in love with my psychiatrist

"Hey, Qiqi, I passed it smoothly."

Qianyun's voice sounded on the other end of the phone, low and calm, yet filled with joy that I could hear.

It suddenly became clear in my heart that I love her so much.

"Qianyun, congratulations. I know you will be fine." I said softly with a smile.

"Are you in the hotel? I just came out of the defense room. When I go back, we'll celebrate at night."

She raised some notes, and I became happy too.

"Well, I'm outside now, and I'll be right back."

I raised my eyes and glanced at Zhu Fan who was staring at me, well, I couldn't say a few sentences on the phone, let's talk to her about meeting Zhu Fan when we meet.

I paused, and said to Qianyun: "I'll wait for you to come back, please slow down on the road, pay attention to safety, don't rush."

"Yeah." She replied in a low voice, and hung up the phone gently.

Zhu Fan watched me put down the phone with a smile, and asked eagerly, "Is Feng Sheng talking about Qi Qianyun?"

I froze for a moment: "You even know her name."

"You, love her very much? A woman? I really can't believe it, or is it because you are disappointed in me and men?"

He looked at me.

I looked at him directly: "I love her not because she is a man or a woman, nor because I am disappointed in anyone, but because I happen to meet and love this person."

He listened, nodded as if he had realized something, then lowered his head again, remaining silent.

That's up to me.

"Zhufan, I once loved you and hated you. I thought you never liked me, but I didn't expect that in the end, we missed each other..."

He raised his head suddenly, his eyes full of hope again.

"However, to miss is to miss. I have not loved you for a long time. I thought I was the only one who had endured a lot in the relationship between us. Now I know that you have also experienced a lot, even more than me. In my heart I feel sorry for you at that time, but everything is fine now, isn’t it? New life."

His hopeful eyes suddenly darkened.

"Qiqi, what do you mean, we..."

"Yes, we have no chance, Zhu Fan, don't waste time, don't wait for me."

When I said these words, I felt like I had untied a long-hidden knot in my heart. Finally, everything between me and this person I have loved for so many years is really over.

Filled with true relief and lightness.

Zhu Fan sighed heavily, and looked at me: "Can you have dinner with me tonight, the last dinner, the last dinner I have with you, the one I like. After today, we are just partners That's right, Qiqi."

I nodded and shook my head again.

Zhu Fan looked at me in surprise.

I smiled: "Yes, Zhu Fan, we will only be partners in the future. But I can't accompany you for dinner tonight. I have to go back, and Qianyun will come back to find me. We made an appointment to celebrate her passing her defense together."

He looked at me for a while, then smiled, a little helplessly.

"So, as a partner now, at least finish this cup of coffee with me?"

He tilted his head and motioned to the table.

I hesitated.

He thought for a while, seemed to have thought about some words, and finally said: "Qiqi, thank you for being honest with me. After so many years, you have become mature, but many things in your bones have not changed. Directly, Frank, soft-hearted, kind, thank you for not being silent because you sympathized with me. Although I am very, very sorry and sad, I missed you so stupidly."

I want to thank Qianyun, because of her, I have the courage and ability to see my heart clearly.

"However, I respect all your decisions. Since you have fallen in love with someone else and told me frankly, then don't worry that I will pester you. After all, we will cooperate with Luhai in the future, let each other be relieved, and be frank friends. It would be better, wouldn't it?"

He took a deep breath, raised his coffee cup, and smiled at me: "Partner, can you give me a chance now, are you happy with the cooperation?"

Seeing Zhu Fan's relieved expression, I also smiled happily, held up the hot chocolate, and touched him: "It's a happy cooperation."

After talking, Zhu Fan and I were finally able to talk and chat easily, like old friends we haven't seen for a long time.

After drinking the drink, I checked the time, Qianyun should be arriving soon, so I said goodbye to Zhu Fan.

He said he wanted to sit down again, but he insisted on taking me out, walking with me to the hotel, and then going back by himself.

