Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

The familiar scene made Xue Dingbang break out in a cold sweat.

"Chris!" Xue Dingbang rushed forward desperately and slapped the window glass, "What did you do to him?! Chris! Wake up! What's wrong with you? Chris?! Chris!!!"

Maeda Chris is like an unconscious doll, his empty eyes staring at nothingness in front of him.There was no reaction to Schrödingbang's voice at all.Just sitting upright like that, and slowly leaving with the car.

Yin Ren was like this back then, sitting in the car, ignoring him, and leaving him.

The separation at that time caused the current situation.The break between Xue Dingbang and Yin Ren began in Las Vegas.

Now, is history repeating itself again?

Xue Dingbang looked sadly at the car leaving in the dust.He immediately called Chris Maeda, but was hung up cruelly.Unwilling to fail, Xue Dingbang called again, only to get a reminder that the other party had an empty number.

It seems that he was blacklisted.

Maeda Chris is very clingy. They have been bound to the positioning and tracing software, and the two can use GPS to locate each other's location.Xue Dingbang opened the software and found that Chris Maeda had turned off GPS positioning.

Could it be that you have gone home?

Holding unrealistic fantasies, Xue Dingbang ran home quickly.

"Chris!" Xue Dingbang pushed open the door and shouted into the room, "I'm back!"

No Maeda Chris threw himself into his arms and called "Dingbangsang" sweetly.No warm welcome kiss, no happy smile from Maeda Chris, no sweet smell from him.

The room was the same as it was before they left.It was deserted, and there was no sign of the other person.

Really, left?

Xue Dingbang tightened his palms and almost twisted the doorknob.

Xue Dingbang slowly closed his eyes, Yin Ren's distorted face swayed in front of his eyes.

"Schrödingbang, don't go back to New York!"

That's right, the break with Yin Ren also started when Yin Ren blocked his phone.It started when he couldn't contact Yin Ren, and when he found that there were other men's clothes in Yin Ren's closet.

Full of hope, went to Yosemite National Park.

What he saw was that Yin Ren hugged another man and kissed him passionately.Even in the place where the two have watched the sunrise together for more than ten years, Yin Ren never let go of their new love.

Captain Feng is still the same Captain Feng, but Xue Dingbang does not have Yin Ren.

Under the captain's peak, Yin Ren's roar at Xue Dingbang still echoed in his ears: "Xue Dingbang, are you human?!"

Kabukicho is still the same Kabukicho, but Xue Dingbang does not have Maeda Chris.

In the quiet room, no lights were turned on.Chris Maeda's voice, as if traveling through time, came from under the stairs: "I don't love you anymore!"

Xue Dingbang raised his head, in the empty, dark room, there was only one person breathing.

Why is it so dark?

so cold……

so lonely...

The lights of Kabukicho come on, and the neon lights flicker with an ambiguous light.In the ocean of emotion and desire, Schrödingbang floats in it like a drowning person.He visited several taverns, bought another bottle of Komachi, and drank it as he walked.

"Brother Ren...Chris..."

Why are you all leaving?

Xue Dingbang held his forehead, only feeling a splitting headache.He was so weak that he could barely hold the wine in his hand.

The lights of Kabukicho dazzled Xue Dingbang's eyes.He took out his mobile phone and suddenly couldn't think of who to call?

For so many years, Xue Dingbang has always maintained his positive, sunny, trouble-free image, strong enough to resist everything alone.In the eyes of others, he is perfect and omnipotent.Even in front of Chris Maeda, Xue Dingbang can act like he has a body of steel and can solve all problems for Chris Maeda.

In front of Chamberlain... he is simply a savior.

How could the Savior be troubled?

It is only possible for others to ask him for help when they have difficulties and troubles.

In this life, Xue Dingbang has never asked others for help.It is his credo in life not to ask for help in everything.Even if he is only five or six years old, his parents both go to work, and the work is so busy that he can't worry about him, so he doesn't ask for help.No one cooks for me, so I set up a small bench and make a bowl of noodles for myself.

When he first came to the United States, Schrödingbang, who was only 14 years old, was full of loneliness and fear.The senior didn't pay attention to his inner world, so she gave him a bunch of keys and let him handle things by himself.

When the senior sister asked Xue Dingbang: "Are you okay?"

Xue Dingbang could only answer: "No problem."

God knows how a 14-year-old boy, thin and small, studies and lives like a grown-up college student.

Schrödingbang was always strong and fearless.In dealing with feelings, he is even more calm and restrained to an almost ruthless level.

Even facing Yin Ren, Xue Dingbang was calm and restrained.Waiting and watching is the most and worst thing he has ever done.

No problem, I can fix everything.

Several young girls, dressed as tourists.Chirping and laughing, taking pictures with their mobile phones.

take pictures?I have been here, have I been here?Xue Dingbang also took out his mobile phone, and casually took a picture of the sky above the streets of Kabukicho.He uploaded the photo to his INS.

