wild summer [rebirth]

Zhang Jingbei wakes up very early. In strange places, he can't sleep as soundly as at home. He turned his face to look at Li Boyang. He was still sleeping, sleeping very soundly. In the aftermath, I was already exhausted from the exhaustion yesterday, and after a whole night of tossing around, Li Boyang, who is as strong as Li Boyang, couldn't bear it anymore.

The hands around his waist are clasped tightly, Li Boyang likes to control him within his reach, even on the bed, he can't relax for a moment, Zhang Jingbei squints to see the sunlight that occasionally leaks in under the thick curtains , didn't move, and didn't make a sound.

In fact, Zhang Jingbei doesn't like the feeling that his whole being is controlled by others. How can a proud person like him allow himself to grow up humblely under the wings of others?Before meeting Li Boyang, he was so proud that he didn't bother to hide his views on a matter. After meeting Li Boyang, he still didn't like what he didn't like... He didn't like Li Boyang's overly pathological attachment to him He doesn't like the bitterness of being run over by a wheel every time he or she is happy, and the smell of others on his body... His dislikes are countless, but later, after experiencing the previous life and the present life, he is very fond of Li Boyang. Learned to endure.

There is always that one person, for you, he is different from others.

There is a pot of spider orchids on the small table by the window. It grows very well in this warm room. The branches and leaves are green and tender, and the branches are stretched. The greenness is very gratifying.

After lying on the bed for a long time and feeling uncomfortable, Zhang Jingbei changed her posture and lay naked on Li Boyang's body. Li Boyang's body temperature was very high. The limbs are entangled and cannot be broken apart.

When Li Boyang fell asleep, he didn't open his mouth like other people, but closed it tightly as usual. He always had a rigorous attitude, his face was expressionless, and his eyebrows and eyes were sharp when he was not smiling. The corners of his eyes are full of indifference, a thousand miles away from his usual gentle appearance, and this is the only time when he doesn't hide himself.

Hey, how can I look at such an unpleasant face, why did I fall in love with him?Zhang Jingbei poked Li Boyang's nose, touched his mouth, and poked his head to see his own appearance in the mirror placed diagonally opposite on the table. The more he looked at it, the more he felt... Tsk, I'm so handsome!

Zhang Jingbei was still admiring himself in the mirror, when there was a chuckle from above his head, apparently the child's grinning face in the mirror had amused him, this seriously hurt Zhang Xiaobei's self-esteem, he turned his face and rushed forward Get into trouble with people.

Early in the morning, he was already full of anger, Zhang Jingbei made such a fuss, and Li Boyang seemed to be ready to move. Zhang Xiaobei seemed to sense it, glanced at the corner of his eye, cut it, and ran out of bed in a hurry, tripping over the quilt on the way. His legs were weak again, and he almost fell off the bed. It was Li Boyang who had been paying attention to Zhang Xiaobei's movement, stretched out his hand, and hurriedly brought him back. Zhang Xiaobei glared at him angrily, kicked the quilt bitterly, and stumbled into the room. The bathroom is gone, and behind it is Li Boyang's unstoppable series of loud laughter.

Zhang Jingbei lingered in the bathroom for a long time before coming out, changed into clean and comfortable clothes, lay down on the bed and asked Li Boyang to rub him.Although the intensity last night was not so pretentious that he couldn't even get out of bed, the intimacy between men and men is different from that between men and women. Without that ethical organ, it's a bit of a pain for you to bear it. If you are tired, you can't use more snacks.

The morning was basically spent in the hotel. Li Boyang’s phone calls have been kept on and off since he woke up. In the sunshine, he took his notebook to the balcony to bask in the sun.

When Li Boyang finally finished the phone call and dealt with the voice in his hand, Zhang Jingbei could hardly fall asleep on the recliner, the movie in the notebook was still playing, and the chirping sound was very soft, so that it would not disturb the people in the room There was no movement, but just as Li Boyang approached, Zhang Jingbei woke up, squinting at him against the light, his emotion was light but warm.

Zhang Jingbei yawned, lazily opened his hands to him, let him hug, then rubbed Li Boyang's warm cheeks, entangled his neck, and let out a breath of foul breath very reassuringly.

Let's go out for a stroll... Zhang Xiaobei reached out and touched Li Boyang's brows, seeing how his brows and eyes are stretched because of his closeness, which is different from the usual gentleness and politeness, this kind of Li Boyang is dazzling and hot, just like the sun in his heart .

