in love with my psychiatrist

People, it’s always like this, the more you care about and the closer you get, the more you can’t bear a little bit of grievance from the other party. I always think, how can this person, the person I trust the most, treat me like everyone else, how can he treat me like this? for me.

But, isn't it? When other people treat you like this, you can often forget it quickly, and you can't reach your heart.

Humans always unintentionally lower their demands on irrelevant people, but become so harsh on those close to them.

Later, I kept thinking, if I could hold back my anger, go out with Qianyun properly, and tell her gently under the light of the wonderful red wine when she calmed down: Qianyun, I loved Zhu Fan, but he is in the past tense, and now, there are 1 of them, but they are not as good as one ten-thousandth of yours.

Well, tonight, we don't have to torture each other like that.

Yes, at the moment, I was completely irritated by her misunderstanding and indifference, as well as the sentence "You are so reluctant to go out now, are you regretting?" I was sad and disappointed, Qianyun, you can blame me whatever you want, How can you be so unjust and sarcastic about me.

Emotions peaked and accumulated into a hateful impulse beyond reason.My heart also throbbed.

Looking at her eyes that never looked at me, seeing her beautiful but cold posture standing at the door, I said something that I regretted as soon as I said it: "So, for Qingshan, you must always regret it."

The adoptive father went bankrupt and went to jail, and the adoptive mother has been in the psychiatric department of the hospital. Qingshan never looked for her again, and she never mentioned to me about the Qing family.

Sometimes I also wonder, what happened to Qingshan, does Qianyun really have no sympathy for her situation, is she afraid that I will care, so she contacted Qingshan in private to help her.

However, in a flash, I blame myself for thinking too much. I should trust her. Even if she helps her in private, I can understand and won't blame her.

I even thought about talking to her about this matter, but seeing that she always talked about it with a light smile every time, I gave up.

Most of these words are said because of anger and unscrupulous words. People often quarrel with the closest person, and when the other party says something, you desperately find out what corresponds to it, and stab the other party in an even more unreasonable way.

You have to compare who stabs harder.

Sure enough, people become stupid when they are angry, I become stupid, and Qianyun obviously becomes stupid too.

She froze for a moment, and finally looked at me with her beautiful eyes: "Qiqi, she's like that, I haven't even visited her, I haven't contacted her once, I'm her sister, no matter what she has done, I actually don't care about her." You have the responsibility to care about her, but because you thought about your feelings, you didn't do anything, and you are still so stubborn?"

"I don't give up? This is a word that is only used for third parties and snatchers. In your eyes, I am such a person?"

She looked at me and sighed: "Qiqi..."

So, what she means is that she held back her feelings for Qingshan and her own responsibility for me, so I made her a ruthless person?so......

In an instant, bursts of intense bitterness flooded into my heart and eyes.

Qianyun, when have I ever asked you to do something for me, and never have I stopped you from doing what you want...Unyielding, this is who you think I am...

I can't cry, I can't cry, my throat feels tight for a while.

I don't know why, but I was able to rush to the door so quickly, sucking on my slippers and running out, even though my eyes were blurry and my legs were weak because of the sadness in my heart.

And behind her, she was still standing so cold, when passing by her side, she unintentionally touched her hand, as cold as her eyes.

I pressed the elevator button hard, hoping it would take me out of here quickly.

But what about the speed, there is no one behind you to keep you, and I feel ridiculous for my behavior of tapping the button.

Shaking his head to himself, he rushed into the elevator, tears streaming down his face.

I tried my best to wipe away the tears that were falling down. I wiped them dry and fell down, until I got to the first floor, stepped out of the elevator, and quickly walked through the quiet lobby with almost no one. The front desk clerk looked at it curiously. I seemed to want to come forward to ask, but I was afraid of losing face, so I quickly left his sight and came outside the hotel entrance.

Only then did I realize that the pattering cold rain outside was hitting the cold night in Switzerland.

I'm a little at a loss.

He looked down at himself. He was wearing slippers, his hair was messed up from crying, his eyes were red, and more importantly, he had no mobile phone, no money, and nothing.

I wanted to find Lu Li, but I remembered he said he was going to the bar at night.

As for Feng Sheng, although he and Zhu Fan also live in this hotel, I don’t know their room numbers at all. Of course, I can go to the front desk and ask, but I look like this..., crying and running under the nose of the lobby waiter I will not do such a shameful thing as coming out and turning back to ask for the room number.Of course, even if I have the shame and skin to ask and know their room number, I can't go to him, and I hate him.

If I remember correctly, damn it, he was the one who told Qianyun before me that I met my ex-boyfriend, but he only knew one thing and didn't know the other, half of what he said was the most misunderstood, and that made Qianyun as big as me Misunderstand.

Zhufan?I shook my head, not in the scope of emergency help, although I consider him a friend, at this point, it is impossible to find him even if I am drowned to death.

