in love with my psychiatrist

This night, the empty side was finally filled with the familiar taste, and my heart was filled accordingly.But I didn't sleep well, tossing and turning.

The people around me put their arms around my waist, obviously because I didn't sleep well, and I don't know how long to complain until the middle of the night, "Qiqi, don't move around." "Lu Qiqi, can you stop sleeping with your legs curled up, it's not good Hug." "Fool, what are you talking about in your sleep."

Finally, I couldn't help but turn around and buried my face on her body, buried in the deep darkness, so that she could not see my tears.But she still felt it, took my face and gently kissed away the moisture from my eyes, and then hugged me tightly. I haven't felt such a hot girl for a long time. I am like an addict who has failed to recover from drugs, and I am afraid and addicted to it .

She sensed my uneasiness and sighed deeply.Just kept kissing my hair and saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

But I felt sorry for her, so I had to probe up and cover her mouth.

We didn't say more, but our relationship seems to have found the most comfortable way in each other's anxiety after going through unreasonable hurts, temptations, hugs, pushes away, approaching, and deeper hugs, and the anxiety turned into warmth , we finally fell asleep peacefully.Sweetness like never before.

The next day's sunshine came in, and the tenderness on her waist was in the palm of my hand. I opened my eyes contentedly, but saw her looking at me.

"Wake up." She looked at me dotingly.The expression is a bit strange.

"What's the matter, are you uncomfortable?" I was a little nervous.

"Yeah." She looked at me and nodded seriously.

I was so scared that I turned over and got up, staring at her face, "I don't feel well, let's hurry up and go to the hospital."

She shook her head with a smile, noncommittal, squinted at her arm on the pillow, and lifted it up, "It's not comfortable here." The corners of her mouth moved, and she pouted, "It's so numb."

It was only then that I realized that the head that had just been raised from above probably pressed her arms all night.

I hurriedly stretched out my embarrassing hands to rub her, "I'm sorry, you scared me to death, I thought..."

I didn't go on.bowed his head.

Her arm that had been ravaged by me all night pulled me down again, and the other hand reached out and lifted my chin, seriously, "Qiqi, since I am willing to face you, face our relationship, face As for my own physical condition, then, shall we have a good talk?"

I nodded.

"Do you know what I was afraid of before, Qiqi, what I was most afraid of was not my own body, but what I was most afraid of if I allowed you to stay by my side, your cautiousness and scrupulousness, just like what you wanted to say but couldn't say just now .A relationship, if there is a taboo, but this taboo is something that the relationship must face all the time, then two people will easily collapse. The small ones have their own concerns, and the big ones are quarreling and separating. This is before, I The reason why I had to treat you like that before I thought about it clearly is because I want to give you time to become more rational..."

"Qi Qianyun, you are very good at justifying yourself." I know that most of what she said is actually right, but the grievances during this period made me interrupt and complain a little.

Qianyun smiled, "Okay, it's my fault." She lowered her head and kissed my eyes, even the long flickering eyelashes couldn't hide the tenderness in her eyes, "It's just that you don't need to worry about me, the two of us You have to face this matter calmly, and be cautious but not sensitive in your life, okay?"

I nodded again.Did not speak.

"What's wrong?" she asked me.

I thought about it, and couldn't help asking her, "Why did I figure it out? I'm ready for a long-term war of resistance. I don't know how long you will treat me like an enemy. My heart will be broken by you." Oh, really, you didn’t look at yourself like that, facing me, it’s as cold as the autumn wind sweeping the fallen leaves, next time, if you do this again, I will prepare a mirror for you, take it out and take a picture for you to see for yourself ..."

She leaned over and kissed my blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, and after a deep kiss, she raised her head and stroked my hair, "Don't be rude anymore. At worst, I'll make breakfast."

"Forgive yourself so easily? Miss Tyrant?" I refused to forgive.

"Then I make breakfast every day?" She pouted.

Qi Qianyun pouted at me, and my heart melted, "Okay, okay, I do it once in a while. It doesn't need to be every day."

"No, it has to be every day." She smiled and kissed my forehead, got out of bed, leaned over and handed me her mobile phone, "That's why I figured it out. Take your time, I'll make breakfast."

After speaking, he wrapped his clothes and left the bedroom.I looked at her back with satisfaction, and didn't pick up her mobile phone until I turned out of the door and couldn't see her. I was curious to see the reason why she said she figured it out.

The opened draft box was full of unsent text messages.

