Time makes you fall

◎deep kiss◎

That was the first time Zhu Yao smelled Qu Qingcheng.

Qu Qingcheng never used perfume, and even hand cream was odorless, so Zhu Yao always thought that Qu Qingcheng had no smell at all.

It turned out that it was just that she wasn't close enough.

When she moved so close to Qu Qingcheng's face with the tip of her nose with a violent heartbeat, a burst of extremely faint fragrance came.

Zhu Yao didn't know if it was the smell of Qu Qingcheng's face cream, or just Qu Qingcheng's body fragrance.

It was a scent similar to camellia, warm and soft, with a little bit of astringency, like the only thin and shallow line under Qu Qingcheng's eyes, hiding Zhu Yao's moist and full youth, turning into a mature woman Only taste.

Zhu Yao was suddenly so nervous that his lips went numb.

At this moment, Qu Qingcheng in her arms, wearing furry home clothes, is gentle and amiable.But Zhu Yao thought of Qu Qingcheng standing on the podium five years ago, with a gentle smile that actually contained the confidence to control everything.

She is like a lighthouse, pointing out all the directions for Zhu Yao's gloomy youth.

Zhu Yao was just one of the countless students who looked up to her, sitting silently on the seat, watching Shang Xiaoran and her friends, surrounded Qu Qingcheng with cheerful smiles.

At that time, Zhu Yao, who had silent headphones in his ears and was always used to covering his face with his hair, thought that five years later, there would be a scene like tonight?

When she spoke, she realized that her numb lips were trembling slightly.

She said: "Qu Qingcheng, if you don't hide, I will really kiss you."

Qu Qingcheng closed his eyes and said softly: "Do you think you are very courageous?"

Zhu Yao was taken aback.

That's the line of the teacher named Xuran played by Min Jiawen in the movie.

Zhu Yao said: "Do you want me to be Zhu Yao, or Xiao Zhi?"

Qu Qingcheng still closed his eyes and said: "If you talk too much, I will kiss you."

As soon as she spoke, the faint fragrance on her body became more obvious when her breath was engulfed in it.

A long time later, Zhu Yao saw a saying that camellias were aphrodisiacs, but he didn't know if it was true.

In short, I don't know if it's because of the fragrance on Qu Qingcheng's body, or because of the hazy night, or because of the pattering rain outside the window.

It may be all of these superimposed, or it may have nothing to do with all of this.

Zhu Yao lowered his head and kissed.

Originally, according to the description in the script, Xiaozhi’s first kiss to Teacher Xu was competitive. Rather than kissing, it was more like biting, clumsy, rough and wild. , was pushed away by Teacher Xu.

Then Xiaozhi rushed into the rain alone just like she ran away from home that year.

Zhu Yao originally planned this way, according to the script description, he bit down on Qu Qingcheng's lips.

Originally, Qu Qingcheng was just accompanying her to experience the script.

But once the kiss is gone, everything is forgotten.

Zhu Yao has never kissed anyone before, and has never been kissed before, and the characters she plays are all very innocent, and she even has her first kiss on screen.All her kissing skills come from movies and TV shows she has watched, romantic and embarrassing ones, or novels with a little color.

Zhu Yao thought that her real first kiss would be as clumsy as described in the script, but she never expected it to be this... smooth.

It turns out that kissing does not require skills, it all depends on the instinct of the body.

In a feeling of dizziness resembling a fever, he forgot who stuck out his tongue first.

The lips are clear and clear, like jelly, pudding, cotton candy, like everything soft and elastic, with a fresh and sweet aroma.Even more powerful than these things, it has a natural attraction, and Zhu Yao's lips form the north and south poles of a magnet.

Almost colliding violently together, they can never be separated again.

Zhu Yao just wanted to go deeper, deeper, she wanted to swallow Qu Qingcheng's lips, she wanted to swallow Qu Qingcheng's whole body.

I don't know when the wet down jacket fell to the ground, maybe it was because Qu Qingcheng stretched his arms in and hugged Zhu Yao's body tightly against the dry racing skirt.

Zhu Yao originally thought that he took off his down jacket because he was afraid of getting Qu Qingcheng's home clothes wet, but later he realized that was not the case.

She just wanted to get closer to Qu Qingcheng, closer.

It is best to leave no gaps.