God, do you want me to turn back?How big of a person, running out like a little girl after arguing, the key is that they didn't even pull you, do you have the face to go back?

That's right, she didn't even pull me. I ran over and passed her. Although I ran a little fast, she could obviously hold me.

If she holds me, I won't be as indifferent as when I went to hold her hand just now.

The more I think about it, the more I am wronged and helpless.The tears rolled and rolled again, and the ferocity was even worse than before.

I was dizzy from crying, and my hands were numb, so I walked into the rain so resentfully, I didn't feel cold after being poured on my body, and I walked in a daze, not knowing where to go.

The dark street was even more deserted in the rain. There were almost no pedestrians, and there were occasional vehicles. When passing by, I slowed down the speed politely and kindly, probably because I was afraid that the water on the road would splash on me.

On a strange street in a foreign country, on a cold night when the drizzle was falling, I became more and more vulnerable because of such a small warmth, and wanted to go back, to return to Qianyun's side.get more warmth.

But, she... I am afraid that going back is not the warmth I want, but her coldness.I can't face her coldness.

Not far ahead, there is a girl huddled in a red telephone booth, probably sheltering from the rain, and she has no one to pick her up?Suddenly felt sympathetic to each other, so I walked over there.

After showering for a long time, the numbness dissipated, and the cold feeling began to be piercing, so I went in to shelter from the rain, with someone as a companion, even if I didn't talk, it would be better.

When I was a few steps away from the phone booth, I politely smiled at the girl through the transparent door, indicating that I was also going in to shelter from the rain. She understood what I meant and nodded to me with a smile.

I was about to pull the door, but saw her face change drastically, she looked behind me, and yelled something at me in similar French, I looked back in surprise, a man wrapped in clothes and a hat was rushing towards us come over.

Seeing the panicked look of the girl, I instinctively yanked open the door of the phone booth, squeezed in, and slammed the door shut. The girl immediately pulled the door and motioned for me to lock it.

After completing these actions within a few seconds, the tall and burly man in black who was wrapped in clothes had already arrived outside the phone booth, and only then could he be vaguely seen. There was a scar on his face, and his face was leaning against the transparent door with fierce eyes. looked inward at us.Turned around and left.

I breathed a sigh of relief, looked at the foreign girl who was also flustered, and tried to ask her in English: Who was that person just now?What does he want to do?

Robbers... she replied, they like to rob single girls at night.

Is this often the case here?My voice is still shaking.

She said, no, very little, but it was reported on the TV news, I saw him acting strangely behind you just now, I feel like this, he probably has been following you for a long time.

Oh, I'm relieved, it's really thrilling, but fortunately this girl reacted quickly, and fortunately I got in in time, if it wasn't for seeing her sheltering from the rain here, probably...

I shook my head, not daring to think about it, I was really scared.

Just as she was saying thank you, suddenly, a black shadow pounced on the transparent glass door!

We screamed at the same time, and he's back!And holding a stone in his hand, he threw it at the door.

We were all terrified. The girl seemed to be a local, but she should be relatively young, and she was so frightened that she crouched down covering her head.

My legs were weak, my whole body was shaking, and I felt that my heart was almost not my own.

Can't go on like this!Didn't he rob, we two have nothing!

I quickly raised my hands towards the window, pulled the girl up too, grabbed her hand, and screamed at the people outside the window: nothing! nothing!

He seemed to have heard my shout, stopped his movements, put his face against the window, and looked around the phone booth from top to bottom with a look of resentment. At this time, another car came from a distance. The car came this way with its lights flashing. The person in front of the window threw a stone at the door with one hand in disappointment, cursed and left.

Frightened, I slowly moved to the door and looked out, until I saw him go farther and farther and disappear into the alley, and then I collapsed on the ground, lying on my knees, crying hysterically.While crying, he shouted Qianyun Qianyun from his mouth, making himself almost breathless.

The girl was also crying at first, but she was probably frightened by my stormy and thunderous posture, but she knelt down and patted my shoulder to comfort me.

I'm finally tired of crying, completely tired of crying, I don't care about any anger, self-esteem, or pride, I'm going back, back to Qianyun.

She didn't even care about her life for me, so why should I just get angry with her, hurt myself and her because of a little misunderstanding, because of a little anger and indifference of her.

I'm going back, how about you?I said to the girl.

She looked outside, the tears on her face were still wet, but there was a happy smile on the corner of her mouth, she pouted outside and said, Well, I'm going back too.

I turned around and saw a figure running outside, and was startled again.

She quickly said, don't be afraid, it's my boyfriend.

She laughed, just now we quarreled and I ran out, he knew I was here, every time I quarreled I would come here so that he could find me.

He can find her.

But, as for Qianyun, it was the first time we had a quarrel, and if she couldn't find me in a strange city, she would definitely be anxious.