in love with my psychiatrist

It took me the next day to recall how that night ended.

I just remember that when I left, I whispered to Estelle: Please take me home.

She understood, and said a few words to the eyes next to her, who looked at me worriedly, gave Estelle instructions for a long time, then turned and left.

Lu Li came over and wanted to say something, I waved my hand feebly and smiled at him: Leave me alone, you and Feng Sheng go to see her.

Of course I know, the most embarrassing is her.

Lle sneered: "At this time, you are still caring about her, can you think about yourself?"

I looked at Estelle, her expression changed from anger to pity, she put her arms around my shoulder, caressed me, with a look of unbearable, said: "Okay, I'll take you back."

Before leaving, I turned my head slightly and glanced behind me. She was still standing on the stage with bright lights.But so strange.

Following the footsteps of estelle, I walked out of the banquet hall that was gorgeous and noble one second, but messy in the next.

It's like stepping out of a tired dream.

At that moment, when I woke up from the dream, I couldn't remember the plots in the dream. I just felt tired and wanted to take a rest.

Yes, Qi Qianyun and I were holding hands, and when she was about to kiss me in front of her parents, the big screen behind her showed the picture and sound of her and Qingshan entangled on the bed.

The entire banquet hall fell into a dead silence, and the voice of joy and love filled every corner of the audience, which was unavoidable.

Feng Sheng was the first person who seemed to understand something, he cursed: Damn it!

Rush to the backstage, yelling at the console: You fucking turn off the video!

After a few seconds, the big screen returned to blank silence.

There was an uproar in the audience.

Feng Sheng came to the stage and walked towards her and me. He glanced at us, paused, and stood in front of Qi Qianyun, then picked up the microphone and said to the following: "Ladies and gentlemen, uncles, aunts, and sons and daughters, this is a full-fledged Malicious pranks are enough to ruin our good mood tonight, on behalf of Qianyun and her parents, I would like to apologize to everyone, I think they need to deal with the next thing, so I will be rude tonight."

He knew that no matter how to remedy it, the birthday party tonight would be unsustainable.The more he hesitated, the more embarrassing he was, so he could only see off the guest as soon as possible.

The crowd gradually dispersed.

Leave disbelief and chaos in the air.

I will never forget that moment when Feng Sheng stepped onto the stage and blocked Qi Qianyun with his body.

The main character in the video is not me, but outside the video, the one who was stripped off and watched the most seemed to be me, as if I was the only one left.

This is really an irony that was bought with one's life.

lle, eyes, Lu Li, came to the audience lle stretched out his hand towards me, raised his head and called me: "Come down."

I walked to the edge of the stage, lle held my hand, and I jumped down with support. I was in a trance for a moment, just like when we were in the same company before, after finishing every promotional activity, we jumped off the stage and prepared to call it a day and go home.

Hopefully, this is just the end of a promotional campaign.

From the beginning to the end, I didn't look at Qi Qianyun.She didn't come over and say anything to me.

Later, I thought that at that time, even if she came over, even if she said a word, Qiqi, I'm sorry.

I can let it go, I can think, that is her past with her, she has a past with her, she lied to me because she cares about me, and I will forgive her.

Or, she even just said one sentence, Qiqi, I am in a mess now, I will explain to you later.

I don't think I would have the heart to leave her alone on stage like that.

But she didn't tell me anything.until I leave.She was so motionless, standing on the stage, under the light, only looking at the direction I was leaving.

I can't see her expression clearly, I can't see her eyes, but that gesture is sending her away.

I understand what that means.She just gave up on us, everything that we finally built between us, and I can't even wait for me to make more efforts for it.

So, at that moment, I decided.We, probably really are destined to have no part.

A person, or a relationship, has to recognize his identity if he works hard to a certain extent.

Two days later, Qi Qianyun and I got on the phone, and we were very calm.

It was she who called me first, but it was I who spoke first.

"Is it convenient for you this afternoon, I want to go and pack my things." I said.

She was silent for a while, and responded to me, "It's convenient, I'm at home, come here, let's have a talk, Qiqi."

"Well. See you this afternoon." I calmly agreed.

When we met in the afternoon, I had the key but rang the doorbell, and she came to open the door for me.

When I saw her, her hair was fluffy, she was wearing a simple white long-sleeved T-shirt, a pair of white fleece pants, and her eyes were bloodshot.

At that time, I realized that no matter what she kept from me or what she did before, even if she didn't explain a word, I didn't blame her or blame her.Just still feel sorry for her.

"Wear more, it's the coldest time."

I went in and took off my thick coat, and she took it over and hung it on the coat hanger for me familiarly.

