in love with my psychiatrist

I grabbed the watermelon juice in my hand and took a big sip, then typed: "I think you are also a big V, you shouldn't be a liar."

The irony is obvious.

She still didn't show any emotion, but she replied extremely quickly: "Is there such a clumsy liar?"

……

It is rare to meet people who are more meticulous and rigorous in logical thinking than I am.

Was asked speechless.

I was caught in a dilemma for a while.

Who cares, she's just someone I don't know anyway, since she's so unprofessional and I'm not stupid, why do I have to pay for saying a few inexplicable words, and I have to pay 1.

If it's so easy, my sister will go to fiddle with it and add a V, and she can become a rich woman by chatting with people online every day.

Only madmen care about her.

I abandoned the principle of being upright and not owed favors that I had always adhered to, and went offline in an instant and slipped away.

Later, I found a night where the night was quiet and the moon was dark and the wind was high (as for why I was so wretched, it was probably because I felt that this matter violated my principles of life and I felt guilty), anyway, I secretly dragged this original love into the dark. The list is up, and her follower on Weibo has been canceled, so this matter is over.

I have always thought that the Internet is unreliable, but after experiencing it myself, I feel that it is not so unreliable, but that I should not admit to online communication at all.

Well, cherish life and stay away from fiction.

I have completely abandoned this path.

But there is no lack of emotion. In today's society, not only strangers, even people who have known each other for many years, it is so easy to break contact.

At this time, the person who was blackmailed by me for [-] yuan flashed in my mind.But the moment passed.

My sister's mind is messed up enough, and I won't allow him to follow her to make trouble.

Yes, everyone, I naively thought that this matter was over, and given my nine lives, I would never have thought that I would have any connection with Yuan Ai, let alone predict that my life would change because of her.

If I hadn't confessed my marital status to Lili, all the following things would not have happened.

But how can there be so many "ifs" in the world, no matter how big the sky is, the mountains and rivers, the white clouds and the dogs, what makes all the turbulent waves is often just a small moment of fate.

Cough cough, it's getting far, come back, *^_^*.

The thing is like this, at that time, I knew that Lu Li would object to the fact that I was going to get the certificate with Du Hai, so I kept it from him.

Sure enough, at that time, he was so angry that he scolded me head and face.

"Too irresponsible to myself and others!"

"Do you know him, does he know you?"

"You idiot, always smart and rational, how could you do such a shit thing?"

"Your head was caught by the door?"

"Your behavior has seriously hurt our friendship..."

……

I weakly answered: "Do we have friendship?"

His neck was so angry that he pointed at my nose and couldn't speak. Finally, after a long time of brewing...

Seeing his face turn red and turn pale, he put down his hands fiercely, twisted his waist, left in a huff, and then began to completely shield me for two weeks.

Until I was so shameless, I said "Good Lili, Shuai Lili, you are the most handsome in the world, please do me a favor and come out to meet the little one?"

He grudgingly rewarded me with a chance.

I thought about it, probably only by letting him see how happy I am, can I solve this problem.

I know, thinking this way at the time, I still underestimated his kindness to me.

He certainly wants me to be happy, but why would he want me to pretend so hard.

Yes, at that time, "happiness" was largely pretended by me. After receiving the certificate, it should have been a sweet wedding life, but I already faintly felt that Du Hai had begun to change.

I don't know if it was out of uncertainty, self-esteem or fear of power, I chose not to confess to him.

And not confessing to everyone around me.

After the frustration of adding Yuan Ai online, I was so emotional that I had to find someone to talk to, otherwise I thought I would go crazy.

After I completely gave up on finding a psychiatrist online, I decided to tell Lili everything and asked him out one day.

He was handsome and clean and sat across from me. He was a good guy no matter what he looked at, but he was a little bit arrogant, so he ordered a glass of latte noblely.

Although I have never liked drinking coffee, it is said that Starbucks clearly supports a certain group, so Lu Li asked me weirdly that every time I ask him to make an appointment here.

"Yo, dear relatives and friends, are you willing to see each other? I thought you were newly married and dying."

He raised the corner of his mouth and began to chatter.

"Get out!" I cursed, without looking at him, I quickly lowered my head and took a sip of coffee.

I feel that the cover-up action is very fake.Now that you have decided to tell him, why do you still do it?

So, I raised my head firmly again, just like Liu & Hu & Lan (this is also sensitive, three lines).

Indeed, I haven't seen him for a long time.Also long time no see some friends.

I'm lazy and don't know how to hide my emotions. In order to avoid being seen by them, I rarely contact my friends after marriage.

They all thought that I was intoxicated by the sweetness of the newlyweds, and they all thought it was fun not to disturb me.

After seeing me say the word "scroll", I lowered my head sadly, then raised my head abruptly, and looked at him without speaking for a long time.

Lu Li's expression told me: Is this woman crazy?

I did go a little crazy.

Lu Li looked at me curiously: "Ah, sister, your whole temperament has changed a lot. Could it be that you are not sexually blessed?"

He especially emphasized the penultimate word.

So I can understand what he is saying.

