in love with my psychiatrist

I don't think I'm a person who is crying and dying in a relationship, and being sick is probably just a simple illness.It just coincided with the time to break up with Qi Qianyun.

So, later that day, after my fever subsided completely, I despised the porridge served by Estelle, and wolfed down a takeaway pizza for three under her stop and horror, I collected my thoughts and sternly asked She stated a problem.

I said, "During the day, you were not very kind to me."

She was drinking porridge neatly. Hearing what I said, she shook her hand, raised her face, and glanced at me inexplicably: "Where do you start, don't be a white-eyed wolf, I am the one who has taken care of you for a week." Man, your own mother is nothing more than that."

I snorted and said, "It's one thing to take care of me. The future will last forever. Let's talk about this kindness again. The key is that it's really unfriendly for you to yell and bombard a patient who has just recovered. You feel murmured. "

She opened her mouth as if Mr. Dong Guo had been bitten by a wolf, and was about to speak.

I immediately went on to say: "It's fine to yell at me and bombard me. I'm easy-going and don't care too much, but you took the opportunity to press some trumped-up charges on my head."

She kept opening her mouth wide, and before she swallowed a mouthful of porridge, it was about to flow out. I pulled a tissue and handed it to her in disgust, "Wipe it quickly, your little boyfriend will be so disillusioned when he sees it."

She stammered and pointed at me: "You, you, you, it's time to take your medicine."

I looked at her seriously, "I just ate."

She wailed: "I can't stop!"

I ignored her, my expression was still stern, and I started to get to the point, correcting her patiently: "In retrospect, when you were unkind to me, the content of yelling at me implied that I broke up with Qi Qianyun, she To marry someone else, in order to escape, I deliberately let myself be sick and die, right?"

She raised her eyebrows: "Isn't it?"

I was very anxious, pointed at her and said: "You are a wonderful young woman in the new era, and you can even abduct a boyfriend who is five years younger. Why are you so ignorant and ignorant of science?"

She poohed me, but her expression was still willing to hear about it.

I reluctantly explained: "Sickness is a physiological thing. I got sick because of a cold or other reasons. How could I get sick because of avoiding one thing?"

"I don't know that some people's nightmares all day and all night are all named after so-and-so. I don't know what they are doing." She probably felt that I was stimulated and didn't bother to tell me. She had to go to the kitchen to clean up the dishes .

I said, "Honey, that's because I'm sick and weak, but definitely not because I'm weak and sick."

"Is there a difference?" She stopped and looked at me.

I nodded profoundly: "There is a difference. The former is affectionate, while the latter is absurd."

Lle probably thought that I was too boring, or I was too stimulated, which delayed her washing the dishes. After all, she had to go on a date with her little boyfriend after eight o'clock in the evening. In order to take care of me, she hadn't seen him for a week.

So, she became very impatient and became unfriendly again: "What are you trying to say?"

I curled my lips and said, "I'm not a person who will die or live for feelings. You have to treat me as a free and easy person."

"Get out!" She threw me a word, couldn't listen anymore, strode away from me, and went to the kitchen.

I ate and drank enough, recovered most of my energy, and sat alone at the dining table, so I had extra strength and space to fall into serious thinking.

Qi Qianyun.Well, her wedding tomorrow.

Feng Sheng sent me an invitation, she should know, it should be her instruction.Otherwise, how could Feng Sheng, who has always protected her and cared about her heart, could have made a fuss on his own.He's not such a white-eyed person either.

Then, here comes the problem.What does Qi Qianyun mean?

I can't figure it out.

Let me see her decision with my own eyes, and make me despair in my heart?

Let me bless her face to face, she is so at ease?

Let me... keep her, so that she can finally decide her own mind?

It's all absurd ideas, and it's not her I know.

I fell into a dead end of thinking and couldn't figure it out.

Then don't think about it, I take my words back, I'm going, tomorrow's wedding, going.Since there is no way to figure it out, go ahead and use the invitation as a clue to the answer.

Qi Qianyun, let me see how much I, who thought I knew you, didn't see through.

I looked at Estelle's faint back, bit my lip, and let her rest, I'm tired enough.Let her go to her boyfriend and be the one who is taken care of.

I picked up the phone, went to the balcony, and called Lu Li.

I said: "You go tomorrow." There is not much nonsense.

"Woman, um, are you better?" He timidly on the other end of the phone, did not answer my question, changed the topic, and smiled unnaturally.

I was a little strange, and then I thought about it, probably because he was going to Qi Qianyun's wedding with Feng Sheng tomorrow, and it was a little difficult for me to speak.

"I want to go with you tomorrow," I said.

"Why, why, why?" He laughed, still stuttering.

He always has something to hide from me, so he stutters.

I turned my head around and heard him asking me if I was feeling better. It seemed that he knew I was sick, but he didn't seem to even pay me a look.Anyway, before my life and death, he would try his best to manage it.What's the situation now.

I had no choice but to add: "Come and pick me up tomorrow. I want to go with you. If you have an appointment with Feng Sheng, it's not bad to pick me up on the way. Which of you will drive tomorrow. How about I call Feng Sheng and let He came to pick me up, anyway, he was the one who gave me the invitation."