"Qiqi, Mom said you were standing outside the gate again. I watched you inside for a long time. It was still cold. What are you thinking? You only wear a long-sleeved T-shirt. I asked Mom to bring you a coat. I drove out with confidence, and when I passed you, I saw you put on your coat from the corner of the eye. Fool, don’t catch a cold. Fool, don’t come again. Seeing you makes me happy, but painful.”

"Qiqi, in the consultation room today, you asked how much it would cost to buy my life time. Fool, if possible, I really want to tell you that every minute and every second of my life time has been given to me for free many years ago. I gave you everything, even myself. But, Qiqi, I can’t tell you that. How could I tie you up so selfishly. I’m different. I wasn’t able to protect you and give you happiness that person."

"Qiqi, I'm sorry, I was too fierce to you today, and I reacted too aggressively. Seeing my blood on the flower branch and seeing you almost touching it, I really broke down. This is the best proof, this The most direct meaning is that my body has become a taboo for my lover. Qiqi, this is too cruel, I don't want our relationship to have such a cruel side. I'm sorry."

"Zhufan is really a good man. It's not that I haven't thought about you being with him. I thought that one day I might be able to bless you? But when he really came to the United States and really appeared in front of us, I didn't I know, I can’t accept that you belong to him, or even anyone else. Even if my reason tells me that you and him are just friends, I still lose my temper uncontrollably. Qiqi, watching you cry and run out of the museum , my heart hurts like a needle, I want to hug you, but another me warns, can't, can't, can't. That moment is the most helpless moment in my 29 years. I never feel helpless, even if I know I was infected, but that day, the first time I found out so painfully, I can help so many people, but I can't help myself, and the people I love the most."

"Qiqi, you have finally returned to China. Finally, forgive me for using such cruel words. That is just another way of expressing my reluctance to bear you. It turns out that you are really far away from me."

"I went to water your flowers and plants today. Silly girl, you still put the key in the door. Qingshan has your key, and she gave it to me a long time ago. I just wanted to go quietly to see where you live, see Is the environment where you live very bad? In the end, the peeping key became the watering key... I know I'm talking nonsense, but, Qiqi, just, I really want to tell you... .I miss you."

"I'm very glad that you accepted Feng Sheng's invitation. Feng Sheng was worried that you would regard him as an enemy because of his sister's affairs. I knew you wouldn't, so I told him that Lu Qiqi is a measured person. She loves Hate is clear, and I also know that one size is equal to one size. I remembered that I used a small trick to make you lose your job and let you go to help Feng Sheng. Thank you for accepting my heart, although the process of realizing it is not very bright. Now Thinking about it, it’s really funny.”

"Silly girl, Feng Huanyue isn't worth your while. I know you're doing it for me. But I still love you. I know you're hurting, and you're angry...Qiqi, I miss you. My heart hurts a little." , let me think about it calmly. Think about it.”

"Lu Qiqi, what should I do? I have to admit that when I found out that I was infected and made a move to deceive you and stay away from you, I only missed you 10 points. I wanted to handle everything properly and try not to hurt you. The mood is 90 points. When you know the truth and come to the United States, after I see you, the mood of wanting to hug you accounts for 20 points, and the mood of being afraid of being soft-hearted and wanting to push you far away accounts for 80 points Later, when Zhu Fan came over, the feeling of wanting you to belong to me took 30 points, and the feeling of being jealous and angry at myself and not being able to compromise with myself so as not to harm you took up 70 points. But now, Qiqi, what? Do it, on the sofa you are sitting on, on the curtains you have drawn, in the bedroom you have slept in, thinking about your mood, suddenly it suddenly rose to 100 points without warning."

"Qiqi, I want you to come back, I want you to be with me, I am willing to overcome my fear and anxiety, I am willing to hand me over to you, I hope you are my psychological mentor, Qiqi..."

My vision gradually blurred. Qi Qianyun, this person, has never been as fragile as a little girl, and has never shown her helplessness and fear frankly like her countless patients did to her.

Qi Qianyun, she has always been proud, strong and rational, and I have never really heard her so weak but complete.

I love her all the more for it.

So much so, that I threw away my phone, wet my eyes, sucked on my slippers and ran quickly to the kitchen, threw myself on her back and hugged her, put my head on her neck, and didn't want to leave or let go of my hand for a long time.

"Qianyun, I love you."

She turned her head slightly and rubbed my head, "Me too. Qiqi, I loved you very early."

"I know." I said softly.

She paused, smiled slyly, "Earlier than you knew."

"Ok?"

"It's not the Infinityblade period."

"What?" I looked up, surprised.

She raised her gloved hands frying eggs, turned her head and smiled at me, "Earlier."