Time makes you fall

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Qu Qingcheng fled all the way to the bathroom in a hurry, only to breathe a sigh of relief.

Of course she knew that the awards were presented at the Golden Deer Film Festival last night, and that the movie starring Zhu Yao had been nominated for many awards.

In the previous month, since the news of the film's shortlisting came out, Zhu Yao's various interviews suddenly increased.

Although Qu Qingcheng refrained himself from searching for any news about Zhu Yao on the Internet, occasionally when he was lying in bed and scrolling through Weibo before going to bed, Zhu Yao's photos and interviews would still pop up in the trending list.

Qu Qingcheng didn't check Weibo very much before, but now she often reads it. She refuses to admit that it's because of Zhu Yao's habit.

Anyway, she never searched for Zhu Yao, so how could it be because of Zhu Yao.

It's just that when news about Zhu Yao pops up in the trending list, she can't help but look at it twice.

Looking at Zhu Yao's still photos, the background can be shot at a hot pot restaurant in Shancheng with a cool feeling of a big name.

Watching Zhu Yao being interviewed, he doesn't like to laugh, even when he mentions that his favorite cartoon character is Crayon Shin-chan, he still has a calm expression on his face.

Looking at the Reuters photo of Zhu Yao's new film, he is wearing an ancient costume and holding an orange in a daze on the set, which is a bit cute.A pair of deer-like eyes looked up at the sky, as if following the high sky and wandering clouds, missing someone.

After reading it for a while, Qu Qingcheng ordered himself not to even read Weibo.

Because the bits and pieces of news about Zhu Yao popping up from every corner of Weibo always upset her.

Those overly good-looking faces with heavy makeup or light makeup always reminded her that this face was always without makeup in front of her, with fresh eyebrows and eyes, under the soft desk lamp at night, in the morning sunlight shining into the room, looking at She smiled softly.

That's all very, very far away.

Those were all things that Qu Qingcheng should not think about anymore.

It's just that there is a female teacher in the office, who is a movie fan. From her chat, Qu Qingcheng had to know the exact time of the Golden Deer Film Festival, and how the domestic entertainment circles treat Director Mei's movies and how they treat them. Min Jiawen and Zhu Yao have high hopes.

The female teacher said: "Although Zhu Yao is young, and the previous online dramas were a bit ridiculous, at least in this movie, I think she is better than Min Jiawen."

"How should I put it, the kind of movie face that is born with drama."

Qu Qingcheng held the red pen for batching homework, and instinctively cheered up in his heart.Soon, he became unhappy because of his own happiness.

It's none of Zhu Yao's business now.

Yuan Yi, who teaches chemistry, is a good friend of Qu Qingcheng. Although she is not interested in movies, she has a lively personality and wants to get involved in everything, so she actively asked: "That movie by Zhu Yao seems to be about a teacher, right? "

"exactly."

"Isn't it not released in China?"

"Oh, if you want to see it, there is a way." The female teacher smiled mysteriously: "Do you want to see it? I have the resources."

"How can I understand such a deep movie, what kind of popcorn movie do you have for me to watch?" Yuan Yi waved her small hand, and she was very clear about her position: "Why don't you show Teacher Qu, Teacher Qu Very artistic."

Qu Qingcheng was just holding a red pen and eavesdropping silently. At this time, Yuan Yi suddenly cueed her on the topic about Zhu Yao, which made her stunned.

"I'm not literary..." Qu Qingcheng said.

"Really?" Yuan Yi asked: "Then what movie do you like to watch? Dare you tell me?"

"...SpongeBob SquarePants vs. Ultraman Iron Armor."

The movie fan teacher was about to die of laughter: "And this movie? So strange?"

Qu Qingcheng bowed his head and did not speak.

She just wanted to run away from any topic about Zhu Yao.

The same is true now.

She knew that last night was the awards ceremony of the Golden Deer Film Festival, but she turned off all the news pop-up windows on her phone.

She didn't want to know anything about whether Zhu Yao won or didn't win the prize.

She didn't want to be happy for Zhu Yao, let alone feel lost for Zhu Yao.

She just wants to live her own life well and leave Zhu Yao far away.

******

Qu Qingcheng dawdled in the bathroom for a long time before returning to the office.

The office has returned to a quiet place. The teachers are all immersed in their own work. No one is talking about the Golden Deer Film Festival anymore. This makes Qu Qingcheng heave a sigh of relief.