Li Boyang kissed the corner of his mouth, put him beside the bed, just like how he took care of him when he was a child, put on a coat, a scarf, and even put on the socks on his feet, this boy who looks like an almost grown man Half-kneeling on the carpet, she raised her head and asked him gently, did you call your mother?You haven't said hello to them today.

Zhang Jingbei stepped on Li Boyang's knee impatiently with her other foot, which had not yet put on a sock, and poked him on tiptoe, humming, "Mom has something to do today, so I'll hit him tonight."

It's rare to come out to play, why do you keep calling?Zhang Jingbei doesn't like to make phone calls at all, even family members, Yu Zimao and Zhao Ningning call almost a few times a day, as if they can't live if they can't find themselves for a moment, it's really annoying.

The two of them didn't eat in the hotel, they went out of the gate and walked straight along the side of the road, there was a row of snack restaurants all the way down, Li Boyang chose a porridge shop to go in, and pulled Zhang Jingbei to sit down by the window.

This area is a tourist attraction developed by the government, and even the snack restaurants here were won through election campaigns, which naturally have their own unique features in terms of taste and hygiene.

The two ordered two bowls of seafood porridge, a side dish, and a plate of dim sum fried dough sticks. They also ordered two bowls of soy milk. Zhang Jingbei specially ordered the latter soy milk fried dough sticks. He likes to tear the fried dough sticks and soak them in soy milk juice.

This meal took a little longer, and the seafood porridge was filled with crushed ginger. Zhang Jingbei was most annoyed by these onions, garlic, and ginger, and couldn't help frowning every time he encountered them. He still pinched the chopsticks to help him pick out the shredded ginger in the bowl, and stuffed it into his hand before the porridge was cold so that he could eat it quickly.

Zhang Jingbei turned it over with a spoon, and after confirming that there was really no shredded ginger in the bowl, she happily smiled at Li Boyang, put his favorite fried dough sticks in his bowl, and started to eat with the bowl.

Li Boyang caught it and stuffed it into his mouth. The fritters were fried crispy and tasted good in his mouth, but he was more careful to observe Zhang Jingbei's expression.

Zhang Jingbei seemed to be aware of it, and as soon as he raised his eyes, he met Li Boyang's probing eyes, and asked him, what's wrong?

Li Boyang smiled and shook his head, picked up the bowl and took a sip of soy milk, his eyebrows were slightly lowered, and he said lightly, it's nothing.

They went to the famous Cultural Street in the town. It is said that there was a famous champion in this town. The old houses in the past have been preserved in pieces, and the living environment at that time can be clearly seen after years of repairs. From a modern point of view, it has a different flavor.

The two stopped and stopped along the way. The driver they met before was a good tour guide, and he talked about some local customs and customs. As a driver, it can be seen that he can cleverly catch up with Li Boyang's words and make him nod and invite him to be a tour guide.

He didn't perfunctory or mislead the customers because they were just two children to buy some expensive local things, but the value of the items themselves was much different. Compared with the profession of a driver, objectively speaking, Zhang Jingbei thinks that The characters are not only willing to be in this profession.

Although it is a remote island that is only two hours away from Xingyang Town, this island town unexpectedly makes people linger and forget to return. The difference from Xingyang Town is that not only the seafood industry here is very prosperous, but also because this place is remote and not So well known, so when the local government wants to vigorously develop the tourism industry but is not doing well, the residents below have quietly developed a cockfighting industry with a certain gambling nature.

The tour guide, who was halfway through, took them to a place that was relatively simple but wanted to be hot, and that was the cockfighting arena.

This is an existence similar to the Colosseum in Spain, but because the lethality of the fighting species is different from that of those large beasts, so after the initial investigation and observation, the local government actually treated these illegal animals. The industry turned a blind eye and turned a blind eye, which led to the gradual prosperity of this industry and gradually brought about the local economic circulation, which gathered sufficient popularity for this island town.

The cockfighting farm is very large and simple, and is surrounded by thin land made of special bamboo rafts used by local mountain people, with layers of high and thickened barriers, and the roof is covered by dense layers of cattail grass. At first glance, it looks a bit like the places where the savages lived in ancient times, simple and rough, but the inner space is quite large.

