Time makes you fall

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As soon as Zhu Yao's words came out of his mouth, Qin Tian was stunned: "Are you going to call Teacher Qu?"

Zhu Yao: "Isn't the mobile phone turned on for global communication? Could it be possible to call Teacher Qu and still be able to get through?"

"Who is talking about technical aspects with you..." Qin Tian waved his hand: "I mean, haven't you all been in touch for half a year?"

Half a year ago, before the filming of "My Teacher" was finished, Qu Qingcheng left Zhu Yao's world.

He was decisive and decisive, without looking back.

Qin Tian felt that Zhu Yao should have gone to find Qu Qingcheng secretly, but there was nothing to say.

In short, the two have never had any contact since then.

Qin Tian was clear about Zhu Yao and Qu Qingcheng's affairs. After all, after a movie was finished, she and Zhu Yao were also "broken in love".

During that time, the two of them were very depressed. Apart from anesthetizing themselves with work, they couldn't tell others about their depression, so they could only ask each other to drink together.

Every time Qin Tian gets drunk, he scolds: "Min Jiawen is a bastard! Zhu Yao, you must snatch her Golden Deer Queen and piss her off!"

That is to say, when Zhu Yao really took the Golden Deer Shadow tonight, and the two of them walked to the burger restaurant together, Qin Tian stomped on Zhu Yao with his high heels again: "You actually robbed Miss Jiawen?" The Golden Deer Queen! What should I do if she is sad!"

And every time Zhu Yao drank in silence, he didn't say that Qu Qingcheng was good, nor that Qu Qingcheng was bad, as if he couldn't mention Qu Qingcheng at all.

It was Qin Tian who pried the truth out of Zhu Yao's mouth about Qu Qingcheng's departure.

Qu Qingcheng said that her mother would come to the house the next morning to make small wontons and not let Zhu Yao stay overnight. This was of course a cover.

She just didn't want to face Zhu Yao again after Zhu Yao let her down.

When Zhu Yao knocked on the door of Qu Qingcheng's house the next morning with a smile on his face, carrying pancakes with two eggs and two sausages, and a stomach full of confession words, he couldn't knock on the door no matter what. up.

Qu Qingcheng was not there.

When Zhu Yao came out of the set that night, the sky cast the moonlight that reminded her of "May I be like a star king, like a moon, and every night is bright and clean", she went to Qu Qingcheng's house again and knocked on the door, but Qu Qingcheng was still not there.

On the third day, Zhu Yao, who hadn't slept for two days, went to Qu Qingcheng's house to knock on the door, but there was still no one. She kept calling Qu Qingcheng and tried to get through, but no one answered.

That day, Zhu Yao asked the assistant director to change the number of scenes she was filming, and waited at Qu Qingcheng's house for an hour, calling all the time.

On the way back to the hotel, my hands were too cold to hold the phone, so I kept calling.

The mobile phone has always remained in that state: it rings until it is cut off, and no one answers.

From then on, Zhu Yao finally realized a fact——

Qu Qingcheng left.

She moved and made up her mind not to answer Zhu Yao's calls.

Cutting off all opportunities to meet and cut off all contact, she chose to stay away from Zhu Yao's world completely.

The next day, Zhu Yao called the property management of the community, confirming his conjecture:

"The house opposite our studio, stacked on top..." Zhu Yao asked, "Is no one living there now?"

"Yes, the landlord wants us to rent out the house." The property owner was very enthusiastic: "Did you also take a fancy to this house to make a movie?"

"Not for now." Zhu Yao's voice suddenly became muffled.

I don't know how I hung up the phone.

Another day later, Zhu Yao asked the assistant director to put her play on the front row as much as possible, and the show would end before nine o'clock, and then rushed to Qu Qingcheng's school.

Soon it was time for the students to study by themselves in the evening. Although the night was dark, Zhu Yao estimated that many of the students had seen her play, so he wore a hat to cover his face before sitting on the safety fence by the roadside to smoke.

Not long after, I saw Qu Qingcheng's car driving out of the school.

Zhu Yao breathed a sigh of relief.

Qu Qingcheng didn't know where she moved, maybe it was her parents' house, maybe she rented another house, but fortunately, she didn't change jobs.

Zhu Yao wanted to contact her, but there was still a way.

Zhu Yao originally wanted to confirm whether Qu Qingcheng was still in No. [-] Middle School that night, and then made a long-term plan. She never expected that once Qu Qingcheng appeared, she couldn't take her eyes off her.

