My name is Dazai

"...crying" Dazai repeated.

The owner of the curry shop was a little scared when he thought of that scene.

It is normal for people to cry and laugh at the same time, and it is the same to cry because of joy.

But keeping a perfect smile and crying adds a sense of horror for no reason.

...what went wrong?

Dazai noticed the expression of the owner of the curry shop, and knew that Tangun's behavior was probably abnormal.

No, what's wrong...

Dazai is like a cat trying to grab the head of the ball of wool, scratching it but can't find where the head of the ball of wool is.

He didn't ask Odasaku.

Dazai is a proud person, relying on his own will.Even for Odasaku, he wouldn't ask some questions.

Tangun was his.

So only he can solve this problem.

There is such an obsession in his mind.

His cat, even if it was Odasaku, he wouldn't let it out.

"Dazai...does it hurt too much for you to catch Tangun?" Odasaku said suddenly.

Cats are creatures that need to be treated gently.

If you hug too tightly, the distance between the body is close, but what about the soul?

"And... Tangun is like a cat but not a cat." Odasaku said.

Dazai didn't pay attention to Odasaku's words.

A proud cat won't listen to people unless it's between life and death.

Tangun wondered why Dazai came back after going out today.

Dazai disappeared for more than an hour, and when he came back, he was mysterious and locked the door.

Tangun was already very relieved towards Dazai now, even if Dazai left him without saying a word, he would not feel anxious.

He should be familiar with cats by now, right?Tangun thought uncertainly.

Dazai was wearing a short-sleeved shirt and long black trousers.

"Tangun, today is my birthday, how about we two secretly celebrate our birthday?" Dazai put a piece of cream cake in the middle of the bed.

He lowered his voice, furtively.

This piece of cake was not big, it was the size of a meal for an adult male, but Dazai and Tangun didn't eat much now.

This cake is enough to keep them fed.

As the sky was getting dark, Dazai took advantage of the last twilight to light a candle.

Candles were lit in the room.

"Okay, Tangun." Dazai looked at Tangun expectantly.

Many people say that candlelight has a color.emotion.

Otherwise, why would there be such a romantic thing as a candlelight dinner.

Dazai was sprawled on the bed, and from Tangun's perspective, he could see his collarbone through the collar of his shirt...the bandage on his collarbone.

"Happy birthday, Dazai." Tangun closed the book.

"I want Tangun to sing me the birthday song." Dazai said coquettishly, "Speak softly, just sing in my ear."

Birthday...Tangun turned sideways, half lying beside Dazai, humming an out-of-key happy birthday song.

Dazai felt Tangun's breath against his ears.

Singing is to let go of the voice, but when singing with a suppressed voice, there is a slight tremor.

Dazai ignored those flaws.

Tangun felt a little embarrassed, he hadn't sung for a long time, and even the simple melody was a bit out of tune.

But Dazai looked very useful, with a little blush on his cheeks.

Dazai's finger touches Tangun's nose.

Tangun felt his nose go cold.

He looked down, there was cream on Dazai's fingers, and a piece of cream was missing from the cake.

"...make a wish quickly." Tangun said to Dazai while holding the cream on his nose.

"Hey, what about wishes..." Dazai repeated.

It didn't look like he wanted to mention it.

Tangun thoughtfully bypassed the subject: "I haven't given you a birthday present, Dazai yet."

"After all, I haven't told anyone about my birthday." Dazai said indifferently.The information on his file is filled in blindly, and there are different birthdays in each place.

When Mr. Sen recruited him before, he celebrated his birthday casually, picking the day he fished him out of the river.

Who knows if Dazai is telling the truth or not.

He is a mystic, and it is difficult to judge whether it is true or false.

Sometimes I think this person is joking, but when I look back, he is serious.

"It would be strange if Tangun knew." Dazai stroked Tangun's left hand like he was touching a cat's mangosteen, "But I do have a birthday wish."

"Huh? Let's make a wish then." Tangun let Dazai touch his hand.

"But I want to tell Tangun about this wish." Dazai held Tangun's left hand tightly.

"...Doesn't it mean that the wish will not work if you express it?" Tangun wondered if his memory had made a mistake again, and Dazai was probably surprised.

It was like this before, occasionally speaking with the tone of a girl who loves to be coquettish.

"If it's an illusory wish, it probably won't come true." Dazai said, "Does Tangun believe in Santa Claus?"

"That's fake." Tangun replied.