But on the desk of the movie buff female teacher, the laptop was turned on, playing the live broadcast of the Golden Deer Film Festival at a very low volume.

Qu Qingcheng: ...

It was probably the consensus reached by the teachers that the awards ceremony was used as the background sound to offset the boringness of the test preparation work.

When Qu Qingcheng walked back to his seat, he saw a mango on the desk.

She looked up and looked around, and saw the movie fan teacher smiled at her and said to her with her mouth: "I will give it."

Qu Qingcheng smiled, and said silently with his mouth: "Thank you."

Every teacher's desk was given a mango by the movie fan teacher.

After sitting down, Qu Qingcheng couldn't help thinking about what this meant.

After all, it is to use this festive color to celebrate Zhu Yao's movie winning the award.I still use this sour taste, but I regret that Zhu Yao's film did not win an award.

Although Qu Qingcheng tried his best to devote herself to the work of producing the papers, the extremely low volume from the computer still kept attracting her attention.

The movie fan teacher played a video rebroadcasted by a foreign website, without Chinese translation, but with English translation and simultaneous sound.

Qu Qingcheng's English is pretty good, and then he went to Canada for a while, so it's no problem to listen to the English voice at the same time.

She heard that the winner of Best Supporting Actress was a well-respected foreign actress.

It was also heard that the winner of the Best Supporting Actor award was a talented young fresh meat.

The Best Actress award will be awarded soon, and Qu Qingcheng "had to" know from the movie fan teacher that both Zhu Yao and Qu Qingcheng were shortlisted for this award.

Holding the pen, she pushed the gold-rimmed glasses on the bridge of her nose, and quietly raised her eyes to look around.

The other teachers were all concentrating on their work, and apparently just listened casually to the video of the Golden Deer Film Festival that was playing.

The only ones who were really listening seriously were the movie fan teacher and Qu Qingcheng.

Qu Qingcheng lowered his eyes again, acting as if he wasn't listening.

However, the blue-eyed and red-haired famous actress in the video, whose native language is English, already said in Qu Qingcheng's familiar voice: "The winner of the best actress at this year's Golden Deer Film Festival is—"

Qu Qingcheng tightened his fingers holding the pen.

The movie fan teacher shouted excitedly: "Hurry up! The part where I wish Yao Yao the award has begun!"

"I'm coming."

The teachers were probably all tired from work and wanted to take this opportunity to relax, so they all gathered around at this moment.

Qu Qingcheng was left alone, holding a pen and sitting still on the seat, with an expression of no interest.

It's just that Qu Qingcheng's heart trembled twice following the shout of the movie fan teacher:

Zhu Yao...won the award?

Zhu Yao, who was just 23 years old...won the Best Actress award at the Golden Deer Film Festival?

This incident happened to someone who was once very close, Qu Qingcheng felt a little unbelievable.

She couldn't help walking over, looking at the computer screen through the backs of many teachers, and glanced at it from afar.

She was standing far away, and the computer screen was small, so Zhu Yao's face could not be seen clearly.

All I saw was Zhu Yao's swaying black dress, which was already slender and attractive without any decoration, and her fair face with dark red lips, even if she couldn't see her facial features clearly, she could already feel her glamorous and stunning appearance.

As Zhu Yao walked towards Limai with a cold face, her long black hair without any decoration fluttered slightly on her shoulders.

The movie fan teacher said proudly: "Do you know how many photos those foreign reporters took of Zhu Yao? This is called winning glory for the country based on appearance hahaha."

Yuan Yi said positively: "I've seen it, I saw those photos this morning! Wow, are those real live photos? It's even more beautiful than refined ones!"

The movie fan teacher said: "Zhu Yao seems to have taken a group of bus portrait photos. That one has been intensively edited, but it hasn't been released yet."

Yuan Yi said with emotion: "Speaking of which, Zhu Yao is still a student of our No. [-] Middle School. Hey, it's also a face. Look at how his face is long, and how our face is long."

She suddenly smiled and cueed to Qu Qingcheng: "Of course this does not include Teacher Qu. Our teacher Qu is also very good-looking. By the way, Teacher Qu, Zhu Yao used to be your student, right? Did you know her well before?"

Qu Qingcheng said coldly, "Not familiar."

At this time, Zhu Yao in the video was delivering his acceptance speech, fluent and standard English with a sentence in French, which attracted constant applause and laughter from the audience.

