuo's Adam's apple rolled, the cold air froze his body temperature, the things he was carrying had already fallen to the ground, the empty indifference in the room forced him to back out the door with trembling steps until his back bumped against the wall of the living room. At the corner of the table, he held on to the table to prevent himself from falling down.

Xiao Nuo closed his eyes tightly, every nerve in his body screamed a kind of pain called loss.Has the happiness that I have longed for all this time been strangled by myself again and again...

"Xiao Nuo?" Tan Jizhong called out in shock when he saw Xiao Nuo slightly bowed and leaning against the table as soon as he entered the door, with a pained expression on his face.

Xiao Nuo lowered his head even lower, and the voice of Tan Jizhong calling him floated unreal in his ears, only to realize that he had already begun to hallucinate within a few minutes after not seeing him, how would he spend the rest of his life like this in the future?

"Xiao Nuo, what's wrong?" Tan Jizhong put down the white chrysanthemum in his hand on the cabinet, hurriedly walked up to him, and caged him under his shadow, his voice couldn't hide the anxiety.

"Jizhong, you come back..." Xiao Nuo hugged his body tightly, his trembling voice was almost desperate, he couldn't bear to lose his emptiness at all.

"Xiao Nuo!?" Tan Jizhong was horrified, his mind went blank and he paused for a long time before he pulled his cold body into his arms and hugged him tightly.

"Xiao Nuo, be good, I'm here, I've been here..." Tan Jizhong caressed his hair, his brows were furrowed, it was his fault, these days he cruelly neglected Xiao Nuo in order to punish Xiao Nuo, knowing that he only had himself, He also knew that he cared about him very much, but he pushed his hard-won heart back into the lonely cold...

Gentle voice, warm body.This illusion is so real that Xiao Nuo dare not open his eyes, even if it's just an illusion, he still wants to indulge in it like this forever...

"Xiao Nuo, look at me, good boy, I'm Jizhong, look at me..." Tan Jizhong caressed his cold face, murmuring in a low voice.He had never seen such a fragile Xiao Nuo, even when Xiao Nuo remembered the night ten years ago, he was not so frightened.At this moment, he seemed to be fighting for his life with something.

Xiao Nuo didn't know how long this hallucination could last, he absorbed all the tactile sensations in his body to fill the bottomless pit called emptiness in his heart, he could only hear faint voices but couldn't hear his words clearly in a trance in the content.

"Xiao Nuo..." Looking at his still pale and tightened face, Tan Jizhong's brows were darkened, and Xiao Nuo created a world of loneliness and pain for himself.

Tan Jizhong hugged his head and pressed his ears to his heart, "Listen, Xiao Nuo, there is a heartbeat, it's really me, you are not alone, listen..."

The familiar steady heartbeat broke through his haze and panic one by one, Tan Jizhong's deep voice mixed into his ears, the blood in Xiao Nuo's body seemed to flow again, and gradually stopped the cold trembling, and his heart rhythmically followed his heartbeat. jump up.

It took a long time for Tan Jizhong to feel that Xiao Nuo's body was no longer stiff, and the hand that was gripping his chest and skirt loosened.

"Jizhong...hold me tight...don't leave..." Xiao Nuo murmured weakly, although his eyes were still closed, his hands went behind his back and hugged him back.

Tan Jizhong heaved a sigh of relief, put his chin on the top of his hair, hugged him tighter as he said, and said with a smile, "I always think about how to occupy you, how can I leave like this? "

"Cum in..." Xiao Nuo tightened his arms, letting his beating heart beat against him with a sense of stability, buried his face in his warm neck, and whispered sincerely to his pulse Inaudible words.

However, Tan Jizhong was trembling all over. He dug his hair with one hand, lowered his face slightly and closed his eyes to feel the aftertaste of his words. After a long time, he said hoarsely, "Me too..."

I have always loved you.

……

In the cold winter, the insects and birds are quiet, and the rolling mountains surround the village with only one entrance and exit.The greenness of the mountains has faded, and a solemn white scene stands out among the sparse gray and yellow.

"Next time, come with Police Officer Zhang." Tan Jizhong looked at the bouquet of white chrysanthemums still blooming in front of the grave, and suggested to the people around him.

Now that Xiao Nuo has forgiven himself and Police Officer Zhang, it's time for his mother to witness.

Xiao Nuo lowered his face slightly and remained silent for a moment, then nodded slightly.

Tan Jizhong chuckled, and handed the bouquet in front of him, "Auntie must have been waiting for you."

Xiao Nuo looked at it but didn't answer it, not because he didn't want to, but because he didn't dare... He wasn't sure if he had the right to forgive himself like this...

Tan Jizhong sighed secretly, his little fool was caught in a tangle again.

"Xiao Nuo," Tan Jizhong took his bruised hand, put the bouquet into his hand, looked at him and said, "There is no forgiveness or unforgiveness among family members, you just have to believe in one thing, auntie loves you more love herself more than herself."

Xiao Nuo looked at his tender and doting eyes, his Adam's apple moved lightly, family...people...

"Well... I know." After a long time, Xiao Nuo smiled lightly in relief, if he still hesitates at this moment, then he has truly failed everyone's expectations.

