in love with my psychiatrist

"Qiqi, do you like it? I don't think it's very good. It's a bit petty and doesn't suit you."

"Qiqi, try this one. It is unique in the world. It is the work of the most famous wedding dress designer in France. I specially asked the clerk to return to China in advance."

In front of a large floor-to-ceiling glass mirror, Qianyun stood behind me, with one arm around my waist, and the other pointing to the white wedding dress on the tall skirt beside her. The long skirt was winding and elegant, spreading all over the floor.

"It's so beautiful, it only belongs to you. Only you deserve to wear it."

Qianyun's deep and black eyes made me feel embarrassed.

"What about yours, Qianyun. I want to see the wedding dress you're wearing." I brushed my hand over her cool arm, and I don't know why, but my heart, which was so happy that I was so happy, couldn't help feeling a little cold because of the coolness. very confused.

Fortunately, her peerless smile can make me forget everything and just want to be intoxicated.

"My, mine, keep it secret. I want to give you a surprise." She blinked her eyes with a mysterious expression.

"No, no, Qianyun, it's not fair, I want to see you." I acted like a baby, shaking her hand, as sweet as a girl falling in first love.

"Qiqi, can't wait until the wedding? It's a surprise I want to give you."

"But I really want to see it now."

"Okay then, I'll wear it. You said you want to see it now. If you see it now, you won't be able to see it later. Don't regret it, Qiqi."

After she finished speaking, she disappeared at the end of the tall stairs winding to the second floor of the bridal dress shop.

If you see it now, you won't see it later.

I was teasing her, Qianyun, why was she so serious when she said this.

What did she mean by that.To say such an unlucky thing.

Then I don't watch it now, don't watch it.

I raised my head and looked at the corner of the stairs in panic.An indescribable fear and panic surged in my heart, and I shouted to the top: "Qianyun, Qianyun."

She didn't answer, and the bridal shop suddenly became empty, filled with echoes of shouting Qianyun.I was so scared, I lifted the hem of the wedding dress and climbed up the steep spiral staircase desperately.

A pair of high heels suddenly appeared in front of my eyes.Followed by a cold voice, "She won't come down, and you can't go up either."

I raised my neck and looked up, covered in cold sweat.It's her, why is Qingshan here.

"You let me go up." I pushed her away, but she remained motionless, blocking the narrow and steep stairway.

I was really angry and said to her: "Please get out of the way. Qianyun, she loves me, she needs me, and I love her too, I need her."

"Oh, is it?" Her voice without a trace of emotion sounded like she didn't care about my words, and there was a sneer at the corner of her mouth, as if I was a struggling ant.

"Miss Qi, it's so beautiful, you and Miss Lu are a match made in heaven, they are a perfect match."

The voice of the wedding dress attendant came from downstairs.

I pricked up my ears and heard Qianyun's words, "Thank you. Qiqi is a woman, doesn't she want to watch me try on the wedding dress?"

"I'm here, Qianyun!" I shouted, no longer caring about why she went downstairs again, when and where she went down.

I just responded to her wholeheartedly, wanting her to hear me and see me.

But she can't seem to hear or see.Continue talking to the clerk.

I turned around anxiously and was about to go down the stairs, but another body stood in front of me, this time, it was Feng Huanyue.

She still had a harmless face, she tilted her head and said with a smile, "Sister Qiqi, you can't go down."

I pushed her hard, but couldn't.

I heard the clerk say, "Goodbye, Miss Qi."

I heard the sound of Qianyun's high-heeled shoes walking towards the door, getting farther and farther away, and I even heard the sound of a car starting at the door.

Qianyun is gone, Qianyun is gone.She never waited for me.

I wanted to call her loudly but couldn't. I only looked at Feng Huanyue in front of me and Qingshan behind me.

"She's not coming back, and you'll never see her again."

They all laughed, sneered, and didn't move at all, leaving me with nowhere to go and despair.

Never see her again.

"Qianyun!" I shouted heartbreakingly, and all the depression accumulated in my chest turned into tears gushing from my eyes.

"Iris, iris..." Someone was holding his shoulders, and there were constant shouts in his ears, "Hey, wake up, are you having nightmares again?"

It turned out that it was a dream, and a terrible dream.

However, is the dream more terrifying, or reality?

Do you want to stay in the dream, or wake up?

I closed my eyes tightly, still, nowhere to go.

"Iris!" Estelle called me anxiously, I had to open my heavy eyelids and lle's face was enlarged in front of me.

She turned around and took out a tissue, gently wiping the tears rolling down from the corners of my eyes.

But I was laughing: "Why am I not well yet?"