Just after Qu Qingcheng finished saying "unfamiliar", Zhu Yao in the video suddenly switched to Chinese:

"Hi Teacher Qu from the other side of the world, I wonder if you can see what I said, I want to thank you, because without you, there would be no He Xiaozhi in this movie."

"But it doesn't matter, what matters is that I miss you very much."

Yuan Yi was dumbfounded: "Unfamiliar?"

"But our newly-promoted Queen Zhu Ying, the teacher Qu in his mouth, can't it be you?"

******

Tonight, Qu Qingcheng didn't have a late self-study, but he wanted to discuss some matters with his colleague who was writing the Chinese final exam papers. The time for dinner with Mr. Zhao was relatively late, at about 08:30.

When Qu Qingcheng rushed to the restaurant that Mr. Zhao had reserved, Mr. Zhao had already arrived and was sitting at the dining table waiting for her. He hadn't seen her for more than half a year, and he still had a gentle and refined demeanor.

Qu Qingcheng sat over and said softly, "I'm sorry, I've been waiting for so long."

She was wearing the most common white shirt and jeans today, she hadn't dressed up at all, she didn't even wear much makeup, only a little light pink tinted lip balm.

But Mr. Zhao looked at her with surprise in his eyes.

At that moment, Qu Qingcheng suddenly thought of Zhu Yao's face.

Looking at it from a distance on the computer screen today, the black skirt has perfect muscles, and the red lips are cold, like the flower of the high mountain that rejects people thousands of miles away.

In Qu Qingcheng's eyes, that face could bear the word "amazing".

She was thinking about Zhu Yao, and Zhu Yao's name popped out of Mr. Zhao's mouth——

Mr. Zhao was obviously looking for a topic with Qu Qingcheng, whom he hadn't seen for a long time, and said with a smile, "Have you read the biggest news today?"

"The kid I met at your house before, your student Zhu Yao, has she become the Queen of the Golden Deer Movie?"

******

Faced with Mr. Zhao's sudden mention of Zhu Yao's award, Qu Qingcheng found an uncontrollable pride welling up in his heart.

But she soon became angry at her own pride.

So it's none of her business whether Zhu Yao won the award or not.

So she smiled and said to Mr. Zhao: "In fact, many of my students are very good."

"Although they have some jobs that go unseen in mundane jobs..."

Mr. Zhao was visibly surprised when he heard this—Ms. Qu's level of thinking is too high, it's too embarrassing for him to be an associate professor of a university.

But Qu Qingcheng wanted to bite his tongue more and more.

Omg what is she talking about.

In order to convince himself that Zhu Yao is not special, he even extolled the good virtues of shism...it must be because there were too many essays approved this afternoon.

Mr. Zhao answered: "I don't think there is anything about the actress, it's because I'm at your house..." Speaking of Qu Qingcheng's house, he was obviously shy: "Because I saw this kid at your house, I thought you know her very well."

"Unfamiliar." Qu Qingcheng said after taking a sip of water.

"Uh?"

"There are many students who are more familiar with me than this, who are not familiar with her at all."

"……yes?"

Mr. Zhao thought in his heart, he looked very familiar last time... It seems that he has spent too much time burying his head in ancient books, and he doesn't understand women's hearts at all.

At this time, Qu Qingcheng who was sitting opposite asked, "Mr. Zhao, what do you like about me?"

Mr. Zhao was taken aback.

What do you like about her?

In fact, his understanding of the matter of liking is still limited to "raising the eyebrows together". He thinks that Qu Qingcheng is gentle and elegant, which is very in line with the object he imagined in his mind.

But what about liking her...

Seeing him in a daze, Qu Qingcheng smiled instead: "Actually, I have something to tell you today."

******

When Qu Qingcheng returned home, it was already very late.

After talking clearly with Mr. Zhao, both of them felt a lot more relaxed, and they began to talk about some ordinary topics calmly, such as talking about Su Dongpo's famous dark dish that has been lost - Dongpo fried peony.

After bidding farewell to Mr. Zhao, Qu Qingcheng felt that even his shoulders were not so heavy. When walking from the garage to the door of the house, stepping on the moonlight, there was a feeling of "I want to go home by the wind".

Her parents' house is a detached villa, and the four-car independent garage is some distance from the house, and it takes a short walk.

In fact, Qu Qingcheng knew that this ecstasy feeling of stepping on the moonlight was also due to her drinking tonight.

The car is driven back by a substitute driver.

