in love with my psychiatrist

Many times, many things, when you are in it, you are easily disturbed by your own emotions, and you can't see clearly or misjudge the other party's emotions, especially when the other party's words are clear but not true.

Zhu Fan said, you forgot how you and I missed each other.

At that moment, I was a little enlightened, and I asked myself if I doubt Qianyun's feelings until now, and the answer is no.Then why am I sad for her words, I should know her special situation, and people will do some words and deeds that go against their usual self in special situations.

And people who love each other just insist on helping each other through these difficult situations.

What Qianyun said is right, I can't take it anymore.

This is unbearable, and how can I have the courage to spend my life with her and never give up.

But I also know that what she said was not to doubt me, but to be angry with herself, add inner anxiety, and use what she thought was good for me.

At the same time, I was treating her well in the way I thought.The result is to push the opponent further and further away.Isn't this the reason why Zhufan and I loved each other, but missed each other?

At this age, I almost made the same mistake again.

So, how do we deal with the dilemma we have now.Heat treatment will make her uneasy, and cold treatment... I'm afraid that once it's cold, there will be no future.

I couldn't help frowning.

Zhu Fan obviously misunderstood what I meant, he had a questioning expression on his face, and said sorry, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend, but I mentioned our past, I just want you to..."

I was taken aback, then smiled, "Zhufan, don't be so careful with me, I'm not so sensitive and not so stingy, our past has regrets, but it's beautiful, it's a peaceful memory, I don't care. What's more, you are helping Me, you reminded me in time, thank you."

"I was just thinking..." I held the hot coffee in my hands, looked at the white cream foam, and felt a little irritable.

"How do you think about your relationship with Qianyun?" he asked.

I nodded.

"Actually, I don't think you need to do anything too deliberately. Qiqi, I can understand Qianyun's mood. She has a special physical condition. This situation has a profound impact on the relationship between a person and the other half. It's not just about loving each other. Everything can be solved. And the more you act resolutely, resolutely and bravely now, the more uneasy she will be. On the one hand, she will put more responsibility and pressure on herself, wondering if it can make you unhappy, and on the other hand, she is afraid that you are just a momentary impulse. Afraid that you will regret it one day and she will not be able to bear it..."

"Impulsive? Regret? I'm not a child anymore." Hearing Zhu Fan say this, I disagreed a little, so I couldn't help but interrupt him, objecting to his definition of my love for Qianyun as impulsive.

But he laughed, "Look, you are acting childish. I know you are not impulsive, but I am talking about Qianyun's feelings. What are you so excited about? It proves that you still haven't been able to consider from her perspective , you are still instinctively starting from your own feelings. Of course, a relationship is mutual, and it is really too harsh for you to consider it from the perspective of her feelings... After all, everyone has Your own private feelings and feelings..."

Zhu Fan circled around, I was a little dizzy.

"Brother, what's the reason for talking so much?" The already chaotic mood became even more chaotic, and he was about to cry around.

He spread his hands, "So let it be."

"No. Let it take its course and become the second me and you." I was afraid of losing her.

"Going with the flow is not about letting you go, it's about trying not to put pressure on her, it's about getting along with her like a friend, it's about not showing too much how you want to take care of her, how to guard her, what you should do, what is appropriate Care about her and greet her when you are in trouble. Don't disappear into her world, and don't try to please her world." Zhu Fan looked very good at it.

"Was it useful?" I asked.

"It works. Trust me." He nodded.

It seems that I chased him too closely at the beginning, which caused him too much pressure at that time.

Looking at Zhu Fan who has always been calm and rational, he is even more mature now.

I nodded, expressing my willingness to try what he said.

"Okay, I'll go back to China the day after tomorrow." He stared at me, waiting for my answer.

Before I could react, I asked back strangely, "Want me to see you off?"

"You won't go home with me?"

"I'll go back to China with you, but Qianyun..."

"Don't forget that you promised to try the way I said just now." He leaned back in the chair, folded his arms and looked at me with a smile.

Thinking of what he said to me just now, I immediately understood.

After thinking about it, I said to him, "Have you booked your flight ticket yet?"

"Nope."

"Let your secretary help me order one more." I grabbed my phone and added, "First class, I remember you said that I have a large amount of extra rewards, let me also spend a lot of money."

He laughed, "Let my secretary book a plane ticket for you, regardless of your extra rewards."

