The Human Comedy

His hands slowly wrapped around my waist, I wanted to push him away, but he hugged me even tighter, a certain premonition welled up in my heart, which made me a little uneasy.

Sure enough, his lips were slippery, and it was he who stuck out his tongue.I was startled and wanted to say something, but he took the opportunity to rush in and kissed domineeringly.

I punched him a few times, but I couldn't break free. I felt his body trembling. I didn't know what happened to him, and I didn't know what to do.

I stopped struggling and simply cooperated with him, closing my eyes and comforting him gently.He seemed to have sensed my thoughts, and began to become gentle. After a while, I tasted a bit of bitterness, and the side of our mouth was also a little cold. Could it be that he was crying?

At the end of a long and gentle kiss, I saw his tearful face and wiped his tears with distress. He gently hugged me and leaned on my shoulder like a wounded lion cub.Simba, who once said he would protect me, needs my comfort now.

"Brother, I'm sorry, I know this is wrong, but it's the last time, really, the last time." He sobbed.

"What happened? What happened to Siwon?" I asked while stroking his hair.

"Brother, I'm really going to get married. Even though I don't like it, I still want to marry a woman I don't love. This is my responsibility, but I'm so sad."

"Since you understand that it is your responsibility, you should work hard to do it. In fact, the result may not necessarily be bad. Maybe you will live happily."

"Is it really okay? Brother." He looked into my eyes and asked.

"Well, not every couple in this world loves each other that much, but even if they don't have such a deep love, they can still live a fulfilling and happy life. Getting married first and then falling in love is also a kind of romance. Slowly you will find that The benefits of the other party will gradually fall in love with her."

He wiped his tears, leaned on my shoulder, was silent for a while, and said, "Tomorrow we will try on the wedding dress."

"Have you chosen someone?"

"Well, I was selected by my family. He's not bad, and he looks good." He seemed to be talking about other people's affairs, obviously he didn't have any feelings yet.

"Get along well and be nice to other girls. Although you don't want to, they don't necessarily want to! Just think about how uncomfortable it would be for a girl to marry someone she doesn't like! So You want to live happily and don't let this arranged marriage turn into a tragedy, you know?"

"Well, I understand." He nodded and finally settled down.

