The Human Comedy

It seems that I am the kind of person who likes to be vigorous, because I look very 'vigorous', but in fact, I also yearn for that kind of peaceful and warm life. This kind of warm happiness is also what I pursue.

Just like that peaceful summer, the last summer before our debut, apart from the busy training every day, there was also the kind of tranquility and ease that was difficult to experience later. Spent it with a calm mind.In addition to the usual training with the members, we also live in a dormitory. Although the conditions are not very good, we have become good friends like brothers, and we are very happy to chat and play every day.

Lying on our respective beds at night, we will also discuss some messy topics, about our dreams and our future, and of course, the most common topic among boys at that age—girls, what kind of girls do you like, what kind of girls do you want? What kind of love, what kind of marriage, these are topics we discussed a lot.

Everyone said their favorite type of girl, but when it was my turn, I couldn't think of anything for a while.

"I just... just have a better personality."

"Really? But Brother Xichu, don't you ask for your appearance?" Ying Yun raised an objection, "What if the two of you go out, Brother Xiche, you are prettier than your girlfriend? Hehe."

"Ah! Are you praising me or hurting me." I was dissatisfied.

"Brother Yingyun is right, Brother Xiche should really consider this issue." Dongxi also expressed the same feeling.

"Believe it or not, I really had such a girlfriend. When we went shopping, others would talk about me, saying that I was prettier than my girlfriend, so my girlfriend got angry and broke up with me." I said calmly, At that time, I was very young and had no concept of emotion.

"Wow, brother Heechul is really amazing." Dongxi smiled and said, "I also had such a girlfriend. After I became a trainee, I brought her to the company to play, and she fell in love with another very A handsome trainee broke up with me, our experiences are completely opposite."

"Of course, how can you be like Brother Heechul." Yin Yun laughed at him, and we all laughed too.

"But, what would you do if your girlfriend was robbed by a good friend?" I suddenly asked this question.

"It must be very sad." Dongxi said.

"What's the use of being sad, of course you want to get it back, you're a man like that." Ying Yun was very proud.

"But you have to respect her opinion too, if that person is a better choice." Ki Bum, who hadn't spoken just now, also spoke.

"Well, that's true. It depends on how good your friends are and how good your girlfriend is." Han Geng also spoke.

"Then to what extent is it acceptable and to what extent is it not?" I continued to ask, suddenly wanting to tease him, "Han Geng, you are so kind, have you been robbed too?"

"Where do I have it? I don't have it, okay!" He immediately denied it.

"If you don't have it, then you don't have it." I pouted, "What do you think, Ki Fan?"

"For me, brothers are more important."

"That's because you haven't had a girlfriend before! You will understand when you have a girlfriend in the future." Ying Yun looked experienced.

"Then your girlfriend is more important than your brother?" I continued to ask.

"This...not necessarily..."

"Cut, you value sex over friends." I despised him, "How about you, Han Geng?"

"I... don't know... But it doesn't matter if it's Heechul who robbed you."

"Mao?" I was surprised.

"Oh... because... Heechul, you are better than me, so I am convinced." He said with a smile.

"Brother Han Geng, you don't have to be excellent in love. You have to feel, you know? Feel!" Ying Yun continued to talk about experience, this brat must have dated many girlfriends.

"Oh, how do I know that, stop talking, go to sleep." Han Geng turned over and was covered.

"Okay, everyone, go to bed early, there is still a dance tomorrow."

After a while, the dormitory became quiet, and everyone fell asleep, but I couldn’t fall asleep after tossing and turning. I was still thinking about what Han Geng said just now, “If it’s Heechul, it’s okay if you snatch it.” What does this mean?At first it sounded like a very generous word, but after thinking about it back and forth, I felt something was wrong, and I couldn't tell what was wrong, it was annoying.

[Speaking of this sentence, I just watched "If You Are the One" on February 2th, in which Le Jia said to Meng Fei.It was said that they were discussing what to do if their boyfriend|girlfriend was robbed by a good friend. Some people said that it depends on how good a good friend is, and how far the boyfriend|girlfriend has developed. Then Le Jia said to Meng Fei: " It’s okay if you snatched it.” (Anyway, that’s probably what it meant.) I was so swaying at the time~~ Speaking of which, I always felt that the two of them had a special love, and it was too much to tear each other down on stage and tout each other, bickering and so on. I love it~~ Another time a male guest gave them two ball uniforms, and then Le Jia said he would keep them on his behalf, and then said to the male guest: "Thank you for fulfilling a long-cherished wish of ours and giving us a Put on a couple shirt!" Listen, what is this but love?Those women are just floating clouds, true love is here~~]

The next day's practice was over, and Han Geng, Donghae, and Kibum and I walked back to the dormitory. The streets in summer were a bit muggy, and occasionally there was a cool breeze. We walked leisurely. Although we were a little tired, we still enjoyed our walk. freedom to walk, and our last peaceful summer.

