in love with my psychiatrist

Du Hai was panting on top of me, I closed my eyes and just thought, damn it, when will this all end.

After the frenzied quarrel last time, I no longer dare to try to communicate with him, no longer quarrel with him, no cold war, everything will arouse his anger.

I'm tired and just want peace and quiet.

And he, as long as I follow his ideas, eat and eat, go home, go to bed, don't try to have your own ideas, don't always want to communicate with each other, don't pursue our problems, don't reject him, don't escape He, don't fight him, don't show him face, his mood seems to be stable.

Yes, everything went smoothly.

It's no different from the ordinary couples around you.

The turbulence and suffering in the heart, but only the warmth and self-knowledge.

Regarding the matter of the bed, Du Hai and Du Hai were in harmony at first, and they didn't dislike each other. If he needs something, I need it too.

But now, when my trust and affection for him turned into fear and loathing, every time I was under him, I felt an indescribable sense of humiliation.

I thought that for a person who didn't hate me or even touched me, I should be able to slowly build a deeper and deeper relationship in the life after marriage.

It's a pity that the sudden cold winter in the marriage relationship caught me off guard.

I think that abandoning intuition, abandoning inspiration, and looking at feelings with reason and maturity, even if I understand life and life.

It is only now that I understand that, after all, when it comes to establishing an intimate relationship with another person, the messages conveyed by the body are the most honest.

To Du Hai, if I approved it after rational consideration before, then now, the little favor I have left has turned into disgust.

Marriage should be such a solemn thing.

Yes, I was wrong, self righteous, thought I could get by.

I think it is too simple.

Finally, he stopped in a low-pitched and fast-tempo.

Quietly lay on me, buried her head in the crescent of my neck, breathing unevenly.

For a moment, I thought he had tender feelings for me too.

So I wanted to hug his head, and once again came up with the idea of ​​having a good chat with him.

Wanted to be honest with him about the parts of him that scare me.

However, just when I lightly raised my hand and was about to touch his hair and wanted to speak, he rolled over, pulled off the messy quilt, and fell asleep on his side with his back to me.

I've never felt so sad for myself.

Fortunately, busy work and frequent overtime have become a good way for me to avoid Du Hai.

On Sunday, at seven o'clock in the evening, my team worked overtime to finish a case earlier than expected.

After I confirmed the final draft of the designer's eyes, I breathed a long sigh of relief, but I couldn't control my spirit and began to slacken.

I managed to pull myself together: "Thank you for your hard work, I will treat you to whatever you want to eat."

AE Wenwen who just arrived clapped his hands: "Boss, it's not that easy, I have to sing HIGH after dinner!"

Estelle looked at me, smiled and said to me: "Iris, have you noticed that the current post-90s are too rude, it is no longer like when we just graduated, we are always respectful to the leaders, at least on the surface of."

Estelle and I entered this 4A advertising company at the same time. At that time, we were both fresh graduates and full of youth.

I am a graphic designer, and she is a copywriter, so it is logical to become a partner.

In the blink of an eye, it has been five years.

We have experienced many days of staying up at night and wearing stars and moons together, denouncing the high pressure of the bosses together, and jointly resisting the unreasonable demands of customers... Few women can continue to work in this high-intensity industry for a long time.

But the two of us miraculously survived in this field, and so far, we are still alive and well.

Probably there is no competition between design and copywriting, but only cooperation. With the accumulation of work, there is a perfect understanding between us.

Being able to persevere probably has something to do with the two supporting and encouraging each other along the way, as well as their competing personalities at work.

Of course, except when I was promoted to the director of Group A of the company's core team, and she was appointed as the director of Group A and my assistant, our tacit understanding dropped to an unprecedented freezing point.

During that time, she was unwilling to cooperate with me anymore, and even made a fuss with the Shanghai headquarters to resign.

In the end, I applied to resign from the position of director, and she took the initiative to ask for peace, ending this immature dispute.

This matter is still a joke among the company bosses.

Ha ha, it's all those things about youth, frivolity and impulsiveness.

Fortunately, although this industry is cruel, most people are very tolerant of the personalities of colleagues and subordinates.

The bosses looked sideways at this matter, but they did not negate our achievements in work.

I thought about the past, and I didn't have time to react to Estelle's jokes about Wenwen.

Wenwen said quickly: "That's because the boss told us on the first day I came here with the eyes, she doesn't need a good child who is obedient, she only needs a creator with her own ideas. Right, boss ?”

I smiled at her tiredly: "This is... let's go, where do you say you are going?"

"This case is only half-finished. Tomorrow, the proposal with Mr. Feng will be passed. It's not too late to have dinner and celebrate. I think we should go home today to rest and recharge our spirits. What do you think? Iris?"

Estelle looked at me and said.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Wen Wen, Eyes, and Li Li, the three of them sticking out their tongues.

The things that offend people are all done by this supervisor.

I am especially grateful to Estelle, who is used to putting on a bad face to save me.

Don’t get me wrong, guys, the team works overtime together, working hard and hard. As their leader, it’s perfectly normal for everyone to have a meal and relax together.

I'm not that mean, and Estelle isn't.

It's just that I understand that Estelle can see that I'm mentally weak and preoccupied during this time.

She also knows that as usual, I will never spoil everyone's interest.

But indeed, as Estelle said, there is still a tough battle to be fought tomorrow.

Today, I originally told Du Hai that I would not be able to go back until early in the morning, but I didn't expect it to end so early.