The air inside is not very good. Zhang Jingbei couldn't help but frown as soon as he entered the door, and pulled up the scarf on his neck to cover his nose. The tour guide next to him smiled a little embarrassedly, and explained that this is how all cockfighting arenas are. Well, it's okay that it's winter now, but when the weather gets hot in summer, the smell will be louder.

Having said that, the tour guide is obviously a middle-aged man. When he talked about cockfighting, he was eager to move, and when he brought up this topic, he unconsciously revealed a bit of pride and enthusiasm as a local. Come proud.

Zhang Jingbei hesitated at the door, but chose to go in and have a look. He came here, and it was not too late. He turned his head to look at Li Boyang, and his clenched fingers moved slightly. Li Boyang held his hand. Immediately, her hands tightened a little, and her eyes met. Zhang Jingbei couldn't see any emotion in Li Boyang's heavy gaze.

The three squeezed into the center of the cockfighting arena where the crowd was the busiest. The tour guide stood and pointed for a long time and muttered for a long time. The few red bills that Li Boyang had just paid him slipped into the crowd.

Standing on tiptoes, Zhang Jingbei poked his head to look inside. In the small chicken cage, two jet-black red-topped roosters were pacing vigorously back and forth. Perhaps they were preparing for a fight. With the loud shouts, the two fighting cocks were ready to go, and they pounced up to meet everyone's expectations. Their sharp beaks flew towards each other's feathery places, full of attack power.

Someone on the marble table next to him shouted, buy your bets, the contestants in this cockfight are 'General Changsheng' and 'Red Cap Prince', everyone buy your bets, buy your bets, buy one and pay ten , buy one lose ten hello...

Zhang Jingbei looked at the place for a while, glanced at Li Boyang's straight lips from the corner of his eyes, his brows were slightly lowered, obviously he was against the way he came to these places, he couldn't help raising his eyebrows in surprise, but he didn't say anything, just turned around and walked away with his eyelids drooping .

Li Boyang stretched out his hand and asked him, what's wrong?

Zhang Jingbei stared at him for a few seconds, and his eyes seemed to have enlightenment. Seeing that Li Boyang's gaze was approaching freezing point, he sneered at Li Boyang, should I ask you this question?

Li Boyang's eyes moved, he didn't know what to think, he turned around and was dragged out of the cockfight by Zhang Jingbei, the two walked forward until Zhang Jingbei thought it was quiet enough, then stopped.

Well, go ahead.Zhang Jingbei let go of Li Boyang's hand, opened his eyes slightly and looked at Li Boyang seriously, asking him to answer.

……say what?Li Boyang was silent for a few seconds, staring back and asking.

Zhang Jingbei laughed back angrily. At this moment, Li Boyang still has the intention to pretend to be stupid with him. He is now completely sure that his premonition since he came here yesterday is true, but his patience has always been inferior to Li Boyang. This time Simply open up and say it directly.

You just say it directly, since you don’t like me going to that cockfighting arena, why don’t you say it, you are obviously holding my hand so nervously, you just say it.

I didn't... Li Boyang's voice froze as soon as he opened his mouth, as if he was ashamed to speak, he only said the first three words and then stopped talking.

Zhang Jingbei was so angry and funny, she poked Li Boyang on the shoulder and asked him to say, so you said it?Hurry up, don't babble...

Zhang Jingbei waited for two seconds, Li Boyang still stood still, but stretched out his hand to hold Zhang Jingbei tightly, making him unable to move.

not like this.Li Boyang's downcast eyes finally lifted up, he looked at Zhang Jingbei and said in a difficult and calm tone, that's not it, I just... I just want to know what is going on in your heart?

Ha, what am I thinking you don't know?We've known each other for so many years, I'm afraid you can guess what I want to do with every look and every movement I make?Now you tell me you don't know?Zhang Jingbei felt as if he had heard a joke, and there was a hint of sarcasm at the end of the sentence.

However, since Li Boyang would say that, Zhang Jingbei really wanted to hear what he had to say, but to his surprise, Li Boyang just pursed his lips tightly and said nothing, as if he didn't want to say anything more.

When they went back, the atmosphere was very dull, Li Boyang didn't speak, Zhang Jingbei was not in the mood to talk to him, and even when they returned to the hotel, neither of them said a word.

Sometimes Zhang Jingbei really doesn't understand, if there is something you have to talk about, you have to hide it and hold it back, you really think you are a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle?

But Li Boyang is so obstinate, he resisted Zhang Jingbei and refused to take the initiative to bow his head, he was doomed to become stiff.