Xiao Nuo turned around and walked towards the grave, placed the bouquet he was holding tightly next to the other, and stretched out his hand to caress the body of the monument, "Mom, my child is not filial, I kept you waiting for so long."

Xiao Nuo looked at the photo on the tombstone, and the expression and movement of his mother before her death gradually emerged in front of her eyes, she always put her own affairs first unconditionally...

Xiao Nuo took a deep breath, and raised the corners of his lips imitating the bright smile in the black and white photo, "Mom, don't worry, I'm very happy now."

After a long period of dismal life, after meeting him, I regained family affection, friendship, and a predestined love... I will be very happy in the future.

Tan Jizhong leaned over from behind, put his arms around Xiao Nuo's shoulders, and said to the photo on the tombstone, "Auntie, please give Xiao Nuo to me at ease, and I will work hard to forge myself to be Xiao Nuo's support and source of happiness .”

Xiao Nuo leaned on his chest and looked up at his serious side face, the satisfaction and stability in his heart spread to his whole body.Mother, please promise, I can't do without him no matter what.

In the end, he knelt down in front of the tombstone again, and Tan Jizhong got up and left with Xiao Nuo in his arms.

At this moment, family members are still family members, and the bonds between them have returned to their normal positions, and the greatest comfort they can give to the deceased is to tell them all about their current happiness...

The winter wind was blowing gently, unexpectedly with a touch of tenderness, and the white petals in front of the tombstone seemed to be whispering ingenious words that humans don't understand, and they were moving behind them.

After leaving the cemetery, Tan Jizhong heaved a sigh of relief and pulled his neckline lightly, as if he had passed a difficult and crucial hurdle.

Xiao Nuo watched his expression change, he noticed his stiffness when he spoke just now, and thought that before going out, he kept asking himself whether his clothes were dignified enough, he couldn't help laughing, "You don't have to be so nervous."

Even if it is really the mother herself, they will definitely be blessed.

"Well..." Tan Jizhong replied in embarrassment. Although he knew that no one would make things difficult for him and Xiao Nuo, they are Xiao Nuo's closest family members after all. In a sense, he came to see his lover's parents today Yes, how dare he blaspheme on such an important occasion.

How could Xiao Nuo not know his psychology, really, he loved himself too much, so today he was too nervous.

"Cum in the middle." Xiao Nuo raised the corners of his lips and whispered behind him.

"Huh, huh?" Tan Ji center swayed, and Xiao Nuo's voice was very nice when he called him.

"Lead me down the mountain." Xiao Nuo stretched out his hand, tilted his head slightly and smiled shallowly at him, the low ponytail tied at the back of his head slipped over his neck and shoulders to his chest.

At that moment, Tan Jizhong's mind was taken away by his bright eyes again, and his heart was beating wildly.

God, how did he catch this little angel...

Tan Jizhong swallowed his saliva, smirked and wiped off the residual sweat in his hands at the hem of his clothes, then gently took his hand and fastened it slowly without hurting him, "Let's go, let's go back Home."

Xiao Nuo smiled lightly and nodded, this nightmare of ten years of entanglement finally came to an end between his and his intertwined hands, which also meant that he would spend this life closely entangled with this man who loved him like a treasure...

"Before you go out in the future, remember to tell me..." On the way down the mountain, Xiao Nuo suddenly mumbled behind him, the experience in the morning was terrible...

"Okay." Tan Jizhong sneered, he really missed the test today, but it also made him understand clearly that Xiao Nuo couldn't do without himself.

Tan Jizhong inhaled lightly, with a sly smile on his face, as long as he couldn't leave.He purposely said bitterly, "Oh, now you know how I feel every time you disappear."

Xiao Nuo's heart tightened, indeed, he had let him go through it more than once, more than a few minutes...

"...In the future, I will discuss with you first..."

Tan Jizhong turned his head, smiled and scratched the tip of his nose, "Well, good boy."

......

Almost at the foot of the mountain, Tan Jizhong finally asked hesitantly, "Xiao Nuo, if today... I really disappeared, what would you do?"

"Pain..." Xiao Nuo opened and closed his lips a few times, but only uttered one word. Indeed, at that moment, he didn't feel anything except the pain, "I'll look for you after the pain is over."

"Oh?" Tan Jizhong slowed down, seeing his eyes flashing wildly, Xiao Nuo said that he would look for him...

Xiao Nuo looked back at him resentfully, "Don't think too much, if you find you, you will be finished."

He said that he wanted to be with him for the rest of his life, and leaving would be courting death.

Tan Jizhong looked at him in astonishment for a while, and finally burst out laughing. He was coquettishly speaking harshly to himself.

"Don't laugh!" Xiao Nuo frowned lightly, he said the truth.

Tan Jizhong cupped his face with a light smile, stared into his eyes, and said softly, "It's a pity, I will only give you a chance to love me."

The author has something to say: Quanquan wants to emphasize that there is still... no end, although it looks like it is over, although Quanquan also wants to mark the end, but there is really no end!

Hey, thank you all the silent little angels for your support, and I still look forward to the angels' opinions on the circle!

What, da da! !