in love with my psychiatrist

He went straight to Feng Sheng's office, but no one stopped me. Instead, his secretary knocked on the door for me and took me in.

It seems that the previous proposal will ignore and avoid our snub, but it is just a play.

I will go to him alone, presumably he has expected it, and it can even be said that he deliberately designed it.

However, why this is done, I still don't quite understand.

I have only met him three times.

For the first time, the first project of cooperation, and the first meeting of each other's teams.public.

The second time, the proposal meeting for the first cooperation.public.

The third time, three days before the proposal meeting, he invited me to dinner at night because he wanted to know about the proposal first.As a result, he asked me to spend the night at a resort for the weekend.I declined with a smile: "I'm sorry, Mr. Feng, I want to accompany my lover to visit his parents on weekends."

Although Feng Sheng is young and handsome, but before he made such a suspicious "invitation" like a business deal, I would have spit on him and turned away long ago.

But now, if you are not a fresh graduate, you will no longer insist on some idealism and perfectionism for no reason. You are familiar with all kinds of people and unspoken rules in this society, and you will be indifferent when encountering such things. a lot.

In muddy water, it is too difficult to keep yourself clean, if you can't go there, don't go there.

Everyone has their own rules, and I am no longer unforgiving.

Therefore, I was a little surprised by Feng Sheng's hinted invitation, but not angry, and a little helpless, but I didn't feel reluctant.

(PS: Of course, to be honest, I still have mixed feelings about being tried to unspoken rules by a rich and handsome man.`(*∩_∩*)′)

Such a refusal actually tells him that I am a married woman with a harmonious family (although it is false, embarrassing).

I believe that I have been tactful enough to give him enough face.

I thought he came back from Stanford after being educated in the United States. He is so young and has such a status. He looks handsome and may like to play, but at least he is a person who knows the world and knows how to advance and retreat.

So when I walked in, I probably had an ugly expression on my face.

So much so that when he turned the swivel chair and looked at me, his eyes were full of mockery.

"Please sit down." His tone was extremely gentlemanly and polite.

On the contrary, it seems that I am making a fuss over a molehill.

I had to force a smile and sat across from his desk.

"President Feng, what does the proposal mean?"

Maybe he was born as a designer. Although he has been the leader of the team in the past few years and has to learn to deal with various customers, he still doesn't know how to speak in a crooked manner.

"Miss Lu, what do you mean?"

He looked businesslike.

"I think we know each other well, Mr. Feng, if it's due to personal reasons, do you really think it's appropriate to use a team that has spent a month doing this for you?"

He laughed.

"Personal reason? Miss Lu, you take yourself too seriously, there is no personal reason."

This person is much more difficult and sinister than his gentle and handsome appearance.

I stood up, feeling that there was no point in talking further.

As expected, the Ludao case was over.

I heard that Feng Sheng dismissed our case as worthless from the bosses of the company.

Obviously he didn't even read our plan in the end.

I hated him so much: "I hit him once I see him."

But just to say, life is not an action movie.

The bosses paid the most attention to the case that they thought they had a chance to win, but it just aborted, and the leader of Party A, who has always had a good cooperative relationship and maintained a good public relations, didn't even participate in the proposal meeting.

Not to mention the loss of performance, this made the company feel a little embarrassed in the circle.

As the leader of this case, I must naturally bear the responsibility for screwing up.

But what I didn't expect was that this responsibility was so great that he was dismissed politely during the personnel conversation.

The reason is that disregarding the company's reputation, disrespecting customers, and forcibly going to the customer's office to argue is not suitable for the position of director.

This matter, the leaders who have always trusted me, never asked me to talk to me from the beginning to the end, listen to me.

I think, Qiandao is a rare big sponsor, and I am just an employee who is not irreplaceable.

Once Feng Sheng asks for something from it, it is very clear for the leaders to make such choices and decisions.

Although I feel really fucking aggrieved in my heart, this is how the workplace is.

Now that the overall situation has been decided, try to walk with a good attitude, forcing yourself will only make yourself more embarrassing.

On the night I left, the team ate together, sang K, drank and saw me off. Estelle's eyes were a little dodgy.

She's just been appointed Director of Group A, and I can see what she's thinking.

I found a gap and said to her: "Estelle, there's no need to feel sorry for me. I'll leave and you stay. This is just a job choice, not a matter of loyalty. And..."

I looked at her and said with a smile: "Besides, in the past five years, you have actually done enough for me. The company wants to transfer you to Group B as the director. You refused three times. Although you have been hiding it, I didn’t reveal half a word to me, and it’s not like I don’t know.”

"Thank you." I looked at her and had nothing more to say.

Five years of side by side, all in my heart.

She hugged me and hugged me. When we returned to the crowd, I saw that her eyes, which had always been mature to the point of indifference, were slightly moist.

Sometimes, you think you will always be in a certain place, you think you will always be with someone, but you just say goodbye easily when you don't pay attention, turn around and say goodbye.

In fact, once a person grows up, parting is really not that difficult.

Just like what Estelle said to me at the end of that night: "Iris, sometimes being together is a farewell, and sometimes parting is another reunion."

I nodded, agreed, and smiled: "Estelle, it's strange to say that we are both women in their early teens, but our minds are as indifferent as those of the elderly. No wonder we are so in tune."

She raised her glass and drank a big one with me, while turning her head to look at those young people, holding a microphone, singing love songs with a hoarse voice or a love song of love.

"In our lifetime, we meet on a narrow road, and we cannot escape. The palms suddenly grow entangled curves. Before being sensible, after being emotional, it will not last for a day. It can't be kept, it can't be counted, it's a fleeting year."

We were all drunk that night, and the last memory is just this song.

I don't know if this is a memorial to me leaving my friends and the place that gave me my entire career, or a prophecy of what's about to happen to me and Qi Qianyun.

One month after leaving the company, Du Hai went against the norm and asked me for a divorce.

What he said was that I was too independent and our relationship fell apart.

Compared with the previous death and never divorce, his attitude has changed [-] degrees. Although I was puzzled, I was relieved.

He didn't pursue too much, and agreed immediately.

He hesitated, as if he still couldn't say anything.

After a long time, he finally said: "The house and the car are all in my name, and I have no savings, so..."

It turned out that I was worried that I would share his property, so I smiled: "Don't worry, I never thought of taking any of your things."

This time, it was his turn to breathe a sigh of relief.

Later, less than a week after our divorce, I went back to get my leftover personal belongings and was about to return the keys to him, only to see him entangled in bed with a coquettish-looking woman.

I don't know why, even with Du Hai and his wife, he couldn't wait so much, I didn't feel any anger at all, on the contrary, I felt relieved.

If he didn't want me to leave all the excesses he did before, successfully made me afraid, and there was a trace of guilt, then now, I fully know that he has always been just afraid of losing something that belongs to him, just like him house, car, savings, not because he thinks I'm precious.

I think it's right to leave, there is always someone suitable for him.

There is always someone willing to cling to him, and both are happy.

Just like the charming woman on the bed.

and I.

Five years of work may seem glamorous, but the savings are actually limited.

Mortgaging a house of his own, which has not yet been handed over.

Unemployment, divorce, renting an apartment...

The reality was in front of me, and I had to face the life changes that followed.