The so-called "every family has its own scriptures that are difficult to recite" is what it says. Some people have to go through all kinds of difficulties and dangers if they want to be with the person they like; Hesitant and helpless.

~~~~~memories~~~~~

In 2009, Japan.

I like overseas concerts, especially in Japan and Thailand, especially SJ's concert with Han Geng.Because it is neither at my house nor at his house, just like the honeymoon trip of the two of us, occasionally sweet, occasionally unrestrained, in that kind of relatively open situation, it is regarded as a kingly ambiguity, brotherly Whether it's convulsions or not, I can cling to Han Geng unscrupulously.

Just like that Japanese concert, except for rehearsals and other things, we were as happy as a honeymoon.

After the rehearsal on the first day, everyone decided to go to the night market to eat together, Han Geng and I also went together.At first, the members and manager were all together, but they got separated after wandering around the night market. I dragged Han Geng to the various small shops along the street excitedly, and he followed me quietly, looking at my various All kinds of things gestured towards himself, smiling dotingly.

Occasionally, there are beautiful men and women who come to strike up a conversation. He just took my hand and refused with a smile. We just walked through the crowded night market hand in hand, no one would notice us, and no one would care about us—— Whether it is a male-female couple or a male-male couple, it is not uncommon here.

So I really think this night market has no end, so we can go on like this.

After walking out of the night market, we returned to the hotel two streets away. We walked slowly along the road. The summer wind was very cool. At this time, there were no words, only holding hands to express our feelings.

Suddenly, I came to a bridal dress shop on the corner of the street. I stopped and stared at the bright white wedding dresses in the window in a daze.Han Geng also stopped and looked at the wedding dress with me.

I used to think that one day I would marry a beautiful bride and watch her walk towards me in her wedding dress.But now I know that maybe I will never have such a day!What will happen if Han Geng and I get married one day?We probably won't have a wedding dress. I really don't dare to think about whether we will really have such a day.

Suddenly felt a heat on my back, it was Han Geng who hugged me from behind, resting his chin on my shoulder, breathing on my neck, and asked, "What are you thinking? Heechul."

"Guess what?"

"You're wondering what it's going to be like when we get married, aren't you?"

"Oh? How do you know?" I was surprised.

"Hehe, I just know." He smiled, "You're worried again, aren't you?"

"You said, will we really have such a day? A day to get married."

"There will be." He said, holding my hand on his waist, warm and steady, "Heechul, what kind of wedding do you want?"

"I...it's fine, I don't know if I can."

"Don't you have confidence in me?" He asked with a smile.

"Hehe, one day... will we really get married?"

Han Geng--

He asked in a low voice, "Will we...will we really get married one day?" Such cautiousness made my heart ache.Although we are passionately in love, we are different from ordinary lovers. We are still careful everywhere. Uncertainties in all aspects make us all a little confused about the future.But there is nothing we can do now except love each other. I don't know what will happen to us in the future. At this moment, we are just stubbornly in love.

"Does Heechul want to get married? We can get married if you want." I said.

"But how do we end it? It can't be...Han Geng, have you thought about what will happen to us in the future?" He is rarely so sentimental. When he talks like this, he must be asking me very seriously. .

"Well, yes, I think about it every day."

"What about the conclusion?"

"The conclusion is that we'll be together."

"really?"

"Could it be separated? Heechul, you don't want to be with me?"

"It's not... Will we really be together for a lifetime? Like ordinary couples?"

"Well, as long as you want, of course we will be together forever."

"But, a lifetime, so long... I don't even dare to think about it."

"Actually, I didn't dare to think about it before, but after I fell in love with you, I started thinking about it. I think about it every day."

"Han Geng, what do you love about me?"

"I don't know, anyway, I love you very much, I love everything about you."

"Hehe, you are so good at talking now." He patted my face and said, but his expression was still worried, "I often think, I have a bad temper, always bully you, and like to order you around, always Let you worry, there is nothing I can do for you, why do you still like me?"

"Fool, you have done a lot for me, it's because I can't do anything for you." Maybe the person who loves deeply has such thoughts, always worrying that he will become a burden to the other party, always wanting to Do more things for him, because love is too deep, always only see the other party, but ignore yourself, we all are.Perhaps we were not such noble people originally, but when we meet each other, we unconsciously become lovers, asking what love is in this world!

"Han Geng, you said that if we really hold a wedding, will someone come to bless us?"

"Well, there will be, at least our members! Children like Donghae, Eunhyuk, Kibeom, and Siwon will come to bless us."

"But, that's all there is to it, we... can't always get everyone's blessing..."

"Heechul, don't do this," I pulled him to face me, looked into his eyes and said earnestly, I knew he was ups and downs again, although we are passionately in love, we always worry about what the future will bring, always It is with an uneasy attitude to doubt, even though our love is so firm. "No matter how many people bless us, even if there are only a few friends, even if no one is good, I will not give up because of this. I love you and want to be with you. Whose permission. Heechul, can you trust me? Now that we have started, we have to go on seriously, we all have to believe, don’t be afraid, you know?”

He looked at me tearfully, nodded, and I kissed him on the cheek.

A gust of autumn wind blew by, and my body was a little chilly. Heechul rubbed my arm, I took off my coat and put it on him. The thin coat is actually not a big deal, but I just wanted to do it.

He looked at me and smiled strangely, "Think of me as the heroine of a TV series! But let me be a prince for a while!" He put his arms around my waist, and the two continued to walk forward.

Walking to the hotel, Heechul suddenly stopped and said to me, "Han Geng, my leg hurts, you can carry me!"

"Huh? Now?"

"Yeah." He nodded, pointing to his legs, "I walked too far today."

"Uh, but...isn't it a few steps away? I'll be there soon." After walking so far, now I can't walk until I reach the door?It's clearly just acting like a baby.Originally, I should have carried him up without hesitation. What is this trivial matter?But when you enter the hotel, there will be fans waiting there, and there may also be the media, so it’s not good to be seen by them.

"No, I want you to carry me on your back." He pouted his lips and looked up at the sky.

