The Human Comedy

Han Geng--

When I saw the huge 'Gengxi' light board under the stage, the hand holding the microphone trembled a little, and the complicated mood at that moment could not be expressed in words.These children are really everywhere, no matter where I go, airports, hotels, fan clubs, press conferences, they are everywhere, and every time I see their support, I will have a warm feeling Feel.Although unable to speak, they will understand that I like to see them. Although I can only smile and wave, the words I want to express are too complicated to express.

I know they have been wronged a lot and they didn't get a title, but they still insisted on supporting us. I also know that many of my fans don't like them. There were even conflicts between the two parties, but as an idol, I can't say What.Heechul once warned me, "Fans can't be too indulgent, otherwise it will not only be harmful to themselves, but also to you. You are too kind, and you don't want to scold them. In the end, everyone will be unhappy. It’s gone.” This is indeed my negligence, but I can’t openly educate my fans like Heechul, Kim Heechul is open and has a personality, but I am not.

I can't show my sharpness like Heechul - although he has restrained a lot now - although Han Geng's popularity is very high, in his own eyes, he is just an ordinary star, thanks to everyone who supports him, dare not Slack, and dare not be arrogant.Alas, there is no way, character determines destiny.

On April 4, the awards ceremony for the Chinese Top Rankings was held in Chengdu.

As soon as I got off the plane, I saw the children who picked me up. In addition to the yellow support objects, there were also support from the Lan family and Geng Che. They waved to them with a smile. What was arguing about, Dangyouyou finally got into the car amidst pushing and shoving.

I received a call from Heechul a few days ago, saying that Jang Keun Suk (I really don't like calling him 'Suk', it feels so weird!) will come today and asked me to take care of him.Jang Geun Suk and I don’t have much contact, only when we hang out with Heechul, we meet among his friends, and there is almost no chance to meet alone, but because of Heechul’s relationship, we can still be regarded as half friends .

When walking the red carpet, Jang Keun Suk happened to be behind me, and we met at the starting point. I nodded and smiled at him, and he also greeted me, very formally.He has a big bouncy hair, which is very shiny, and a smile on my face is also full of electricity-probably not on purpose, but some people's smiles are electrifying in themselves.

I walked over from the 'red carpet', and when I pressed my fingerprints, I heard the master of ceremonies say: The one walking like us is the Korean artist Jang Keun Suk.Then there was a lot of screaming behind me, which was the same as when I appeared on the stage. No wonder, he seldom comes to China. It is understandable that girls are so crazy.

To be honest, I am a little nervous today. Although I have already won some awards, today I am not nervous because of winning the award, but because the person who is regarded as a "half friend" with me has not found a chance to meet after the award ceremony. What do you want to say?He should be talking about Heechul. Although Heechul and I talked on the phone every day, when I was in China, there was almost no chance to mention him—no one around me could let me talk about him with confidence.Jang Geun-seok is a good friend of Heechul, they should meet often in Korea, especially when I am not around, I really want to ask him about Heechul's condition - those things he refused to tell me on the phone, but after all I'm not familiar with this child yet, so it seems a little impolite to ask directly, so I can't help but feel a little out of my mind this night.

When I was talking about the acceptance speech, I almost said 'thank you teammates'. I was taken aback. Fortunately, I changed it in time, but someone will still see it, these FBIs!

After the performance, I finally breathed a sigh of relief, took a rest backstage, and suddenly remembered that I should look for Jang Geun-seok, so I was about to get up and look for another dressing room, when I saw a handsome guy walk into my dressing room, first he smiled at me friendly After a while, he stepped forward, and I also stepped forward to say hello to him: An Ningha Sai!

"An Ning Hase! Han Geng...brother." He laughed a little awkwardly, but still called out 'brother'. I was proud, shook hands with him, and pulled him to sit on a chair beside him.

"How do you feel about coming to China?" I asked him, still using honorifics, because I'm still not familiar with him.

"Well, very good, the fans are very enthusiastic, I am very surprised." He said with a smile.

"Oh, is this your first time in China?" I was at a loss for words.

"No, I've been here before, but I wasn't very popular at that time. This time, the fans seem to be very enthusiastic."

"Oh..." I lost the topic for a while, and I was a little nervous.