I'm about to hang up the phone.

"Don't wait! Listen to me!" Lu Li shouted.

He started to stutter again: "No, it's not a question of who is driving, listen to me."

I said, "Then tell me."

But he was inexplicably prevaricated: "Well, your health is not finished yet, rest more, you really want to go, there is no need to go, I don't even want to go, but, you know, you have to accompany the saint again, he one person......"

"Are you afraid that I will lose control of the scene? Embarrassment? Afraid that I will be sad and faint? All kinds of unexpected situations will appear?" I asked.

He hurriedly said, "Yeah, yeah, I'm really afraid that you will be sad if you go, and it's really hard for you to go now, and there's no need for it, right?"

I replied seriously: "You are right."

He immediately added: "Yes, normal people know that it's good for everyone if you don't go. The most important thing is to be good to yourself. So, you stay at home obediently, and I will accompany Sheng to express it, so I immediately withdraw and come to accompany you." You. Let's go eat a big meal, food can solve all problems..."

"So." I interrupted him slowly, "Normal people will know that it is best for me not to go, and it is good for everyone, but Lu Li, you really confuse me, Feng Sheng sent me an invitation card, you But when I heard that I was going to go, I was so nervous that I was really curious, and I had to go."

"You... oh." He hesitated to speak.

He added, "It's okay if I don't go, you know something, you can hide something from me. If not, just tell me, I don't need to go."

"I tell you what. I have nothing to tell." After a brief pause, his tone was full of sudden defense.

This made me even more suspicious.

At this time, lle came over to signal me that she was leaving, and said to me: "Tomorrow morning, I will come to accompany you, please take care of me, go to bed early, if you want to call me."

I shook my head: "Concentrate on going on a date, don't come tomorrow."

She said: "I want to come." She was as firm as iron, and without saying much, she turned around and left in a hurry.

When I spoke to Lu Li on the phone again, I heard a tangled lingering voice: "I can't say..."

He hung up on me.

He didn't answer the call again, and the caller Feng Sheng kept busy.

I stood on the balcony, looking at the city full of lights, in the vast and huge night, I thought about it for a long time, and felt lonely for the first time.

Those people who clearly care about me, what are they hiding.

Tomorrow's extreme bustling and bustling, probably must be gone.

The strange thing is that I decided to go, and I slept soundly that night. I thought I would never be able to fall asleep.

It was only when I thought about it later that I realized that I slept without dreams or surprises at night when I was supposed to be unable to sleep. It was probably because God was merciful, knowing that I was about to face the cruel days and nights that followed, so I kindly gave it to me. A good night's sleep, the last peace.

When I woke up naturally the next morning, I took out the invitation card in my bag, confirmed the address and time, and started to clean up and get ready to go out.

When lle came, I had already put on a light makeup, but I put on a little more foundation around the eye circles. Although I slept well last night, the recent days of illness still made the dark circles deep.

Although I felt that I had to go, when I was about to go out, I didn't know why I was going.

In vain, I only had a thought, no matter what, I don't want her to see my sick and haggard appearance.If everything is what she wants, let me bless her silently below with a flat smile.

Let me see how she looks in her wedding dress, the way I have never seen her in my dreams.

Even if it's not me.

Lle was in a hurry, really anxious, and held my hand, "Didn't you say you won't go, what is soft red, ten feet and one hundred feet, and what is the sea and the sky. You want to understand it, why did you change your mind?" .”

I laughed, "I have to go. I always feel that I should go. It is very strange that Feng Sheng gave me an invitation card, and Lu Li is also weird."

She dragged me by the arm, "It's you who think too much, others are so weird. Don't go, let's go shopping."

I looked at her sideways: "You are also weird. You said you would accompany me, and you would accompany me even if you murdered and set fire to me. How is it now? Have you repented?"

She defended, "I didn't say that on purpose to make you better, and I never thought that you would really go, and you are not a person who can mess things up and cry and make trouble, so why bother to go, Does it make sense?"

"Yes. I want to see how she looks in her wedding dress. Probably, I will never see her again." I looked at her fixedly.

Hearing what I said, she froze.

Just looking at me like that, for a long, long time, as if under a spell.

Now it was my turn to panic and was about to say something to her.

She suddenly turned her head away and wiped her eyes.Said softly: "iris, don't go."

This tone made people very nervous and bewildered, so I went to pull her.

She still turned her head away, didn't look at me, and just said, "Don't go, don't go. There is no wedding."

"What?" I suspected that I was a little weak and had auditory hallucinations.

"No wedding." She suddenly turned her head and glanced at me, "What kind of shit wedding, I can't take it anymore, no, no..." She just waved her hands and squatted down crying, covering her face in her knees He cried out.

I was depressed at first, but then I burst into tears.

I was terrified, completely stunned, and my mind was about to freeze. What is this singing, why is it so illogical.

Just as he was about to bend down to help the man who said some strange words and crouched on the ground inexplicably, the doorbell rang.

"Miss Lu, your express delivery. Please sign for it."