Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

Xue Dingbang temporarily changed direction, and pressed the red mark on Chamberlain's collarbone: "Does it hurt?"

The tremors from the fingertips showed the answer, and Schrödingbang didn't need Chamberlain's answer.But deep down in his heart, he was inexplicably looking forward to Chamberlain's answer.

"Mm...Mr. Xue..." It was not only Chamberlain's body that was trembling, but also his voice, "It hurts a lot. Can it be lighter?"

Chamberlain raised his eyes and grabbed Xue Dingbang's wrist with a pleading face.The tears in the corners of his eyes were about to fall, his cold voice was trembling, and his eyelashes and eyeballs were trembling together.

Compared with the enchanting charm of Maeda Chris, Chamberlain seems so quiet and harmless.The impulse brought to men is not less at all.

Xue Dingbang can probably guess—what are the marks on his body for.

"Okay." Xue Dingbang withdrew his hand and carefully rubbed the foam on his hair, "If it gets into your eyes, tell me."

Chamberlain pursed his lips tightly and let out a soft hum from his nasal cavity.Xue Dingbang looked down to make sure that his face was not stained by the foam, and rubbed it carefully again.

Such fine and soft hair can easily produce a lot of foam, which tops Chamberlain's head like a pile of snowflakes.Xue Dingbang carefully massaged his scalp, and touched several soft tissue bruises, which were bulging and soft, and were different from other places.Every time he touched the bag on his head, Chamberlain carefully let out a small animal-like sound from his nose.

It seemed to be humming, and it seemed to be whimpering.But he didn't dare to cry out, he just grabbed the fabric on his knees and endured it.

This is probably a habitual action. When he and Chris Maeda quarreled in the clinic, he also grabbed his knee like this.

Xue Dingbang's subordinates were more gentle and tried not to hurt him.

"Okay, shall we wash off the foam?" Xue Dingbang took a clean towel and covered Chamberlain's eyes.I moved a bath stool and sat beside him, put his body on my knees, and flushed him, "Is the water temperature still suitable? Chamberlain."

"Very good, Mr. Xue." Chamberlain answered, with water oozing from under the towel, "Thank you, Mr. Xue."

"Chamberlain, look, even if we live under the bridge, we still have hot water." Xue Dingbang checked carefully to make sure that he didn't flush the water on Chamberlain's face, "You are not dirty, Chamberlain. Look, wash it Wash and clean again."

"Mr. Xue, this is not really 'under the bridge'." Chamberlain said, his tone sad and desperate, "In Las Vegas, there are more than 1000 people living in the real sense of 'under the bridge' ’, not just joking, they live in sewers and under bridges for only three dollars a day. If I have any hope, I can live there and live the rest of my life.”

"I don't know what happened to you, Chamberlain." Xue Dingbang sighed, and looked at his body with pity, "I'm not accusing you of making a wrong choice, it's just that things are not so bad that they can't be cured. At this point, there is still the possibility of saving, isn't it?"

Chamberlain's thin body was trembling on Xue Dingbang's knees.He tilted his head, his Adam's apple rolled up and down.As he breathed, the bruises and purple marks on his neck also moved.It seemed that these scars were part of his life.

Lingering, can not be removed.

"Since I was born, I have screwed up everything." Chamberlain's voice was a little choked, "I am not a local, Mr. Xue."

"Me neither." Xue Dingbang had already washed Chamberlain's hair, and he didn't remove the towel, nor did he move Chamberlain who was in a bad mood.He lowered his eyes and looked at Chamberlain's chest, which rose and fell violently with his breath.

"I grew up in California, and I was originally a decent middle-class family." Chamberlain reached out and pulled off the towel, his eyes were red and full of tears, "One day, my mother drove me home, and I tried to show her off. I made it for Mother’s Day in kindergarten. When she turned her head and praised me, a van came oncoming. In order to avoid the car, she spun the steering wheel desperately and drove the car into the river.”

"In order to save me, she broke the car window and pushed me out of the window. I was saved, but she could never wake up." Chamberlain grabbed Schrödingbang's hand, as if exhausting all his strength and courage, "That is My fault, I killed her! I don't have a mother, I killed her! After she died, my father started drinking, started sex, frequented casinos... I made him suffer like that. It was me wrong!"

Xue Dingbang looked at him silently, stopped to talk to him quietly, and gently wiped the tears that kept gushing from the corners of his eyes with his fingertips.

"We came to Las Vegas, and I went to study in a charity primary school." Chamberlain let go of Schrödingbang's hand and wiped the tears on his face with his arm, "The teacher is very good, she is a devout Christian. She reminds me of my mother."

"She said being gay was wrong, not normal, not good. Every school day of prayer, I prayed to God, I prayed to him devoutly - good God, don't, don't, don't put me Become a homosexual." At this point, Chamberlain crossed his arms to cover his face, "I don't want to go to that place full of fire and punishment, I will be a good boy..."

"No matter how much I prayed, my worst fears still happened." Even covered by his arms, Schrödingbang could still see tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes, "In sixth grade, I fell in love with a boy in my class .He was different from other people. He was gentle. He was nice to me and willing to talk to me. I'm sorry. I seduced him, sorry. It's all my fault, sorry."