I haven't seen her for three days, I miss her so much.

It turns out that the ancients said that "not seeing each other in a day is like three autumns", they are really not exaggerating.

Zhu Yao didn't see Qu Qingcheng for three days, her world went from the singing of cicadas in summer to the ground covered with yellow leaves, from the snowy ice edge to the yellow sand in spring, and went through the cycle of four seasons, as if nine years had passed in an instant .

If this continues, will she grow old very quickly?

But when she saw Qu Qingcheng that night, she realized that the time in her world had stopped for an instant.

The wind stopped making noise, the moonlight condensed in mid-air, and everyone around them turned into funny characters playing wooden man games, maintaining strange postures and turning into a motionless and silent background.

In her world, only Qu Qingcheng was driving a white BMW slowly past her.

Zhu Yao stared blankly.

Qu Qingcheng wore familiar gold-rimmed glasses and a familiar white cashmere high-necked white coat. His fingernails holding the steering wheel were slightly pink. His face was still fair and delicate, like the white daffodil in Zhu Yao's memory.

However, by coincidence, when Qu Qingcheng drove past the safety fence, he glanced this way.

Zhu Yao was stunned on the spot.

Although she was wearing a big and long down jacket, others couldn't tell it was her, but of course Qu Qingcheng could recognize her.

However, Qu Qingcheng's eyes did not have half of the gentle look before, it was surprisingly cold.

Like the wind that froze the red fingers that night, like the frosted moon that fell to the ground that night.

Following Qu Qingcheng's gaze, Zhu Yao turned into an ice sculpture, because of that gaze, he couldn't move anymore.

Qu Qingcheng didn't stop after seeing Zhu Yao, and drove away in a swish.

It was as if he hadn't seen Zhu Yao at all.

It seemed as if she wished Zhu Yao could leave her world.

Zhu Yao didn't get up from the security fence until all the students had come out of the school and the security guards had already started to lock the gate.

Sitting with legs bent for too long, my legs are numb, and I staggered all the way, embarrassed and ridiculous.

In fact, just now, she wanted to catch up, and desperately slapped on Qu Qingcheng's car window, saying, "Qu Qingcheng, I tmd I like you, don't worry about anything and stay with me!"

but.

But when she was sitting on the safety fence, she received another call from Zhu Yinglan.

She knew why Zhu Yinglan called her that night.

Because that day, the edited photos of Qi Shengjun's wedding anniversary banquet came out. Although Zhu Yao and Zhu Yinglan had long since lost sight of Qi Shengjun's circle of friends, some friends who couldn't stand Qi Shengjun would repost it.

Zhu Yao saw it, and of course Zhu Yinglan saw it too.

In the photo, although Qi Shengjun is a lot older, he holds his wife and son with a contented face, like any ordinary but happy family of three in the world.Zhu Yao couldn't help zooming in on the photo, wanting to see if Qi Shengjun's youngest son, who grew up eating the tip of the watermelon, had a sweeter smile than her.

At that time, Zhu Yao knew that Zhu Yinglan, who was lying alone in the nursing home, would definitely call her.

So Zhu Yao sat at the gate of No. [-] Middle School, watching Qu Qingcheng's white car fade away, and heard Zhu Yinglan's dejected and vicious voice coming from the phone: "That bastard Qi Shengjun..."

Zhu Yao hung up the phone and couldn't help thinking: If Qu Qingcheng would have wanted to leave her world long ago.

If Qu Qingcheng didn't have to make her parents sad, and didn't have to sacrifice the things she valued the most.

So, will this bad thing that hurt her heart be a good thing for Qu Qingcheng?

Between good and bad, all her standards are only close to Qu Qingcheng's world.

Let her become a small dust and become a part of the mud that nourishes Qu Qingcheng, a narcissus.

She was crying and laughing in her heart.

******

Half a year passed like this, Zhu Yao thought that time would dilute everything.

But that sentence is bullshit.

Now Zhu Yao is sitting on the streets of Paris, watching Qin Tian cry and laugh at a box of ice cream, feeling that even a Big Mac can't fill the emptiness in his heart.

How can time dilute everything?

It turns out that true feelings are like wine, buried in the bottom of my heart, constantly fermenting, and becoming more intense as time goes by.

Zhu Yao finally realized: how could her feelings for Qu Qingcheng fade away?

They will quarrel, but they will also make up.There will be a cold war, but there will also be hugs.Maybe when they get along better, they will also speak harsh words to each other when they quarrel, jumping their feet angrily and yelling at jerks for such trivial things as whoever used up the roll paper and whoever used the microwave oven and left it on.