"Just now I saw Brother Han Geng won an award, congratulations!" He was quite natural. "Oh, by the way, the organizer arranged for me to stay in their villa tonight, brother Han Geng, come if you are free." I understand this sentence.

"The villa? Are you alone?" I suddenly became very concerned, and at this moment Xiaoping walked in, saw me talking to Zhang Genxi, glanced at us, didn't say anything, and walked to a place far away from us sat down.I didn't pay attention to her, but Zhang Geunxi glanced at her and moved closer to me.

"Well, brother, you should... have something to tell me?" He winked at me, implying.

"Oh... yes, yes, then, I'll go find you at night."

"Well, then I'll go first, you can be busy." He stood up as he spoke, and several people's eyes followed him in an instant, knowing that he had walked out of the dressing room.

I didn't bother to leave them either, I packed my things by myself and hurried to leave.

In the evening, I inquired about the address of the villa arranged by the organizer for Zhang Geunxi, and then drove there by myself, but I was followed by someone as soon as I went out, and I drove up with the car.I saw that the three little girls in the car were probably fans, so I ignored them. A few drifts got rid of them. I knew it was bad. It’s not easy for the little girls to drive back into the car, but we can’t let them You know where I'm going, otherwise I'll be in trouble.Of course, I also know that they may be the legendary 'Geng Che Fan', so I can't let them follow, alas, I also don't want them to be charged with YY.Sometimes my hints are really obvious, but if they are smart, they will attract many people's attacks, what a pity

Arrived at the villa smoothly, the security guard at the gate recognized me as Han Geng, and let me in directly.

After entering the villa, I can't help but sigh, after all, it is a foreign artist, who only stays for one night and still lives in such a good place, tsk tsk.

"Brother Han Geng, you are here." Seeing me coming in, Zhang Geunxi enthusiastically led me into the living room, and asked his assistant to bring me food and drink, and then asked them to leave and not to disturb.I suddenly felt like visiting a young master's house as a guest.

"Yesterday Xiche called and asked me to take care of you, but I didn't do anything, but let you treat me like a master." I said a little embarrassed.

"Brother Han Geng, you're being polite, and Brother Heechul told me that I must say hello to you." He sat on the sofa next to me, "How about we have some beer?"

"Well, okay." He poured me a beer, his movements a little stiff, and then we clinked glasses, looked at each other, and smiled again.

"When we were in Korea, we didn't know each other very well. I didn't expect to meet again in China." I said with a smile.

"Yeah, I used to only see Brother Han Geng when I was hanging out with Brother Heechul." He also let go of his reserved feeling.

"Actually, I wanted to ask just now, but there are so many people, I don't feel embarrassed. Heechul..."

He suddenly smiled and said, "Brother Han Geng, you really are, like Brother Xichul said, very cute."

"Ah? What's wrong?" I don't understand.

"We were backstage just now. Anyway, we are speaking Korean, and others can't understand it. It doesn't matter if you want to ask Brother Heechul."

"That's right, but there are always people who feel uneasy."

"Brother Han Geng, you look handsome even when you're nervous, Brother Heechul said that on purpose." He refilled another glass for me and said with a smile.

Looking at his smile, I suddenly felt very envious, how happy it is to see him often in Heechul!Even if it's just his ordinary friend and good brother, it must be cute to hear him talk about his lover often, that intoxicated expression.

"By the way, brother, what did you want to ask just now?"

"Oh, that's right, did Xichul tell you anything when you came? Or... you want to bring it to me?" In fact, Xichul can say what he wants to say on the phone, and he can mail anything he wants to give me, but now When someone who is always by his side comes, I can't help but want to take in some breath close to Heechul, even if it is very faint.Jang Keun Suk is Heechul's good younger brother, so seeing him is like seeing Heechul, even if he wasn't very close before, at this time he would have a feeling of wanting to be close.

He laughed again and said, "He said he wanted you to treat me to dinner, but if we go out to eat, will someone be photographed?"

"Yeah, so I came here secretly, and I met a few fans on the way, and I dumped them. Do you live here with any fans?"

