Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

The footsteps were getting closer, Xue Dingbang took half a step back and looked at the door.

The door he was familiar with became his last bastion at this moment.Xue Dingbang used to like to stay in the study, because here he can not think about other things.If he wants to play the piano, he can play the piano, and if he wants to do math problems, he can do math problems.His favorite poetry collection is here, his favorite math book is here, and his favorite piano is here.

These things have nothing to do with Yin Ren.

They belong to Schrödingbang himself, they are a part of him.He will not be disturbed by other things here, nor will he be distracted by the traces of Yin Ren everywhere.

"Chestnut." Mom gently knocked on the door, her voice was gentle and unquestionable, "Open the door."

She didn't even try to open the door.

"I'm not feeling well." Xue Dingbang pressed his forehead against the door, acting like a child to his mother, "Maybe it's... a cold."

"Then it will be cured." Mom said, "Open the door, your medicine is calling."

There is also a landline in the study, which is connected to the one in the living room.Even if Xue Dingbang doesn't open the door, he can still answer the phone.

Mom was right, he had to open the door, he had to come out, the only way he could face all this.

Xue Dingbang wiped his face and looked at the mirror in the study for a long time.Now, the years have not eroded his face too much, he still looks young, and there are no fine lines at the corners of his eyes.He hadn't looked at himself like this for a long time, and he even felt that he might already be an old man.

Gray-haired and old.

The truth is, Schrödingbang is not what he imagined.He's young enough and strong enough to face everything.

Xue Dingbang sat on the sofa in the living room, picked up the microphone, and heard the sound of breathing coming from inside.

Both light and shallow.

He was familiar with this sound, which belonged to Yin Ren's breathing.

Xue Dingbang didn't speak, he didn't know what he was waiting for.

Is it the trial of the past 30 years, or the end of the past 30 years?

Yin Ren's voice was a little hoarse, which was different from what he remembered: "...Dingbang, I'm getting married."

"Well, I know." Xue Dingbang tried his best to be calm, "When is the wedding?"

Yin Ren said: "...April 4st."

what?

Is this just a joke?

Xue Dingbang suddenly raised a fire of hope in his heart-Yin Ren will not get married, he called, it was just an April Fool's joke!Maybe, Yin Ren will come back, come back to him?

Yin Ren loves to tease people like this!

Come on, tell me it's just a joke!

Xue Dingbang couldn't help chuckling out of the thoughts in his head: "April Fool's Day?"

Yin Ren was silent for a moment, then said, "...that is Xiao Yu's birthday."

The smile froze on Xue Dingbang's face, he was silent for a moment, and opened his mouth.He swallowed the words that were about to blurt out, and the only thing he could say was: "...It's very good, very memorable."

Yin Ren fell silent, maybe because he was angry?

Obviously such a sacred marriage, Yin Ren wanted to be serious for the first time in 34 years.Where is his best "brother" Schrödingbang?But longing for his serious business, just a joke?

I'm such a bad guy, selfish and whimsical.Xue Dingbang thought.

Xue Dingbang was silent for a moment, he didn't want to just hang up the phone.He could only find something to say, and asked, "Where is the wedding?"

"In America." Yin Ren replied.

A wry smile appeared on Xue Dingbang's face, where else could it be?

Yin Ren will not come back again!

They can never go back!

"Well," Schrödingbang's chest was burning with pain, but he said it lightly as if nothing happened, "it should indeed be in the United States."

Yin Ren changed the subject, and his tone became much more relaxed: "My parents will come to the United States at the end of the month, and when the time comes, please invite our parents to come with us."

The monstrous waves were churning in Xue Dingbang's heart, but his face was calm like an ancient well: "Well, they will go."

There was silence and stalemate between them.Perhaps in the past 30 years, they have said everything they wanted to say in several lifetimes.Xue Dingbang didn't want to hang up the phone, nor did he hang up.

Let me do this and listen to you a little longer.

The breathing of each other seems to be beside us.Through the telephone line, across thousands of rivers and mountains, rivers and oceans, sent to each other's ears.

Let me be like this, have you for a while longer.

Yin Ren broke this silence, and also broke Xue Dingbang's last fantasy.He opened his mouth, which means that the topic will end: "Lizi, I'm sorry."

sorry……

How many words are melted into these three words.

Xue Dingbang slowly closed his eyes, and covered the microphone to prevent Yin Ren from hearing his gasp.

It took almost all of his strength to calm down and comfort Yin Ren, "Don't think too much."

On the other side of the ocean, Yin Ren's voice was distorted through the phone line: "Lizi, thank you."

Now Yin Ren sounds stranger than ever.

"Well," Xue Dingbang's eyes were dim, and he needed to keep blinking to make his vision clearer, "If there is nothing else, I'll hang up first."

"You," Yin Ren asked after a pause, "are you busy recently?"

"...I don't know," Xue Dingbang resisted, "Maybe, he will be very busy?"