When the energy is surging, in order to gain the upper hand, he will recklessly say what the other party says, like sticking a nail in the other party's heart.

But after that, they will still pull out the nails with the most gentle hands, and then smooth out the marks left behind little by little.

After Qin Tian realized it, he encouraged her from the side: "Call me, call Teacher Qu!"

Zhu Yao began to hesitate again: "What time is it in China now? Will it disturb her to sleep?"

Qin Tian looked at his phone: "It's one o'clock in Paris, seven o'clock in China, and your teacher Qu is a person who has to go to morning self-study, so he should get up at seven o'clock."

"That's it, you wait until seven o'clock in the country to call, and there are still 10 minutes."

Zhu Yao: "Then... okay."

Maybe it was the few cocktails I had just had at the dinner party, and the stamina picked up. During the 10-minute waiting time, Zhu Yao's heart beat faster and faster.

She and Qin Tian stared at the phone together, seeing that the minutes from "59" finally jumped to "00".

Zhu Yao's heart was beating fast, and she was even more nervous than when she was awarded the award after being awarded the film.

She couldn't help but said, "Is it going to rain and the air pressure is low? Why do I feel a little lack of oxygen?"

Qin Tian pushed her arm: "Come on, it's clear that there is no cloud in the sky, okay, don't be cowardly, hit me quickly."

Zhu Yao: "Do you think...Mr. Zhao has returned, and they get along very well..."

"Or maybe she met other women... After all, it's been half a year, and she's so good..."

Qin Tian squinted at her: "Have you still not understood your teacher Qu? Which woman can compare to you in her eyes?"

Zhu Yao: "But..."

"Come on, when you just won the award and gave a speech on the stage, didn't you deserve to go up in front of the global audience!"

"But that sentence...doesn't mean anything, right...and she definitely won't watch the broadcast, and the duration of the domestic broadcast must be controlled, so the sentence I said must be cut out..."

"Stop it." Qin Tian asked her: "Do you want to fight? If not, I'll help you."

She made a gesture to take Zhu Yao's cell phone.

"Don't!" Zhu Yao hurriedly snatched the phone back: "I will call myself."

For such an important matter as Qu Qingcheng taking the first step again, how could he leave it in the hands of others.

Zhu Yao's wish must be fulfilled by himself.

She found Qu Qingcheng's number in the address book, and with a heartbroken heart, she dialed the number.

******

When dialing out the phone, Zhu Yao thought of countless worst-case possibilities: it won't be shut down, it won't be an empty number...

However, the call went through smoothly.

Qin Tian gulped at the side, staring at Zhu Yao without blinking, looking as nervous as Zhu Yao.

The phone kept ringing.

Zhu Yao curled up her fingers nervously, picking at her dress skirt.

Qin Tian couldn't help asking: "Did you borrow this dress?"

Zhu Yao said softly, "It's a gift from the brand."

Qin Tian said, "That's okay." She was afraid that Zhu Yao would be so nervous that he would dig a hole in the dress and have to pay for it.

Time is passing second by second.

Finally Zhu Yao said, "She... didn't answer."

The phone rang and hung up automatically.

Qin Tian said, "Hit one more."

Zhu Yao said, "No way...she definitely doesn't want to answer my call."

Qin Tian: "It's normal that she doesn't want to answer. If I were her, I would not only not answer your call, but I would call you out loud! Hey, I have a bad temper!"

Zhu Yao: "..."

Qin Tian asked: "Could it be that she doesn't want to answer your call, so you plan to give up like this?"

Zhu Yao said, "Of course not."

Qin Tian said: "Then it's over and we fight again."

Zhu Yao made another call.

Still no one picked up.

Qu Qingcheng didn't hang up every time, and when the phone rang, she hung up, as if she didn't hear Zhu Yao's call at all, even the gesture of "hanging up" was stingy to Zhu Yao.

Zhu Yao sighed, and rubbed his fingers against the empty hamburger box in front of him: "What should I do?"

Qin Tian suddenly asked: "Have you seen Lujiang?"

Zhu Yao was taken aback for a moment: "Huh?"

She has heard of Lujiang, that is, where many authors write various novels, there seems to be Lily, but Zhu Yao has mostly watched anime and played games since high school, so she has only heard of it.

Qin Tian suddenly became excited: "Although it is already past one o'clock in the morning, I am not sleepy when it comes to Lujiang! Let me introduce you!"

