Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

A group of children ran across the park, chatting and laughing.They walked home, said goodbye to each other, and said they wanted to go home.

Xue Dingbang sat on the bench, staring blankly at these departing children.He had a cigarette in his mouth, but didn't light it.

"Go home"?

so good.

Xue Dingbang felt that he had nowhere to go.

Once in Las Vegas, Yoon In said, "Let's go home."

Schrödingbang failed to return to his "home" in New York.It doesn't belong to him anymore, Yin Ren has a lover, there is no place for him, no place for him.Even the book he put there has no place.

Fiddled with the lighter many times, but Xue Dingbang didn't light the fire.He closed the lid, feeling irritated.Xue Dingbang is very familiar with the weight, luster, and even every grain of the lighter.

Xue Dingbang has used this lighter for nearly ten years, and it is the first time that he feels so uncomfortable.

Yin Ren didn't smoke before.

After coming to the United States, Yin Rencai learned to smoke after seeing Xue Dingbang smoking.

After moving into a mansion on the Upper East Side of Manhattan, New York, on the first Christmas Eve, the two visited the flea markets in New York.As long as Xue Dingbang likes it, Yin Ren will buy it without blinking an eye.During that time, they added a lot of things.

The vinyl record player is still in Yin Ren's study.

The humble lighter is now in Xue Dingbang's hand.

Schrödingbang likes to have some period things, such as pocket watches and lighters.Seemingly ordinary things, the connotations and stories inside, and even the traces on them all fascinated Schrödingbang.

1933 Zippo.

Xue Dingbang remembered that Yin Ren was wearing a windbreaker that day.The wind in the inland river blew up his clothes and knocked down the lighter on an old stall owner.Schrödingbang picked it up and was immediately attracted by the scratches caused over the years.

From Yin Ren's point of view, this lighter is too ugly and too simple.In the hand, it is but a piece of brass.

On the captain's peak, Xue Dingbang saw the STDuPontLigne2 used by Yin Ren.

The fashionable and beautiful lighter is inlaid with dazzling diamonds, just like Yin Ren's new boyfriend.Once you look at it, you can't look away.

In contrast, the 1933 Zippo is no frills, nothing fancy.No gems, no stunning designs, no precious metals, no wind protection.It can only be simple, and it is as old as hell.

Even if it was 1933, Zippo produced the first lighter.Even if it has gone through countless years and lost several masters.It is also just an old piece of goods that has lost its luster, and it looks so cramped in front of the new lighter.

Too plain, too old, too ugly.

Feelings are valuable to those who value them.

"Big Brother, aren't you going home?" A pair of little feet stopped under Xue Dingbang's eyelids, and its owner's voice was very sweet and childlike.

Xue Dingbang raised his head and saw a chubby little boy.

"I have nowhere to go." Xue Dingbang said.

There was no one to talk to either.

Loneliness suddenly hit him, where else could he go home?

Home in China?The trouble was so unpleasant at the beginning, it was almost like running away from home.

At home in America?Yin Ren is not waiting for him, and there are new people around him.

Home in Japan?In that rental house, no one would rush over and call him sweetly.

"Oh." The little boy nodded, pretending to understand, "Then where are we going to have dinner? Who will we be with?"

"What about you?" Xue Dingbang asked him.

The little boy thought for a while and said, "For me, I want to eat with my parents! Eating with my family will make the food delicious!"

Xue Dingbang suddenly remembered the appearance of Chris Maeda eating.No matter what food it is, he eats it with gusto.He held his cheeks happily and said it looked delicious.

It’s like—no matter what fate serves, you can enjoy every bite.

Xue Dingbang stood up and walked towards the exit of the park.

The little boy ran a few steps behind him: "Huh? Big brother is leaving?"

Xue Dingbang squatted down with a smile, and touched his head: "Suddenly I have a place I want to go, someone I want to have dinner with. You should go home quickly. The people you love, your family, are waiting you."

Chris, please, wait for me.

I'm here to pick you up.

"No!" Chris Maeda shivered suddenly and got up from the table.He's just tired of crying and dozed off on the table in Culb's dressing room.When I got up now, the sweat had dried out, only the circle around my neck was wet.Clothes that were sticky and smelled of sweat made me feel a little uncomfortable.

Chris Maeda's screams attracted people, and a man with the same stature as Chris Maeda poked his head in and said, "If it doesn't work, you should go back first."

"Brother Kagura..." Maeda Chris twitched the corners of his mouth, wanting to show a sweet smile as before.But he pulled the wound on his face, grinning in pain.

Kagura couldn't bear to see Chris Maeda's distorted facial features at all, and handed him a towel: "Go back. You can't go out like this. It will be very troublesome for guests to see it."

Chris Maeda nodded, pressed the ice towel against his swollen cheeks, and remained silent.

