in love with my psychiatrist

I took the package and didn't look at it very carefully. I quickly signed for it and closed the door. I looked back at Estelle. She had stood up, her emotions seemed to have calmed down, and her eyes were fixed on the things in my hand.

I threw the package on the sofa and asked her: "You just said, there is no wedding, what's going on. Why are you crying?"

His tone was as calm as possible, but his heart was beating very hard.

She was a little uncertain with red eyes, hesitated to speak, looked at me, and then at her watch.

She grinned reluctantly, and pointed to the package on the sofa, "Iris, don't ask me, look for yourself, maybe the answer is in there."

The strange behaviors of Feng Sheng, Lu Li, and Estelle during this time made me more and more puzzled.

Suddenly, I felt like a person locked in a dark room, and there were countless eyes outside the room that I couldn't see. I didn't even know what kind of emotional eyes they belonged to.

Open the package, it is a wedding dress.

It's almost perfect, just like the one in my dream. When I recalled it, I realized that Qi Qianyun and I saw it in the glass window of a wedding dress shop in Switzerland.

A small card was shaken from the wedding dress.

I just watched it lying on the ground like that, unable to recover for a while. Estelle came over, picked it up, glanced at it, and handed it to me.

"Qiqi, I have found my happiness. The wedding dress is my last gift to you. May we all be well. You want to be happy."

I feel very sad, Qi Qianyun, why bother.

But there was an indescribable expression on Estelle's face, I don't know how to say it, it seemed relieved, but also sad.

I smiled and asked her: "Look, is this the answer you said. She said she found her happiness."

Estelle smiled, seemed to be having a hard time, and said, "Iris, have you ever doubted Qi Qianyun's feelings for you?"

I laughed: "I haven't doubted it since we were officially together."

"Then what about now. When she decides to spend her whole life with someone else." Why did Estelle ask this question, and pursue her so hard.

"But you haven't answered me yet. Why is there no wedding? Are you comforting me or feeling sorry for me?"

I know that Estelle has always treated me like a family member, but the crying that endured but broke down, is it too exaggerated to be sad for me, and what else is hidden?

I sat down on the sofa with my wedding dress on.

He patted the place next to him, and said to Estelle: "I know, something must have happened. You guys want to hide it from me, but you care about me so you always show that you can't bear it, or maybe it's too much to hide , you can’t put on a perfect play, can you?”

She didn't speak, just walked over quietly and sat beside me.Sighing, he put his arms around my shoulders.Eyes looking at the ceiling, tears flooded up again.

It's not her who is broken in love, and it's not her who is so sad that the person she loves is going to grow old with someone else overnight.

I'm not so sad.

"There's no wedding, but they went to America." Estelle looked at me with wet eyes, "Iris, they won't be coming back this morning's plane."

I froze for a moment, then asked with a smile, "Has it already taken off?"

"Well, it's probably the point where the express delivery just arrived."

"Oh." I nodded and smiled again: "Why bother, after all I don't know how to rob people at the airport. You can't get them back even if you rob them."

The hands holding the wedding dress were tightly twisted together, pinching him painfully, and the pain seemed to extend to the left side of his chest.

Fortunately, the movement of her hands was covered by the fluffy wedding dress, so Estelle couldn't see it.

She patted me on the shoulder, "Let it go. It's over."

I didn't answer her, but just said lightly, "It's good, it's good, there are no weddings in China, so go to the United States to hold a wedding."

Estelle nodded, thoughtfully, and responded softly, "Yes."

I asked her, "Why are you trying to lie to me that it's today's wedding? Even the invitation is disguised, it takes so much trouble."

"Qi Qianyun wants to make a break before leaving. Let the relationship between you end completely."

Estelle looked at me deeply: "She, and all of us, didn't expect that you would really go. So"

"So, you all stopped me from going, and I couldn't hide it in the end." I shook my head, "She deliberately created a fake wedding to make me give up, but where did she get the confidence to think that a wedding is better than her leaving? Going to the United States from China makes my heart die even more.”

After thinking about it, I said again: "Actually, no matter what, she just told me directly, Qi Qi, we are no longer together, don't wait for me, it takes so much trouble, should I be grateful She thinks so highly of me."

Estelle looked at me intently, uncharacteristically, she helped Qi Qianyun speak, and said, "Qiqi, she must be concerned about your feelings."

Wanting to break up completely, deciding to never see this matter again, what feelings are so scruples.Telling the other party clearly and definitely is the best kind of compassion.

However, Qi Qianyun, you still can’t tell me in the face, and do so many tactful things so that I can feel the loss of you forever. Should I be grateful for your kindness or hate you? Ruthless yet.

I turned around and smiled at Estelle, "You're crying like this."

Embarrassed and flustered, she wiped her eyes: "Get out, make fun of me, I love you too."

I looked at her gratefully, "I'm fine."

I stood up, walked to the window, opened the thick curtains, and a few rays of sunlight came in, with the taste of early spring.