"You know that there is a kind of article there, which is dedicated to chasing wives and crematoriums. I will send you a few more copies on WeChat. You should read it quickly."

Zhu Yao opened her deer-like eyes in a daze: "Why?"

"Why..." Qin Tian also felt helpless about Zhu Yao's ability to understand: "Because chasing your wife and crematorium is your future! Best actress!"

******

Qu Qingcheng was lying on the bed in the bedroom.

This is her bedroom in her parents' house.

In southern homes, there are always two bedrooms for girls since they were young.Although she has a close relationship with her sister, her parents have always respected their independence, and the family has ample space, with two separate bedrooms.

My sister's bedroom is sunny and white with snow, the four treasures of the study plus calligraphy and hanging paintings.Qu Qingcheng's room is far-fetched, with band posters and an acoustic guitar in the corner.

When my sister was still there, my parents really didn't care much about her.Only her sister often came to her room and listened to her playing a newly written song in an off-key manner.

Looking back now, those songs are of course terrible.But back then, my sister listened very seriously, and she would applaud and say yes after Qu Qingcheng finished playing.

After my sister had an accident, my father's mental state plummeted, and the family didn't want to stay in the south anymore.

It's like staying in the city where my sister lived, and I'm afraid of touching the scene.

At that time, Qu Qingcheng had already set his goal of taking the teacher's school that his sister was admitted to. Fortunately, his parents were both high-ranking university professors, so it was not easy to transfer between colleges, so the family moved to Beicheng like this. .

When we arrived in Beicheng, in the newly bought house, there was only one girl's bedroom left.

The Four Treasures of the Study plus calligraphy and hanging paintings, it looks like spring and snow.

It was hard for Qu Qingcheng to say, with the disappearance of her sister's life, what completely disappeared in the world belonged to her sister's bedroom or Qu Qingcheng's bedroom.

Now, 30-year-old Qu Qingcheng is lying on the bed, looking at an acoustic guitar in the corner.

There was no dust, because there was a cleaning aunt at home, who cleaned it every day, but after her sister's accident, Qu Qingcheng never played again.

She went to the other extreme, living her life like a sister.

Qu Qingcheng withdrew his gaze, and landed on the mobile phone on the bedside table.

At seven o'clock, two calls came in on the mobile phone.

At that time Qu Qingcheng had already woken up, but he didn't know who would call her so early, so he picked up the phone to check.

An unfamiliar number with no name on it.

But when Qu Qingcheng looked at the 7325 tail number, his heart suddenly twitched.

The cell phone number that she severely deleted belonged to Zhu Yao.

The address book is deleted, but the memory in my mind cannot be deleted.

It's just that Qu Qingcheng didn't know, since he hadn't contacted her for half a year, why did Zhu Yao suddenly call her now?

She pulled up the air conditioner and covered her head.

I don't want to pick up.

No matter how long the mobile phone is buzzing on the bedside table, no matter how many calls Zhu Yao makes.

She wouldn't answer, wouldn't give Zhu Yao any response, and didn't even bother to hang up.

Lying on the bed for a long time, it was already past the time for Qu Qingcheng to get up every day, and Qu Qingcheng was still lying on the bed.

My mind is in a mess, thinking about my sister a long time ago, thinking about what happened with Zhu Yao not long ago, I don't know how to get up, hold my breath and start another day of life.

At this time, Mother Qu knocked on the door and came in: "Qingqing, are you not feeling well? Why haven't you gotten up yet?"

Qu Qingcheng got up from the bed: "No, I just didn't have my morning self-study this morning, so I want to lie down for a while."

Mother Qu smiled: "Get some rest, don't you have to go out to eat with Xiao Zhao tonight? You look good after resting."

Qu Qingcheng let out a "huh".

Mr. Zhao returned to Beicheng two weeks ago after finishing his studies, a month later than expected.

Qu's mother urged Qu Qingcheng to invite someone to dinner, and Qu Qingcheng said: "No need... Maybe they have a new partner."

"Who told you not to keep in touch with others!" Mother Qu gave her a slight look, "But don't worry, your Auntie Su has told me about everything, and Xiao Zhao is still single."

Qu Qingcheng said: "If someone has a girlfriend abroad, he may not necessarily tell his family."

"Oh, how do you know about this kind of thing if you don't contact him?" Mother Qu said, "Let's contact him. Xiao Zhao is such a good boy. Your father likes him so much."

When Qu's father was mentioned, Qu Qingcheng fell silent.