When taking off the down jacket, Qu Qingcheng's glasses, which he had been holding in his hand, were forgotten, and he let go of his hands and dropped them on the floor. He moved his foot in a panic, and broke half of the temple with a snap.

Qu Qingcheng took Zhu Yao's arm: "Don't worry about it."

When Zhu Yao uncontrollably opened the zipper of Qu Qingcheng's home clothes, she felt a kind of danger.

It was obviously just a kiss.

Obviously it was just a kiss from Xiaozhi to Teacher Xu.

Then how did he pry his lips and teeth open.

Later, he unzipped the zipper of the home clothes.

Things are spiraling out of control, like a derailed train.

Are they Xiaozhi and Xuran, or Zhu Yao and Qu Qingcheng.

The zipper of Qu Qingcheng's home clothes was caught on the fringe of Zhu Yao's racing skirt, causing things to pause for a moment.

When untying the entanglement between the two, if they want to, they can take advantage of this moment to calm down.

But Zhu Yao found that she didn't want to.

Her hands were in a hurry, she just wanted to go faster, and faster.

It doesn't matter if they are Xiaozhi and Xuran, Zhu Yao and Qu Qingcheng, or any characters in the world.

She is inseparable as long as there is no gap between them.

However, at this moment, there was a buzzing sound coming from the pocket of Qu Qingcheng's home clothes.

The phone rang.

Zhu Yao's hand stopped in the air awkwardly, his eyes adapted to the darkness, and he didn't need any lights to see that Qu Qingcheng's cheeks were flushed and his breathing was short.

Qu Qingcheng said again; "Don't worry about it."

But the phone kept ringing, Qu Qingcheng felt it out and pressed it, and the other party called again reluctantly.

Zhu Yao panted and asked, "Who is it?"

"my mother."

"You pick it up first, in case something happens."

"...Do you want me to pick it up?"

"Go ahead." Then continue.

Qu Qingcheng took two deep breaths, then picked up the phone: "Hello."

But Zhu Yao, who knew all the truth, could hear the panting and trembling in Qu Qingcheng's voice.

When Qu Qingcheng answered her mother's phone call, the small details in these voices brought unspeakable sweetness to Zhu Yao's heart, as if the two were secretly doing bad things together behind the back of an adult's surveillance.

Thrilling and intimate, unparalleled intimacy.

Zhu Yao leaned close to Qu Qingcheng's ear in the dark, nuzzled Qu Qingcheng's auricle lightly, and heard Qu's mother's voice on the phone: "Qingqing, why don't you answer the phone? Don't you always sleep during class preparation? Is it late?"

Qu Qingcheng asked a little bluntly: "What's the matter?" He seemed to have a premonition.

Mother Qu said: "Your dad and I just finished attending the celebration party in his department. Your dad invited Xiao Zhao to come over for dinner tomorrow. Aren't you going to study by yourself tomorrow? Come back and have dinner together."

Xiao Zhao.

Mr. Zhao.

Qu Qingcheng's parents found her a blind date.

Zhu Yao's movement of rubbing against Qu Qingcheng's ear suddenly stopped.

Just now she wanted to wait for Qu Qingcheng to hang up the phone to continue, but Qu's mother's words made everything just awkward like a farce.

Zhu Yao felt a little comforted by Qu Qingcheng's words, and she said to the phone, "I have something to do."

There was a brief silence over there.

Mother Qu's tone changed: "Are you sure you have something to do?"

"You... want me to check with your dad. What's the matter with you recently?"

Qu Qingcheng was silent for a long time, and Zhu Yao's heart rose higher and higher following Qu Qingcheng's silence.

In the end, Qu Qingcheng let out a sigh of relief and said, "Okay, I'll go."

Zhu Yao's heart fell to the ground with a bang, and the fall was painful.

******

After Qu Qingcheng hung up the phone, Zhu Yao sneezed in embarrassment, probably because it was raining just now, and now it was chilly.

Everything becomes awkward and out of place.

Zhu Yao said, "I should go."

Qu Qingcheng said "Yes", "I'll go find you a coat."

"No need." Zhu Yao quickly picked up the down jacket on the ground: "I'll just put this on, anyway, I'm going straight back to the hotel."

She went straight to the door, and Qu Qingcheng followed behind her.

She almost ran away from the road, her steps were so fast that she almost turned a corner, and there was a self-deprecating smile on her lips, trying to cover up something.

