My name is Dazai

Tangun slightly turned his head away, he almost never refused Dazai, but this time, he showed his resistance.

Dazai was also uncomfortable, like a clingy domestic kitten. Every day when Hui came home, he rubbed his head against his leg. Suddenly one day he annoyed the cat, and reached out to touch the cat. It shrank its neck suddenly and refused to be accepted. touch.

Tangun's actions were instinctive, but it was instinct that made Dazai uncomfortable.But he couldn't blame Tangun, after all, who can withstand the sudden breakup of a love partner, notify Tangun to take a look at Dazai, and still take Dazai's tissue, but he didn't use it, but held it in his hand.

Tangun knew that Dazai was talking nonsense, he was a little thankful that he had been sober for the past four years, and knew that Dazai did not like anyone else.

And according to what he said, if he fell in love with someone else, wouldn't being with him on the hospital bed be two boats?

It's not that Dazai can't do this kind of thing, but he won't say nothing after doing this kind of thing.

The clerk who he used as a shield...Tangun believed that if he asked, she would definitely verify Dazai's statement, after all, Dazai would not leave many loopholes for lies.

Tangun felt that he might not be able to understand what Dazai was thinking in his life.

"...Don't you want to ask Tangun any more?" Dazai asked flatteringly.

He liked Tangun's character that he didn't like to ask too much. Although the two were close, they still had their own private space.

But now that Tangun was silent, he wanted Tangun to ask more questions.

"Do you want to talk?" Tangun felt that his tone was not very good, and he repeated himself, "If you want to talk to me, just tell me."

Dazai propped his chin with his hand, thinking to himself why he asked such a stupid question.

Why did he ask this to want Tangun to question him more?

Do they want to see that Tangun still attaches great importance to him, or do they want Tangun to be able to vent his emotions.

But he didn't.

Tangun's character is too stable, he is a person who is hard to break down, although he can't solve all the difficulties, but he won't become hysterical because of setbacks.

"Let's go, let's go eat something." Dazai stood up first, "Do you want to eat in the hospital or do you want to eat something else?" Although Tangun didn't show too many negative emotions, the weird ingredients in the air gradually The increase has reached the point where no one dares to approach the bench ten steps away.

"I don't really want to eat." Tangun felt that sometimes he was heartless, but he couldn't eat at this time.

Tangun stood up, intending to return to the ward.

Dazai handed him the cane.

After returning to the ward, Tangun took out a key: "I'll return this to you."

"...I don't need it." Dazai stuffed the key back into Tangun's pocket, "The house will be given to you."

Tangun raised his eyebrows and looked at Dazai: "What a generous breakup fee."

Dazai Shin said, can you not mention breaking up?

Although he proposed to break up, he was not happy either.

But because of the nonsense he made up before, he still had to kneel down.

With a cane under his arm, Tangun supported his forehead, "Dazai, our relationship started because of your thoughts, and ended because of your thoughts."

Dazai looked away guiltily.

It's like he's some kind of scumbag who just throws it away when he's done playing.

"I don't want to blame you for anything." Tangun said a little dejectedly, "You won't make trouble out of no reason. You must have your own reasons."

Dazai's thoughts may be difficult for him to figure out in his life.It's just that Dazai is a sensitive and deadly type, not unreasonable... Although these two attributes overlap.

But he found that it seemed that the decisions made by Dazai were difficult to change.

That's why Tangun didn't resist Dazai's decision.

"I just want to say..." Tangun looked up at Dazai, but Dazai's gaze was evasive, as if he had anticipated what Tangun wanted to say with intense heat.

Tangun fell silent.

"Tangun?" Although he was not overwhelmed by Tangun's enthusiasm, Dazai was a little hard to express the loss in his heart.

Tangun smiled slightly at him, "Dazai, go back and rest."

"...Am I kicked out?" Dazai looked at Odasaku who was standing at the door, and smiled helplessly.

"So it wasn't Dazai that you came out on your own initiative." Odasaku received a text message from Dazai, and when he knew about it, he rushed over, "But you didn't intend to stay in the hospital tonight, did you?"

He had been sleeping in the hospital before.

Although he and Tangun are of the same sex, they are ex-boyfriends who just broke up after all, so we still have to keep a distance.

Dazai really wanted to find someone to confide in.

Some people regard him as a god, but Dazai feels that he is completely human at heart-not even human.He really thinks that supernatural powers sometimes reflect the essence of a person, and his essence is probably disqualification in the world.

After the two met, they walked out of the hospital together.

"Do you think it's okay to do this? For Tangun, the threats around you are incomparable to being with you." Oda Saku probably guessed why Dazai wanted to break up.

"Don't tell Tangun." Dazai turned to look at Odasaku.

Oda Saku looked at Dazai for a while, confirmed that he was serious, and then nodded to reassure Dazai.

But Dazai was not relieved by Odasaku's guarantee, he still looked a little depressed.

Obviously his focus is not whether Oda Saku will tell Tangun the truth.

"Ango and I have always felt that we should not interfere in your life, which is probably why you have always liked me and Ango so much, just like Tangun never asked you why," Odasaku put his hand on Dazai Shoulder, "You don't want others to interfere with your decisions and your life, and we have always respected you. In this case, do you have to respect Tangun's ideas?" Odasaku really wanted Dazai and Tangun to reconcile Well, after all he knows that Tangun and Dazai like each other, and Dazai is very relaxed around Tangun.During the days with Tangun, Dazai's dangerous behaviors decreased.

In fact, as long as Dazai is willing, Tangun can be coaxed by him within 10 minutes.

It's a bit unfair to Tangun, but Tangun has always been easily coaxed by Dazai - including coaxing.

Dazai put his hands into the pockets of his windbreaker: "I just want Tangun to live."

Dazai's stubborn death made Odasaku want to beat him a little bit.

"Whether it's the group or the rats of the dead house, they don't mind threatening me with Tangun." Dazai looked up at Odasaku, "It's like mimic threatening you with the children. Maybe the children will live better if they leave you Not good, but Tangun will not leave me."

"And...Tangun has never been the type who can't do without me. Even if I disappear from his life, his life will still go on."

Dazai looked up at the streetlights overhead.

Tangun's life was actually quite ordinary.

Even when people around him died, except for the initial sadness, his life continued, no matter how much pressure, his life would move forward.

He doesn't have cowardly thoughts as frequently as Dazai - such as using death to escape suffering.

Tangun sat on the window sill, his legs were facing the room, and he turned his head to look at the distant lights.

As soon as Dazai left, he felt a surge of loneliness.

In the past four years, he has been able to hold on without breaking down because he couldn't move. It was never because of his own strong will, but Dazai was always with him.

When Dazai left, he felt as if the floor of his life had been hollowed out, and his whole body fell down.

The computer on the bedside table beeped.

Tangun jumped down from the window and leaned on the wall to look at the computer.

It was a reply email from the University of Tokyo.

He was rejected.

Tangun's expected refusal.