"How romantic, but this way you don't have to worry about breaking Tangun's fantasy." Dazai took out something from his pocket, "Santa Claus is fake, that's why parents ask their children what wishes they want from Santa Claus."

"Say it out, only 'Santa Claus' will know." Dazai said slowly, "So I have to tell my wish, and let Tangun give it to me. Tangun hasn't given me a gift yet, right? Let it be my present. "

"...I don't have anything." Tangun's blue eyes were full of confusion.

Dazai's heart tightened, and he couldn't hold back a deep breath.

He felt a terrible sense of exhaustion.

Dazai suddenly got close to Tangun, and licked off the cream on the tip of his nose with his tongue: "Really, Tangun is like a cat."

Who is to blame?

Tangun said inwardly, and then felt something strange on his fingers.

He raised his left hand.

There is a shiny silver ring on the left middle finger.

"Hey, because my bank account is almost sealed, and some money is inconvenient to take out, so I can only buy this ring for Tangun." Dazai held Tangun's left hand tightly, "Tangun, don't be disgusted. , I will exchange it for you when I have money in the future."

Tangun couldn't say a word.

"Well, in this way, I forgot to mention my wish." Dazai asked with a smile, "Does Tangun want to associate with me?"

"...I promised to elope with you." Tangun said weakly.

"Sure enough, the official confession is still missing. Besides, Tangun didn't like me at that time, right?" Dazai's fingers were trembling slightly, but he put on a firm and brave face, "Tangun, do you like me? Do you like me?" Want to date me?"

"I'm very timid... That's why I made this wish on my birthday." Dazai pursed his lips, adding a little weight to himself.

After adding weight, he regretted it again.

So Tangun's answer is still from the heart?

He shook his head fearfully: "No, don't... If Tangun doesn't like me, then reject me..."

"Do not lie to me……"

Dazai looked like he was about to cry.

Cowards are always in a dilemma.

Tangun was silent.

Dazai suddenly realized one of his problems.

Did he say that he was willing to associate with him?

Although Tangun didn't answer directly, he agreed from the side.

But ask him later if he likes him?

Tangun was silent.

Suddenly the candle went out.

At the last moment when the candle was extinguished, Tangun saw Dazai's desperate expression as if he had been abandoned.

In the darkness, Dazai felt that his heart was as dark as this dark room.

Darkness suddenly engulfed the room.

Darkness breeds evil.

Neither of them could see anything.

His hand let go of Tangun's and stretched upwards.

As if to put it on Tangun's neck.

If you don't love me, who else do you want to love?

His cat can only be his.

If you can't get...

If you can't get...

Dazai's mind was full of bad thoughts that made him sick.

He doesn't know if he will do this, but at this moment, he really thinks so.

Tangun's breath suddenly approached.

Dazai felt his lips soften.

This was an extremely green kiss, this Tangun had never been in love, so green to the point of being cute.

This was his first kiss with Tangun.

It's obvious that they eloped together, but the intimacy between the two is limited to hugging and never kissing.

Tangun can't kiss, but Dazai knows how to kiss.

"Tangun?" Dazai asked.

"I... like you." Tangun said in his heart, you should admit it, you really liked him.

Dazai really took him down.

Who can refuse this kind of person who is all for his own good?

Even if the purpose is not pure, but this kindness is what countless people flock to, right?

"That's great...that's great, Tangun." Dazai's hoarse voice was full of joy.

Tangun bowed his head and kissed Dazai's lips forcefully.

Soon the initiative to kiss was taken over by Dazai.

"Tangun can't even stick out his tongue..." Dazai felt that all the darkness in his mind had disappeared.

He gently taught Tangun how to kiss.

It's such a great feeling to develop.

So, what can't be said about the wish.

If you don't really like it, where does the joy of being thrown into the air come from when you see the ring on your hand?

Tangun closed his eyes and felt Dazai's kiss.

Dazai hugged him tightly, as if he could feel his heartbeat in the dark.

The beating frequency of the two people's hearts gradually synchronized.

This feeling of harmony intoxicated Tangun, as if the two had merged into one.

Tangun seemed to be hallucinating again, he saw the body that fell out of shape.

His heartbeat suddenly became chaotic.

Dazai felt Tangun's abnormal heartbeat: "Tangun?"

"...No, I'm fine." Tangun shook his head in a daze.

Even though it was tattered, his intuition told him that this was his corpse.

Fools thrown into the air can't fly, they just fall to the ground, smashed to pieces.

After ecstasy is the deepest despair, right?