The moment she opened the door, Qu Qingcheng called out behind her: "Hello."

"What?" There was a self-deprecating smile on the corner of his mouth.

Qu Qingcheng hesitated for a moment: "I mean...you...do you want to stop me?"

"If I stop you, you won't go?"

Qu Qingcheng made up his mind: "Yes."

The self-deprecating smile on Zhu Yao's lips deepened, and she blurted out: "Why should I stop you? We're just experiencing the script together, aren't we?"

Perhaps at that moment, Zhu Yao strongly looked forward to Qu Qingcheng's denial.

But Qu Qingcheng didn't know whether he didn't hear Zhu Yao's intentions behind it, or because of other reasons, he just said calmly, "So that's how it is."

She took the initiative to open the door for Zhu Yao, and the rain outside stopped again, and there was no need for an umbrella: "Be careful on the road."

Zhu Yao said "Yes" and rushed out the door.

In the community of Qu Qingcheng's family, he could barely walk, but when he left the community, he ran faster and faster.

I ran past the 24-hour convenience store, the office workers who worked overtime and came home late, and the floor tiles with a corner missing. The water splashed from inside poured into Zhu Yao's white sneakers, making it icy cold.

Scattered passers-by looked at this girl running wildly wearing a long down jacket with astonishment on their faces.

Zhu Yao's hair is too messy and she runs so fast that no one can tell that she is Zhu Yao, a starlet.

She ran desperately, waving her arms, and the down jacket that was soaked in the rain was still heavy, dragging her whole body heavy.

Zhu Yao didn't stop until she was out of breath and her heart was beating violently like before she kissed Qu Qingcheng just now.

Arms propped up on knees, bent down, breathing heavily.

The cold night wind was like a sharp weapon, cutting repeatedly in his throat.

At that time, she was immersed in her own pain, completely ignoring what kind of mood Qu Qingcheng was in, and asked that sentence before she left.

After a long time, when she knew what kind of determination Qu Qingcheng had in asking that sentence, she regretted so much that she wanted to bite her own tongue, and she hated the cowardly self-abased self at that time extremely.

If there weren't so many coincidences superimposed together, she and Qu Qingcheng would have avoided such a big detour.

******

When Sister Mao came to pick up Zhu Yao the next morning, she stared at Zhu Yao's face: "Didn't Director Mei let you go on vacation last night? Didn't you come back to rest a long time ago? Why do you look like this?"

Zhu Yao smiled.

Sister Mao sighed: "Stop laughing, the more you laugh, the scarier you become."

There are two big dark circles hanging on the face, and the usually small but plump cheeks are sunken. It seems that I haven't slept well.

Sister Mao asked, "Are you unable to sleep because you didn't perform well last night, or because..."

Or was it because he went to see Teacher Qu later?

This is Sister Mao's speculation, and she is afraid that this speculation is true, Zhu Yao will be even more stimulated by telling it.

After all, people who have been in the entertainment industry for so many years are as good as her, and now they still can't tell what the relationship between the two is.

Weird.

Zhu Yao only said, "I'm fine."

Sister Mao thinks this is like a drunk person. Only those who really drink too much will stick out their tongues to show off: I am not drunk!

Sister Mao thought for a while and said, "If you haven't found the status yet, you can ask the crew for another day off, and I'll tell Director Mei."

She was afraid that Zhu Yao would go to the set if he was not in the mood, and be hit by Director Mei again. She was really hit by a child at such a young age.

Unexpectedly, Zhu Yao took a look at her: "It's not me who is strange now, but you are."

"You actually took the initiative to ask for leave for me. When I was away last night, were you kidnapped by aliens and changed your mind?"

Sister Mao smiled and threw a pillow on the bed at Zhu Yao: "Fuck you!"

It was okay, and she was still joking, so Sister Mao took Zhu Yao to the set.

Zhu Yao was silent all the way.

Although Zhu Yao is usually silent, but...

Sister Mao glanced at Zhu Yao while holding the steering wheel, leaned on the window frame with her elbows, and looked out the window with her chin in her hand, her mouth pursed.

It seems that she is looking at the scenery outside the window, and it seems that the scenery outside the window has not been seen by her eyes at all.

Sister Mao couldn't understand why a child in his early twenties had such an expression on his face.

Sister Mao became worried again, but before she was worried for a long time, the set arrived.