"Yes, but it's okay. I seldom come. If they want to follow, let them follow." She got up and stood by the window, and I followed. The curtain was originally blocked, so he opened it halfway, I peeked sideways, and there were a few girls downstairs, sitting on the doorstep, jumping up excitedly as soon as they saw the curtains open, waving at him, screaming while waving.I couldn't help showing my head and standing beside him, so the little girls yelled louder, and someone called me, and by the way, I saw a familiar car, the one chasing me on the road.

Zhang Genxi closed the curtains and looked at me in surprise, "Brother, aren't you afraid of being seen by them?"

"What does that matter, I just came to see you."

He smiled and went to turn on the TV. We sat on the sofa and watched. He didn’t understand Chinese, so I explained it to him occasionally, and then he smiled helplessly. When I asked you what you were laughing at, he said with a clear face: "As expected, only Brother Xiche can understand Brother Han Geng's words."

I frowned, that means my Korean is not good.Well, although this period of time has indeed regressed a lot, and there are not many restrictions when talking to Heechul on the phone, he understands what I say, but when talking to others, it may be a bit... The daily language I just said is okay, When it comes to something that is a bit difficult, I will reveal my stuff...

"Um, really?"

He nodded embarrassingly, and said, "Brother, you don't need to say honorifics to me, just say what's convenient for you."

"Oh, Miane... I'm so sorry, brother..."

"It's okay, Brother Xichul told me, I'm mentally prepared." He said with a smile, "Ah, yes, Brother Xichul asked me to bring you a letter." Then he got up and went to the bedroom to get it An envelope came out for me.

I opened it curiously, thinking that this kid is really romantic, why don't you say it on the phone, and write a love letter, hehe.

But it is not a letter, but a picture, or a comic strip.

The first frame is a villain A lying on the bed, hugging a kitten and talking to himself, the kitten turned his head and ignored him; the second frame is a villain B sitting at the table, staring blankly at the cage Two chinchillas, the two chinchillas ignore him when they are intimate; the third frame is villain A pinching villain B's face, villain B's expression of pain but enduring, the text reads A: You miss me without? B: ... madman; in the fourth frame, villain B jumped on villain A, and the two of them fell on the bed and struggled. B: Let me tell you if you think about it! A: ... hooligans.

I laughed, this little lunatic.Carefully folded the drawing paper, stuffed it back into the envelope, and looked up at Zhang Genxi with a strange smile.

"That... thank you." I said shyly.

"You're welcome, you should." He still smiled strangely.

"What happened today...don't tell anyone."

"Well, I won't tell anyone except Brother Heechul."

"You can often meet in Korea, please take care of him more, I am very worried that he will not eat well and rest well." I couldn't control my emotions at once, and I was about to start nagging.

"Brother Heechul still likes to drink, sometimes he doesn't eat well, and he always plays games. He won't tell you on the phone, right? Sure enough. Our younger brothers said he didn't listen. Originally, Donghai and the others were there." At that time, he still listened to what Dong Hai said, but now Dong Hai has gone to Taiwan, and no one cares about him. Ah, by the way, he still listens to J when he talks about him.”

"Mao? J?" I was startled, saying that this name is my natural enemy. Although I don't have many chances to hear this name, he seems to be a nail in my shadow, making me feel crisis at any time .

"Well, Brother Heechul sometimes plays with J, but usually he doesn't take us with him at that time." He seemed to say it deliberately, and seemed to be hinting at me. "Brother Han Geng, you don't seem to know J very well, do you?"

"Well, I'm not very familiar with him. Are you familiar with him?"

He shook his head, "I'm not familiar with him, and I rarely get to know him. He seems to be a very mysterious person, and Brother Xiche doesn't really introduce us to him." Although his tone was calm, no matter how I heard it, I felt that there was something in the words.I'm not very familiar with this kid, but I always feel that he is a bit scheming, not an ordinary kid, is this implying something to me?

I remained silent, waiting for him to continue.

He gave me a meaningful look and continued, "But Brother Heechul doesn't often play with him, except me and Hongji, and sometimes with some older brothers and some younger girls. I really like Heechul hyung."

"Oh, then he won't be lonely." I nodded and gave him a calm look.

He frowned, and wanted to say something, but hesitated to speak, frowning and thinking.

"Just say what you want to say." Don't go around the circle, I probably understand it, that is to say, many people are willing to play with Heechul, and I'm not the only one, he can live well in Korea without me.