Seeing Qu Qingcheng's silence, Qu's mother also fell silent.

Both of them knew in their hearts that if Qu Qingcheng's sexuality was exposed, it would bring Qu's father a physical and mental blow.

As a result, on the second day, although Qu Qingcheng did not contact Mr. Zhao, Mr. Zhao took the initiative to contact her.

"Hello, Kiyosumi."

Even on the phone, one could hear a strong shyness in the voice.

Immersed in the academic world all the year round, I have little time to connect with the opposite sex, let alone fall in love, and there is a kind of jerky and innocence like a teenager.

Qu Qingcheng replied lightly: "Well, hello."

Mr. Zhao was very active in making appointments to meet for dinner. Qu Qingcheng always said that he was busy with work, so he made pushes and pushes, and Father Qu knew about it.

Qu's father hinted many times, but Qu Qingcheng was unmoved, so Qu's father gave her an ultimatum: If this job affects her normal life so much, don't do it as soon as possible.

I was so anxious that I developed high blood pressure and was admitted to the hospital.

Qu Qingcheng finally agreed to see Mr. Zhao, Mr. Zhao was very happy, and ordered a local restaurant according to Qu Qingcheng's eating habits.

Qu Qingcheng was sitting on the bed thinking about the meeting tonight, and Qu's mother shouted from downstairs: "Qingqing, why haven't you come down yet? If the soup dumplings get hotter, the skin will burst."

Qu Qingcheng responded, "Here we are."

When going out from the bedroom, Qu Qingcheng was thinking, if mother knew that she was going to completely reject Mr. Zhao tonight, would there be any more for this small soup dumpling.

******

Sitting at the dining table, Qu Qingcheng deleted Zhu Yao's two call records from his phone while Qu's mother was playing vinegar.

After breakfast, Qu Qingcheng drove to school.

She has two classes in the morning, one class for the second class and one class for the fifth class.

The final exam is coming soon, the new lesson has already been finished, and now is the time for comprehensive review.

What I am reviewing today is the famous article "Returning to Come" which is required for examination.

Qu Qingcheng stood on the podium and gave the students the key points: "Since I regard my heart as a form, I feel melancholy and lonely? I understand the past and don't remonstrate, and those who know the future can chase..."

After class, he answered the students' questions for a while. When Qu Qingcheng walked to the office with the textbook in his arms, he thought of these two sentences again.

The question the student asked her just now was the same, translating word by word.

In fact, it is simple to say, and the literal translation is nothing more than: realize that the mistakes of the past are irreversible, and know that there is still time to remedy the future.

Qu Qingcheng thought that she had indeed done something wrong in the past.

I bound myself to my sister's life, used my father as a cover, and pinned all my hopes of changing my life on Zhu Yao, who was six years younger than her.

Why does Zhu Yao have to bear this?

Of course Zhu Yao is not brave, he trapped himself in Zhu Yinglan's emotional shackles.But Qu Qingcheng himself, how could he be brave?

When she was with Zhu Yao, she always couldn't figure this out, and always confused whether Zhu Yao had the courage to confess, and how much Zhu Yao liked her.

But she only forgot her own role.

Now that they have been separated for more than half a year, Qu Qingcheng has thought a lot by himself, but it has become more and more clear——

The only person who can change her life is herself. Her father's physical and mental emotions are something she needs to face and resolve by herself. That is not an excuse for her not being able to face her true self.

She doesn't need Zhu Yao, all she needs is herself.

As for Zhu Yao...

Qu Qingcheng thought of the two missed calls this morning, and pursed the corners of his mouth sullenly.

As for Zhu Yao, go back where you came from!

Qu Qingcheng walked towards the office with the textbook in his arms, his footsteps became more and more firm.

******

In the afternoon, the usually empty office was still full.

The final exam is coming soon, and the teachers are all concentrated in the office to draw the test points and issue the papers.

The day in June was getting hotter and hotter. Everyone buried their heads in work for an hour or two and felt a little bored.

One of the teachers took out his laptop: "Did you know about the award ceremony at the Golden Deer Film Festival last night?"

Qu Qingcheng stood up suddenly: "I, I'm going to the bathroom."

The author says:

感谢在2021-11-0714:34:03~2021-11-0816:03:21期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: 1 Huosen;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Aga, one;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Mu Chenyan, the piece in the middle of the watermelon is for you to eat, and Zhaohai one;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：空巷20瓶；340083469瓶；南极五月5瓶；十顾zy、阿娜2瓶；付念芷的宝1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!