Thinking that there will never be such a scene again, I feel a little sad.

She smiled and said, "It's okay, there is heating in the room, so it won't cool me."

I rubbed my hands and pointed to the room: "Then shall I clean up first? Or should we talk first?"

She looked at me for a long time, bit her lip, and let out a slight sigh, almost imperceptible.

"Let's talk first, let me pour you a glass of water." She turned around.

I sat down on the sofa in the living room and looked around at everything in the room.

After all, all the flavors belonging to our relationship ended in this way.

She came over with water, handed it to me, and sat down opposite me.

I took a sip of water and suddenly smiled: "I remember the first time I saw you, in your studio, sitting there, you poured water for me, this scene, it seems."

She laughed too.Immediately his eyes turned red again.

Not seeing her like this, I said, "Qianyun, actually, I'm not blaming you, really."

She nodded: "I know."

"Are those relatives and friends doing well? Are your parents okay?" I asked.

She nodded: "Mom and dad must be sad, I told them frankly. Those relatives and friends..."

She smiled: "They haven't seen anything, gossip and chat with each other, it's over, I don't care."

My heart throbbed inexplicably, Qi Qianyun, what do you care about?

She looked at me, she was proud, she didn't like to explain herself, and she told me for a long time with such a humble sincerity.

"Qiqi, that incident, the video incident, was done by Feng Huanyue. She has liked me since she was a child, and I have rejected her many times. Qingshan is my younger sister, so I naturally take care of Qingshan more, so Huanyue hated me since childhood. I hate Qingshan."

"When we were in Switzerland, she found out from Feng Sheng that I was going to propose to you. She sent me a text message threatening me, saying that she had something in her hand that could make our relationship fall apart."

"I was a little annoyed. I went back to talk to her earlier, said some cold words, and at the same time underestimated her. I didn't even know that she had such a video in her hand."

I took a deep breath and tightened my grip on the water glass.

She glanced at my hands, then at my face.

Said softly: "Qiqi, I dare not say please forgive me, and I am not trying to excuse myself, but I need to explain this matter to you seriously. I don't know about me and Qingshan in the video. This is what I said before. I will tell you that Qingshan and I don’t have any reason beyond family relationship, I didn’t deliberately lie to you, but before I saw the video, I didn’t know that something like this happened between me and her.”

"Until I saw the video, I was completely dumbfounded. In the past two days, I recalled that year, the night before I went abroad, I, Qingshan, Feng Sheng, and Feng Huanyue drank together. No wonder, later, after going abroad, Qingshan Shan's personality will become so extreme. She asked me more than once, have you forgotten everything between us. "

She shook her head sadly: "I always thought it was because Qingshan misunderstood me, and because of her mental illness, she imagined a relationship between us beyond sisters, but it turned out to be true. I hurt her So many years."

"Then why don't you know that such a thing happened? Is it Feng Huanyue's fault?" I find it incredible.

She nodded: "For the past two days, Feng Sheng has also questioned her, only to find out that that night, she saw that Qingshan and I had a close relationship, and I was going abroad, which stimulated her, and she drugged my wine. A video was also recorded. I didn't know what I did, and Qingshan didn't know that I did those things that exceeded the rules because I was in a state of confusion, and she always thought I was awake."

"Feng Huanyue also helped us tidy up the room. I went to catch the plane early in the morning and really didn't think about anything."

"She did this because she couldn't get you. Seeing that you are good to Qingshan, why did she take revenge on Qingshan like this?"

"Probably." She nodded.Poker face.

"So, Qianyun, that's why you didn't explain to me at all last night. You couldn't believe that you had a relationship with Qingshan. You finally understood why Qingshan is so obsessed with you, not because of her It's wishful thinking, but because she has always felt that you have feelings for her, because you did inadvertently show love to her. You have always misunderstood her, haven't you? "

She nodded again: "Qiqi, you have always been so smart."

"No, I'm stupid." I shook my head helplessly, "So, Qianyun, you need to take care of Qingshan now, right? You have to choose her. This is because you know that no matter what you do, as long as you say a word, I will take care of you." You don't need to care, but you don't want to keep me."

She looked at me and said, "Qiqi, you also know that as long as you say something, I won't have to make such a difficult choice."

I laughed: "But, I'm really stupid."

That afternoon, the rare winter sun shone in.

We lowered our heads, looked at the cups in our hands, and fell silent for a long time.

After I finished packing, I put down the keys, and when I left, the hug with Qianyun finally made us squeeze out a difficult word from each other.

goodbye.seven seven.

goodbye.Qianyun.