"So I don't have to pay for it myself." I made an expression of taking advantage.

"No, I'm inviting you on behalf of the company this time. After all, I'm an investor in Luhai, and I've made so much thanks to you." He said grandly.

I clicked tut tut to express my dissatisfaction, "Feng Sheng rewarded 50 yuan, and you are rewarding a plane ticket. The judgment is up to you. But I still want to thank you for your priceless spiritual guidance. I will treat you to dinner tonight." Let's eat."

"The protracted war has just begun, the revolution has not yet succeeded, comrades still need to work hard." Zhu Fan laughed.

I picked up my mobile phone and sent a text message to Qianyun’s new number, “Qianyun, I’m going back to China the day after tomorrow to deal with some work matters, and we’ll meet again when I have time. The small apartment I live in has been rented for a year, and there are some new ones in it. Back to the flowers and plants, if it is convenient for you, can you help me to water them? I put the key under the crack of the door. "

The keys were not handed over to her, they were just plugged under the door, she could go or not.I leave our connection with each other and give her the choice, not even a choice, just watering.It's enough to be a friend-like relationship, and it's not enough to give pressure.I sighed as I watched the text message go.

As always, no reply.

Let it be, don't force it.Thinking of Zhu Fan's suggestion, I didn't ask any more.

I just sent another text message to Qingshan, telling her that I will be returning to China for a while, please take care of me, and please tell Qianyun's mother for me, thank you for her care and understanding.As for Qianyun's father, there is no need to bring any special words.He should be relieved to know that I'm leaving temporarily, after all my appearance has affected Qianyun's emotions which she managed to calm down.

Qingshan didn't say much, she replied to me, are you still coming back?

I call her back, of course.

She understood and didn't ask more, just said, don't worry too much, everything will be fine.

I looked at her text message, and my eyes were a little wet.

A lot of bad things happen, but you can see good things going along with it.

If the infection of Qianyun and Qingshan made everything so bad for a while, then so far, I think the best thing is that Qingshan is different, or I can see another side of Qingshan who is very good.

Like she said, everything will be fine.

Of course, I have to deal with hateful people before everything gets better.

Feng Huanyue.

On the third day after I returned to China, she came to my house.

Seeing her change her aggressive face, even my incomparable anger was replaced by a sense of confusion. I was really confused.

She is the one who does bad things, she is the one who makes bad things known to everyone, and it is she who wants the truth to crush me, Qianyun, and Qingshan. We retreat every step of the way, and she presses every step of the way.

I really haven't met anyone like that.I really don't understand her.

So when she asked me if I asked Feng Sheng, her own brother, to cut off all her sources of income and cancel all her shares in her father's company, I was really about to laugh at her.

But looking at her hideous face, which used to be innocent and innocent, she couldn't laugh anymore.

Just looking at her, holding back the hatred in my heart, and telling her as calmly as possible, your brother is your family member, how he treats you has nothing to do with me, I have no right or position to let him do this, he There is no obligation or position to listen to what I want him to do.

"That's Qi Qianyun, right? You hate me, you don't like me, you instigate my brother to be hostile to me. Qi Qianyun, she has always hated me, and she even wants to take over my brother." My lover is still yelling at me here, blaming the person who was harmed by her.

I couldn't help it, grabbed her by the collar and pushed her to the corner.She didn't expect my sudden move, she was obviously pressed against the wall before she realized it, her hands were about to start grabbing, I let go of her collar, and before she stretched out her hands, I suppressed hers with both hands in a gesture of surrender on the wall.Her knees stopped her trying to kick.

I have been away from school for many years. If it weren't for her, I would have forgotten that besides being a sprint champion and a speech champion, I also have a rank in Taekwondo.

A trace of fear flashed in her eyes, but she still said in a vicious voice, "What are you doing!"

I looked at her fiercely, and said word by word, "Feng Huanyue, there are many spoiled children in this world. They may act recklessly and even do evil, but I have never seen anyone as vicious as you."

She was taken aback by my tone, but still insisted on sneering.

I pushed harder, and she yelled, "It hurts, let me go!"

"Pain?" I looked at her, "No one treats you kindly. You can try to think about who owed you anything, or you have always been against everyone. Don't like you? A person, want to When people like you, just say what people like and do what people like. If you don’t like you, it’s because you don’t deserve to be liked.”

She was obviously irritated by my last sentence, her expression was ugly, her body twisted, and she yelled, "It hurts, help me!"