"Xiche...don't be like this...be good...be obedient!" I pulled him forward, acting like a baby while walking, he was dragged away reluctantly by me, and continued to look up to the sky and ignore me.

After finally entering the hotel lobby, he seemed to be a little normal again, but he shook off my hand, walked to the sofa by the side of the lobby and sat down.

"Ah! Aren't you going upstairs?" I looked at the fans who were watching us and asked, "The fans are watching."

"No! I won't go up if you don't carry me on your back."

I laughed, it's really a child's temper, who is it for at this time?I just want to make a little pink for fans to see, and entertain myself by the way to show the charm of Master Xi.Heechul like this is really cute, it's a pity that he was in a public place, otherwise he would just carry it on his shoulders and take it home to teach him well.

"Really not going? Then I go by myself?" I looked at him and said with a smile.

He ignored me, bowed his head and played with his fingers.

I laughed, turned and walked across the hall and into the elevator.

Heechul -

He actually just left!He actually left me alone and left!Smoke Han Geng!snort!snort!hum!

Sitting alone on the sofa was bored, looking at the fans in the distance, this time it was really embarrassing, so I just nodded and smiled.

If it wasn't for such a public place, Han Geng wouldn't be like this.For example, when we went back to the dormitory after having dinner together, when I walked downstairs to the dormitory and asked him to carry me upstairs, he would obediently squat down and let me climb up, and then slowly carry me upstairs.Listening to his slight panting in the stairwell is really a pleasure, so sexy, so solid, and leaning on his back is so comfortable, the body is supported by him, feeling the friction between the fabrics, I can't help but let me dream, haha.

But if there are fans waiting outside the dormitory, he would refuse, at most he just took my hand and walked in.

I sat for a while, whining and complaining, but after a while Han Geng came down again and walked to me through the hall. Walked across the lobby to the elevator, and glanced at me, "I really can't do anything about you, Lord Xi!"

I winked at him, innocently, he cleared his throat, "I'm not afraid that the fans will laugh at you!"

The elevator came, and he pulled me in, then squatted down, I was stunned for a moment, and immediately jumped up with a smile, lying on his back.

"Happy this time?" He said with a smile.

"Well, happy."

He also smiled, took the opportunity to pat my butt, tightened his arms, and carried me back to the room.

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February 2011, Japan.

At this time, Han Geng and I had been separated for 15 months.During this period of time, we get together less and leave more, and the international long-distance calls are more expensive than the phone calls in the past 27 years!This is also something that can’t be helped. In fact, there is nothing important, but I just want to make a phone call every day to hear his voice.

So every time I quarreled with Donghai, he would threaten me: "I will publish your phone list someday! Let everyone see who you have called so many times!"

I was happy, "Okay, okay! Hurry up! I wish for it!"

"Brother...you! You are too much! You know how to bully me!"

"Who bullied you, gave you such a big right! I won't give it to others if they want it!" In this way, he knows that he really loves the two of us, even if he is threatened with a knife, he will not betray us. younger brother.

Han Geng's birthday, this is his second birthday after he left me, the previous one was not long after he left, we were still having trouble breaking up at that time, we couldn't give him a good time, so this year we must spend it with him.So I finished recording YOUNGSTREET and went straight to the airport. I only told Donghai and Brother Te that I dressed up and set off alone. I would never be discovered by anyone. I flew directly to Japan and disappeared for more than 30 hours.

How I wish it was 30 days!If I can be with Han Geng for 30 days without being separated, then I am really willing to exchange it for 30 years.

When I said that, he covered his mouth with a stinky face, then grabbed my hand and took a bite, saying, "Don't say such stupid things."

Then I smirked, thinking that Han Geng is very handsome now, why is he so handsome after not seeing him for more than a month?But it seems a little dark, a little strange.

I took a shower and stood in front of the hotel window looking at the snowy scenery outside. The whiteness was very beautiful. In the evening, the neon lights began to light up everywhere, making the snowy scenery more colorful.The room is very warm, even if you stand by the bed wearing only a nightgown, you will not be cold.

"Would you like something to eat?" Han Geng walked in with two plastic lunch boxes and opened them on the table. They were fresh sushi, probably bought at the restaurant downstairs.He took off his coat and hung it on the hanger, and called me again, "Heechul, are you hungry?"

I went to the table, took one and ate it, "It doesn't taste very good, it's too ordinary." I said critically.

He came over and ate one too, "It's not bad, it's pretty good."

I looked at him and smiled, but he didn't understand.I blinked and he frowned.I rubbed my lower lip with my index finger, and he swallowed.

"Hmm... well, I'll take you to eat delicious food tomorrow, let's make some food first, or you'll be hungry at night." He pretended to be calm and said.

"Oh. What are we going to do tomorrow?" I took a step closer and stood in front of him, blinking my eyelashes almost touching his face.

"Skiing." Continue to pretend to be calm.

"Oh, then you should go to bed early." Continue to tease.

"Well, yes, you can eat something and rest." Really, why are you pretending to be a gentleman at this time?big bad wolf.Knowing that you miss me, can you bear it at this time?I've already seen that you're going to die.Sure enough, he lowered his head and took a piece of sushi and ate silently, but his eyes didn't know where to go. Although he didn't look at my face, who knew if he was looking at my beautiful legs...

"Ah! Didn't you say give it to me? You ate it yourself!" I hit him once, then leaned in, grabbed the sushi he was biting, bit half of it, and touched my lips. Wiping his lips, he chewed the sushi and swallowed, "This is much more delicious." Then he smiled as he tried it.

He opened his arms and took me in his arms, and I hugged him too, tight.

"I miss you so much." He said close to my ear, "I miss you every day, I'm going crazy."

"Hehehehehe...then we will become two lunatics, but we can't, one of them has to be normal." I laughed.

"Heechul..." His arms tightened, and I felt a little pain, but I didn't want him to let go at all, and wanted to tighten it even tighter.

"I'm so happy to hold you like this, and I feel alive again." He said again, my nose was sore, but I held back, I didn't want to make it so sad, but I was so moved in my heart.

"I'm in front of you, why are you so sad. Come on, give me a smile!" I said while pinching his chin.

He laughed, put his arms around my waist and fed me another piece of sushi.