Suddenly Zai Zhong called and asked me where I was.

"I just finished practice and now I have to go back to the dormitory, why do you have time to call me?" I was a little surprised, TVXQ had already arrived, Jaejoong and the others were very busy every day.

"I just happen to be free, can you come and see me now? I'm at the hotel here in ***, we've been here before, remember?"

"Oh, remember, go now?"

"Yeah, I'm waiting for you here, come quickly!" He hung up the phone before I could react.

"Jin Jaejoong?" Heechul glanced at me and raised his eyebrows.

"Oh, tell me to have dinner, let me go there now."

"Yo, he is so busy, can he still find you for dinner?"

"Hehe, then I'll go first." I greeted them and left.

When I came to the hotel, Jaejoong hid in a corner. When he saw me, he covered his mask and waved to me. I walked over and sat opposite him. When I saw him, I couldn't help laughing, "Why come out armed like this? Go to the dormitory Isn't it more convenient?"

"There are too many people in the dormitory, it's better to talk outside." He took off the mask and said.

"What shame do you have, you have to come out and say it." I said jokingly.

He smiled and didn't say anything. When the food came, we started to eat it.Suddenly he stretched out his hand in front of me, clenched it into a fist, and then slowly opened it. There was a ring in his palm.He also wore a similar one on the finger holding the ring.

"what is this?"

"Give it to you, keep it." He said, and put the ring on my left ring finger.

"But, why did you send me this all of a sudden?" I didn't understand.

"Oh, it's nothing...it's just...the ones are sponsored by sponsors, so I want a pair." He explained with a smile, "It looks good, right? I knew it would be suitable for you."

I looked at the ring on my hand, it was indeed beautiful, but no one knew the meaning of this ring, it was somewhat embarrassing, right?

"But Jaejoong...would it be a bit..." for us to wear couple rings like this..."

"What? A couple's ring?" He was startled, nervous as if he had been seen through, "Who said it was a couple's ring? It's just... just two of the same, not for a couple, don't think too much about it. "

"Oh, I see. I didn't think much about it. Why are you nervous?"

He smiled awkwardly. I understood what he meant, but I didn't want to understand, so I didn't show anything. Let's take it as a token of a good brother.

"By the way, you've been busy recently, right?" I changed the subject.

"Well, yeah, I'm exhausted."

"But fortunately, she is very popular, and she has only debuted not long ago."

"Yeah, the popularity is good, I will be tired in the future. Fortunately, I am not the captain, Yunho is really tired."

Yunho?I suddenly remembered the scene of the conversation between Yunho and Heechul at the door of the dormitory that day, and felt weird, but now everyone has their own place.

"You guys get along pretty well, don't you?"

"Well, not bad, Yunho treats me very well, and the children are also very good."

"Oh……"

"What about you, Han Geng?"

"Me? I'm not bad, SJ members are also very good, and the children in the dormitory also take good care of me."

"What, are you taking care of them?" He raised his eyebrows at me, exposing my perfunctory words.

"Hey, what does it matter? Everyone should take care of each other."

"Did Brother Xiche bully you?" He suddenly approached my face and asked nervously.

"Oh? Why did Heechul bully me?" I didn't understand.

"No." He rubbed his chin and said, "Looking at your appearance, you should be bullied by brother Heechul a lot."

"Hey, why do you want to be bullied by him because of my appearance?" I got angry and protested by knocking on his bowl with a spoon.

"Because... oh, by the way, you said Heechul just now? Didn't he ask you to call him 'brother'?" He continued to ask with great interest.

"At the beginning, I gave in, and then I didn't let it go."

"Oh why?"

"How would I know?" I pouted, why are there so many questions.Although Heechul looks a little difficult to get along with, in fact, he gets along well after a long time, and he is not a person who will lose his temper, but has a bit of a temper, and his personality is still very good.

"Han Geng, be careful, it seems Brother Heechul is very special to you."

"Why? Stop talking nonsense. I'm not very close to him. What's so special about it?"

"Anyway..." His look of seeing through me made me feel uncomfortable.

What's so special about it?I can't tell either, maybe because I'm a foreigner, Heechul doesn't treat me as casually as he does other children, he has more respect, and he won't make jokes with me.Although there is no very close feeling, but it is not very alienated. In short, this kind of inseparable feeling is indeed a bit strange in the friendship between men.

It was already very late when we got back to the dormitory, the light in the living room was still on, Xi Chul was sitting on the sofa drinking wine alone, he looked a little at a loss when he saw me coming back. "came back?"

"Oh, you haven't slept yet?"