I also sneered, colder than her smile just now, "Crying for pain? Qianyun and Qingshan who were hurt by you are a thousand times and ten thousand times more painful than you. If you are not for Feng Sheng's own sister, no If you need them, even I will not spare you easily."

"What can you do to me, what can you do to me. Let me go." Her voice trembled, her expression contorted hysterically.

I really couldn't understand such a person, so I had to let go of one hand and punched it without holding back.

She squatted on the ground in pain, and there was blood at the corner of her mouth.

I wanted to continue, but Feng Sheng and Lu Li rushed over.

I looked at Feng Sheng and said, "I'm sorry, we have been tolerant because of you, but what she did is really unbelievable. Take her away quickly, or I'm afraid I can't hold back my fist."

Although, I think that no matter how much I teach her, it is not enough to let me relieve my hatred and make me forgive her for the hateful things she has done.

Feng Sheng said sorry, and took her away with a look of anger.

After this incident, I was also tired and collapsed on the sofa. Lu Li who was left behind poured me a cup of hot water without saying anything. I leaned on his shoulder, and he hugged me and patted me shoulder.

The voice was obviously choked up, "Damn woman, why is your love life so bumpy, you can't fight to let me see you happy."

"I think so too." I smiled and tears came out.

Trace 053

Actually, everything is fine.I accepted Feng Sheng's invitation to officially serve as the marketing director of their company. The board of directors gave me a one-month vacation, and I will officially start working on a new project one month later.

Mom and Dad visited me once from their hometown, and when they were concerned about my feelings, I vaguely revealed to them that I met a person I love very much, and the other person loves me very much, but at present, we have some problems with each other, I hope Dad Mom give me some time.

I temporarily concealed them, this person is a woman, and she has a special physical condition.

It's not fear, nor is it trying to deceive.It's just that I hope that when I introduce my beloved other half to the family I love the most, this person will stand side by side with me.

After I experienced an unhappy short-term marriage, my parents also understood a lot. They stopped putting pressure on me and became more understanding and open-minded. When they saw me in a difficult situation, they stopped asking.

Dad just told me, no matter what kind of person the other person is or what happens to you, as long as you like him, as long as he is a good person.We will rest assured that there is nothing to make life difficult.

Mom added, anyway, your happiness is the most important thing.

I hugged them tightly and was so proud of them.

After my parents went back, I was alone, and I missed Qianyun even more.

During the days when I returned to China, I would send her text messages from time to time.

"Qianyun, I promised Feng Sheng to go to their company, and I may be busy after one month of formal employment. Speaking of which, the connection with Feng Sheng's company is still because of you. I like this job very much. How are you? The work is going well. ?"

"Hey, Qianyun, let me tell you a very interesting thing. I actually beat someone that day, and it was Feng Huanyue. You've never seen me shake my fist, right? I've seen it myself. When did I become so violent? Yes, 55555555. Qianyun, it’s spring here, so it’s perfect for outings. How’s the weather over there?”

"Hi, I don't know if you have watered my plants or not. Once a week is enough."

"Tell you, Feng Sheng sent his sister to work in a restaurant with a poor environment. He said it was to let her experience the hardships of the people. Anyway, I am very happy. They are also brothers and sisters, why is there such a big difference?"

"There is good news today. Feng Sheng is preparing to propose to someone. If he succeeds, he will also take him to Switzerland to register. I am so happy to hear this news. What about you?"

......

Accustomed to her silence, there was no response.But I can't get used to not seeing her, and I can't get used to not being by her side.

So, half a month later, I quietly came to Mississippi, which is strange but has become very close because of her presence.

The key lay quietly under the door of the small apartment, without a trace of being moved.I was a little disappointed in my heart, but I took a deep breath to cheer myself up, pushed open the door, and everything was as it was when I left.

But when I was about to drink some water, the water in the kettle was still warm, when I realized that the curtains that I was never used to have been drawn, and when I saw that the magnolia on the balcony was in full bloom, When I touch its wet soil, my heart will jump out.

It turns out that true love is like this.When you think you are already in love like a relative, the sudden heartbeat will tell you that she can still tease all your senses like the first time you met.When you are sure that you are fully prepared and able to deal with all situations calmly, regardless of gains and losses, but any trace of her leaking can make you mess up.

