Hold on, we can win

Nanjing, the inpatient department of a hospital.

A young man with a hairy head was lying on the bed in a hospital gown, and a series of notification messages came from his mobile phone.

He didn't want to read the news, but after seeing the note, he hesitated for a few seconds and clicked in.

"Where have you been."

"I miss you."

"I miss you so much."

"Why don't you reply to my message."

The young man's eyes turned red, and he typed a line in the dialog box.

He is hesitating, wandering in pain.

"Dong dong!"

At some point, the nurse who made the rounds came and knocked softly on the door to remind him: "Before there is a suitable bone marrow match, the patient should take a good rest to enhance immunity. You should be very clear about the severity of your condition. If you want to increase The probability of recovery, please rest early."

"Ok."

The young man's eyes turned red when he saw the heart-pounding words.

Thinking of the extent of my illness, I deleted all the text in the dialog box and typed a new line.

He gritted his teeth, clicked send tremblingly, then turned off the phone and threw it under the pillow.

Tears flowed uncontrollably, almost soaking the entire surface of the pillow.

……

Los Angeles...

The male dormitory building of the University of Los Angeles.

"Ding dong!"

Qin Huai, who was crying while listening to the song while hiding under the blanket, received a message.

After seeing who posted it, I wiped away my tears and quickly opened it.

"I'm studying abroad, so I don't need to contact you in the future, this is the end of our relationship."

"Buzz!"

Qin Huai's brain buzzed when he saw the only message replied by Shen Liao, who had been missing for two days.

At first I was dumbfounded for a few minutes, and then my whole body trembled, tears streaming down like rain.

I have studied abroad...

Don't need to contact me again...

So much between us...

Obviously it's just a paragraph of text, but why can every word be like a sharp knife to poke the heart.

Qin Huai couldn't stop crying when he read this text, the pillow was already soaked.

Even cried out the snot.

He could not wipe his tears, but he couldn't help not to wipe his nose.

Reaching out for a roll of paper on the bedside table, she wiped her tears and began to blow her nose.

"Brother Huai, cover it thicker at night, it's almost winter, don't catch a cold!"

However, Qin Huai did not hear the sound from the outside world, he was in a sad mood and couldn't extricate himself.

He doesn't understand and doesn't understand.

why!

Why did you leave suddenly!

Why don't you have to get in touch again!

Why stop here!

Why on earth is this!

Did I do something wrong?

Or was it usually too cold and passive, which made Shen Lue retreat.

Looking at that line of text, Qin Huai's heart was cut like a knife, and tears fell like rain.

If you want to leave, why did you pester yourself before!

Why train yourself alone during military training.

Why hold yourself and run when your feet hurt.

Why buy a battery car and take it to military training.

Why do we have to take a bath together, sleep in the same room, and celebrate my own birthday.

He didn't like Shen Lue at first, but he just had a good impression.

If Shen Lie said at that time that he didn't need to contact him anymore, he would be sad too, but only for a while.

No contact, no contact, no big deal.

Let's live our own lives, whoever leaves doesn't mean he can't live.

But why do you say such things when it's time to almost pierce a layer of window paper.

What is this for!

Why did he choose to let go when he was completely fallen and wanted to fight against Shen Liao and the world.

That being the case, why did you approach him in the first place?

Qin Huai collapsed, hid under the quilt and hugged the wet pillow, crying bitterly.

He was afraid of being heard by his roommates, and he burst into tears without making a sound.

For the first time since his mother died, he broke down and cried.

After so many years, Qin Huai has never experienced anything, and the difficulties of life have never wiped out the light in his eyes.

But the pain of love made him distraught and wet his pillow late at night.

Qin Huai didn't know how long he had been crying while watching the words sent by Shen Lue, he only knew that his pillow was already soaked.

After his mood eased a little, Qin Huai took a deep breath, and began to look through the chat records with Shen Lue.

Beginning in September, look down paragraph by paragraph.

Qin Huai, with red and swollen eyes, read the chat records under the blanket, with a lot of subtle expressions on his face.

The chat history is like a life history, linked to real memory, every paragraph of text has a sense of picture.

Qin Huai hid under the blanket, flipping through the chat records from calm to surprised, from angry to happy, from laughing to crying...

