Borrowing a Kiss

The author has something to say: I will never stop updating at important places in the future. It is a pain to recover today.But no matter what, our concubine Cen finally became queen today, and she succeeded~

Sorry, I didn't choose you.

No matter when this sentence appears, it carries a heartbreaking taste. The person who was given up has been declared the end, and no amount of apology can make up for the regrets of the past.

But Liang Muqiu looked at Cen Nan, but subconsciously squeezed Cen Nan's hand tightly.

He remembered the cemetery he had seen on Cen Nan's Instagram. In the deserted and lonely forest, under the white marble tombstone, lay the relatives who single-handedly raised Cen Nan.

He could hardly imagine how painful Cen Nan must have been at that time.

He gave up the relatives he only got in exchange, but in the end, what did Cen Nan gain, relatives and lover, he didn't keep anyone.

He went to the United States alone, and in the end he came back alone. Chicago didn't give him anything, but left a mess all over the place.

Liang Muqiu didn't know what to say, his throat seemed to be stuffed with cotton, and he couldn't tell what it was like.

He was so dazed that he didn't even know who to blame.

It's not that he didn't think about the reason why Cen Nan abandoned him, and it's not that he didn't guess that it was blocked by Cen Nan's family, but he didn't expect that there was also the death of Cen Nan's close relatives.

In the past seven years, he tossed and turned, trying to find an answer.

He still doesn't believe that he loves the wrong person, but he can't get a relief, so he can only deceive himself and others to forget.

Now, he finally knows.

But this answer is too heavy, it seems that these love affairs between him and Cen Nan have become light.

He finally could only ask in a low voice, "Then why didn't you tell me?"

There are so many last resorts, why do you want to hide it from me.

His voice was a little trembling, "Tell me, I can wait, I can accompany you, I don't care if you can't come out, I'll wait for you if you can't return to the country, it doesn't matter if you don't see the light, Cen Nan, I don't care!"

His voice was very low, but it seemed to be roaring from his throat.He really doesn't care, as long as the person in front of him is still his, he is not afraid of any difficulties.

But Cen Nan didn't give him a chance to choose.

Cen Nan single-handedly arranged the ending for him, said the most unfeeling words, gave him the coldest breakup, and let him start a new life.

He murmured, "I still remember what you said when you broke up with me, let me live the life I want, don't waste time on you. But Cen Nan... why don't you think about it, without you , isn’t the life I want?”

The cigarette in Cen Nan's hand burned to the end, almost burning his hands, but he didn't feel it.

Every word Liang Muqiu said today was like a bullet hitting his heart, but he was speechless.

When he was still in the United States, he watched over his grandma who had just undergone surgery, and watched young couples pass by the garden of the hospital. It's not like he didn't think that it would be great if Liang Muqiu was here.

He secretly took Qiuqiu to the church to get married, and only the priest knew, and they were like a pair of wild mandarin ducks.

He also knew that if he told Liang Muqiu everything he was facing, his silly Qiuqiu would wait for him without reservation, and come across the ocean to meet him, willing to be his shady lover, stealing a piece of love in the dark. Kiss is enough.

But why did Liang Muqiu accompany him to live such a life?

Liang Muqiu was only 20 years old that year. He was beautiful, talented, and likable. His life had just begun. Some people wanted to pursue him, take care of him, and lift him up to heaven.

And he gave nothing.

The way he was lying on the hospital bed disgusted even himself, he was out of shape and lifeless, he was no longer the look that Liang Muqiu loved.

When Liang Muqiu was with him, he got nothing but his parents' criticism.

He had nothing at that time, so it was easy to steal Liang Muqiu to marry him, but after that, what would he use to protect him? His successful parents wanted to pinch a Liang Muqiu who was still studying in China, compared to pinching one to death. Ants are easy.

So he thought, just be a good person once, let go, and let Liang Muqiu go on the road without him.

Unfortunately, he failed.

Six years have passed, and Liang Muqiu has not chosen anyone.

For countless days and nights, he had inquired about Liang Muqiu through Ren Qihan, knowing that Liang Muqiu was still alone and hadn't fallen in love with anyone, he was visibly delighted in his heart.

In the end, he still can't be a gentleman.

Even now.

Cen Nan took one last puff of his cigarette, the smell of nicotine really made him sober up a lot, then he threw away the cigarette in his hand, and the cigarette butt fell into the ashtray in the shape of a small pumpkin, which was also chosen by Liang Muqiu back then.

He took a step back and half-kneeled on the ground on one knee, as if in a gesture of marriage proposal.

The way he looked at Liang Muqiu also changed from looking down to looking up.

"You're right. I shouldn't have kept everything from you. If I knew that you would be waiting for me in the end, I should have stolen you to get married in Chicago six years ago," Cen Nan held Liang Muqiu's hand Hand, admitting his mistakes for so many years, "I am a dictator, a coward, self-righteous, regardless of your opinion, and arranged the ending for you on my own, but I didn't ask you to accept it."

Liang Muqiu looked at Cen Nan in a daze, wondering if he had suddenly gone crazy.

Of course Cen Nan wasn't crazy, he felt calmer than ever before.

He asked Liang Muqiu, "Qiuqiu, I have many, many shortcomings. I am not good enough. Many bad things have happened to me. I am no longer the person you loved. Will you still want me?"

To be so bad, I almost died once.

Liang Muqiu's heart stopped for a moment when asked.

Want it?

He is also asking himself.

He stared blankly at Cen Nan. He has only been in this world for 28 years since he fell in love with this person, and he spent half his life entangled with him.

If it was the first year after they broke up, and Cen Nan asked him like this, he would definitely crush Cen Nan's sincerity on the ground.

In the second year after the breakup, he would definitely let Cen Nan go.

In the third year, he would hold back for a long time before agreeing.

And now, it has been seven years since they parted at the airport.

He just wants Cen Nan to come back.

He has no next seven years to waste.

After thinking for a long time, Liang Muqiu said, "I will not forgive you, you are too annoying."

Cen Nan was stunned, his heart ached even from his fingertips.

But he soon heard the next sentence.

"But if you say you love me, I can tell you back, I love you too."

When Liang Muqiu said these words, the composure he had maintained for so long was shattered.

He became the high school student who hurriedly grabbed the corner of Cen Nan's clothes with full of love in school.

When he left, Cen Nan said he would give him roses when he came back, but he took the roses, and this long-overdue person should belong to him.

He opened his hand to Cen Nan on the bed, and seeing that Cen Nan was still there, he cried aggrievedly, "Why don't you hug me?"

Hug me, hug me after these long seven years.

I really waited for you for a long time, but as long as you love me, we can write it off.

Cen Nan woke up like a dream, and hugged him tightly.

"I love you." He said hoarsely, "I love you, I will say it as many times as you want, for the rest of my life and the next life."