The cafe is only a few hundred meters away from the hotel. I jokingly said, "No, it's a road idiot, but it's so close, so it's okay to lose it."

He also made a joke, clutching his chest, pretending to be in pain: "Don't be so cruel, I'm paying homage to my love for many years, the heart of a broken-hearted boy, this is the last time I will walk with you for such a short distance, just let me do it."

I smiled and nodded.

Because each other is relieved and calm, I no longer deliberately keep a distance awkwardly.

I also thought that the story that finally came to an end can be told to Qianyun properly, and there is no need to worry about affecting her work and defense.

Walking all the way back, at the entrance of the hotel, before entering, Zhu Fan stretched out his hand with a smile, and said, "Qiqi, after this hug, we will really see each other again."

I understood what he meant, stepped forward with a smile, hugged him lightly, and said, "Zhu Fan, I wish you good luck, you deserve it."

He also whispered: "Qiqi, I'm happy for you, you've met a wonderful person, you're worth it."

We looked at each other with a smile, how many years of entanglement, in this smile, the grievances and grudges disappeared.

Frank and honest, naturally, there is no complaints, misunderstandings, love and hatred between each other, and there is only the friendship between a person who once knew each other and the reunion in the world of mortals.

Back in the hotel room, Qianyun hadn't come back yet.

Thinking of her reply, she must have not had time to book a restaurant, so she booked a restaurant that she inadvertently mentioned before she came to Switzerland, and ordered a celebration cake.

He also specially touched up his makeup and dressed himself up, feeling like a girl, and felt shy again.

When Qianyun opened the door, I heard the sound sensitively, and ran up immediately. I wanted to open the door for her before she opened it by herself, and give her a big hug and a bright smile.

When I opened the door, I hugged the person in front of the door and said happily: "You are back, I miss you so much."

I've never been such a sweet talker, but I don't know why, I really miss her so much, after being with Qianyun, I often want her to know that I miss her, don't worry, she will because I express so strongly, but don't cherish me, my Qianyun will always cherish me more than I cherish her, so why worry.

Hey, but, why did the person I put my arms around, the familiar smell, not respond at all.

I gently leave that soft embrace and look at her.

She smiled at me, but without the enthusiasm I expected.A trace of indifference and strangeness.

My heart is cold.

"Qianyun." I looked at her carefully and called her.

I haven't seen her look like this for a long time, especially for me, it has never been like this.

It scares me.

"Qiqi, let me change my clothes, let's go out, oh, I'll book a restaurant first."

She smiled slightly, shook my hand, walked around me without looking at me, entered the door, changed her shoes, took out her mobile phone, and walked into the bedroom.

A series of movements, calm and quiet, but really deliberate.

I frowned, closed the door, and followed her, a little at a loss.

The cells in the brain quickly became active, and began to recall and speculate.

It was fine on the phone just now, what happened on the way?What happened to the defense?Or something happened at home?

But, no, even so, Qianyun wouldn't show such disdain to me.

"Qianyun, I've already made a reservation for the restaurant, your favorite one." I said behind her with a flattering smile.

She froze for a moment, turned around and looked at me for a long time, then suddenly hugged me, lowered her head, and nestled her cool face on my neck.

I was nervous for a while, "What's wrong, Qianyun."

"Qiqi, you won't leave me." Her voice was hoarse.

"Of course not. Tell me what's the matter." I pushed her away and looked directly into her eyes. This was simply not the usual Qianyun.

"Qiqi, do you have anything to tell me?" She asked me back, and instantly regained her indifference.

It was my turn to be stunned, unable to react.

"You still met him in private. I saw it. Just now, you were at the entrance of the hotel. He sent you back, and you hugged him." She spoke concisely and calmly.

But the more I heard her speak so calmly, the more I felt thunder rumbled above my head, and my heartbeat was so nervous that I missed half a beat.

