love concubine

After leaving the palace, Brother Qian and I walked for a long time in silence.

I walked slowly, but my mind was full of what the prince said just now.He called me "little wife" to outsiders...as if I was his concubine...and...why did he ask Brother Qian to take me out?The prince is worried that it will be hard for me to stay in the palace all day pretending to be a princess, so he wants me to come out to relax?I've been treating him like this for the past few days, does he still care about me? ...

Why? ... Am I worth it?  …

"Young Master Ji..." I suddenly came back to my senses when I heard a soft call from the person beside me.

"Ah... I'm sorry, Big Brother Qian... Kexue was only thinking about things, and didn't ask where Big Brother Qian wanted to go..."

"Well, it's okay." Brother Qian smiled slightly.That gentle smile is really similar to that him.However, Big Brother Qian is not him... "It's really unexpected that the prince will allow you to come out to play."

"Hmm..." I didn't expect...

"It's hard to come out, where does Mr. Ji want to go?"

"It's up to Big Brother to decide..."

"Well. Then... why don't we go in and have something to eat first?" He said and pointed to the tavern behind him.

I looked up and saw the plaque of "Xiangminglou" hanging on the gate, which reminded me of him...

Brother Qian prepared a wing room for us to sit down.He asked me what I wanted to eat, and I casually said osmanthus chestnut cake.Thinking of that time, although the prince imprisoned me in the confines of his wing, there was no happier day in my life than that time.Because the prince fulfilled his promise, he also bought me chestnut cakes every day.Whenever I see him holding the familiar bag of buns, I will smile very happily.Because I know the prince remembers me, thinks of me, loves me...

"Master Ji, what's the matter?" The table was full of food, but I was stunned, "Don't you like these?"

"Hmm... no. I'm sorry, Brother Qian, Ke Xue has been absent-minded today, and I will definitely pay attention in the future..."

He smiled politely, "Well, it's okay. Everyone will inevitably have worries. If Mr. Ji doesn't mind, Brother Qian is willing to share your worries with you?"

With a thought in my mind, I asked casually, "Brother Qian...have you ever liked someone you shouldn't like?..."

But seeing him suddenly in a trance, he turned his face and replied, "Yes."

Hearing Brother Qian's answer, the grief in my heart poured out completely.I just feel as if I have met someone with the same disease, "Does that person know what Brother Qian wants?!..."

"do not know."

I can't help but startled.Unexpectedly, he was so determined that he didn't even tell the other party what was on his mind! "Then Brother Qian...what did you do in the end?"

"give up."

"give up?!......"

"But I hope to meet him again in the next life. I hope that by then, we will no longer be bound by the shackles of the world."

"The next life..." Do we have to wait for the next life? !  …

So in this life...wouldn't I have to suffer forever? !I'm not reconciled...why should I fall in love with him?Why can't you be with him when you fall in love? !  …

"Kesue..." Suddenly, she felt her hand being held.I raised my eyes in astonishment, Brother Qian's tender gaze was filled with pain, "Is there someone in the palace that you fall in love with?"

"No..." I sniffled, trying not to let the tears overflow from my eyes, "and... Anyway, I will leave the palace soon." I said firmly.

"Leave the palace?"

"Well..." So I told Brother Qian that I had made the promise with the princess, "Now I have found my younger brother. So in a few days, I will leave the palace and return to my original life with Xiaoxi..." Back To the point where there would be no prince in the first place...

"It's like this..." He said meaningfully, and suddenly squeezed my hand tightly, only then did I remember that I was still holding him.Just when he was about to withdraw his hand, he suddenly held it, "Kesue, do you want to come and live with me?"

"……live together……?!"

"You and your younger brother can also come and live. I will treat you as honored guests. You can stay as long as you like. As long as I can hear your piano..."

"My piano sound?!..."

"Hmm..." Brother Qian frowned and smiled bitterly, "To be honest, after I decided to give up on that person, I lived in pain every day. I always feel that there is nothing in this world that can make me happy. Until I heard your piano sound for the first time in Ye Rong Jing Pavilion. That clear voice is simple and clean, as if it made me forget my heartache."

"Brother Qian..." It turns out that there are people like me who live in pain because they fall in love with someone they shouldn't love.

"Kersue," he leaned closer and gently pulled me into his arms.But my body tensed unconsciously, and I only felt an uncomfortable resistance. "Kesue, since neither of us can get the love of our sweetheart, at least we can stay together and comfort each other, okay?"

"No..." I almost blurted out. "I'm sorry, Brother Qian..." I broke away from his embrace lightly, "It's just... my brother really has to leave the capital because of some things..." And I don't know why, when Brother Qian hugged me in his arms When the time comes, it reminds me of that Boss Mo...

"Hmm..." But seeing the desolate smile on Big Brother Qian's face, I feel apologetic again. "I understand." He smiled wryly, "Then if you decide to leave the capital, remember to tell me. So that I, the eldest brother, can bid farewell for you."