The local restaurant that Mr. Zhao found had mediocre dishes, but the wine pairing was very good.A bottle of red wine has a strong aroma of oak, Qu Qingcheng, a person who can't drink much, feels soft and lingering in the mouth.

Because I was relaxed, I drank too much without realizing it.

The reason why she felt relaxed was, of course, because she didn't expect that she would have the courage to do this.

I started to get into the dead end at the age of 17, and finally got out at the age of 30. Is it too late to find my own life?

Qu Qingcheng felt that it was not too late.

She still has a lot of life to do what she really wants to do.Even after more than ten years of pretending, she no longer knows what her real personality is, nor does she know what she really wants to do.

But what does it matter?She still has more than ten years to find her true self.

Just her.

There is no need for Zhu Yao, nor anyone else.

Thinking of this, she felt a little better. When she touched the key and was about to open the door, she sang the Song Ci that suddenly came to her mind: "I want to ride the wind to go back, but I'm afraid that Qionglou Yuyu, the heights are too cold... "

When he got closer, he found a person standing at the door, Qu Qingcheng was startled.

The street lights in her parent's neighborhood were also dim, with the bright moon shining down, so that the facial features of the people in front of her were not clear, and the hazy face was easy to see and gave birth to a sense of unreality.

It turned out to be Zhu Yao.

Wearing an old and worn-out white T-shirt, a pair of light blue jeans, with his hands in the pockets of his trousers, he just looked at her quietly like that.

I don't know how long I waited at the door.

Qu Qingcheng and Zhu Yao hadn't seen each other for more than half a year, and when they met again suddenly, Qu Qingcheng didn't expect that Zhu Yao's appearance would be so dim in her eyes.

But the familiar scent on my body, like a roof garden after the rain, has not changed at all.

The blood in Qu Qingcheng's originally calm veins surged unconsciously.

But she just watched indifferently, Zhu Yao asked her with some astonishment: "Have you been drinking?"

Qu Qingcheng nodded.

She, a person who can't drink, drank a little too much, and there was an obvious smell of alcohol coming out of her body, and her cheeks were also flushed. It was impossible to say that she hadn't been drinking.

Besides, why did she say she didn't drink alcohol?Zhu Yao can't control her either.

Zhu Yao smiled.

Qu Qingcheng instinctively wanted to ask, "Why are you laughing?", but even though she was a little dizzy from drunk, she was still sane and didn't ask.

She didn't want to talk to Zhu Yao.

Zhu Yao took the initiative to say: "I didn't expect you to be in a good mood...what did you do?"

Qu Qingcheng became angry after saying a word.

What do you mean by "unexpectedly" she is in a good mood?

Could it be that she couldn't be in a good mood if Zhu Yao wasn't with her?

Could it be that Zhu Yao didn't have the courage to confess to her, so he just hoped that she would remain depressed and trapped in his own shackles?

Qu Qingcheng said coldly: "Let me go, you are blocking the keyhole."

Zhu Yao put his hands in his jeans pockets, stood in front of the door like that, and said softly again: "I asked you what you were doing?"

"Nothing to do with you."

Zhu Yao was silent for a while.

"Hello, I left Paris early in the morning, and I didn't return to Beicheng Hotel..."

Qu Qingcheng looked at Zhu Yao.

It turned out to be like this, so the hair was a bit messy, the dark circles were a bit heavy, and she had no make-up, but Qu Qingcheng was very familiar with Zhu Yao's appearance, not like a new international actress.

But does this mean that Qu Qingcheng must answer her?

Qu Qingcheng didn't think so.

Qu Qingcheng just said again: "You are blocking the keyhole."

"Hey, Qu Qingcheng..." Zhu Yao didn't have the intention to step aside: "Answer me..."

"Qu Qingcheng... Qingqing?"

Qu Qingcheng suddenly raised his head and glared at her: "Don't bark!"

"Then why don't you answer me." Like a baby, I haven't seen you for more than half a year, and I still have such a familiar tone.

Qu Qingcheng became more and more angry: "Why should I answer you?"

But she didn't want to answer, someone's appearance automatically gave the answer.

The sound of light and elegant footsteps made Zhu Yao and Qu Qingcheng turn their heads at the same time.

Mr. Zhao obviously did not expect that there were people at the door so late, and he was even more surprised when he saw that it was Zhu Yao talking to Qu Qingcheng: "Uh..."

Qu Qingcheng asked softly, "Why are you here? It's not just that we separated."

Zhu Yao took a sharp look at Qu Qingcheng.