I was going to tell her frankly, but she saw it first, I really misunderstood.

The disturbed thoughts, the eagerness to explain, and the panic of caring too much about her and worrying about her misunderstanding made my mouth suddenly become stupid, and I stuttered.

"Qianyun, you misunderstood, I...yes, he is...but..." I knocked my head angrily.

"Qiqi, Feng Sheng told me last night that his new investment partner is your ex-boyfriend, Zhu Fan, right?"

She didn't look at me, her eyes seemed to go back in time.

"At first, I thought there was nothing we couldn't talk about." She smiled coldly.

"You didn't say it last night. I think you need time to digest it. But today, you met again in private, right?"

Qianyun looked at me.

I took a deep breath: "Yes, we met privately, but it's really not what you think, I was going to tell you tonight."

"Qiqi, I know that person, you were crazy about him, and now he's back, heh."

As she said that, she still laughed.

I don't know why, but seeing her smile like this makes me very sad.

Hold back the sadness, try to organize your thoughts, and not let the beautiful night become unreasonable in such a misunderstanding.

"Qianyun, when I met him, he asked me to meet in private, and said he wanted to talk about the fact that I took away 10 yuan from him. I agreed, but I didn't tell you yesterday because I no longer have him in my heart, and I don't think so. It is necessary to tell you deliberately, and also to consider whether telling you will affect your defense today. I want to tell you after you finish your defense. "

"Then, today I thought that there was no need to meet him in private, and I also told him in a text message that I donated the 10 yuan to the poor mountainous area, but he said that he had something else to say... "

"So, you go, what's the matter?"

Qianyun still smiled slightly.ask me.

I was suddenly a little discouraged. In such an atmosphere, can I tell her, tell him that Zhu Fan also liked me, but because of his ear disease and almost deaf and aphasia, we missed each other?

"He told me some of the misunderstandings we had. We reconciled and became friends again. Qianyun, you saw us hugging in the hotel. It was really just a courtesy between friends, and it was also a farewell between me and him."

I skipped over some details that are more likely to cause misunderstandings, but I still looked directly at Qianyun, hoping that she could see my firmness.

But she didn't look at me, she looked away, and just said lightly: "Have you booked the restaurant, wait for me, change your clothes, let's go out."

"So, you haven't misunderstood me, have you?" I asked, stepping forward and gently pulling her hand.

She withdrew her hand, turned and went to the bedroom, and said: "I will, soon."

what is this?

He obviously didn't listen to my explanation, but he didn't continue this topic.

Qianyun, is this a cold war with me?

"Qianyun!" I called her, but she ignored me.

Enough is enough.

"I've already explained that I didn't tell you yesterday because I was afraid of affecting you. When I met him privately today, we made a break. Is it necessary for you to treat me like this?"

I stood in the living room, biting my lip, trying not to shake my voice.

There was still no sound.

After a long time, she changed her clothes and came out, still not looking at me, she went straight to the door and said coldly, "Let's go, don't make trouble."

Me?What is this.

"Qianyun, can we have a good talk, how do we go out, how do we have dinner, how do we celebrate?"

I control my emotions.

She finally turned to look at me, but her eyes were full of dissatisfaction: "Qiqi, dinner? Celebration? I called you as soon as possible, and I was the first to share my joy with you, but when I answered the phone, I can't hear it at all, you are having a secret conversation with your ex-boyfriend."

"Qianyun...after you called, I told him that I was coming back. I told him that we had an appointment to have dinner together...to celebrate you... .”

Looking at the way she looked at me, I felt so bored and panicked that I wanted to cry, but I felt dizzy, incoherent, and didn't even have the strength to explain.

But she sneered and said: "If I hadn't called you, would it be you and him who are having dinner at this moment, and would it be he who is celebrating with you, to celebrate your reunion, so why are you so reluctant to go out now? Are you sorry?"

She said that about me, she even said that about me.

A string snapped in my brain.