He finally lived the life he used to laugh at, laughing and crying while chatting.

Qin Huai read the chat records of several months, page by page.

It wasn't until early in the morning that the roommate was snoring, and Qin Huai turned to the last page.

Seeing Shen Liao's last post, "I'm studying abroad, I don't need to contact you anymore, this is the end of our relationship", Qin Huai burst into tears again.

Thinking of so many sweet moments before, and watching the last conversation between the two, I couldn't control my tears at all.

The pillow, which hadn't warmed up yet, was drenched again.

people……

How can the relationship between people be so fragile.

A few days ago they slept together hugging each other, but today they don't need to contact each other again.

Often this gap is the most tear-jerking.

I don't know how long it has passed, but the tears can no longer flow.

Qin Huai turned on NetEase Cloud Music, unwilling to listen to "Wish You" again.

Because this song has already been bound to Shen Lue, when I hear the melody, I will think of the little note, and think of happy birthday to you that night.

He has collected it for several years and listened to it thousands of times and deleted May You from the playlist.

"Dreaming of You" by singer BlurryLights was played.

This song was something he heard on a daily basis, and he just liked the melody before.

I didn't understand the English dialogue interspersed in the middle, and I didn't try to understand it deliberately.

Until today, he did not understand the meaning of it.

It's not that this song represents a certain story, but the story in everyone's heart can be represented by this song.

When Qin Huai heard "iwokeup", he clicked the share button.

This was Qin Huai's response to Shen Luan.

4 minutes passed.

"Ding dong!"

At three o'clock in the morning, Shen Huo sent back a message.

Did not say anything, also shared a song.

It's "LettingGo" by the same singer BlurryLights.

Qin Huai clicked to play, and the melody was like sharp knives, cutting back and forth in his heart.

I clicked into Shen Liao's circle of friends, but found that there was only one line, and the others were not displayed.

Qin Huai has already guessed something, sent one? .

"The message has been sent, but it was rejected by the other party."

Qin Huai looked at the red exclamation mark and smiled, then cried, and the tears welled up again.

After being blocked, he completely let go of his desire to be strong.

"?Why!"

"? Why should I choose to leave when I am completely in love with you?"

"? I really love you, Shen Lue, I love you so much, I really love you so much!"

"? Please, don't leave me."

"? You are the light in my life, how will I live if you leave!"

Qin Huai sent a series of messages to the red exclamation mark.

What he would never say normally, humble, loving, longing, all said after being blocked.

After an unknown amount of time, Qin Huai, who had sent dozens of messages one after another, stopped.

He couldn't cry anymore.

To be precise, the tears have dried up.

His heart was so painful that he was numb, his heart was throbbing, and he was almost unconscious from the pain.

At around three o'clock in the morning, Qin Huai got out of bed after getting dressed, and went to the roof of the building, hugging his head and crying.

It was so hard to hold back in the dormitory, and all the emotions were vented on the roof.

Moon stars are rare.

The moon hangs in the sky like a jade plate, shining silver light.

It's obviously a reunion night, why should we separate.

Qin Huai felt that there was no light in this world.

The open window in his heart no longer shines in.

Having cried enough, Qin Huai stood on the roof of the building in despair, listening to LettingGo in a daze.

Is it a leap forward and all the pain will disappear.

Qin Huai closed his eyes and stood on the top floor of the ninth floor, like a walking dead.

At this time, the dialogue of the song came into his mind.

It was an English conversation, and he could vaguely understand the general meaning.

Qin Huai opened the lyrics display.

"I love you so much."

"But this is where I am now."

"And Ineedyoutoletmego."

"Asmuchas I want to."

"I can't live in your book any more."

"Where are you going?"

"It would be hard to explain."

"But you ever get there."

"come find me."

Looking at "comefindme", Qin Huai suddenly came to his senses.

After looking at the high school tens of meters away, he became afraid, and he took a few steps back.

How can you be so stupid!

He knew Shen Lue so well, how could Shen Lue leave him alone.

There must be a reason, there must be!

Isn't the dialogue in the music shared by Shen Lue a reminder to him?

comefindme (please come find me).

Qin Huai wiped away his tears, left the words "wait for me" in the comment area, and left the roof.

I will definitely find you!

must go!