"Can't sleep, drink some wine."

"It's not good for your health, do you want to eat something?" I sat beside him and said.

"Forget it, I'm not hungry." He glanced at me, his eyes resting on my fingers.

"Where did you get the ring?"

"Give it to me just now."

"Give you the ring in Jaejoong? Why?"

"Oh, it's just...he said the sponsor gave it to me, so just give me one by the way." I explained, not wanting him to misunderstand anything, what's wrong with me?

"Oh, go to sleep and leave me alone." He ignored me and drank again by himself.

"Then...you go to bed early too, don't drink too much, you will have a headache tomorrow." I stood up and said, then turned and went back to the room.

After taking a shower, I went to the living room again, saw Xi Chul was still sitting there drinking, so I walked over and sat next to him, he looked at me in surprise, "Aren't you going to bed? Why did you come out again?"

"Drink with you, it's boring to drink alone." I said, and poured myself a glass. I rarely drink soju, so I'm not used to the taste, it's a bit spicy.

"Actually, it's okay, I'm alone." He said leisurely.

"Heechul, are you in a bad mood?"

He looked at me flattered, as if he didn't understand.

"Why, why do you care about friends, why are you so nervous?"

"Han Geng, are you so kind? You are kind to everyone?" He said with a half-smile.

"Ah? Maybe so."

"Is there anyone special to you?"

"Someone special? What do you mean?"

"It's the person who makes you treat with a different attitude, for example, you will get angry, angry with him, and sometimes hate him, but he is very important to you." He said pointedly.

"Such a person?... It seems that there is no such thing. There are important people, but I usually don't get angry with people."

"Oh, what can I say about you? It's strange for someone like me who treats everyone with pricks, but it's strange for someone like you who treats everyone well, you know?"

"I thought that if I was nice to everyone, everyone would like me. After all, it's not a bad thing to have one more friend, especially in an environment I'm not familiar with. If I let more people recognize me, it would be less difficult, wouldn't it?"

"That's right, I agree with your idea, but we are still different people." He smiled at me.

Suddenly, there was a feeling of frankness and relativeness. Although we knew that our personalities were very different, and our outlook on life and the world were so different, but it was really nice to be able to drink and chat together like this, like a bosom friend.Although I am very kind to everyone, I would never say a lot of sincere words. Like this moment, I said it to him unconsciously.Maybe it's the effect of alcohol, maybe I've been alone for too long, it's always easy to feel a little sentimental at night like this.

I know that Heechul came to Seoul from Gangwon-do alone, and it took a lot of hard work to achieve today's achievements-although it is not too big, it is finally on the right track.We are all young people working hard in foreign lands, with different personalities but with the same dream. We have the will to refuse to admit defeat in this complicated world. Perhaps this makes us cherish each other, and drinking wine is especially special. Cup less' feeling.

Although we haven't communicated much in life, the experience of drinking a few times has brought us a lot closer, and we can be regarded as "brothers".He took care of me a lot, mostly outside. When I said something bad, when I was ignored by others, he would always give me a hand and say a few words for me; Taking care of him is almost all in life. When outsiders can't see him, he cooks for him, cleans up his room, raises cats, and of course drinks with him.

We all pay for each other unknowingly like that, and we never get tired of it. I don't know what kind of power keeps us persevering.Maybe it's the sympathy for each other, maybe it's the competitive help, or maybe it's the unspeakable feeling that makes us feel closer and closer.

That peaceful summer passed like this. We finally made our debut at the end of the year. In the name of SuperJunior, 12 people stood on the stage and danced together. I don’t know what the future will be like, I just know that it will not be peaceful , but I didn’t expect that we would become so popular. In South Korea, China, Japan, and even the whole of Asia and even the world, we have so many fans, so much support and protection. .

Perhaps it is impossible to say 'Without Kim Heechul, there would be no Han Geng today', but I am deeply grateful to Heechul, apart from the subsequent love, not because of any real benefits he brought me, but because of his The true love for people.Heechul is a person who puts his feelings above everything else. Once he recognizes you as his good friend, good brother, and someone worthy of his heart, he will give you unreservedly, no matter whether you have status or status, no matter whether you are rich or poor, Whether you are in good times or bad times.As long as your personality and personality are approved by him, he will recognize you as his friend and brother, and he is willing to go through fire and water for you, go through fire and water, and stand by your side unconditionally—just like he did to me, For Donghai, Kifan, Yingyun and so on.

Heechul’s kindness to me, I remember clearly—from the day we met, to every day, every year, big and small things, life or work—although I seldom mention it in public, I have never forgot.I also cherish this hard-won true heart even more in my heart, whether it is the friendship at the beginning, or the brotherhood, or even the love later, and now the blood is thicker than water.

~~~~~Memories end~~~~~