Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

Twinkle twinkle little stars, how I wonder where you are……

Xue Dingbang remembered the USB flash drive in his luggage.The video he recorded, the last song is also Little Star.As a souvenir for the [-]th anniversary of Yoon-in's law firm, each shareholder has a set.

Xue Dingbang likes that USB flash drive very much and always carries it with him.He also likes the engraved words on the bottom of the U disk made of precious metal.

before life

It originated from a short poem by Dickinson, a modern American poetess.

love, before life,

after death,

is the starting point of creation,

prototype of the world.

Xue Dingbang read this poem to Yin Ren.

At that time, it was winter.During the Christmas holiday, Xue Dingbang went to New York to visit Yin Ren.They read books together in the sun room of Yin Ren's residence, and the winter sun lazily filled the whole room.Everything is sparkling, too beautiful to be true.

When Xue Dingbang was reading poems for Yin Ren, he was nestled on the single sofa not far from him.

He listened to Xue Dingbang's ups and downs, and looked at Xue Dingbang's hand holding the book.Most of the time, his eyes still fell on Xue Dingbang's eyelashes.

That gaze was so hot, it was hard for Xue Dingbang not to feel it.

So, Xue Dingbang raised his head and looked back into Yin Ren's eyes.

Very rare, Yin Ren did not avoid this time. "It's a beautiful poem," he said.

Then, they fell silent.Just staring at each other like this.

Yin Ren seemed to be in a daze, not knowing what he was thinking.He rested his fingers on his chin and stared blankly at Xue Dingbang with a pair of affectionate peach blossom eyes.His tightly pursed thin lips shone seductively in the sun.It is as bright red as a cherry, and it is tempting to taste its sweetness.And that's not because he just drank coffee.

Xue Dingbang got up from his seat and sat on the armrest of the sofa. "Do you like this poem?"

"Yes, yes!" Yin Ren's ears turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye, "I, hi, I like it! I like it very much!"

Xue Dingbang lowered his eyelids and stared at him, but he only took one look, then avoided his eyes, stood up as if fleeing, and said he wanted to go to the bathroom.

It took a long time to go to the toilet.Xue Dingbang waited for him for half an hour before he returned to the sun room again.When he came back, he smelled like a man.It was a hormonal smell that was so strong that it could hardly be melted away, so it was not difficult to guess what Yin Ren had just done in the toilet.

Xue Dingbang just smiled and didn't expose him.Put aside the gay magazine he put on the sofa.

At that time, what if you just hug him like this and don't let him leave?Xue Dingbang couldn't help thinking now.But Yin Ren always has a specious attitude, which makes it impossible to understand his real thoughts.

More than once, Xue Dingbang wanted to ask Yin Ren.

Do you like those who are similar to me in college, or me?

Do you like those bed partners who I pretend not to know when I don't see them, or me?

Did you react to the model in the magazine, or me?

However, it was still difficult for Xue Dingbang to speak these jealous words.Every time, every time Xue Dingbang took half a step forward, Yin Ren immediately took two or three steps back, running away like a rabbit in fear.

Xue Dingbang thought he could wait, and he could tolerate everything Yin Ren did.As long as that man can become mature and stop avoiding, they may be able to spread everything out.

And now, it seems, in the long decade after decade of waiting.They've missed a lot.

After the little star's music was played, Yin Ren didn't answer the phone.

Xue Dingbang was a little unwilling, and dialed again.

This time, there was a human voice on the phone.

"Sorry, the subscriber you dialed is turned off."

A cold mechanical female voice came from the receiver. Xue Dingbang made more than a dozen calls in a row, but the voice that answered him remained the same.

Xue Dingbang lowered his eyes, the light in his eyes dissipated a lot.Could it be that Chris Maeda was right again?Yin Ren didn't care about me at all, so he didn't want to listen to my explanation.

In fact, he had already heard my explanation, but he still ignored me.

Why is this wishful thinking, thinking that I am important?

The footsteps interrupted Xue Dingbang's thoughts, Maeda Chris was pushed out of the room, looking very bad.His face was still pale, and his expressionless eyes were fixed on the ceiling.However, when he saw Xue Dingbang sitting on the bench waiting, his eyes lit up instantly.

"Dingbangsang!" Maeda Chris struggled to prop up his body, and stretched out his hands to Xue Dingbang, "Are you waiting for me?"

"I said I wouldn't leave." Xue Dingbang wanted to force a smile, but found that he couldn't do it, so he could only reply in the most calm and gentle voice he could, "You should have a good rest."

Maeda Chris looked like he was going to cry in the next second: "Are you still going?"

Xue Dingbang nodded silently. He walked slowly to Chris Maeda, and looked at the poor boy with pity: "Chris, this matter is very important to me."

"Dingbangsang, I know." Maeda Chris carefully pinched the corner of Xue Dingbang's clothes, and said pitifully, "Lawyer Yin is very, very important to you. The plane hasn't taken off yet, it doesn't take off until six o'clock! I'll go with you Okay? I will apologize to Lawyer Yin! I will explain everything to Lawyer Yin!"