Then, childishly, he typed a few words—Night in Kabukicho!

Under the grotesque lights, there is an intoxicating Kabukicho.Unpredictable colors, as if someone is shaking the camera crazily.The devil took a red-hot iron rod, inserted it viciously from the most vulnerable part of the heart, and messed with every corner wantonly with a shrill smile.

Xue Dingbang slid his finger upwards, the last photo was at the end of May this year.

So, has it been that long?

It was a warm, bright picture.

It was taken before Schrödingbang left for America.The sunshine of May shines on Xue Dingbang's shoulders through the new green leaves.Xue Dingbang also provided words for the pictures.

Sunshine

That day was the day when Xue Dingbang decided to confess his love to Yin Ren.

He thought he would start a new life.

He thought he could speak.

He thought Yin Ren would wait for him.

He thought Maeda Chris would always like him that way.

Now that I think about it, it's just self-righteous.

Xue Dingbang felt a sharp pain in his chest, raised his hand and drank a few sips of wine to suppress the feeling.

Xue Dingbang ran around like a headless chicken, and searched many places, but there was no trace of Maeda Chris.

Xue Dingbang stumbled forward, all the lights around him looked like Christmas trees shining in the night sky.Xue Dingbang remembered the Christmas of that year, when Yin Ren and him just moved in.At that time, he obviously suppressed Yin Ren, why didn't he be bolder and kiss her directly?

Now, no matter how much he maintains the perfect appearance of "Schrödingbang", his world has also collapsed.

He was no longer the Xue Dingbang who was perfect in everything and was able to handle everything with ease.

He gave up his home in China and chose to go to New York and go to Yin Ren's side, but in exchange Yin Ren broke with himself.

Like an abandoned dog, he followed Chris Maeda to Japan.Trying to find the feeling of being needed and recognized from Maeda Chris.It seemed that he was truly alive.

He took advantage of Maeda Chris's liking for him, hoping to get along with Maeda Chris to forget Yin Ren.Forget those things that have never been forgotten day and night.

However, now Maeda Chris also abandoned him like Yin Ren.

Don't answer the phone, don't be needed.

Xue Dingbang's consciousness became more and more confused, and there were more and more Christmas trees in front of him.

Chris Maeda is right, Xue Dingbang has never been fair to him.

Now that Maeda Chris has been accepted, it's really unfair to think about Yin Ren who should stay away.

Xue Dingbang leaned against the wall, slipped slowly, and fell to the ground.Hair that was always neatly combed is now a mess.The bangs are too long, covering the eyes, and everything around is a little blurred.

The strength of the body was exhausted, and Xue Dingbang fell to the ground.

Compared with those drunks on the streets of Japan, there is no difference.

Before losing consciousness, Xue Dingbang smiled self-deprecatingly.

It turns out that everyone has a time when they are abandoned by fate?

In a trance, Xue Dingbang seemed to have a dream.

In the dream, there was a shadow similar to Yin Ren, beside him.

Yin Ren's fiery breath in the dark and warm environment.

Good, everything is fine.

Yin Ren had never experienced such enthusiasm, his hands caressed Xue Dingbang's body.

Yin Ren's palm is so real, every time the palm touches the skin, it brings an indescribable tremor.

Xue Dingbang struggled to open his eyes, trying to see Yin Ren in front of him clearly.

Eyelids are heavy, really heavy.

In the nose, the scent of the ocean has turned into a pungent smell of cheap perfume and slightly sour sweat.

It was very dark around, and the light was so dim that Xue Dingbang could only see the outline of the person on him.

"Hmm... I can't see clearly..." Xue Dingbang grabbed his shoulder and spoke with an unbelievable hoarseness.

No, it can't be.

In front of Yin Ren, Xue Dingbang always wanted to maintain a perfect image.He is a gentleman, elegant, calm, well-groomed, clean and tidy.No matter how urgent it was, he shouldn't be in this kind of place with Yin Ren.

Dark, cramped, with stinking trash cans around.There was only a piece of cardboard under him, and there was a cold and hard wall behind him.

Shouldn't be here.

And what about Xue Dingbang himself?The strong smell of alcohol disgusted him to death.Messy hair, dirty clothes, wine stains on shirts.

It shouldn't be this embarrassing.

"Don't be here..." Xue Dingbang said, pushing away Yin Ren who was approaching him. "I want to take a bath..."

In the darkness, Yin Ren's laughter sounded a bit strange: "Wake up so fast, where do you want to go? There is a love hotel nearby, do you have any money?"

Xue Dingbang shuddered, his muddy head regained some clarity.

This voice is definitely not Yin Ren's, nor can it be Yin Ren's!

The stimulated Xue Dingbang suddenly came to his senses, he shook his head, most of the drunkenness disappeared in an instant!

The man in front of Xue Dingbang is not Yin Ren in the dream, nor the Maeda Chris who has gone and returned!

Not even anyone Schrödingern had ever met and known before!

He is a complete, complete stranger!