The theater manager was having breakfast, and Director Mei came early today, sitting there with a literary and serious expression, eating buns, a very weird and funny scene.

What Sister Mao didn't expect was that Zhu Yao walked directly towards Director Mei: "Director Mei."

Director Mei looked up at Zhu Yao, and handed over the unbitten buns: "Do you want buns? They're stuffed with leeks and eggs."

Zhu Yao took it, took a bite, and said, "I want to discuss with you, this morning..."

"I want to replay the scene that I didn't have last night."

"It was the scene where Xiaozhi and Teacher Xu first kissed."

Sister Mao who hid aside and listened was shocked: Zhu Yao looked like today, she thought it was difficult for her to concentrate on acting, but Zhu Yao even took the initiative to ask for a super-difficult replay?

It's only been one night, and you suddenly found your status?What happened when it was turned on?

Director Mei also took a look at Zhu Yao.

At this time, Min Jiawen also arrived on the set, and walked over to Director Mei and Zhu Yao who were talking: "Have you eaten steamed buns this morning?"

Director Mei waved his hand: "I don't have it here, I'll find the drama manager to get it for me."

Then he asked Min Jiawen: "Xiaozhu wants to play the first kiss scene this morning, what do you think?"

Min Jiawen flicked his hair: "I'm fine, come on anytime."

Zhu Yao took a bite out of the steamed stuffed bun, and bowed gratefully to Min Jiawen: "Thank you, Teacher Min!"

Min Jiawen burst out laughing.

So it was decided.

Director Mei is the kind of director who has high requirements for lighting and atmosphere. Last night, on a rainy night, it was just suitable for the scene of Xiaozhi and Teacher Xu's first kiss, so he was temporarily brought up.

But Director Mei is also the kind of director who relies on atmosphere to create a sense of film. For him, the status of actors is above all else, and he can use technical means to make up for everything that is exhausted.

The thick blackout curtains were pulled up, the lighting engineer was in place, and a camera lens was changed, and Director Mei planned the scene.

Min Jiawen arrived early today, she put on makeup first, and Zhu Yao sat on the ponytail and waited, gnawing on the steamed stuffed bun that Director Mei had just stuffed for her.

Sister Mao watched her secretly for a while before walking over: "You..."

"Ok?"

"Do you know what kind of filling is in the buns you eat?"

Zhu Yao answered seriously: "Chives and eggs."

Sister Mao snorted: "You still know, I think you are absent-minded, thinking about how to act in the scene of the first kiss?"

Sister Mao has read Zhu Yao's script and worked very hard. Basically, every scene is colorfully drawn with markers. An action is broken down into five, six, seven, eight steps, just like a high school student's textbook full of notes.

Unexpectedly, Zhu Yao gnawed on the bun and shook his head, his cheeks bulging like a small animal: "I didn't think about anything."

"It's empty."

"Then you..." Before Sister Mao asked her worries, Zhu Yao was called by the makeup artist to put on makeup.

Sister Mao had no choice but to sip a cup of soy milk with anxiety in her heart.

Ten minutes later, Zhu Yao walked towards her with makeup on.

Zhu Yao's makeup is very simple, big thick black eyeliner, fly-legged eyelashes, and shiny cheap lipstick. What I want is that kind of rough texture, so the makeup artist swishes and swishes the makeup quickly, the less delicate the better.

Sister Mao bit Zhu Yao's soymilk sippy, and felt that Zhu Yao's state today was a bit amazing with this makeup.

The dark circles under the eyes that are not completely covered suppress the kitsch of flying black eyeliner and exaggerated eyelashes, as if this character has a story and a soul all at once.

With what kind of yearning for Teacher Xu, she was tossing and turning on the steel frame bed in the cheap dormitory, and what kind of mood was she putting on such a mask for herself to sell laughs and wine?

Does she hope that Teacher Xu will stop her, or does she hope that Teacher Xu will not stop her?

Seeing Zhu Yao's expression and face, Sister Mao suddenly felt that today's scene was right.

With a sense of solemnity about sending her relatives to the battlefield, she asked Zhu Yao: "Is there anything else my sister can do for you?"

Zhu Yao asked, "Did you bring chewing gum?"

Sister Mao: "...That's it?"

Zhu Yao pulled up her lips covered in bright red lipstick and smiled: "I ate steamed buns stuffed with leek and egg in the morning, and I'm going to do a kiss scene later, isn't that very important?"