"Hmm!..." I smiled back, "And Brother Mo!"

"Yes..." He suddenly became sad, "And Wenxi..."

Before Brother Qian sent me back to Wangfu, he bought me a unique bracelet from a small stall at the intersection of Wangfu.He put it on my wrist for me, and then took my hand again, looking fascinated.

I couldn't help laughing at him, "Brother Qian is thinking, will this bracelet look good on that person's hand?"

He smiled awkwardly, hummed in a low voice.

"Then why don't you give this one to her?" As I said that, I wanted to take off the beads on my hand.

"No. Since it's all given to you, you can wear it."

I smile knowingly.I really hope that Brother Qian will be able to marry the person he likes one day.

When I returned to the palace, I made a detour to the prince's wing.After all, I am now dressed as a male concubine, if someone sees me entering the prince's room, I will inevitably invite people to gossip.

As soon as I opened the door, I saw the prince sitting at the round table drinking alone.

"My lord..."

"Hmm." He drank to himself, "Let's change clothes."

I was stunned for a while before I realized that he was asking me to change into the clothes of the princess. "Yes, my lord..." As soon as I walked past him, my wrist was suddenly grabbed by him.I trembled in horror, only to see his long and narrow eyes staring at the bracelet on my wrist.

"Sent by Mr. Qian?" He asked coldly.

"Back to the lord... yes..." As soon as I finished speaking, he took off the bracelet in a hurry, and I couldn't help being stunned.

The prince hid the string under his skirt.But he said quietly, "Tomorrow, I will buy you a new pair."

My eyes were sore, and I resentfully said tremblingly, "My lord... Please return the bracelet to Ke Xue..." No... Is the lord jealous? ! ...how could he care about these things? !He can't be jealous that I wear what Brother Qian gave me!It must be impossible!  …

"I'm sorry..." But he suddenly apologized, "If you like it so much, I'll buy you an identical pair tomorrow."

No... I told myself over and over again.I can't believe you really care about me! ...Why do you care so much? Be so persistent? !In fact, you are just...you are competing with Brother Qian...it must be right? !

But I felt tears were about to pour out, I ignored the rules, turned around and ran away.

"Xue'er!" He stood up and grabbed my arm, and I was roughly pulled into his arms, "What's wrong with you?!"

"No! No!..." In an instant, my tears poured down like summer rain.I couldn't help crying, "I can't... I can't!..." I can't fall in love with him again!Can't!  …

"Why not?! Tell me!" I saw his brows furrowed, and his angry appearance made me hate myself.

I actually made him so angry... It was all my fault... Why should I tell him my feelings? !If I hadn't told him anything, we would still be in perfect master-servant relationship now.When I leave the palace, I can go more simply! ...why should I let him know that I like him? !

"Xueer...?"

That's right...as long as...as long as I let him know that I don't love him anymore, then the matter can be rectified?What did the prince say that he liked me for a long time... Actually, it's not true, right...?impossible……

"My lord... I'm sorry..." But I'm not reconciled...I obviously like him...I like him, what's wrong? !Why should I lie to him that I don't love him? !I can not be reconciled!I! ... "I... don't want to be your wife anymore!..." But for him, I must wake him up.I can't be willful anymore...

"……What?!"

"I...I am a man!...I don't want to be a man's wife...I want to be a good husband...I am not a woman who can be manipulated by the prince!..." Sadness stuck in my throat There is nowhere to disperse.My tears are like iron slurry, to engrave sorrow on my face forever.I felt my heart was tightened layer by layer by his red eye sockets.Seeing his unbelievable frown, I hated myself for making him suffer so much. "My lord..." My trembling tone was difficult to calm down, "I hate... woo!...I hate you!..." I bit my lower lip tightly, not allowing myself to express regret talk!

"Xue'er..." It was he who suddenly sighed and smiled, and hugged me tightly with both arms into that heart-piercing embrace.

"My lord?!..." I swallowed my tears, "I said I hate you?!..."

"Xueer," he stroked my long hair, "you like me."

"No!...No!..." There was no way he would know!  …

"Sher, I like you too."

"Huh?!..." I gasped as if I was drowning, my whole body trembling, "No way! You are the prince!...You like the princess!... .”

"Then I don't want to be a prince, isn't that all right?"

"No!...You!...Are you an idiot?!..."

"It doesn't matter if you are a fool, you are also Xue'er's fool. If you want to be a husband, then be my husband. In short, you are my Xue'er. In this life, you will only be mine."

Hearing this, I burst into tears.

How cunning! ......Why? !I have clearly made up my mind to leave him, but he still wants to pull me back? !Why? !Now, when the princess comes back, how shall we explain it to her? !How should I explain it to General Cui and the emperor? !

"Okay, don't cry. Xue'er will have a fever if she cries again?" He stroked my shoulder lightly, and then he didn't speak any more.

He stayed with me and hugged me silently until I stopped crying.