Xue Dingbang's blow not only hit him on the face, but also hit him in the heart.Sure enough, in Xue Dingbang's heart, he was not that important.

Or maybe I'm just being convenient?

Mingming, I like you so much, why can't you forget Yin Ren and Chamberlain?I love you so much that I can do whatever it takes for you, I can give up everything for you, I can risk my life for you, and I can make up for laughing at strangers for you... Why can't you just love me?

Those were wrong, of course I knew.

But I am willing to make mistakes for you.

Just please, only see me alone.

The more Chris Maeda thought about it, the more sad he became, and the more he thought about it, the more wronged he became.Tears couldn't help streaming down again.

"Chris." A cold hand rested on Chris Maeda's shoulder.

He looked back and saw that it was the store manager.

"If you want to be a host and do a good job in this line of work, it will be difficult to have a normal relationship."

Chris Maeda lowered his eyes and smiled miserably: "That's right!"

"Wash your face and go back first." The store manager said, "Come back to the store after the injury on your face is healed."

Chris Maeda raised his head and wanted to say something, but Kagura robbed him and said, "Go back quickly before the business starts! When the guests come later, if you see your pretty little face, it's swollen like a If it’s like a pig’s head, then it’s not good.”

"Understood." Chris Maeda turned pale, took out his mobile phone and dialed a familiar number, "Lu Ren. I want to go to Karuizawa with you, is that okay?"

When Xue Dingbang came to HostCulb Yuehua, the neon lights had already started to shine.He trotted down the stairs along the entrance, but was smashed down by a man wearing black-rimmed glasses at the door.

"Sorry, I'm Yuehua's store manager Jiuye Kazuma." He looked Xue Dingbang up and down, his eyes were not so friendly, "It's not open yet, sir. Can you come in later?"

Xue Dingbang stopped politely, with a neutral attitude: "I'm here to find someone."

"I've seen you." Jiuye Hezhen faked a professional smile, making people very uncomfortable, "Are you Chris'... friend?"

Xue Dingbang nodded: "I want to see Chris now, where is he?"

"For Chris, it's not in the store." Jiuye Hezhen smiled so politely, "If your face is swollen like that, you can't work, right? Why don't you go and look elsewhere?"

Chris has been here.Xue Dingbang thought.Perhaps, he is still here.

"Where did he go?" Xue Dingbang asked.

The fake smiles on Jiuye and Zhen's faces did not decrease at all: "If you are lovers, you should know better where he will go?"

Out of the corner of Xue Dingbang's eyes, he saw a familiar figure flashing past the corner.From the back, it looks a bit like Maeda Chris, but with golden hair.He wanted to chase after him, but Jiuye Hezhen politely stopped him.

Xue Dingbang stopped politely, and asked softly: "Can I go in and have a look?"

Jiuye Hezhen nodded and smiled, his attitude was extremely respectful, but also very tough: "No way."

It seems that Chris Maeda has been to the store and has not left.Jiuye Hezhen's attitude showed that Chris Maeda doesn't want to see Xue Dingbang now.

Xue Dingbang, who was blocked, didn't show much concern.He maintained his standard gentlemanly behavior, said "excuse me" and turned his head to the back door of the store.There, as expected, a high-end black car was parked.A figure similar in stature to Chris Maeda walked towards the car.

Xue Dingbang was startled, and walked quickly towards the vehicle.

The figure turned his head, and it was Maeda Chris!He wore heavy makeup and had palm prints on his face.Amber eyes, very much like the appearance of seducing Schrödingbang with colored contact lenses in Yosemite National Park.There was dry blood on the corner of his cracked mouth.Hang on the chin.His melancholy and sad expression is very lovable.

Zhongshan Luren stretched out his hand and plucked Chris Maeda's blond hair, revealing the dark cloud-like hair hidden under the crude chemical fiber wig.

"It's still cuter like this." Zhongshan Luren said, his thumb gently stroked the corner of Maeda Chris's lips, "The color of your lipstick is so beautiful, it suits you very well."

Maeda Chris pursed his lips tightly and said nothing.The top of his lips seemed to be covered with a layer of honey.His drooping eyelashes couldn't help trembling slightly, and his injured appearance made one wish to rub him into his arms and love him deeply.

Luren Zhongshan did the same. He hugged Chris Maeda and stuffed his thin body into the car.

The car started slowly, Xue Dingbang walked quickly, ran to the window and called him: "Chris!"

Maeda Chris was lifeless like a puppet that had lost its life.He didn't hear Xue Dingbang's words, nor did he have any reaction to Xue Dingbang's appearance.He seemed to have been emptied of body and soul, and there was no light in his empty eyes.

Zhongshan Luren showed a triumphant smile to Xue Dingbang, hugged Chris Maeda's shoulders, and rolled up the car window: "Then, goodbye!"