No, I'm actually not busy at all!

I can make time anytime just to chat with you!

What Xue Dingbang wanted to say was so inappropriate.

He couldn't tell Yin Ren like that.

He couldn't speak.

"Okay, please be busy, please be busy." On the other end of the phone, Yin Ren smiled, "That's how it is, goodbye... huh?"

"Well, goodbye." Xue Dingbang said.

Sorry, thank you, goodbye.

Is this the only thing we can say between us?

The road of life has come to this point, are there only these three words between us?

You obviously said goodbye, why didn't you hang up?

After clearly saying goodbye, why not make a clean break? !

"Yin Ren," Xue Dingbang bit his lower lip, and with great determination, said the words that hurt his heart the most, "Congratulations."

Xue Dingbang hung up the phone, got up and fled back to his world.He sat back at the piano and played the same piece over and over again.

twinkle Twinkle Little Star

The sky is full of little stars

In the old days, it was like sitting by the piano bench and playing the same piece of music with him.Sometimes their fingers touch each other, and then they look at each other and smile.

Together, they passed through the beautiful spring, brilliant summer, rich autumn, and warm winter night...

Then, came to a wasteland.

Xue Dingbang looked around, but there was no one around.

At some point, he was dropped.The vast wilderness, no matter which direction you look from, you can't see the end.The scorching sun made Xue Dingbang's eyes dim, steaming every drop of moisture in his body.

He stood on the cracked ground with a tiny figure.

The scorching wind blew up a burst of sand and dust, and the heat wave distorted the surrounding scenery.

The prairie fire came from afar, and it was about to burn everything into ashes.

He squatted down and found a pothos, living tenaciously in a barren land.

He picked up the pot of green radish and hugged it tightly in his arms.

Finally, I felt a bit of coolness.

"It's already twelve o'clock." A glass of water was placed on the keys, and an unknown note was played.

Xue Dingbang raised his head and saw that his mother rarely showed any worry.

He drank the glass of water, which was just the right temperature.

"Mom, why don't you go to bed?" Xue Dingbang put on a smile that was as warm as the water, and it was just right, "I'll rest after reading a few books."

"Naughty called in the morning." Mom took the water glass, and the sailor put it aside.She sat on the piano bench by herself, tapped the keys lightly, "Lizi, Mom has something to tell you."

Xue Dingbang smiled: "Can we talk about it after lunch?"

"You want lunch at twelve midnight?" Mom sighed, got up and went out, "I'll cook a bowl of noodles for you."

After 10 minutes, Xue Dingbang lowered his head, avoiding the eyes from his mother, and just licked the noodles.

"Lizi, do you still remember when you were 14 years old?" Mom spoke first, her unhurried voice made Xue Dingbang's whole body tense, "Do you want to stay in China to study in university?"

The noodles in his mouth suddenly lost his appetite.Xue Dingbang put down his chopsticks, his voice could almost be regarded as begging for mercy: "Mom, stop talking."

"I turned down those schools for you," Mom said, "not because I thought MIT was the best choice for you."

"Mom?" Xue Dingbang was a little flustered, "MIT is pretty good, thank you for sending me to study, I..."

"No, don't interrupt me." Mother waved her hand and continued, "I can see that my daughter already liked you very much at that time. You came back from his house that day, and your face was red. You were only 14 years old at that time." ! Know what?"

Xue Dingbang was so embarrassed that he almost wanted to get under the covers and hide.His fair cheeks were stained with an abnormal blush, and under his mother's sharp eyes that could penetrate his heart, he seemed to have nowhere to hide all his thoughts.

"No, no." Xue Dingbang took a sip of the noodle soup, "It's not what you think. It's just the weather, it's too hot."

"Dingbang, don't lie." Mom looked at him seriously, every syllable said with sincerity, "I'm not against you. It's just that you were really too young at that time. Flowers sprouted prematurely and would only wither and wither. I I send you away in the hope that you can become rational and strong, and then face the multiple-choice questions in your life."

Xue Dingbang lowered his eyes and said softly, "Are you rational? It would be great if you didn't have so much rationality."

"Dingbang, do you hate mom?" Mom grabbed his hand and gently rubbed his joints, just like she did every time he said his hands hurt, "seeing you in such pain... Sad. Did I do something wrong?"

"It was me who was wrong." Xue Dingbang held her hand instead, "Mom, Yin Ren invited you to his wedding."

"Yin Ren wants you to participate." Mom saw through Xue Dingbang at a glance, "He called because he wanted you to go. Lizi, you have been in love for 30 years, and when he gets married, the person he wants to see the most is you."

"... He didn't say anything." Xue Dingbang opened his mouth and remained silent for a long time, "He didn't invite me."

The shadow swayed on Xue Dingbang's face, and he stared at his mother with almost pleading eyes.

Xue Dingbang was praying that she would not continue this topic.

Mom blinked and looked at Xue Dingbang with many things in her eyes.