Mr. Zhao said: "You forgot your mobile phone in the restaurant. The waiter called me. I took it and brought it to you. I'm afraid you are in a hurry to use it..."

This idea is of course correct, it is too inconvenient for modern people to leave their mobile phones.

Qu Qingcheng took the phone and thanked him sincerely: "Thank you."

Zhu Yao looked at Mr. Zhao and asked, "Did you go to dinner together just now?"

"Correct."

"Why are you still drinking?"

"It's just... a little fun to talk about." Mr. Zhao remembered the dark dish "Dongpo Fried Peony" just talked about, and laughed unconsciously.

Seeing this smile in Zhu Yao's eyes, of course he didn't know what it meant, probably his heart was tingling, and there was a somewhat tangled expression on his face.

But Mr. Zhao, the iron and steel Yuzhi who has been obsessed with academics all the year round, can't tell it at all. He just smiled and said to Zhu Yao: "By the way, I haven't congratulated you on winning the award yet. The Golden Deer Queen is so amazing."

"Thank you." What Zhu Yao is worried about now is not her winning the award: "You guys now..."

She didn't know how to ask.

Qu Qingcheng naturally raised his head and said to Mr. Zhao: "When we meet on the weekend, don't eat this local restaurant. My colleague said that the new Cantonese restaurant is good. Let's try it?"

Zhu Yao took another sharp look at Qu Qingcheng.

"Okay." Mr. Zhao looked very happy: "Remember to check for me what I just said."

Qu Qingcheng let out a "huh".

Zhu Yao kept looking at her.

Just now, in order to take over the phone, Qu Qingcheng naturally walked to Mr. Zhao's side. Now that they are standing together, it is obvious that there are many common topics that Zhu Yao doesn't know about.

Zhu Yao stood at the door by himself at a distance, like a lonely outsider.

Qu Qingcheng didn't have any intention of alleviating this embarrassing situation, Zhu Yao looked at her, and she looked down at the shadow drawn by the moonlight on the ground.

Shadowy, twists and turns, like someone's mind going back and forth.

It was Mr. Zhao who said, "Is there anything Xiao Zhuying wants to do with Mr. Qu? After finishing speaking, would you like to come with me? I'll find a substitute driver to drive my car."

Qu Qingcheng said to Mr. Zhao, "You don't have to..."

At the same time, Zhu Yao's voice sounded: "Okay, then I will trouble you."

******

Before getting into the car, Mr. Zhao reminded Zhu Yao: "Uh...do you want to wear a mask or something?"

Zhu Yao's face, now I guess there is no one in the whole people who doesn't know it. When the substitute driver sees it later, he doesn't know how excited he will be.

Zhu Yao smiled, took out a mask from his pocket and put it on.

Mr. Zhao also laughed: "Do you celebrities always wear masks?"

"No way, the manager is strict."

After getting into the car, Mr. Zhao sat in the co-driver, Zhu Yao sat in the back seat, watching Mr. Zhao's newly cut hair tip protruding from the back of the seat.

Zhu Yao felt that Mr. Zhao was the kind of person who was refined and steady even on the tip of his hair.

She couldn't help asking: "You and Mr. Qu... are you on a good relationship now?"

Mr. Zhao didn't know what he thought of again, he laughed for a while and said, "It's not bad."

"Did you have dinner together again on the weekend?"

"Well, I have something to talk about."

Zhu Yao looked out the window and said nothing.

Mr. Zhao asked: "You just finished participating last night..." He glanced at the driver: "You flew back to China today for that event?"

"Well, there is a line of work at the back, and the time is very tight."

"I came to see Qingcheng just after I came back, is there something urgent?"

When Zhu Yao heard him call "Qingcheng" naturally and affectionately, she felt another prick in her heart. While thinking about her own thoughts, she replied absent-mindedly, "Well, it's quite urgent."

Mr. Zhao smiled: "Qingcheng also said that you are not that familiar. I think you are quite familiar. Maybe she has a good relationship with too many students. I am quite envious of her."

Zhu Yao's heart skipped a beat: "She said... we don't know each other well?"

Mr. Zhao replied: "Yes."

The author says:

感谢在2021-11-0816:03:21~2021-11-0916:43:50期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: 1 Huosen;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the grenade: Aga, one;

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Mu Chenyan, Zhao Hai, and the middle piece of watermelon, I will give you one;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：Mirror、空巷10瓶；照海5瓶；阿娜2瓶；50550845、十顾zy1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!