I especially want to find a place to be quiet by myself, and have some time and space of my own.

By the way, I can also avoid Du Hai and call the psychiatrist that Lu Li introduced to me.

At this time, Wenwen was already muttering.

Fortunately, Eyes is a talkative young man. Seeing that the supervisor had already spoken, he immediately said: "The case is over, let's eat HIGH and eat HIGH more happily, and we can double hit the head again."

Wen Wen, an uninitiated child, stopped pouting when his eyes said this, and immediately agreed: "Yes, yes, double the knock."

The silent Li Li smiled and didn't say much.

I am very grateful to each of them.

"Don't say double, once this case is over, ten times will be fine. This time it was indeed too bloody tossed by the damn President Feng. Fortunately, with you, the last battle tomorrow, although Estelle and I will go to the battlefield, Don't be idle when you stay at home, you must support us mentally at all times. Tonight you want to rest, rest, want to go wild, and wait for our good news tomorrow."

I cheered up and said.

Saying that, there was instant cheers.

Don't think they are cheering tomorrow's "good news".

These little rogue monkeys seem to be heartless, but they are the best at grasping the central idea from the boss's mouth and drawing out the key content.

Of course they understand what I mean, let them have a holiday on Monday tomorrow.

These three young people can finally rest for a day.

It has been a month without holidays for this real estate case, and it is really difficult for them.

Young people, who don't have their own life and entertainment.

"I have something to do tonight, you can drive around and take the three of them to where they are going." I said to Estelle.

"Don't worry." She smiled.

Indeed, I have always been extremely reassured when she does things.

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I found a small water bar, sat in a secluded corner, and called Qi Qianyun.

"Hello, Doctor Qi, I'm Lu Qiqi, Lu Li's friend, he introduced me to you..."

After thinking for a second, he said, "I need some help from you."

This time, I didn't think I was sick as I did online, but I just saw myself as a helpless person looking for some help.

Indeed, in reality, we are all more careful.

There was a pause, and a very calm voice came.

"Every Tuesday is the time for me to receive patients. The next week is already full, and there is still a place for the next week. You come at two o'clock."

The voice is neither fast nor slow, but I feel strong.

The point is, to receive patients?

When I treat myself as a patient, others don't.

When I don't treat myself as a patient, people will directly treat you as a patient.

Where did this come from.

Although that strength makes me feel a little uncomfortable, but this is professionalism.

I think.

I don’t have time to think about these messy things. What I think about is that there are too many emergencies at work. If a case is thrown, it may be handed over to the client immediately. Our team often finishes today, and tomorrow’s variables are not sure. , I really don't know if I can pass by two o'clock next Tuesday.

After all, it was a friend who asked for a relationship introduction. Wouldn't it be very disrespectful for people to fail to go when they agreed?

So, I honestly replied in line with the principle of integrity and keeping promises: "Sorry, I am a little worried about whether I will have time next Tuesday. You see, it will be inconvenient for you if it is the weekend."

What I think is that even if there is an unexpected situation at work on the weekend, I can excuse it better, so as to avoid breaking the appointment and disrespecting her.

However, the person on the other end of the phone didn't think so.

Later, I learned that this sentence made her almost want to kill me at that time.

In her words: "No one has ever come to me for treatment, and still needs my time to take care of him. Everyone is begging for time from me. And you, Lu Qiqi, dare to claim that you have no time. How dare you bargain with me."

I can only smile flatteringly on my face, but smirk in my heart, you are such a royal sister, such a queen, so unquestionable, isn't that...

Ha ha, that's another story.

Anyway, at that time, there was a deadly silence over there for a long time.

I said "Hey, hello" a few times, because the phone was on the screen saver, I thought the other party had hung up the phone, and even more stupid, I couldn't help cursing: "What kind of person is this, why do you always meet weird things recently. "

"Wonderful?"

A suppressed rhetorical question came from the phone.

I was so scared that I almost threw my phone on the ground, as if a ghost had come out of the phone.

His face was so hot that it burned all the way to his ears.

Others are just different, and their self-cultivation is better than mine.

Being scolded as a weirdo, there was no disturbance there.

Just answer me: "I'm never convenient on weekends. So when are you free?"

The voice was as cold as ice.

I, I, was intimidated by that ice-like voice, and said nonsense: "I really don't know when I will be free, but I am free now."

When I am anxious or confused, I speak very straightforwardly.

People, if you talk really straight, it seems to others that you are very neurotic.

Indeed, as soon as I uttered these words, I felt that people must think that I was really sick.

You have air traffic control now, and people will only be free on Tuesday next week? !

"Then, now, come here."

beep!This time I really hung up the phone.

Now?past?

Now it was my turn to think she was seriously ill.

For a while, there will only be places to receive patients on Tuesday next week, and for a while, you can go there now?

And still scolded her "patient"?

In addition, where will I go? It's inexplicable, and I can't laugh or cry.

I thought, I really hit the evil, and began to reflect on whether my own problem or someone else's problem, why I always encounter bad luck recently, and encounter strange people and strange things.

My brain hurts thinking about it.I anxiously paid the bill.

Let's go home, thinking of that so-called home, I feel an uncontrollable pain in my heart.

At this time, the voice of the text message rang.

When I saw it, it turned out to be Qi Qianyun, didn't she scold me, or asked me to pay again?

She opened it tremblingly, and the address of her studio was written impressively.