The doctors and nurses wouldn't let them chat in the hallway for too long, and Chris Maeda was quickly wheeled back into the ward.In order to prevent him from struggling and falling off the bed again, Xue Dingbang followed.

"Heal your injury well, don't worry about other problems." Xue Dingbang held onto the railing of the bed, and said softly, "Chris, I want you to take care of yourself now, can you do it?"

"I can't do it, Dingbangsang!" Maeda Chris cried out again, grabbing Xue Dingbang's hand, "Don't worry about me, my injury is not serious. Dingbangsang, I am not I want to take his place in your heart. Because I will never be as good as Lawyer Yin! I just want to be with you and watch you, even for a second..."

Xue Dingbang frowned and criticized in a low voice: "If you really like me, you must learn to love yourself first. Even if a person is deeply in love, he should not be so humble."

"I'm sorry, Dingbangsang. It's my fault." Chris Maeda crossed his arms in front of his eyes, crying, "But I really, really don't want you to go to the airport alone, I might not even see you for the last time .”

"I'm not dead yet!" Xue Dingbang rubbed Chris Maeda's soft black hair, "When I'm in my seventies and eighties, lying on the bed and relying on instruments to maintain my life, you can tell me the last time you see me."

Chris Maeda laughed through his tears, wiped his face indiscriminately, and stared at Xue Dingbang with sparkling eyes: "Dingbangsang said that we may have..." He paused and searched his brains to find the right words, " Is there a chance to meet again?"

"Yes." Xue Dingbang replied softly, helping the medical staff put Chris Maeda on the bed, "There will be opportunities in the future, don't you still have my phone?" He habitually took out his pocket watch and stared at the hands that had stopped After looking at it for a while, I switched to my phone and checked the time, "It's past four o'clock, Chris. Take care of yourself, we can see you again."

The medical staff left in a hurry, leaving only Chris Maeda and Xue Dingbang in the room.

Maeda Chris bit his lip and began to sob, his thin shoulders trembled non-stop: "Please, please take me with you."

"Don't bite your lip, it will break." Xue Dingbang gently pulled out Chris Maeda's lip, "I'm really in a hurry, Chris."

"I can keep up, please don't leave me behind!" Chris Maeda grabbed Xue Dingbang's fingers and begged like a kitten about to be abandoned, "I won't waste your time too much! Now Yin The lawyer is getting angry, he won’t listen to what you say! Let me go with you! Dingbangsang!”

Xue Dingbang sighed: "What's the use of you going? How did you come back?"

Chris Maeda got out of bed enduring the pain of the wound, limped and supported Xue Dingbang to hold his arm: "I explained to Lawyer Yin that I did everything alone! That's a lie! I did it because I was jealous. A lie! Dingbangsang, please, please, let me go! Otherwise, I will have a bad conscience for the rest of my life! This is my once-in-a-lifetime request, please!"

Taking Maeda Chris to the airport will definitely not be the best choice.In Schrödingbang's rationality, he clearly knew that it was wrong and shouldn't be.

Sitting in a taxi on the way to the airport, the neon lights fly by outside the window.Like a glowing fish swimming in the deep sea, it swims past Xue Dingbang's face.Chris Maeda stared at him obsessively, twisting the hem of the hospital gown with his hands, his affectionate and fiery gaze never leaving Xue Dingbang for a moment.

"Chris, after arriving at the airport, can you take this car back?" Xue Dingbang put his hands on his cheeks, pressed his forehead against the window, and stared at the scenery outside the window, "You don't need to get out of the car, just take me to the airport."

Xue Dingbang is so indifferent and unfamiliar.That look was something Maeda Chris had never seen before he knew him.Chris Maeda, a self-proclaimed "expert in observing words and emotions", felt for the first time that Xue Dingbang had a deep mind and was elusive.

Chris Maeda even felt that the current Xue Dingbang was not Xue Dingbang.He didn't even look like a human being, but rather a plaster sculpture.

"Dingbangsang, then..." Maeda Chris didn't dare to touch the sculpture, so he could only pick the hole on his thigh aggrievedly, "Lawyer Yin, how do you explain it?"

"I've known Yin Ren for 30 years, Chris." Xue Dingbang didn't look back, his eyes seemed to be glued to the neon lights outside the window, "I know what he cares about the most. As long as I go back to New York with him, everything will be fine. I'll see him before he gets on the plane."

Maeda Chris blinked, his voice choked up: "Hateful! Why do I... feel that I was abandoned by Dingbangsang?"

"You never belonged to me, Chris." Xue Dingbang pointed out the fact almost cruelly, "I am deeply terrified of your wrong love, you deserve better."

Through the reflection of the car window, Xue Dingbang saw Maeda Chris wiping his face with the back of his hand. His flexible body leaned over and whispered into Xue Dingbang's ear: "Dingbangsang is the best."

The author has something to say:

Yin Ren: Is this guy a brown sugar?Can't get rid of it?

Chris Maeda: No, I'm Sweet Toffee!

Yin Ren: Hmph, Dingbang doesn't like sweets.Every time he gets toffee, he gives it to me!

Xue Dingbang: ...Actually, I like sweets.