When I knew that she had been here, she had stayed here, closed the curtains for me, watered the flowers and plants for me, and kept hot water for me, my heart was filled with an incomparable peace of mind and happiness.

Just like a song, the day we arrived was sunny and the wind was blowing warm and soft.I just leaned on the sofa so quietly, the small living room was in the sunlight, it was very quiet, I listened to my own breathing, every frequency, it was all for her.

I feel myself gradually falling into a comfortable sleep.

In a daze, I felt a burst of warmth in my hand, and then someone covered me with a soft blanket and pulled it up to my chin. The fluffy feeling made my chin itchy, so I couldn't help but move, stretched out my hand to scratch, The hand was gently pulled down and placed into the blanket.

"Qianyun." I saw a face in my dream, approaching me, looking at me, it was her, I whispered, "Qianyun, I miss you so much."

The warmth and familiarity close at hand, I want to reach out to touch her, but I feel that my hand is bound by something and I can't lift it up.

Oh, I'm dreaming.

So you can't do whatever you want.what a pity.

I was annoyed in my dream.

"Then don't wake up, you will always be here." I read contentedly.

"Fool. Where are you dreaming? I am really here, all the time. Why is there such a silly girl." I seemed to hear a resentful and loving response.

Satisfied and relieved, I fell into a deep sleep again.

I don't know how long and when I slept, I just feel that the sunlight when I just fell asleep is gone, replaced by warm lights.

Hey, why is there such a familiar and warm smell of food.

This sleep was too long, and my consciousness was still a little blurry for a while. When I saw a familiar figure behind the kitchen bar opposite the sofa, I thought I was still in a dream.

He secretly pinched himself and found it hurt.At the same time, I found that my hands, as well as my whole body, were covered by a cashmere blanket.

This is real?Not dreaming?Is it Qianyun?Qianyun is here?

God.I take a deep breath.

The timid Chao kitchen called out, "Qianyun."

After shouting, I held my breath, still afraid that this familiar beauty was just a dream and would be disturbed by me.

But where is the dream, where is the dream so complete and smooth.

The figure turned around and smiled at me, "Qiqi, are you awake? The last dish is ready for dinner."

When the voice came, I woke up completely from the mist, stood up like a dazed man, walked over, lay down on the bar counter, and stared blankly at that person.

After a long time, I said, "Thank you."

But he never dared to make a mistake easily.Do more, say more.

She turned around, glanced at me, handed me a plate of my favorite scrambled eggs with tomatoes, and said, "Okay, no thanks, bring it to the dining table, I'll be right over."

I took the plate, feeling sour and sweet in my heart, walked to the table, saw potato ribs, steamed sea bass, and mushroom soup.It smells great.

Here she comes.I was so nervous that I was overwhelmed. Such daily and natural scenes seemed to be memories of my previous life.

"Don't stand stupidly, sit down and eat." She took two bowls of rice, put one bowl in front of me, and sat down at the other end of the small dining table with the other bowl, and put a piece of sea bass in my bowl, " It will get cold in a while, and the fish won't taste good." It was extremely gentle.

But I didn't even dare to look at her, I sat down obediently and picked up the meal, and I was in a state of walking on eggshells throughout the meal.

I was really afraid that if I did something wrong or said something wrong, I would wipe away this beautiful night like a magic wand.

The person on the other side took it easy, brought me food as if nothing had happened, asked me if it was good, and said that I was tired from the plane, so she went to wash the dishes and let me have a good rest.

I just sat back on the sofa like a fool, and continued to stare at her blankly.

There are so many things I want to ask her, but I still can't say it.

Until she packed everything up and looked at me, "Nothing to say?"

I shook my head.

She smiled, picked up her coat and bag and said, "Then I'll go first. You have a good rest."

I was so frightened that I almost lost my soul. I jumped up and hugged the person who had turned around and walked towards the door tightly.

I'm so scared.Is she going to disappear again?He ignored me again, and treated me coldly.

"Qianyun, don't leave me." There was a pain in my left atrium.

The person in the arm was stiff, put his hand on mine, sighed and said softly, "I didn't know you would come back today."

She paused for a long time before saying, "When you came back, I was helping you water the flowers and lay down in your bedroom to rest. I didn't want you to know that I was there. When you fell asleep, I wanted to leave, but I was afraid that you would catch a cold. Still can't help but want to cook you a meal...you don't always know how to take good care of yourself."

I hugged her hard and couldn't say a word.