The two sat stiffly in the room until Zhang Jingbei's stomach growled with hunger, and Li Boyang stood up as if he had a reaction. Zhang Jingbei rubbed the center of his brows, feeling very tired. If Li Boyang would do the same now and in the future Each of them guarded their own small thoughts, and if no one spoke first, he did not have the confidence to continue walking firmly.

Zhang Jingbei sighed, looked up at Li Boyang, with a very serious expression and said without a hint of joke, you said you want to know what I'm thinking?So, what exactly are you worrying about?

Is Li Boyang worried?Of course he was worried, it can be said that he was worried about Zhang Jingbei all the time, and this worry was especially obvious after the previous rift between the two.

In a certain way, Li Boyang's sensitivity is more than that of a woman, if not less.For such a keen and meticulous child, he can detect every slight change in Zhang Jingbei in time, and he is very clear.It was precisely because of this that he was so horrified to find that his Beibei had unknowingly alienated him so much.

Of course, this is just Li Boyang's idea. I believe that Zhang Jingbei herself does not have this kind of self-awareness.

Just like what Zhang Dashan said, Zhang Jingbei’s life doesn’t just revolve around Li Boyang alone. His world is very vast, and more colors can fill his sky, and more diverse things can exist in him. In his territory, as long as he likes and he is willing.

From Li Boyang's point of view, Beibei and him are obviously not as close as before.

Of course, it doesn't mean that Zhang Jingbei doesn't love him and get close to him, just like now, they have done all the things to get close, so what's the difference?Although the two of them will get tired of being together, when Li Boyang is busy, Zhang Jingbei will not lean over unconsciously like before. He begins to divide their respective territories in an orderly manner, and never cross the boundary after setting the rules. He still relies on Li Boyang as before, and Zhang Jingbei accepts everything he says if he doesn’t feel disgusted. Compared with before, this is a little less willful and more casual, but in Li Boyang’s view, It is a kind of indifference and indifference to him, which is simply unforgivable in Li Boyang's eyes.

However, before he realized that he was seriously ill and insisted on going to Shen’s house, Zhang Jingbei lost the unreserved intimacy with him. Li Boyang felt guilty and guilty. Zhang Jingbei’s proposal to him The more meaningless and obedient he was, the more panic he felt in his heart, which almost became a heart disease of Li Boyang, and the purpose of this trip, Li Boyang planned to solve such problems.

Li Boyang wanted to make his Beibei happy, and wanted to restore the intimacy with him, but he still found it difficult to restrain himself when he encountered something that was completely contrary to his strong possessive desire, for example, he didn't want to Beibei eats those unclean things, and he doesn't want his Beibei to go to such an overly complicated environment... This is not something he can solve with a word or two of forbearance.

After learning about Li Boyang's thoughts, Zhang Jingbei also fell silent. He asked him almost helplessly, is this not good for us?

Is it not good?Wouldn't it be great to keep separate spaces for each other, have our own ideas and careers, be intimate when we should be together, and do our own thing when we are busy with our own affairs?Public and private are clear, clean and tidy, so there is no need to worry about him, him and certain things, getting angry and getting entangled.

Some things, only if you don't touch your hands from the beginning, can you remain calm from the beginning to the end, and stand by as he wishes.

In other words, since you don't want me to intervene, then just draw a clear line, so as not to be sad and uncomfortable for such a thing one day, Zhang Jingbei doesn't think that he is so invested in a relationship now Afterwards, he could get out of it without any loss. Even if he wanted to, Li Boyang would not be willing, so... this is probably the most euphemistic compromise Zhang Jingbei thought of.

As for what Li Boyang said, next time?Who knows what's next?After Li Boyang gradually became a qualified businessman by his ears and eyes, every businessman said that the next time would be a blank check, and Zhang Jingbei, who came from the same businessman, couldn't be more clear.

Li Boyang said with a sullen face and determination that he was not good.

His eyes were penetrating and sharp, as if he wanted to look into Zhang Jingbei's heart, he said, you are just making an excuse for yourself to leave me, right?

What he said was so resolute, as if he had really seen through Zhang Jingbei's thoughts, and his tone was so vicious and furious, that's why he was so terrified, so uneasy, and took this opportunity to break the topic, but In the end, it was Zhang Jingbei who tore the paper first.

And Zhang Jingbei just touched his cheek and was slightly lost in thought. It turned out that his expression was already so obvious.

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