Sister Mao took out two pieces of chewing gum and threw them to Zhu Yao, who followed the stylist to change clothes.

The stylist accompanied Zhu Yao to the door of the room on the second floor: "I'll wait for you outside, and I'll help tidy up when you come out."

Zhu Yao said "Okay" and went in holding his clothes.

This plaid skirt imitating a racing driver was worn back by her last night, and it was a little wet from the rain-soaked down jacket. Zhu Yao was afraid that it would not be dry the next day or that wrinkles would be left, so she took a hair dryer to blow it up last night. Blow dry.

At that time, she had already decided in her heart that she would act in the first kiss scene this morning.

Now she was chewing the mint-flavored chewing gum that Sister Mao gave her, and a cool feeling went straight to the top of the sky, and she changed into a skirt facing the floor-to-ceiling mirror.

That chilly feeling from last night is back.

It seemed that before seeing Qu Qingcheng, when she was walking in the yard alone, the moisture from the rain on the floor tiles penetrated directly into her calf.

Zhu Yao looked at his own face, which was expressionless in the mirror, and thought——

This feeling is right.

******

Zhu Yao sat blankly on the ponytail, chewing the gum in his mouth.

Although it was late autumn, she was wearing a costume that could hardly cover anything, and she only wore a long coat when she came out of the camera, but the temperature in the studio was high and the lights were hot. A thin layer of fine sweat.

After Zhu Yao performed the two scenes just now, he felt hot, so he asked Sister Mao for two more chewing gums, thinking that the cool mint flavor could cool down.

Maybe it was the two scenes just now that made her blood boil, until now sitting here, when she lowered her head, she seemed to be able to see the bright red blood, which was flowing rapidly in a blood vessel protruding from the back of her hand.

With anger, restlessness, restlessness, eagerness, and everything that is unique to puberty.

Sister Mao was sitting on the side, watching Zhu Yao chewing gum in a daze, wondering if Zhu Yao was in a play, and did not dare to talk to her.

When Min Jiawen came over, Zhu Yao stood up and greeted him, "Teacher Min."

Min Jiawen asked her, "Is there a play?"

Zhu Yao smiled: "It's sort of." To be honest, until now, she still can't distinguish the specific feeling of entering and exiting the play.

Min Jiawen said, "Turn around."

"what?"

"Turn around, 360 degrees, let me see."

Zhu Yao didn't understand why, and turned around obediently and ignorantly, while Sister Mao laughed while watching.

Min Jiawen looked at Zhu Yao and said seriously: "I just want to take a good look at you, Zhu Yao, do you know?"

"The best actress in this movie is likely to be you and not me."

Zhu Yao was startled: "Mr. Min, don't scold me."

Min Jiawen smiled: "Don't believe me."

"The two scenes you played just now were amazing."

******

After Min Jiawen left, Zhu Yao sat back on the ponytail, thinking about the two scenes he had just acted in.

The first scene is the first kiss between Xiao Zhi and Teacher Xu, which was not performed last night.

Zhu Yao didn't realize how wrong he acted last night until he grabbed Min Jiawen's forearm.

Where did the five, six, seven, eight steps she disassembled come from?

Relying on an instinct of the body, with anger and anxiety.

What was in her mind was last night at the entrance of Qu Qingcheng's house, a phone call that Qu Qingcheng answered, the kiss that made her coquettish, embarrassingly frozen in Qu Qingcheng's ear.

What did she want to do then?

She bit Min Jiawen, or Xiao Zhi bit Teacher Xu, or Zhu Yao in her heart bit Qu Qingcheng.

Biting and kissing, with rapid gasps and restless whimpers, trying to swallow the person in front of him whole.

By crushing those who can't figure it out, will the two of them be completely integrated without any separation.

Min Jiawen temporarily added a line: "He Xiaozhi, are you a dog?"

Zhu Yao impatiently clung to Min Jiawen, as if being chased by fear, he had to blend in with Min Jiawen.

Immediately, now, immediately.

But was pushed away by Min Jiawen.

Zhu Yao's expression, or Xiao Zhi's expression, was a little wronged and a little bit surprised, and he took a deep look at Min Jiawen.

The next second, he rushed out of the house.

At that time, Zhu Yao's mind was full of him running out of Qu Qingcheng's house last night and running like crazy on the deserted street.

Did she and He Xiaozhi feel the same way back then?