When she heard it, her eyes turned red.Frowning, he lightly reproached and said: "I also want to ask you, you have good times and bad times, intermittently awake and sometimes lethargic, and you have had a fever for a week... Checked, took medicine, The injection, why is it useless at all, or because of your own heart..."

It's been a week.

I thought to myself, it has been a week, how long is the date written on the invitation letter, and how long have I been sick.

I had a splitting headache and had to ask Estelle, "The wedding, is it?"

She looked at me for a while, turned her head away, and didn't look at me, I pulled her, "Tell me, my head hurts, it should be these two days."

I was as calm as if I was asking about classmates, colleagues, and friends I didn't know very well.

In fact, I was asking about Qianyun and Qingshan.their wedding.

Although I didn't say anything about moving away from Qi Qianyun's residence, the day we reached an agreement to temporarily separate, one month and three days, on this day, I got an extremely exquisite invitation letter from Feng Sheng.

Impressively written on it is the name of the bride and the bride.Qi Qianyun, Qingshan.

When I was holding the invitation letter, my hands were shaking badly, I looked down at it, and Feng Sheng looked at me.

He said: "Qianyun is probably just a courtesy, only a small number of relatives and friends will participate, you don't have to go, it doesn't matter..."

"I'll go." I raised my head and answered Feng Sheng with a smile.

Feng Sheng looked at me, "Qiqi, why bother, it's actually not good for you if you go."

"Since she invited me, why don't I go, I will."

My teeth are fighting, and I can almost hear the rattling of my joints. Winter is about to pass, but I am so cold that every cell is shivering.

It seems that from that night on, I developed a high fever and just remember switching between nightmares and Estelle's enlarged face.

I dreamed that Qi Qianyun hugged me and said, "Qiqi don't go, I'm just afraid that you will push me away, that you will care about it, that I won't be able to handle all this and make you more sad, so I have to let go temporarily, I don't want to say goodbye to you.

I dreamed that I said to Qi Qianyun, you go and take care of Qingshan's affairs, leave me alone, I believe in you, Qianyun, no matter how long, I will wait for you.

I dreamed that Qi Qianyun was warming milk for me one second, turned her head and smiled at me under the warm light, but she couldn't find her in the next second, and I was heartbroken.

I dreamed that she was driving me in a car, we were humming, and then she fell into a pool of blood and said, "Qiqi, I died for you, maybe I deserved it."

Dreaming of many sweets, bit by bit, but without exception, every moment of happiness ends in a nightmare picture.

......

"Enough, really, enough." I weakly grabbed Estelle's hand.

She looked at me for a while, took a deep breath, and yelled at me, "Are you going? Since every time you wake up, you are always asking, is the wedding going to happen? When will the wedding be? When is it, but it seems that you really want to go. Well, it’s tomorrow. If you want to go, you can get well soon. My mother will go with you. Let’s see what you can do between you. , let you see with your own eyes how she betrayed you, how she swore to someone else for a lifetime after being separated from you for a month, and see if this will make you die. Whatever you want to do, my old lady will accompany you, cry and cry If you want to make a fuss, you want to destroy the place, you want to kill and set fire, whatever is fine, just please don't look like you are dying. You have to get better for me first! I can't take it anymore! … "

I have never seen Estelle like this.

When she was a colleague before, she was considerate, steady and indifferent.

Later, they became good friends in private. She was gossip, loyal, and generous.

But I've never seen her roar so uncontrollably.

For me to get better, she was anxious to death.

I took her hand and stroked it gently, "Okay, okay..."

Like she is a patient, I am comforting her.

When she calmed down, I smiled at her, "Don't worry, I feel much better." I touched my forehead with one hand, "Look, I don't even feel like I have a fever."

She hastily stretched out her hand, touched it, and finally relaxed a little on her face. Seeing that I was finally able to talk to her soberly, she relaxed a little more.

"Estelle, I'm sorry for worrying you." I said, "You said it was tomorrow, right? Their wedding."

She looked at me suspiciously and worriedly, and nodded hesitantly.

"Really going?"

"You accompany me?"

She gritted her teeth and nodded.

But I looked at her and shook my head, "Forget it lle, let's forget it. I saw a sentence..."

I laughed, "She has her ten-foot soft red, and I have my sea and sky."

Thinking of the dream just now, Qi Qianyun said, now that you see me in a wedding dress, you won't be able to see me in the future.

It turns out that reality is crueler than dreams.

Qi Qianyun, in reality, we have neither the present nor the future.

Qi Qianyun, is everything we have had just a dream?

Qi Qianyun, then, thank you for giving me this dream, even if the ending is just to be a supporting role on the other side of your happiness forever.

Qi Qianyun, although I hate you for not leaving early, and for letting me indulge in your paradise, but since we fell in love, we don't want to be hurt in our hearts.

Bless you, bless you.Qi Qianyun.