"Mr. Xue - I'm gay."

The familiar scene made Xue Dingbang feel ripples in his heart.His heart clenched as if scalded by hot tears, he picked up the bruised Chamberlain, and rubbed him into his arms.

"I let everyone down, I'm gay, I'm sorry." Chamberlain hugged him back hard, crying like a helpless baby, "The boss is very disappointed in me, I'm sorry! I can't pay the ransom, I'm sorry! I'm sorry !sorry!"

Xue Dingbang hugged Chamberlain tightly, regardless of the water on his body, and made a mess of his clothes.Xue Dingbang hugged him quietly, listened to his crying and crying, and heard him tell his helplessness and despair, but he didn't let go of him, and didn't reject him.

"I don't want to go to that place full of fire..."

"Nobody likes me……"

"Everyone hates me..."

Xue Dingbang held his head with both hands and fixed it in front of his eyes.Staring at his tear-stained face with serious and sincere eyes: "Listen, Chamberlain! You are welcome!"

Chamberlain stared at him in a daze, with his mouth open as if he was crying, but he didn't continue to cry or sob.Time seemed to press the pause button for him, freezing him in place.

"I like you very much, Chamberlain. It has nothing to do with whether you are gay or not." Xue Dingbang said sincerely, "I have to say - you are very cute. You are cute in every sense. If I can have a friend like you, I will Will be very happy."

"Mr. Xue..." Chamberlain slowly closed his red and swollen eyes soaked in tears.He hugged Xue Dingbang's hand and lost his strength.The whole person fell into Xue Dingbang's arms.

Xue Dingbang appeased and patted him on the back, and the two hugged him like this for a long time until Chamberlain completely calmed down.At the moment of separation, staring at Chamberlain's face, an inexplicable impulse roared in his heart.

kiss him!

Even if it's just comfort.

kiss him!

Just like treating things you like.

Kiss his hurt lips, kiss his scars, kiss his tears, kiss his broken heart.

Xue Dingbang half closed his eyes, and slowly moved towards Chamberlain.

Carefully and gently ran over the injured lips, not as soft as Maeda Chris's mouth.The hard and prickly blood scab was scraped, and the tingling sensation was a bit subtle.Dry, rough...with a faint smell of blood, it brings a strong impact on the sense of smell.

Touching but for an instant, it seems like a long time.

Perhaps for Chamberlain, Xue Dingbang just touched lightly, but the meaning is not limited to that.After parting, Xue Dingbang pinched Chamberlain's shoulder and said softly, "Chamberlain, you are welcome."

"Mr. Xue..." When Chamberlain opened his hands and wanted to hug Xue Dingbang again, the phone in Xue Dingbang's pocket suddenly rang non-stop.

Xue Dingbang took half a step back, took out the phone in his pocket and looked - the dozen or so missed calls were all the same number.

It was the shared phone number that Chris Maeda called in the morning.

"I'll take a call." Xue Dingbang squeezed the phone and smiled apologetically, "Chamberlain, is it okay for you to take a shower by yourself? Don't worry, I won't go far, I'll be right outside the door, if you need me, you can call me .”

Chamberlain lowered his eyes, rubbed the cloth on his knees and did not speak.

When Xue Dingbang walked out, he just slightly closed the bathroom door.Chamberlain needed some private space to clean up his injured body, but Xue Dingbang was still a little uneasy.

With his back against the bathroom, Xue Dingbang connected the phone, and sure enough, Chris Maeda's crisp, sweet voice came from inside.

"Dingbangsang, where have you been? I've been waiting for you for a long time and didn't come, and I didn't answer your calls. I'm about to panic!

"

He spoke very fast, crackling and pouring beans.There is also a bit of coquettishness, a bit of sweetness and a bit of worry, which is indescribably pleasing.

"It doesn't matter to me..." There was the sound of water in the bathroom, Xue Dingbang turned his head and glanced, and quickly retracted his gaze, "Chris, I'm sorry. It happened suddenly, can you accept that I bought you a phone as an apology?"

Chris Maeda did not agree, nor did he disagree.Xue Dingbang listened to the small animal-like hum from his nasal cavity, and he could imagine his current appearance - frowning slightly, biting his soft and fresh lower lip, and tilting his head to think.

The same hum came from the bathroom.

Xue Dingbang glanced back, and Chamberlain was squatting on the ground with difficulty to clean his body.Every line of his body was trembling, sweat mixed with blood, slowly flowing on the skin.It seemed that there was not enough oxygen in the bathroom, or that Chamberlain was too weak and fell headlong into the bathtub.

"Sorry," Xue Dingbang said quickly, "Can I contact you later?"

"Dingbangsang! Don't hang up! Otherwise I will..."

Before Chris Maeda finished speaking, Xue Dingbang hung up the phone and rushed into the bathroom.

The author has something to say:

Yin Ren: No, you are not allowed to kiss him!

Maeda Chris: Yes, kiss me if you want to!

Xue Dingbang: You are not right.

Chamberlain said weakly: It's okay, Mr. Xue, I don't mind.