He raised his head and gave him a blank look, his expression was a little solemn, but also a little broken.

He was intimidated, and I always messed with him and quarreled with him.

So, I gulped and took a sip of the horrible coffee, full of fucking bitterness.

Try to calmly tell him about the ins and outs of Du Hai and I, and all our feelings.

And mentioned that I was seeking a psychiatrist.

"You can actually go to a psychiatrist. You have never been someone else's psychiatrist. It seems that this time is too serious, and it's really over." He slumped on the back of the chair exaggeratedly.

"After you're tall, I'm not going to die. I just want you to help me figure out what to do now. The pressure is too great. It seems that I can't count on you. You pay the bill!"

I grabbed my bag and was about to dodge.

Lu Li stood up and pushed me down.

He stared at me for a long time, pursed his lips, thoughtfully, and asked me for a long time: "Do you know what your situation is?"

"what?"

He shook his head: "You have met a straight male cancer patient, but you are a representative of China's advanced sex..."

I was horrified, completely ignoring what he said: "What, what kind of cancer, who has cancer?"

"Your family's Du Hai."

I was tongue-tied again: "No, no, he just has a personality problem, his body doesn't seem to be fine, it's nothing, except for threatening me to go to the emergency room in the middle of the night, saying that I was so angry that he had a headache..."

"Lili, although he is a scumbag, we can't curse him like that, besides, I feel that my own responsibility is not small..."

"Stop, stop, stop..." Li Li gave me a blank look.

Slowly said: "It seems that you have been exhausted recently, and you don't care about major social affairs anymore... Take a look at yourself, straight male cancer refers to a personality disorder, male chauvinism, and you have a way of doing things that others can't shake. And think it is the truth, and ask others, especially his wife and lover, to do it according to this, otherwise it is a bad woman."

"At the same time, I heard you describe that in addition to being a straight male cancer patient, the one in your family also has the characteristics of LOSER in emotion. An American has analyzed this type of person. In relationships, they like to control others and do not face conflicts." To solve it, your heart is only as big as a grain of rice."

"I like to do extreme things to intimidate the other party, and push all the responsibility to the other party, so that the other party will obey him... and try my best to cut off the connection between the other party and external emotions... That's why you don't contact your friends..."

"Hey, you can be a psychiatrist now...but I'd wrong him if I didn't contact you, it's me..."

I wanted to take it easy, and wanted to make a joke with a smile, but listening to his words and recalling some of Du Hai's words and deeds, my temples began to ache.

Lili sighed and looked at me: "You also feel that you can't go on, you are not a person who values ​​sex and despises friends at all!"

I also sighed heavily.

"I can't fucking stand it, you are a capable, free, sunny, confident woman, how did you become such a resentful woman, I just said, you have a fucking relationship with a man, show me , show it to me, if you don’t listen or not, look at the good deeds you have done..."

Listening to his heartbroken, crackling, my head hurts even more.

Waved him to stop: "Lu Li, you are very good at understanding and insight into people's psychology and personality, but you can never be a psychiatrist."

"Oh?" He asked me to explain my doubts seriously.

want to smoke him.

"If you keep talking, it will only drive people crazier."

"Bah, I'm an honest person, and let people face the cruel truth."

"Bah, bah, who wants you to announce the truth, you think you are God."

……

Our topic went off the rails completely, that's okay, so he won't provoke me again.

After talking to Lu Li that day, I felt less stressed, and felt like I was no longer alone in the ocean.

But the substantive issues between me and Du Hai are still unresolved.

A few days later, Lu Li called me, saying that he had never been married, had never met a straight male cancer patient, and he really didn't know how to help me.

But as the only person who knew that I was living in dire straits, he couldn't just watch me burn to ashes, leaving no bones and dregs. He said very generously that I couldn't help myself, but I was obliged to find someone to help you.

So, he gave me a phone number and name, saying that this person is a psychiatrist.

"Is it reliable or not~" I was terrified.

"Both parents are internationally renowned psychologists. This person is already a first-class psychologist in China at a young age. Do you think it is reliable?"

I thought to myself, go to him a level, it's not like my sister hasn't seen it before.It's better to watch the third level.

cough cough. (*^__^*)

But after swallowing these words and saying them out, Lu Li would definitely call me a wolf.

"Her parents are in the United States now. This person is in China. He can give you free consultation, but because it is free, I don't know how much it can help you. If you think it is possible, because it was introduced by my father, even The fee should not be too expensive, you can also consider it.”

"I heard that she is currently studying for a foreign license, and she rarely receives patients. My dad called her dad to tell her, so you can go anyway."

"But you must make an appointment with someone before you go, brother can only help you here!"

Lu Libalabala confessed that even his father used it. It seems imperative to put in so much effort.

"Well, for the sake of free, it depends on when I have a schedule, so I will go." I said.

"Lu Qiqi, you dead woman, why are you so..." With Lu Li's scolding, I hung up the phone.

I looked at the phone number and name I wrote down.

Qi Qianyun.

Let's call again when we find a suitable time.

Because Du Hai is coming back today, he asked about my every whereabouts.