I took a deep breath, pointed out the window, looked back at Estelle, and said with a sincere smile: "Don't be sad for me, it's a journey of encounter, we know how warm and cold we are, Qi Qianyun and I just loved each other once."

Estelle came over and looked in the direction of my line of sight.

There are rows of sycamore trees sprouting new buds. When the bus passed by, the roof swept the branches, and we seemed to hear the rustling sound.That is the trace of passing each other.

At that time my heart was empty, but there was a trace of relief in the empty, I still love Qi Qianyun, but, I know, because I love her, I bless her choice.

I doubt that I can completely forget her, but I don't doubt what Estelle said: "I love you too."

I ignored the hesitation on her face when she said it.

And when I knew that the reason for her hesitation was half a year later when she met Feng Huanyue again.

In my limited 29 years of life, I haven't met many truly cruel people, and Feng Huanyue is such a person, so she told me the truth with a sneer, just in the hope that the people Qi Qianyun liked would suffer to the point of being truly cruel. When it was hard to make a living, I really hated her.He hated what she did to Qi Qianyun many years ago, and made both of them bear the heavy shackles of fate for so many years.

Now, because of her, I lost Qi Qianyun, and she still does not give up her purpose of torturing me.

Unfortunately, this time, she may not be able to do so.

This truth really made me miserable, more painful than Qi Qianyun leaving me to be with Qingshan, more painful than Qi Qianyun not loving me anymore, even more painful than Qi Qianyun never loving me.

Fortunately, because of love, I faced it bravely.Although I don't know the result, I feel very at ease in my heart, and I am willing to work hard.

So, one day half a year later, when I came to the United States and sat in a psychological diagnosis and treatment studio that was exactly the same as the one I had been to before, I even thanked Feng Huanyue for telling me what no one could bear to say fact.

I looked at the expressionless person behind the desk who was writing something.

Without raising her head, she asked, "Do you have any past information?"

"You know it all."

"I'm talking about psychological diagnosis information. Normally, I should get the information from your past doctor, but you came here suddenly, and I can't get any of your information here. Did you bring it yourself?" She followed the rules of professional treatment. Procedures, at a glance.

"No." I looked at her and smiled.

"So where was the diagnosis and treatment before, tell me the doctor's phone number, I need to talk to him first." She still didn't look up.

I quickly said a number, she obviously paused, and then pretended to concentrate on recording something.

Sitting opposite her, looking at her beautiful smooth forehead, seeing her blinking eyelashes from time to time, and smelling the smell of her hair, I involuntarily stretched out my hand to help her smooth the hair on her forehead.

She tilted her head, and her whole body leaned back, away from me.

Still smiling, I sat up straight and said softly, "I can't even get through to this number. Dr. Qi can try. Maybe you can get through."

She also didn't understand the style, and answered seriously, "The number you mentioned is mine."

I couldn't help laughing: "That's right, you asked me for my doctor's number, my doctor is only you, and you have always been the only one."

Can't help but grab her hand again, she shrank and waved it sensitively and quickly.A gesture of total resistance.

I sighed: "Qianyun"

"I'm sorry, Ms. Lu, the next patient is still waiting outside. Please tell me your condition, and I will diagnose it for you. I don't need to say anything else. My time is limited."

She was sarcastic.It's like stepping back in time.The difference is that it was me who used to dodge, but now it is her who dodges.

I still smiled: "Yes, I know, your time is precious, and your diagnosis and treatment time is measured by minutes and seconds. 15 minutes and 47 seconds, [-]% off, [-]. Right."

She stopped the pen in her hand, raised her eyes to look at me, and quickly turned her eyes away.

"It's been two years, the price must have increased. Dr. Qi, can you do the math for me, if I want to buy your life time, how much will it cost? Can I give you a [-]% discount?"

Her hands that pretended to be writing something quickly stopped, and after a few seconds, she decisively picked up the phone on the table, dialed the number, and said in English, "Luth, please come in."

A woman in business attire came in, and she raised her head to signal her: "Miss Lu's consultation time is up, please take her out, there is no need to make an appointment for her next time."

Ruth froze for a moment, made a gesture of invitation to me, and said, "Miss Lu, I'll take you out."

She looked at me sympathetically, and I blinked at her: "Thank you."

Standing up, I was about to follow her to leave, but after walking a few steps, I turned around suddenly and successfully caught the eyes of the person behind me who was looking at me intently.

I startled her by turning around suddenly, she hurriedly looked away and pretended to bury her head.

I smiled narrowly, turned around and leaned over the wide and wide table that was in the way, listened to her, and said with a smile: "Don't let me make an appointment next time, I will wait at the door for you to get off work."

After finishing speaking, without waiting for her reaction, he got up and walked over the dumbfounded Ruth to the door. When he passed by Ruth, he waved to her and said, "Bye, please take good care of her during working hours."