So Jang Geun Suk continued, "Brother Heechul has been saying on the radio recently that he wants to find a girlfriend, Brother Han Geng, aren't you nervous?"

"Why are you nervous? He's just talking, but he won't really look for it."

"Are you so confident? You are so far away, and you don't know what the future will hold. Do you really have the confidence that Brother Xiche will wait for you?" He was a little excited, staring at me and said with an expression on his face. Seriously.

Confidence, yes, yes, I certainly believe that Heechul's sincerity towards me will not change because of distance or time.But if you say no, sometimes you will be afraid, afraid that he is so dazzling, there are so many people who like him, and I will just be buried in it... But at this time, in front of others, I can't show that kind of fear Bar.

Seeing his earnest, almost provocative expression, I wasn't angry either. In fact, I wanted to say, it doesn't matter to you, we'll take care of it, but it's a bit rude to think about it, but I can't make him feel that I'm afraid He, therefore, had no choice but to make no response.

Seeing that I didn't respond, he became even more anxious. He stepped in front of me, looked straight at me, and looked at me as if he was about to pull my collar, "Do you really not care? Even if Brother Xiche is with someone else, you Is it okay? You don't care about him so much, how can you be worthy of him? Who do you think he is to you? "

"He is my lover." I still said calmly.

My reaction caught him off guard for a moment, and he looked at me puzzled.

Jang Keun Suk——

I don't understand why the man in front of me is so calm and even indifferent in his eyes. Does he really not care about Brother Xiche?Otherwise, after listening to what I said, how could you not be jealous, angry, or anxious?I did provoke him on purpose, I wanted to see him anxious, I wanted to see him show that he cared about Brother Heechul, but he let me down, his calmness was beyond my imagination, but he said , "He is my lover" said calmly, but firmly.I really don't understand what kind of person Han Geng is.

"Do you think I'm ruthlessly calm?" He asked me suddenly.

I didn't answer, just looked at him.

"I'm not what you imagine," he continued, "I care about Heechul, and I treasure him more than anyone else, but it may be different from what others imagine. I have my own way to love him." Still calmly Eloquently. "I know that you are his good brother, and I know that you are worried about him. I know what you mean by what you said. Heechul is free to play whoever he wants to play with. I will not interfere. I also want to thank those friends. I When we were away, it was thanks to them for taking care of Heechul. And when Heechul is alone, if he finds something interesting to talk about, he will feel better, I understand."

I am surprised, what is he talking about?Brother Heechul said that he wanted to stimulate Han Geng whether he was playing with his friends or making a girlfriend. We all know that, but he was not stimulated at all. Instead, he thanked those people and understood all of this. It’s really unbelievable .

"But, aren't you jealous? Aren't you in a bad mood?"

"Sometimes, but it's okay to make a phone call, because we trust each other." His smile is very flat, but the smile on the corner of his mouth has a kind of doting sweetness, a little silly, but it makes people feel warm .Then he immediately restrained his smile, put on a calm expression again, walked to the window, and looked at the fans at the door through the gap in the curtains.

In fact, I have never understood why Heechul, who is so proud and outstanding, fell in love with such a foreigner with no special features. His Korean is not good, he can't speak sweet words, and he hasn't done anything special. In the Korean entertainment industry, his most special feature is his identity as a foreigner.He always has a calm and indifferent look on his face, and sometimes he will be blank, and brother Heechul is so smart, why would he like such a dull and dull Han Geng?Maybe it's because I don't know much about him.

However, when we met today, it was the time we talked the most, and I finally felt something special about him. Although the Korean language was still a little vague, the overall aura made me look at him differently, even though I still didn't quite understand this person.

Standing in front of the window, with his back to the light, he gave off a tall and tall appearance. His neat short hair looked energetic, and his slender figure was thin but majestic.Han Geng is an unfathomable person, he is not as innocent and harmless as ordinary people seem to be, his thoughts are very deep, and ordinary people can't understand him—or brother Heechul understands, that's why he fell deeply into his world.

After all, I still can't understand, and I don't want to understand. At the beginning, I was only worried about Brother Heechul, so I wanted to test him.Although he is clumsy with words, his eyes have already made me understand some things, some inexplicable feelings.I also finally understood some of the reasons why Heechul fell in love with this dull foreigner.

~~~~~Memories end~~~~~